Luke’s P.O.V
I had just got out of the shower and I was looking around Vanessa’s bathroom for a facecloth I was opening and closing all the cupboards and looking trough draws I came across a box about A4 size I seen a facecloth poking out of it. “Finally!” I mumbled. I pulled at the facecloth that I could see and to my surprise it had dried up blood on it, I grabbed the box and opened it carefully and it contained exactly what I was thinking of there were a few blades and a couple of bandaids I felt sick to my stomach thinking of Vanessa cutting her perfect skin with these blades I heard footsteps and then someone enter the room, I quickly cleaned up the box and put my clothes on and got out of the bathroom Vanessa was sitting cross-legged on her bed doing something on her phone. “Hey!” I say and sit down beside her. “Hi!” She said not looking up. “What you doing?” I ask. “Turning of twitter notifications.” She say’s and then puts her phone back on her bedside table. “Nessa?” I asked. “Yes?” She said looking at me her eyes were red and puffy, it looked like she ad been crying. “I found your box!” I blurted out. “Oh!” She said looking down at her fingers. “Come here!” I say and pull her onto my lap and held her tight. “Thank you Luke.” She say’s. “Why are you thanking me?” I asked. “I was so close to cutting before but then you knocked on the door and your voice just prevented me from going any further.” She say’s. “Oh! Well I’m glad, I may not have the most experience in this department but I’ll try help is best I can, because I love you so much and I never want you to hurt yourself like that ever again.” “Thank you Luke!” She say’s. “What made you want to?” I ask. “Your fans they seen my scars on my legs from the twitcam and were being horrible about it and it just got to me.” She said. “Don’t listen to them, they have no idea what they’re talking about.” I say, I grab my phone off the bedside table and open my twitter app. “What you doing?” She asked. “Going on twitter.” I say. “Don’t get mad at them it was only a small amount of them.” She say’s. “I won’t.” I say. I type a new tweet saying: ‘I love Vanessa and anything you do or say will never change that!’ And: ‘If you actually took time to get to know her you’d know how amazing she really is!!’ And: ‘Thank you to the nice fans that are being so good about our relationship <3 I love you.’ And then I exit out of the app. “You’re cute, aren’t ya!” Vanessa say’s, giving me a short but sweet kiss on the lips. “I love you Nessa!” I say kissing her nose. “I love you too Luke!” She say’s and then breaks out of my hold and climbs under the blankets, I follow her action and hop under the covers to. “Nessa, pass me you arm?” I say. “Luke, I can’t just take my arm off?” She say’s confused, so instead of that approach I just grab her wrist carefully and move the bracelets over a wee bit and place my lips to her healing scars and do the same to her other wrist. “I love you and all your scars.” I say. I noticed her eyes were shinny was she crying? She quickly wiped her eyes. “Luke, you’re the best!” She say’s and kisses me passionately on the lips I feel tears drop from her eyes onto my cheeks. “Why are you crying?” I ask. “I’m happy!” She say’s, and rests into her pillow. “I’m cold!” I lie, just so she comes and snuggles with me and that’s exactly what she does and then we both fall asleep.
Vanessa’s P.O.V
I woke up to I think it was Luke’s phone going crazy on the bedside table I think it was the fifth time it had rung and Luke had slept right through it, I carefully reached over his sleeping body and grabbed his phone I didn’t check the caller ID I just answered. “Hello, Luke’s phone.” I say into the phone quietly trying not to wake up Luke. “Hey! It’s Cal is that you Nessa?” Calum said into the phone. “Hey Cal, yeah!” I say. “Sorry did I wake you?” He said. “Of course not, wide awake.” I joke. “Opps! Sorry, is Luke awake or?” “He’s still sleeping.” “Darn! Well could you remind him band practise and meeting today at 3:00.” “Of course! Where is it?” I ask. “My house.” “Okay! I can do that, I’ll tell him when he wake up.” I say. “Sweet! Thank you Nessa.” He say’s and hangs up. There was no point in trying to get back to sleep so I crawl out of bed and have a quick shower, when I get out Luke is still fast asleep so I run downstairs in time to see Jake writing a note. “Where ya heading?” I ask, coming up behind him. I must have given him a fright because he jumped a little. “Morning! I’m going to Dan’s to practise for soccer trials because there coming up soon.” He say’s. “Wicked! But I’m very offended that you don’t want to practise with me.” I say, I don’t like to brag but I’m a wee bit of a soccer star. “I’ll practise with you tonight, I need all the practise I can get and I thought you’d be busy with Luke or someone anyway.” “I’m never to busy for you Jake!” I say. “Okay! Well tonight then we’ll go down to the park and kick a ball around.” “Sounds like a plan!” I say. “Have a good day! I’ll see you around like 4:00” He say’s while walking to the door. “Okay! Bye, have fun!” I say. “Bye!” He yells and then the door shuts. I decide to make some breakfast but it was way to quiet for my liking so I tiptoed into my room and grabbed my phone and dock and plugged it in, down in the kitchen and made my pancakes to the beautiful sound of Ed Sheeran. “I said maybe I fell in love, when you woke me up..” I sung the last line of Wake Me Up by Mr Edward Sheeran. “I love it when you sing!” Luke’s sleepy voice said behind me and then his arms wrapped around my waist. “I love your morning voice.” I say giggling a little. “I love your laugh!” He say’s. “I love your eyes!” I say. “I love your smile!” He say’s. “I love you everything!” I say. “I can’t really beat that!” He say’s kissing my cheek. “Morning!” He mumbled. “Morning! You have a meeting and practise at 3:00! Calum rung.” I say. “Thank you for reminding me.” He say’s and grabs a pancake off the plate of cooked ones and eats it. “These are good!” He say’s with his mouth full. “You’re a pig!” I say hitting him with my tea towel. “You love me!” He say’s poking his tongue out. “You’ll be lucky!” I joke. He places his hand on his chest where your heart is. “That hit me right in the heart.” He jokes. I just giggle and turn back to my frying pan and cook the last of my pancake mix Luke sat down on one of the stools and flips through the newspaper sitting on the bench. “We’re in the newspaper!!!” He yells. “Local band 5 seconds of summer set to tour Australia with band Hot Chelle Rae.” He say‘s reading out the tittle. I walked over and passed him his plate on pancakes and sat down beside him, there was a big picture of them and some facts and stuff about them and tour date info and where to get tickets. “Look at you mister famous.” I joke pointing at his picture. “This is so cool!” He say’s, reading the rest of the article out loud and eating his pancakes at the same time. “Thanks babe!” He say’s and puts his plate into the sink, he looked up at the clock. “Well I better get going for this band thing!” He say’s and gives me a hug. “I’ll text you later!” He say’s, he quickly runs up stairs and gets his stuff. “I love you, bye!” He yells. “Love you too, bye!” I yell back and then I here the door shut.
“What to do now?” I think out loud. I decide to clean up the dishes first and after that I ask myself the question again but my thoughts were interrupted with the sound of my phone ringing I picked it up off the dock and pressed answer. “Hello!” I say. “Hey! What’s up? I haven’t seen you in ages, how are you?” Tesh’s voice said through the phone. “It has been awhile! Are you busy? I’m pretty good actually.” “That’s great! I was just about to ask you the same question! I have absolutely nothing to do because band practise stole my boyfriend and everyone else seems to be busy.” “I’m not! Want to hang out, I feel like a frozen coke! Keen?” I ask. “Of course I am! Meet you at McDonalds in 10.?” She say’s. “For sure! See you in a bit!” I say and hang up. I take my dock back up to my room and put in on my desk, grab a bag and but my wallet in it, open my curtains, put my glasses over my eyes and fix my hair then grab my red high top’s and put my phone in my bag and run down stairs and grab my key’s off the hook and get in my car locking the front door behind me. I quickly send a text to Jake saying.
Me: ‘Gone out with Tesh! If you get home before me, text me (: xx’
Jake: ‘Okay! Have fun :D x’
And then I reverse out of my driveway and drive to McDonalds. I get there and park the car just in time to see Tesh walking in through the entrance. I lock my car and run up to catch her. “Hey!” I say and pull her into a hug, it’s been so long. “Heyyyyyy! I haven’t seen you in so long.” She say’s hugging back. “I know, what have you been doing?” I ask, while walking through the door. “Honestly, nothing but studying to be honest.” She say’s. “Understandable, thank you for all the study help by the way!” I say. “No problem. Have you been on twitter lately?” She asks as we line up for our frozen cokes. “Yes! Don’t worry I seen all the hate.” I say. “Don’t listen to them, they’ll find anything to pick on you.” She say’s. “I know! They’re actually quite horrible.” I say. “I know! But Michael’s always so sweet about it.” “Aw, cuties!” “I bet Luke is too though, he has such a big heart that boy.” “Yes, he is! I’m so lucky to have him.” “You deserve it Nessa and you’re both perfect for each other.” She say’s. “Aw! So are you and Clifford.” I say, she laughed at my nickname for him. “I need a cool nickname!” She say’s. “Hmmmmm, I’ll work on it.” I say. We make it to the counter finally and I let Tesh order first, “What can I get you?” The chirpy blonde girl said from behind the counter. “A large frozen coke please.” Tesh say’s. “Sure thing! That‘s $4.00.” She say’s, Tesh passes over the money and move over to the side. “What can I get you?” She asked again just as chirpy. “A large frozen coke please?” I say. “Sure! That’s $4:00” She say’s I pass her the money and move over to where Tesh was. “Frozen cokes?” A guy say’s holding to frozen cokes. “That’s us!” Tesh say’s and the guy passes us the frozen cokes. “Have a nice day!” He say’s. “You too!” I say smiling and we walk over to a empty table. “How’s Jess? I haven’t seen her in awhile.” I ask. “She thinks you hate her so she’s been keeping her distance!” Tesh say’s. “What? Why would I hate her?” I ask. “I have no idea! I asked her if she wanted to hand out wit us today and she said that you hate her so I just left it!” Tesh explains. “Oh! I’ll call her tonight.” I say. “Good idea! How’s Stacey doing? Michael said that her and Cal broke up the other night?” “Yeah they did! She’s alright I think I haven’t spoken to her today.” I say. “I talked to her last night after she got off the phone to you and said something about Hannah giving her chocolates.” Tesh said. “Yeah! Stacey was blaming Hannah and it was all a mess but Hannah apologized and I think they’re good now.” I say. “Why would she blame Hannah?” “Calum has a crush on her and Hannah has one back.” “Oh! I guess they’d be cute.” Tesh say’s. “Calum said he’s taking a break! And Hannah said she doesn’t want to cause anymore drama.” “Oh! But they’d still be cute.” Tesh say’s. “I guess! How’s Clifford?” I ask. “Good, good! At band practise but you already knew that! Oh, are you coming on tour?” I had completely forgotten. “Yes! Text me tonight to talk to Jake about that, keep forgetting.” I say. “It’s going to be so fun, I haven’t been to most of the places we’ll be visiting and Cher Lloyd is so amazing and I’m really excited.” Tesh say’s. “So am I! I love Cher so much and Hot Chelle Rae! And the boy’s and I can’t wait.” I say excitedly. “Going to be the best ever but I feel bad fro leaving Stacey and Hannah back here alone.” “I never thought of that!” I say. “We’ll be able to skype them though!” Tesh suggests. “Yes of course! And it’s only about a week and a half!” I say trying to convince myself that I wasn’t a bad person for leaving my best friend her alone when I’m the one that made her move her in the first place. “Why don’t we just ask if they can come?” Tesh suggests. “I don’t think they’ll be allowed because there’s you, me and Jess already and like plane tickets and accommodation and stuff.” I say. “Oh yeah! They’re big girls they’ll be fine, let’s change the subject.” Tesh say’s. “Good idea! Can we go shopping while the boy’s are touring?” I ask. “I thought shopping wasn’t your thing?” “It’s growing on me.” I say, which made Tesh laugh. “Well of course we can.” “Yay! This will be so fun.” I say. “Hey Tesh, when are one direction next in the country?” I ask. “Not till September 2013. Why?” She say’s. “That’s ages away! I wanted to go to one of there concerts when do tickets go on sale?” I ask. “You at a One Direction concert, really? There all sold out.” “Oh darn! Yeah, they’re growing on me. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME.?” I whisper shout. “The girl curse I think.” Tesh jokes. I just crack up laughing and so does Tesh, we carry on talking for another hour and end up writing a list of things we need for the tour and keep telling each other funny stories and laughing way to loud and getting funny looks. I was about to tell Tesh about this funny you tube video I watched the other day when a girl walked over to our table. “Hi!” She said nervously. “Hey!” I say. “Um, are you Vanessa and Tesh?” She asks. “Yep!” Tesh say’s. “I’m Rachael! I’m a 5SOS fan and I was wondering if you could give this to the boy’s! I seen you both sitting here and wrote them a letter it would mean so much if you could give it to them but I understand if you don’t want too!” The girl Rachael said she looked around 15 and was short and cute, she passed me the paper and smiled widely. “Of course we can sweetie!” I say. “Thank you so much!!” She say’s jumping around a little. “Oh and Vanessa, don’t let them stupid haters get you done you’re brilliant and I defiantly ship Lunessa!” She say’s and walks back to her table. “That was cute!” Tesh said. “What the fuck is Lunessa?” I ask. “Luke plus Vanessa! Daaaaah.” Tesh say’s. “Ohh! That’s cute.” I say. “Do you know what shipping is?” “I do have a tumblr, of course I do!” I say. “Thank god! Wasn’t going to explain that one.” She say’s. I fold the letter up and put it in my bag. “Should we go and see the boy’s and give it to them together?” Tesh suggests. “Text one of them first to make sure they’re not busy.” I say. “Alright!” Tesh say’s and pulls out her phone and taps away for a bit. While we wait for a response we carry on with our stories and keep on laughing about heaps of random shit. “Hey Babe! We’re all done we’re at Calum’s! You two can come over.” Tesh say’s reading the text she had been sent. “Let’s go then!” I say picking up my bag and rubbish and putting it in the bin, Tesh does the same and we walk to my car and drive to Calum’s.
We knock on the door and Mali, Calum’s older sister answered I’d never properly meet her but I’ve heard heaps about her. “Hey girls! You must be Vanessa.” She say’s. “The one and only!” I say smiling at her. “It’s great to finally meet you, Luke never shuts up about you! It’s very cute, come in.” She say’s and opens the door a bit more, we walk in and follow her into the house. “Boy’s!!!!” She yelled up the stairs. “Whaaaaaat?” Four voices coursed. “Just go up, obviously to lazy to move! Nice meeting you Vanessa, great seeing you again Tesh!” Mali said and walked into the kitchen, Tesh and I walked up the stairs, you could easily tell which room was Calum’s, because of the four voices yelling and screaming at each other and the sound of loud sound effects from a game I guess. “Hey!” I say, opening the door all four sets of eyes turn up to us but then quickly turned back to the TV Calum and Luke were playing multiplayer zombies on Black Ops 2. “Well, this should be fun!” I say taking a seat on Calum’s bed, Tesh sat down beside me and said “Boy’s are weird.” That made me laugh a bit and she laughed to we started being noisy and started snooping around Calum’s room we didn’t find much just clothes, books, school stuff, band stuff, rubbish and more rubbish. “It would have been a lot more exciting if we found condoms.” Tesh said laughing. “I would never let him live that one down!” I say sitting back down on his bed. “Why are you talking about condoms?” Michael asked his eyes still glued to the TV. “No reason!” I say. “I got more kills than you!!” Calum yelled. “Don’t worry Luke, you’re a winner in my eyes.” I joked, He made a heart with his hands and pointed at me he was fucking adorable. “Before you start a new game, a fan gave us a letter and she was really nice so read it!” I say passing it to Ashton. “Read it out loud, I’m to lazy to read.” Michael suggested. “Okay!” Ashton said.
“Hey boy’s I’m Rachael! Firstly, thank you to Vanessa and Tesh for giving you this you boy’s really know how to pick them they’re both gorgeous and so nice and they laugh really loud and Ash Jess is fab too and Cal never give up your princess is out there! Okay, anyway! I wanted to say thank you, you may not notice but you save life’s! You saved mine, I was about ready to end it all but then I stumbled across you boy’s on you tube and I immediately fell in love! You always knew how to make me smile even though you were never really just talking to me it always felt like you were, you really are the best guy’s ever and have the biggest hearts in the world and are so talented and words really can’t describe how much you mean to me you mean so much to me you saved me from committing suicide I was so close I had a date set and everything but just listening to your bogan Australian accents pushed me that little bit further and your beautiful lyrics and just your utter amazingness! You make me feel worthy of breathing to some people that comes so easy but for me I’m just so insecure but you boy’s are helping me! I’ve meet you once at a M&G in Sydney and I videoed the whole thing and I watch it every night, you probably don’t remember but I burst into tears because Ash you called be beautiful and then Luke you said you loved me and wow that was just a special moment and I couldn’t help but cry! I’ve made so many new friends through sharing the same love for the same band and I actually meet my now best friend thanks to you guy’s so thank you for that! You’ll never understand how much I love you boy’s and how much you helped me I can hardly understand it myself but thank you so much. Luke, thank you for being an awkward little cutie and starting 5SOS without you I’d probably be dead so thank you so much! I love you, don’t hurt Vanessa she’s really nice and pretty and great and I really like her so don’t break her heart! Calum, thank you for being so darn cute and caring and being the first boy to follow me you have no idea how much I cried! I love you. Ashton, thank you for being the coolest drummer and most childish 18 year-old ever to live! I love you. Michael, thank you for always keeping us posted on your McDonald’s experience (I’m in McDonalds right now, jealous?) and always staying up late and making me laugh. I love you! Thank you 5SOS for never failing to make me smile and laugh and bring joy to my mood, I love you and I owe you so much. I don’t know if you even read this far but I wanted you all to know that thanks to you I’m 47 day’s clean, thank you so much for everything. Love Rachel!!” Ashton read.
I couldn’t help but tear up a little at what she had written. “What does she mean by clean is she a drug addict?” Michael asks. “She means she’s 47 day’s clean of cutting.” I say, wiping my eyes. “Oh, that would make a lot more sense! Did she leave her twitter I want to DM her?” Michael asks. “Um.. Yep, @Blueberry81496” Ashton say’s. Everyone was quite taken back by what Rachael had written and I was rather shocked she looked like your average bubbly teenage girl it’s truly amazing what a smile can hide. I pulled out my phone and typed in @Blueberry81496 into the search bar her last tweet was ‘I just gave Vanessa and Tesh a letter to give to the boy’s! What if they judge me? Or think I’m a freak..? ):’ I tapped reply and sent ‘We gave it to them! Stay strong, you’re doing so well! We’re all so proud of you! <3’ I scrolled down a bit and read through her other recent tweets a lot of them were about me and her standing up for me and being lovely. I quickly tweeted: ‘New favourite person is @Blueberry81496 <3’ And exited out of my twitter app, everyone else was tapping away on there phones so I tapped back into my app and scrolled around for a bit. Tweets from the boy’s poped up ‘@Luke5SOS: @Blueberry81496 I love you sweetie, so proud of you keep going <3’ And ‘@Calum5SOS: @Blueberry81496 Maybe you’re my princess! (; Stay strong cutie, love you <3 xx’ And ‘@Michael5SOS: I love you @Blueberry81496 <3’ And ‘@Ashton5SOS: @Blueberry81496 I love you cutie! Thank you for being such a great fan <3 Stay strong. :D xx’ These boy’s are flipping adorable.
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Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey <3
How are we all? Being home with a broken ankle is know fun but sleeping is quite nice and so is not having to go to school :D I often get really caught up in this story and keep writing my name instead of ‘Vanessa’ so if you see that let me know :P Rachael is a real human being, btw! But the whole letter is made up known of that ever happened all my Imagination! Thanks Rachael for letting me use your name, that’s her real twitter though so follow her maybe? :D Update again soooooon! Thank you for readddddiinnng <3 xoxoxoxooxoxox
Love You’s <3
-Courtney :D