HAERIN
Van. Afternoon.
I still talk and play with Kyunwong. But I noticed something. These past few days, he's not so energetic like usual. Earlier, he burst out crying on my lap and I comforted him. He said that her mother died in a car accident. And he only have an abusive father. I suddenly remembered Hanni. He's experiencing the thing he shouldn't. I got sad for him so I we ate in a fast food chain, took a walk and bought him things he wants. We played and I am happy seeing him happy. He was home right now and I hope he's doing fine. At least.... I made him happy...
To Danielle, I'm ready. I'm ready to tell her what I really feel. Would she say she loves me too? Or.... she still love Hyein? I will not gonna expect some things too much. Tonight, I will confess to her. I.... just hope this will work good.
I really love her. I can't unlove her.
MINJI
Office. Afternoon.
No, I won't give up Hanni to Hyein that fast. I should..... fight for her. In the name of love.
"If she really loves Hyein. Then, I give up."
"Just give her a time to think about it, okay?"
"Thanks. But I still don't believe at love."
"Damn it Lady Kim. When will you gonna believe it? You're in love right now."
"I will just gonna believe at it when I finally got her."
"Sure. I'll wait for it."
I stared at my phone wallpaper and sighed.
I can do this. She...... might be the right one. And, I don't wanna lose her anymore.
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HANNI
University. Evening.
"I'm gonna go now Hyein! See you tomorrow!!"
I waved my hand to her and she did the same.
"Byee!! Saranghaee!!!"
I smiled and shouted back.
"Nado saranghae!!!"
I entered the van and she did the same in her van.
I closed the sliding door and looked at Haerin happily.
Van. Evening.
"So, how's first day?"
"Nice!!! I met LOTS of friends!"
"I see."
"Why do you look worried and sad? Is everything okay? I mean, no. Seems not, can we head to Minji's building? I want to see her, and Danielle."
"Yeah sure."
"So what happened? You can tell me everything Hae."
"It's no—"
"I don't believe at that. Hae, I'm your friend too.... please tell me."
"Sigh. There's.... this boy. I met at the playground. Remember the boy I was talking to?"
"Yeah?? What's with him??"
"He's..... abused. By his father. His mom, his mom died in a car accident."
"Oh...."
I suddenly felt sad for the boy. I don't like that situation for everybody. I know the pain, I know how painful it is.
"T-that's.... traumatizing you know... how is he right now?? Is he doing fine?? What if we-we send him to the orphanage??"
"That's a good idea. But what about his father? He will be hurt not with his son for sure."
"You know. If he really love his son, he will love him truly. Will never put his hand to the boy. Will shower him so much love. Will never make his son traumatized. Let him, let him be sad if he really is. He should know that people has their own lives."
"You're right...."
"Thanks, anything else?"
"N-nothing else...."
"No, I see there's something else."
"T-there's really nothing else."
"No, I swear. Just tell me and I'll listen."
"Fine.... it's just. Danielle."
"Danielle? What's with her?"
"I-I like her..."
"You like her?"
"Yeah... please don't tell her. I-I'm planning to tell her later night..."
"Sure you can count on me."
"I like her ever since our first meet. Hyein is her ex. And I-I think she still loves Hyein.."
"What made you think that?"
"She always says something sweet to like, for someone and I know it's for Hyein."
"No, no, don't think like that always, what if the sweet things she's saying is really meant for you?"
"There's no way she'll love me. But at the same time, I believe that she will love me back. I don't know anymore Hanni, my mind will going to explode."
"I understand."
"What about you? What about your feelings? I know there's something in there."
"Yeah, there's really something. So many questions. It's a mess. Everything is a mess."
"Spill? I wanna know, I will listen."
"You know Hyein right?"
"Yeah"
"I kinda like her. But I also like Minji. I'm so red flag don't you think? I like Minji and I don't want someone to take her. But I also like Hyein and Hyein seems to like me too and I let Hyein take me from Minji. I'mmm sooo red flag and a mess, right? Haha...."
"I know. Maybe I understand. That's really a mess but you're not. You're not a red flag. It's just what you feel."
"No, tell me please. Be honest. I'm a red flag right??"
Tears flow from my eyes and I wipe it off. The van stopped and Haerin got off to her place and went beside me to give me a hug as I hug her back.
"It's okay. But you're not a red flag okay? Don't think too much. It will go away soon. Just maybe give yourself a time, okay? Just love who your hearts love."
"But I love them both.."
"It is really a mess. That's sad because you love them both, we all know that one person can't love two person. But maybe, you should really make sure who you really love."
"That's hard. How am I supposed to find out?"
"Uhm. I don't know either. But, I think, I guess, you should try to not think about your feelings at least for weeks or month and then, after that, think and listen to your heart and see who you really love more out of the two of them. That might help but it's still your decision."
"Thanks.... that might help... thank you Hae..."
"We are bestfriends here, bestfriends help each other. I love you, okay?"
"I love you too, thank you for being my friend..."
"You're always welcome Han."
HYEIN
Car. Evening.
How do I say to Hanni that I like her? Until when am I gonna hide this special feelings? I wanna tell her that i like her that I love her. But how? What if she likes Minji already? I don't want to ruin our friendship. Maybe, soon. But for now, I should hide it. Why can't I have my own love story? Why is there always someone? When will the destiny gonna make it right? When will cupid shoot my heart for the right person? Is Hanni the right person? Nah? I guess? I don't know. Love is really confusing. Just give me my future.
DANIELLE
Building. Evening.
Will Haerin gonna love me back? Is it impossible? Is she going to believe me when I say that the love and sweet things I always say is for her and not for Hyein? Will she going to believe that I love her? Will she going to believe that I don't love Hyein anymore? Will she going to believe that I love her a long time ago? So many questions running in my mind. I can't focus. When am I planning to confess to her? I am afraid to get hurt. Yes. I am. I like her, I love her, I'm in love with her. Why's life like this? They say you should enjoy life, how am I supposed to enjoy my life when I have these things in my life? Explain. I need help. When should I confess to her?
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me breaking down, crying my heart out, sobbing, screaming, singing but still managed to write this chapter while doing that all 🥲💅
(may 24, 2023)