(finneas is annoying on this one, I know he isn't like this and would never act like this but it's just for the plot)
age: 11
Author POV
y/n has always been the shy and quiet daughter, the opposite of Billie. Her whole life y/n has always been so anxious and that used to concern her family but now they don't really care anymore, they think it's just the way her brain thinks.
Y/n used to rather play alone than with friends she's homeschooled so she doesn't have many friends, she rather be in her own world on her room then get out with people, even her siblings or any family related. She's always with her headphones and quiet.
today Maggie went out to go grocery shopping since tonight is a "family dinner", Billie went to jesse's house to "hang out", finneas moved out a couple of months ago and Patrick is working so she's completely alone.
By now she's making a sandwich for herself so she's slicing up some salad. then Billie's brand new song called "never felt so alone" with labirinth started playing on her headphones. Y/n is completely obcessed with this song, she loves her sister songs but no one knows since she almost doesn't talk. Some people don't even know that she's Billie sister because she doesn't have any social media, at least not with her real name. She hates that people treat her differently so she creates a fake name on her users and don't show her face.
she started singing the song loudly, she was alone in her house so it didn't matter. For her she's the worst singer in the world, she thinks that since she's was a child. Little does she know that her voice is the exact same as her sisters voice, as it came to billies part she started singing it out loud as she sliced some tomatoes
I thought you were my new best friend
wish I knew better then
who knew you were just out to get me
my whole world just fell apart
cause I've never felt so alone, felt so alone na na
Billie pov
I parked my car in front of my house and closed the drivers door behind me as I left the car. I came home kinda earlier because mom texted me that y/n was home alone and it would be better if I came home earlier.
I entered the house and heard really good singing actually it was like someone was watching a video from my voice. I walked a little more and saw y/n slicing up tomatoes while singing never felt so alone.
she didn't even noticed that I'm here because she's using her headphones, I swear to god this girl never leaves them, it's probably so loud that she didn't even heard me passing though out kitchen door and walking literally behind her. then the part that I sing on the song apparently began, now she's singing my words out loud. I've never heard her sing before, actually I think it's been at least 2 days that I don't hear her voice she never speaks ANYTHING
I thought you were my new best friend
wish I knew better then
who knew you were just out to get me
my whole world just fell apart
cause I've never felt so alone, felt so alone na na
when she hit that high note I gasped and widen my eyes, she's literally so good what the hell? she held this high note even more than I've did on the song. She sounds exactly like me but on my opinion is actually a better version, like she's a literal child yk?
then she turned around to put the tomatoes on the fridge, the same fridge I was laying my back on and watching her cute little dance party when she started humming lost cause. someone here likes my songs lol.
when she turned around she saw me she jumped and kinda yelled, now I feel bad that I scared her
then she took her headphone out of her ear and looked up at me
"Jesus Christ Billie you scared the hell out of me" she said holding her chest
"sorry hun I didn't mean to scare you that much" I said and hugged her, she looked kinda weird honestly
"what's wrong?" I asked her
"idk it's just been a long time since I've been last hugged" she replied whispering, probably I wasn't supposed to hear this but I just tightened my hold on her
"your voice is incredible baby" I said kinda quietly and she pulled away from the hug looking at me in pure shock and embarrassment
"I'm your sister you don't have to be embarrassed silly. But I know what I'm talking about, your voice is stunning baby" I said and now her face a frown
"uh huh, sure it is" she replied sarcastically with a chuckle
"I'm not being sarcastic, I wish I sounded like this naturally" I told her
"but you do, you sing uncountable times better than me and naturally you dummy" she said
"actually I don't, I took lots of singing classes with mom and dad I was in choir which helped my voice control and all. you never ever agreed to sing with us" I said now rubbing her arm
"Billie stop pretending I can sing please don't made this more embarrassing than it already is. now if you excuse me I'm going to take my sandwich to my room, bybye" she said and walked out of the kitchen
I took a moment to realize that something for sure must been up with her. That she's anxious we all know it, she got diagnosed at the age of 4 but anyways. I've never seen her cry I think, the last time I saw her cry she was literally a 2 year old baby. I don't think I've seen her angry too, she's always so like peaceful and quiet, she just doesn't express ANY feeling she's like a real life wednesday, but a sweet blondie version
I went to her room and knocked on her door before walking in and I saw her laid on her bed eating and staring at absolutely nothing except for a black dot that's drawn on the wall. Like literally nothing just like existing she wasn't even with her headphones
"you okay?" I asked her
"yeah I'm fine" she replied
"did I said something that made you mad?" I asked worried
"no it's alright" she replied still staring at this black dot on her wall
"you sure?"
"yea yeah" she said again
"You sing so well bubba seriously I wish you could hear yourself the way I do" my little sister stayed quiet
"do you have anxiety attacks? or your medicine is better?" I asked and I saw a look of discomfort took over her face
"bil you know that I used to have lots of attacks when I was younger, you experienced that. and I know I don't sing well now please let's forget what happened" she said taking another bite of her sandwich
"bubba I'm talking about your 11 year old mental health not when you were little" I said
"yeah I do have attacks, it's normal I'm anxious but I'm so sorry to be rude but you are not my therapist and I'm sleepy" she said while resting her plate with her sandwich half finished on the nightstand and laying on her side
"then we will talk about this later, sleep well honey" I said and kissed her forehead and exited her room. I immediately started overthinking
I must be the worst sister of the world if she literally have attacks on the room by my side and I don't help her, I only helped her once when she was 4 but we all thought it was just a tantrum before she got diagnosed. She's speaking like a 15 year old, not a child and this makes me feel so bad
a couple of hours later we were all at the living room watching a movie while mom was baking dinner with dad. Y/n obviously was on her room
"will y/n came out? I really wanted to talk to her I miss her" finneas said starting to get mad
"calm down Finn, she's tired that's all" I replied and saw he's face turning more angry
"she's always fucking tired, Jesus Christ I just wanted to talk to her. I bought her a gift but I can't even give it to her because she looks like she hate us and we never even talk to her" he said sternly and Claudia rubbed his back
"babe she's only a child calm down, your mom is finishing dinner and soon she will come out of her room" Claudia said
"earlier today I walked home and heard her singing my songs, and girlll she's fire honestly she have the exact same voice as me but she's 11 and I'm fucking 21" I said kinda laughing
"she sings?" Claudia asked while massaging finneas shoulder
"yeah and I must say, she's fire dude" I replied
We went on talking until mom called us for dinner and we all walked to the dinner table and sat there talking and soon enough y/n comes to the table and sits at the "furthest" place to me, like she was avoiding me
she went on eating in silence like she does everyday until finneas spoke up
"Hey when is y/n gonna come downstairs? the food will get cold" he said concerned
"she's right here finneas, blind ass dude" I said making fun of him and we laugh, except for y/n she didn't. Oh great now I feel bad because I didn't laughed with her, I laughed because of her
"well, since your here y/n I brought a gift for you it's on the couch after we finish we head there okay?" he said and she nodded showing almost zero expression and focusing on the plate in front of her
"did you even listen to what I just said y/n?" finneas said and she kept focused on her plate until mom touched her shoulder and she jumped at her action
"sorry" she apologizes
"it's okay n/n" I said and I glanced on the glass table to see her leg bouncing a lot, she's getting anxious.
I turned my glance to see a annoyed finneas looking to my mom rubbing my sister arm as she eats
"okay I can't not say anything, mom you have to stop spoiling her you didn't spoil me or Billie and here we are we can talk and socialize like normal peop-" he was saying but was cut off by the sound of the wooden chair being pushed and by y/n running up to her room, poor girl. Finneas is so fucking dumb I can't seriously take it
"FINNEAS YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE THIS DISRESPECTFUL WITH HER" my mom said sternly
"finneas you can't say things like that, she's eleven years of age she's still a child and your a grown adult. Please act like the adult you are" my father said
"but don't you see? she literally ignores us everytime we say something, she never even do eye contact she looks like she is scared of everything that might happen it is disrespectful with us! imagine with visits? anyone will think that you guys didn't educated her because she doesn't even greet anyone! That's why she doesn't have any friends a-"he was interrupted by Claudia slapping his arm
"finneas calm down she's just a child"
"FINNEAS JESUS CHRIST SHUT THE FUCK UP IF YOU DONT LIKE HER PRESENCE IS SIMPLE, LEAVE THIS HOUSE!" I exclaimed annoyed by my brother, I love him but I can't stand him being mean to y/n, I got up from the table and rushed upstairs to y/n room. If I didn't helped her in the past I will now
I walked into her room to see her placing lots of pills on her hand and my first reaction was to freak out
"Y/N STOP THAT CALM DOWN" I said and took all the pills away from her and threw them on the trash can
"BILLIE I NEED THEM" she yelled
"NOT THAT AMOUNT JESUS CHRIST YOU WERE GOING TO OVERDOSE" I yelled back, panicking
"just leave me alone Billie" she said and threw herself at her bed
"I won't leave you when I know you need me, you have to stop denying your feeling y/n it's okay to feel them" I said while sitting by her side and stoking her arm
"feel them, is okay why don't you want to feel it?" I asked and she sat up and looked at me
"I DONT WANNA FEEL THEM! BECAUSE MY ANXIETY FEELS HORRIBLE LIKE IM DROWNING AND I CANT BREATHE" she yelled and tears fell on her face I quickly embraced her tightly and while I hugged her I caressed her hair and planted a few kisses on her head
"love you so much bubba, and you are so talented I wish you could see yourself the way I do" I whispered but she could still hear
"I love you so so so much Billie, never leave me please" she said while tightening her grip on me
"I won't never ever and ever leave you" I said on her ear
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