As I lay there, I got this itchy feeling in my head that I couldn't get rid of.
I feel weak.
Kenji
Kenji
Kenji
What does he think of me?
He probably hates me.
I do want to open up to him, but...
I'm scared
I don't want him to think differently of me.
Why?
I don't know.
What if he doesn't want to be next to me after I tell him what, if he thinks I'm filthy?
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It's been a few days, and I'm all good now, but I haven't seen Kenji since we had that 'talk'.
"Where's Kenji?" I ask them.
"He's home"
"But I haven't seen him in a few days," I state.
"No, I mean his home."
"Oh"
"In Mexico," Owen says, which makes my eyes pop.
"When did he leave?"
"Three days ago, why?"
"No, just, I didn't know, and it seemed strange not seeing him."
"Why? Do you maybe?" Theo whispered to my ear, "like him." He chuckled and smiled, winking at me.
I turn my head in his direction. "Child with the devil stare, sis," Owen said.
"I didn't hear you say no," Theo said, running away.
I do not like Kenji.
Why would I?
I mean, he looks good, but yeah, actually, that's it; he just has looks.
I nod at my statement in my head.
"Why are you shaking your head?" I hear Henry say.
"Your sister is a genius," I state.
"I know," he smiles.
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It's been two weeks. I haven't seen Kenji for a month.
Why
Is he avoiding me?
And a better question: Why am I even bothered?
He asked me if I had some kind of feeling when he kissed me, and I didn't say anything.
Why is it that whenever I'm with him, I forget whatever happens to me? Like, I was never scared of men, and I wasn't scared of men approaching me.
And when he kissed me, I rubbed my lips with my fingers.
I wasn't scared or discussed by a kiss.
That's why I kind of kissed back.
I don't remember; I sit in my room, and my heart is pounding hard without knowing why."
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Sorry, for short chapter