Yeji: we will start with the dance practice now.
JM: I have a song we can use.
Ryujin: let's hear it.
JM: okay.
"I play the song."
"As these judging eyes surround me
And silence tearing me apart
Only seeing to the surface
They refuse to see my heart
In this mould that they have made me
Tried so hard to fit in tight
Every day's a punishment
For being human, but the wrong kind
All their heavy words I carry
Try to grind them down to dust
But the pile's getting so deep
Pretty soon it's gonna bury us
I see two paths that sit before me
The decision's mine to make
Do I wear the mask and follow
Or pay the price of being brave?
These wounds aren't healing
And I am scared to death
That I'll look into the mirror
And believe the things they've said
No, I wasn't ready for the shame so heavy, maybe they will never understand
Can't keep facing this fire, I'm so damn tired
Of being who I am.
No need to say that I'm immoral
No need to tell me I'm a freak
Don't waste your breath, you made that more than clear
In the way you looked at me
The only choices that you give me
Two different ways I can be killed
Hate my life for being fake
Or hate myself for being real
These wounds aren't healing
And I am scared to death
That I'll look into the mirror
And believe the things they've said
No, I wasn't ready for the shame so heavy, maybe they will never understand
Can't keep facing this fire, I'm so damn tired
Of being who I am.
Every day I wanna die, but nobody helps
'Cause they're too busy praying, I'll be someone else
Every day is full of pain that they have never felt
But they're too busy praying, I'll be someone else.
These wounds aren't healing
And I am scared to death
That I'll look into the mirror
And believe the things they've said
No, I wasn't ready for the shame so heavy, maybe they will never understand
Can't keep facing this fire, I'm so damn tired
Of being who I am."
Chaeryeong: JM are you sure about this one? This kinda hits emotionally hard.
JM: never been more sure. I think it's time for the world to know what I feel. Because it has been treating me like I don't matter.
Ryujin: looking at the lyrics, this can be danced with more than 3 members. So the 3 of us will join you if you decide to use this one during one of your battles.
Yeji: let's go dance to it then.
"We practice a dance made from scratch for 3 hours."
Chaeryeong: is this what you have in mind?
JM: was thinking of using it too but if they would allow it then yes.
Yeji: any other songs you have in mind?
JM: I think Ryujin and both of you will like this.
"I play booty music by Deep Side."