?? Years passed.....
And Yes I Regret....each and every day after that I regret everyday.. I waited for her before going to prom but she never came. I called her thousands of time, she didn't pick it...I send a lot of messages but she replied to none. Then I found that letter which she left for me.. I wish i could make you stay YN.. I still remember each and every word you wrote to me..😖??
THE LETTER :
Dear Namjoon,
I don't know where to start? Um, let me tell you everything today as I'm gonna leave you forever, you don't have to see me, or sort any kind of feelings for me. I know you aren't able to realise that somewhere deep down, you also love me..
I love you too, I love you so much Namjoon since the highschool. You always attracted me towards you, I tried my best not to focus on you but what can i do? So I started to write letters to you.. Oh I know you still didn't realise it's me, Your secret admirer. I love you for a long time and it's really tough for me now. I'm sorry that i won't be able to come to prom with you as my uncle will gonna take me today. i can't face you right now as you know about my feelings. You know what? I just want to hear "I love you" from your mouth That's it but I'm not that lucky.
Please forgive me for leaving like a coward. I only want you to be happy.. just smile, it suits you.. I don't want you to be sad. please take care of yourself and Uncle aunty too... And Tell hobi, that I didn't mean to leave like this. It's just I can't say no to my uncle. Don't worry about me, I'll be happy in my life or atleast can try to be. Don't Forget our memories together.. Always remember this annoying Yn who loved you unconditionally. Don't cry Namjoon, You look so disgusting when you cry.. please don't. If God wants we'll meet again....
- Yours YN
*That's when I realised, How much I love you and how important you're to me? Maybe I love you all my life cause you're the most important part of my life.. I wasn't sure if it was love but when you leave me alone, i realised what i lost!! It was too late Where are you now? it's been 5 years YN.. How are you? Are you married? You just can't imagine, how did i spend years without you? Not a day goes by that I don't think of you.. I just want to see you, maybe one time in my life, I just want to tell you, that.....😣I love you!
*KNOCK KNOCK*
Namjoon : Come in..
*I wore my cold face on*
Staff : Sir a lady gives this letter to you.
Namjoon : Letter? a lady? where is she?
*I curiously looked at her*
Staff : She left, and told me to give you this..Here..
*She handed me a letter*
Namjoon : Ok Miss you can leave now..
Staff : Yes sir...
*She bowed and left the cabin when i hurriedly open the letter*
"How are you?"
* My eyes turned teary.. It's my YN*
.."I hope you're doing well. i heard you become a successful man, I'm so proud of you.. I saw your interviews in TV, You look so handsome more than before. I wish i could be there beside you to support you. I wanna meet you. can we meet? If You want, then meet me at the same place where i confessed my feelings that night 5 years ago...I'll be there, waiting for you"
I just grabbed my coat and run out of my cabin..I can't miss this chance of seeing her..
Staff : Sir.. where are you going? you have a meeting 😟
Namjoon : CANCEL IT!!.*I shouts and run out*
*I huffed, as I ran too fast as my car stucked in Traffic... My eyes are finding YN everywhere when a spotted a figure looking up at the sky.. I slowly took my steps closer to her*
YN : You came!
*She didn't even look at me*
YN : How are you?🙂
Namjoon : Just like you left me.
YN : Did I hurt you?
Namjoon : Yes you did.. You did hurt me badly but I won't complaint as I Know I deserve it
YN : How's this 5 years? Was it hard?
Namjoon : Little bit..
*My eyes are numb as we both are trying to take things easy when it's not... We both know our heart belongs to each other or maybe she moved on .We stayed silent most of the time and have a normal conversation to avoid awkwardness*
YN : Did you get married?
Namjoon : No, cause it's gross.. And did you get married?
YN : Nope, it's still gross to me..😊
*A sudden smile crept on my face*
Namjoon : You didn't get married? But you said your uncle fixed your engagement
YN : The Groom ran away..
Namjoon : R-ru..run away? Why?😧
YN : I Threatened him..
*Finally we both chuckled but soon we stopped and looked at each other with a deep numb eyes*
YN : I just came to meet your kids, but sadly you're still not married. I thought I'll gonna tell them about my love story...
Namjoon : YN? Do you still love me?
*She smiled and shakes her head as no*
YN : Why are you asking this? This 5 years taught me how not to love you? And you know what i think I lost... Even this 5 years, didn't let me forget you..But let's not talk about this. I don't wanna talk about past
Namjoon : I love you,
*She widened her eyes*
YN : You what?😢
Namjoon : I love you..i know i realised it late but i didn't lose you. You're still not married..and I'm single too.. and we both know our heart belongs to each other... Isn't it? Since the day you left me, I was restless.. All those years I blamed myself for everything.
I thought you will get married as you said your uncle fixed your engagement.. I tried to find you everywhere but i failed.. I always thought when will you come to meet me? I was impatiently waiting for you that i almost lost my charms then I realised that You took all my charms with you
YN : But it's too late namjoon, we can't be together!! We're better when we're far from each other..
Namjoon : No..No YN. Don't make us suffer more...we can be together if you want.
YN : But I'm not your type, and I'm annoying
Namjoon : N-no YN.. please don't say that 😖
*I cupped her face when her tears rolled down which she holds for a long time*
Namjoon : Please don't say that.. I'm regretting Every word i said.. I regret it everyday.. please forgive me. I only want you, i don't have any type now. I just want you
YN: You sure? Can you bear my annoying nature?
Namjoon : I can bear anything for you.. I can do anything for you.. anything just tell me what should I have to do.
YN : Anything?
Namjoon : Yes!
YN : Kiss me.. Can you?😳
*He didn't think twice before kissing my lips. I hold him tightly and kiss him back immediately. Our lips are moving together giving both of us a feeling which is new to us. Our lips were touched so many times before but this time we're kissing each other on our own will.
We both melt in that kiss when his hands are holding my neck.He backed off and attached our forehead*
YN : Do you remember that you said, you will never kiss me?
Namjoon : That Namjoon was so stupid
YN : I knew it for a long time that you were so stupid from childhood😄.
* We both chuckled and hold each other's hands, when i brushed my thumb on her cold hands. She looked at me when I smiled and said*
Namjoon : Don't leave me again... Please
YN : I had no other way.. I told you to give me one reason to stay, but you didn't realise anything.. But if you promise, to hold my hand like this forever then I'm assuring you, that I'll never leave you..
*I kissed her forehead and hugged her*
YN : Namjoon
Namjoon : Hmm?
YN : Did you bath today? You Sting
Namjoon : You again started to pick up a fight with me
YN : You're so warm.. hold me like this forever..I never thought of having you these closer
Joon: i promise I'll always hold you like this..
Their tears are rolling down when they hug each other closer.. They just know that they only belong to each other.