OMNISCIENT
As Kiyana woke up, her head felt as if it was being crushed by the titanic. She felt so lousy and drained. Next to her laid Jameel, laying on his back with his arm over his head. He slept peacefully and quiet, like a baby.
"How cute" she thought.
She sighed, laying her head back before her heart began to race. Ki looked under the covers, realizing she was lying there in only a bra. "Where are my clothes" she thought to herself. As she sat up, pulling the covers off of them and onto her, Meel started to move, turning onto his stomach.
She made her way to the bathroom, quietly panicking. Did she have sex with him? Was she no longer a virgin? She liked being a virgin because she felt like it made her pure. She wasn't knocking anyone that IS and WAS fucking, it just wasn't something that fazed her.. or she thought until she met Meel. He makes her body tingle in all the right places, she just wants to throw her coochie at him sometimes. She couldn't help but smile at the thought of him having her.. wanting her and only her.
The door opening pulled her out of her thoughts. Jameel walked in, yawning. He then grabbed her and kissed her cheek and neck, handling her as he did last night. Carefully and Cautiously.
"Goodmorning" he spoke. "Hey.." she replied. Kiyana started analyzing her face and neck in the mirror, then the top of her boobs. She couldn't fathom the amount of hickeys she consisted.
"What's wrong?" Jameel asked her, going to the sink and putting toothpaste on his toothbrush. Kiyana sighed and opened her mouth, letting her thoughts come out. "I dont wanna be another girl you just fuck and dip on Meel.." "Ki what are you talking about? you should know, just based on our history and shit, you special to me. I could never do you like that. That's part of the reason ian wanna fuck last night.. we were both heavily intoxicated and I wanted our first time to be special so all I did was eat yo pussy."
Ki paused and looked at him with an confused expression. "So we didn't have sexual intercourse?"
"No.." Jameel said before laughing and starting to brush his teeth. "Why would you think that? yo pussy don't even hurt for you to know we had sex" he mumbled before spitting. "What are you indicating?" Ki asked him, starting the shower with the sheets still wrapped around her.
"All i'm saying is, sex with me is amazing.. plus you're a virgin so it'd hurt anyways."
"Tuh.." she scoffed. "Sex probably feels the same with everyone. I'm sure the ONLY reason why it would hurt is because I'm new at it."
"Yea igh.. fuck around and find out."
"Yea igh" she mimicked him.
JAMEEL DEONDRE ANDES | 5IVE; MEEL
ATL, GA📍
"Im not going in there..." i told Ki. I don't know why girls always tryna drag they dudes into Victoria Secret knowing damn well we don't wanna go in there. Its jus weird.
"Pleaseeeee?" she begged. She got up close, looking up at with those wide ass eyes of hers. Had a lil sparkle in 'em.
"Pick me out something to wear for you" she started rubbing my neck and shit like I wont fuck her eyes outta they sockets.
Cant maniplipussy me.
I sighed and rolled my eyes in my head as she pulled me in there. I looked around and they had some sexy shit ngl. Finna play dress up wit her ass.
"You like these?" she asked me, picking up some white laced underwear with satin material. I smiled at her then looked at them. Taking them out her hands, I put 'em back and grabbed the black ones instead. "Yea I like these."
After picking out some sets and shit, I paid for em and then we went to a couple other lil stores.
By the time we were heading out, I had spent almost 2k clothes, accessories, and shoes for us both and Ki was mad cranky tammat how she wanted her coochie ate like last night.
"Ain that.. lil khyyyy" I dragged, grabbing her hand and walking up to Khylan. He had some lil shorty wit him too.
"YOOOO" Khylan yelled, dapping me up all smiley and shit. He hugged Ki but she had this look on her face while looking at the girl her brother was with.
"Wassup with yall? Dropping bands on my lil sister I see, you tryna pimp her out or sum?" he laughed.
"Mannn you know me, gotta treat yo kin how you would gang" I replied.
"Awe you must be Kiyana! I've heard so much about youu" the girl said, hugging Ki. She definitely had a look on her face now.
"Oh.. yeah?" Ki said back. She sounded weird and shit.. I've never seen her like that before.
"Kiyana Jameel, Riah. Riah, Kiyana Jameel" Khylan said.
"Its coo to meet you lil folks" I said, nodding at her. "You the one that been keeping luh Khy from us huh?" i joked, trying to break the awkwardness between the four of us.
She started rambling on about things I wasn't listening to because I was focused on Ki. She had a whole new vibe to her. Her body language was weird and she'd looked as if she just lost her best friend.
"That's wassup.. that's wassup" I said, grabbing Ki by her waist. "Say, let me get some food in her belly and shit, ima hit you twin."
After dapping Khy up and we went our separate ways. Ki was quiet the whole way to the crib, she ain even want nun to eat.
"Ki.." I called out, getting no response. She stared out the window with her fists clenched and a little pout on her face. Her legs started to shake too.
"Kiyana!" I said a lil louder. "What bro?" she responded. "Wassup witchu? you ain said a word to me since we seen Khy nem... you ain want nun to eat, yo whole demeanor just off. Wassup? talk to me."
"Im good."
"Ian ask, talk to me."
She had a hesitant look on her face. You could tell she doesn't express herself often. "It's been me and my brother since the day I was born. I've never went long periods without talking to him so.. i don't know. I just didn't expect him to pop up with a female.." She expressed as she teared up.
"That's my brother bro.. my best friend.. it feels like I've lost him. I mean, he didn't even bother to text me. It's been 3 days. He always texts me Meel! Every day! He knows I worry, he knows how I get, he always just lets me know he's ok.." she expressed.
"I get that mama, trust me I do. My little sister? That's my whole heart, however, she understands that I've met someone new that I'm happy with, just like you have to understand. Khy's a big boy, he can handle himself. That not talking to you shit ain coo because I know how you get about yo kin but he's a grown ass man Ki. You gotta let him be grown" I said, trying to comfort her. She just stayed silent.
When my little sister stays silent when people talk to her, it's because she don't wanna hear that shit. Truth is, I don't exactly know how to comfort her because everyone feels things differently and everyone wants to feel heard, loved, and felt differently.
Me personally, if I'm mad, just shut the fuck up talking to me. If I'm sad, jus sit with me and be there. If I'm nervous or overwhelmed, reassure me.. ion get like that though.. pussy.
I reached down to my left and let my seat back. Ki was clearly still in her head but its cool, we gon' fix it somehow.
"Cmere" i told her. She looked over at me and climbed onto my lap, looking down at me. I reached into my glove department and pulled out my weed tray that had my wraps, weed bag, and started to roll up as she bobbed her head to the music.
The goal is to get her calm enough and hungry enough to eat cause' she ain ate since this morning.
"Here, don't over do it" I told her, handing her the blunt for first pull. She started coughing the first time, maybe my shit too strong for her. "Wait hold on.." she told me. She pulled a second time perfectly, then a third, then a fourth. She started smiling, going for a fifth time but I took it from her.
"Yo, i said don't over do it." "Whatever.." she replied, leaning down and laying on my chest. I pulled a couple times and rubbed her back and butt as we chilled and vibed to the music playing on the radio.
"What you wanna eat gangsta?" I asked her. "Maybe some tacos.. or just mexican food in general. It's my favorite." She told me, rubbing on my neck. That shit just do sum to me, but i'a let it slide, for the sake of the situation. "Igh, go get in yo seat and put yo seatbelt on."
"Yea okay, father" she joked. I side eyed her before laughing a lil. "That shit was lame as fuck Ki." "You laughing though?? Just say I'm funny." "Hell nah" I replied, pulling off.
I just feel like as a nigga, yo girl can be the funniest person in the world.. but you can't let her know that lol. She gon start thinking she funnier than you and drag it.
Khy
Today 4:56PM
Yo lemme holla at chu
Wasgood? You str8?
Yea, but Ki not. Ion know what you got
goin but she upset and that may not affect you as much but it's affecting me cause that's my girl. I gotta make sure she str8 at all times. That's yo lil sister, yo only sibling. Why the fuck you ain talking to her? She worried bout yo ass twin.
Damn ian know it was that bad,
i just got caught up with shawty ass. Ian
think it's get that bad to the point she got yo
ass mad about it. She str8?
Nah foe, I mean she right here im finally
getting her to eat but still that shit was eating
at her. You the most important person to her in the world, that shit foul luh Khy.
You right mf, i'a talk to her.
Yea igh, not rn though, we finna eat and vibe.
Text her in the morning.
Okay, dad.
🤣🤣🤣
Manee watchaht 😂😂 yall lame asf.
Ki jus said that shit when i told her to sit
down and put her seatbelt on.
Like brother like sister lmao
But on some real shit, i appreciate
you fa looking out fa my lil kin, I
owe you one.
Nah you good broskii, i genuinely enjoy her company and shit. She cool as fuck.
"Who got you over there smiling and shit?" i heard, making me look over at Ki who was mugging me with sour cream on the side of her mouth. We had just got birria tacos from this li place down the street from the house.
"Khy, nosy. We talking bout you" i told her before biting into my taco. "Mm.. talking about me fa what?" she wiped her mouth while looking me in the eyes.
Her eyes were low as fuck, she looked so fuckin sexy. "Just telling him how much i genuinely like you and enjoy your company and whole existence."
She started smiling and blushing, trying to hide it. "I see that lil smile mama, don't hide that pretty shit."
Honestly, I really did love being with Ki. I've never just spent that day with any girl like this before. Granted, when I met Janae, she tried doing shit like going out and trying to make public appearances, but I just wasn't feeling her like that.. plus i knew she was a bop.
Niggas came to me, telling me shit about her and all. Her vibe just boppy.
"I really enjoy your company too Meel" she told me in a soft tone. "Oh fr?" I said, reaching over and stealing some of her jalapeños out the cup then drinking her drink.
She gave me a blank stare before rolling her eyes. "No, you're actually aggy as fuck, take me home."
Damn-
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I sighed as sunk into the bath water I ran for myself . I was alone and at peace.. it was quiet.
Yes, I was still at Meel's crib but he was in the living playing the game online with Khy, Guapo & B lou. Normally everyone's here, but B lou was at britt's house. He'd been there for a couple of days. Guapo was wherever he lives and Im sure my brother was with that girl.
It's just me, myself, and these bubbles. I took the time to reflect on my life and the last couple of days.
Being with Jameel has been fun and eventful and full of so much experience, but I have a life I have to get back to. I can't just sit around and play girlfriend.. hell, we're not even together.
I have to get back to figuring out college, work, and my future. I have so many things I've been distracted from. I haven't even spoken to my mom let alone been home in a minute.
Shit.
"Ma.." i heard a voice with a knock on the door to follow it. I knew he missed me and that I wouldn't be alone for long.
"Yes?" I said back loud enough for him go hear me. "Whatchu doing in there? I'm bored. You drowning? yo pussy don't stink for you to be in there so long" he replied.
"Boy- I just got in here" I snapped before silently laughing.
oh em gee😭.
"Well.. you need to just get out, I'm coming in" he said before jiggling the doorknob. Luckily, it was locked. "I'm having me time" i said, rolling my eyes.
"Mm.. this wont work."
"What-?"
It grew silent. Too silent. I just went back to my bath and thoughts, leaning my head back.
Not too long after, i heard the door jiggling again before hearing it unlock and open. "No.." i said, quietly.
"Yes."
He came in and looked at me. He looked at me as if he was analyzing my body language and face. Or he was just checking me out.
"I want some you time" he told me, coming to the tub and sitting on the side. He leaned down and kissed my lips then on my neck a little. I couldn't help but smile at his affectionate ways.
"You been with me all day, you not tired of me?" I questioned him, reaching up and rubbing his face. "Nah.. i could never be tired of you."
It grew quiet as his words went into my ears, ran through my brain and dove into my heart. "Mmm.." i said, closing my eyes.
"Wassup though? what's on your mind right now?" he asked me with a concerned look on his face.
Communication is key Kiyana.
"I just feel like I'm sitting around doing nothing. I feel like im just playing girlfriend and trying to distract myself when in reality, I got a lot of shit on my plate. No job, no source of income, and college.. ugh" i expressed to him. He reached down and put his hand on my thigh, not taking his eyes away from mine. He's such a good listener.
"It's just so much.. I don't wanna be a disappointment" I went on.
"Well one, we can easily find you something to do because i know you're a busybody and you're independent. Finding a job for you wont be a problem you know money aint a problem.. you with me" he told me.
"I know but.."
"Aint no buts. You're not a failure or disappointment Kiyana. You're special and amazing as fuck. Who're you disappointing?"
"Myself.. my mom.. Khy.." i said. I started to look away from him as a heavy, overwhelming pain occurred in my chest. "Ki.."
"Hm?" i sniffed.
"I understand it's stressful but you got this. Ion want you to stress about it, igh? It's late and i think we're both just pretty tired. How about we get some rest, wake up and eat good, then tomorrow we can look into money income and other stuff that's bothering you. You wanna do that?"
I just nodded and stood up. He got up and looked down at me. His frame was much bigger than mine. He lifted my chin and looked at me. "Ion want you to be sad mama."
He pecked my lips over and over and over again, slowly. The overwhelming emotions began to go away and happiness replaced it. I was grateful I had Jameel. He's the only thing keeping me sane.
"Okay i wont be.. if you wash me up and get me ready for bed" i added. He picked his game controller up off the floor and set it on the counter, then came and grabbed my loofah.
"I gotchu mama."
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