On our way back to the hotel Tom had to break news to me.
"Lilly." He said.
I turn around and face him.
"Come to the last concert with us today." He smiles.
"Last?" I question.
"There's news that goes along with it so just be patient with me okay? You'll sit in the back of the concert so you get back stage view." He smiles again and hugs me. This hug feels extremely meaningful.
I just nod my head. I'm excited but anxious, what could be so important that the whole band has to tell me? I can't tell if it's bad or good, but I'm hoping good.
———
"Is there a certain song you want us to play at the concert today?" Bill asks me as I watch them set up in the studio.
"Hm. I'd have to think on it." I say.
"Why don't I give you a sneak peak on the new album coming out?" Bill suggests, setting up his microphone.
"You're lying. Are you really gonna show me?" I get excited and give Bill a huge hug.
He hugs me back and tells me to go sit in the front so I can watch them perform it, the album is called Humanoid. It had such a cool name.
The beat starts for the first song he's showing me.
Automatic,
Automatic,
You're automatic and your hearts like an engine,
I die with every beat,
You're automatic and your voice is electric,
Why do I still believe?
It's automatic
Every word in your letter,
A lie that makes me bleed,
It's automatic when you say things get better,
But they never
There's no real love in you
(Automatic - Tokio Hotel)
He continues to sing the song and Gustav is going absolutely insane on the drum, Georg is really getting into the base and Tom is smiling at me while he plays the guitar.
He's so cute. He always look at me like some of the lyrics are for me. I'm cheering for them as the song continues. This song is amazing, I can't believe that once I was just a girl working at a café, but now I'm in the studio with my favorite band listening to their unreleased album.
The song finishes and Bill ask me what I think of it and I jump on him making him hold me. "That was amazing guys! I really mean it!" I say yelling out of pure excitement, I let go of Bill and give Tom a kiss as his guitar is in between our torsos.
"You can't kiss me like that in the studio Lils." Tom jokingly pushes me away.
"Ew guys." Gustav pretends to gag.
"Oh shut up you were gagging like that when you got shit faced last night." Tom spits.
"Both of you shut up, Lilly can we play the album for you? Then you can choose which one we play to the crowd!" Bill claps his hands excitedly and smiles.
He's so cute. I love him too.
They continue to play the entire Humanoid album for me and I'm completely amazed. My top three favorites had to have been Pain of love, Love & Death and Darkside of the Sun.
I loved all of them but out of my top three, those were definitely my favorites.
"So which one should we play as a sneak peek for our fans?" Bill asks.
"Hm." I say, knowing which one I'm gonna choose.
After they practiced in the studio and told them which song they should play, we went out to dinner. Of course we had paparazzi up our ass the entire time but they were used to it, I just didn't know they were gonna basically blind me.
"So when's the concert?" I ask, breaking silence.
"It's an about an hour... oh shit we gotta go!" Bill pays the bill and we all run to the van to go to the stage.
All of us were excited, Bill was nervous but he had always gotten anxious for going on stage no matter what. Tom was confident because he knew I'd be watching, Gustav didn't really care because he was usually in the back part of the stage, and Georg was ready to get it over with, he was tired.
We arrived to the stage, and they weren't letting people in but people were absolutely feral when they all came out of the van, it got worse when I also came out of the van. I thought I was gonna get jumped, but luckily I didn't.
"Who is that"
"That must be the girlfriend"
"Or the whore"
"Oh my god Bill I love you!"
The fans screamed just about everything you could think of, people even had signs up asking to be Toms groupie. It was the most amusing thing knowing that I was the only one getting him.
We made it to the stage and none of it was set up, I helped the band set up their equipment and made sure everything was plugged in, the people who controlled the lights and everything on the stage checked to make sure everything worked last minute, then I was sent backstage in a special spot to watch the band play.
Fans came in like a wildfire. Screaming, crying, reaching their hands out for all of them when they haven't even talked yet. It got worse when Bill spoke.
"How's everyone been tonight?" Bill spoke to the crowd.
Then the crowd got absolutely wild, screaming louder than ever.
I didn't know how long the concert would be, but I was too focused on the band playing to even care. Nobody from home had checked up on me so I continued to live life to the fullest with them.
———
"Alright guys, We all love and appreciate all of you for coming out tonight. But before we wrap this concert up, I would like to sing one song from the new album coming out." Bill spoke once again, making the crowd get absolutely wild.
Then the song started that I chose.
The pain of love
Won't break us up.
We don't need your salvation,
We our own creation
The pain of love lives in our hearts,
It's deeper than the ocean
The pain of love waits in the dark
We take it in slow motion.
And we go on
(Pain of Love - Tokio Hotel)
When the lyrics said, "The pain of love, won't break us up" Tom circled around the stage playing the guitar to look me directly in the eyes at that part, it was the most intensely intimate moment I have ever experienced with someone's eyes before. If only I could kiss him right now.
———
They finally ended the concert, signing autographs and giving out hugs and high fives leaving some fans crying out of pure happiness. It made me realize how much of an impact this band had on people. They make people so happy, even me.
They all came backstage and I got into a huge group hug with all of them.
"You guys were amazing! That was the best concert I've been too you guys killed it out there!" I couldn't stop hyping them up.
They all smiled but then it dropped.
"What's wrong?" I ask them.
"The news isn't good Lilly." Bill explains.
I wait for them to explain.
"This is the end of our tour, we have to go home." Bill says again and puts his hand on my shoulder.
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Author Note: I think it's obvious but this is based on like 2009-2010 Tom so the Humanoid album was just being released so don't freak out on me.