Jocelyn woke up warm and happy. She sighed and snuggled into her pillow to try and go back to sleep before she realized that her pillow wasn’t her pillow. It was Daeron’s shoulder. That’s when she remembered the previous night. She smiled softly, turning her head so her smile was pressed into his bicep.
She was both glad and a bit saddened that he had to ask if she loved him. Things had been great between the two of them since he’d returned to King's Landing, but it was also like they’d been stuck in limbo. He’d basically moved in with her in her apartment. They were together all the time, and more often than not, they crawled into bed with each other at the end of the day or made it into bed together in the middle of the night. They’d also kissed a few times but only ever soft and quick goodnight or good morning kisses. Nothing like either of them wanted, not that they’d admitted that to each other. They hadn’t talked about where they would go from here or what their lives could look like if they were actually together.
She knew she was difficult to read, anders casual intimacy wasn’t exactly her strong suit, but she’d hoped that by now, Daeron could understand the depth of her feelings for him. And maybe the reason he asked was because he was tired of the limbo too, or maybe he really didn’t understand how she felt. She lazily draped an arm over his stomach, smiling and laughing softly to herself when he sighed sleepily and snuggled into her side when she tightened her grip on his waist She swore that, once he woke up and they continued with their day, she’d make things right.
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By the time he drifted into consciousness, she’d shifted to lean against the headboard and was reading.
Morning, beautiful.” he mumbled, muffling a yawn into his pillow before rolling onto his back.
Morning. How’d you sleep?” she asked softly, putting her book down and letting her hand fall to run her fingers through his hair. She smiled when his eyelids fluttered shut, and he sighed softly.
Good.” he mumbled, forcing his eyes open again to look at her.
She watched a smile take over his face as he likely remembered what had happened the night before as well, but he didn’t say anything.
Breakfast?” she asked a few moments later when he still hadn’t said anything.
Sure.” he said, moving to get out of bed before she stopped him with a hand on his chest.
Don’t. You stay, I’ll cook.” she smiled, letting her thumb rub circles on his side before she crawled out of bed herself and headed down to the kitchen.
She was in the middle of frying eggs and sausage when she heard heavy footsteps descending the stairs and couldn’t help but smile when she watched Daeron round the corner, wrapped in a blank He came right up to her and wrapped his arms around her waist as she flipped the sausage patties with a spatula, nuzzling his face into the crook of her neck. Still, he didn’t say anything or ask what was going on, but he pressed a soft kiss to her cheek as they swayed slightly back and forth. He stayed close until she nudged him gently in the ribs so she could move to plate their breakfast.
They ate in silence on the couch with Jocelyn’s feet draped over Daeron’s lap until he finished and set his plate aside.
Okay. What's in your mind beautiful?” he finally asked, glancing over at her as she sipped her juice.
What?” she replied, still not sure how to say everything she wanted to say.
You’re acting differently. Something’s wrong.” he pointed out, but she shook her head.
Nothing’s wrong. I just wanted to do something nice for you.” she admitted shyly, a pink flush colouring her cheeks. He tilted his head to the side, silently observing her before reaching to take her hand.
If I freaked you out because last night when I asked you if you love me, I’m sorry.” he whispered, thinking that’s what the problem was, but she shook her head quickly, squeezing his hand.
You didn’t freak me out, I promise. I meant what I said. I just… I’m not good at things like this, and I wanted to show you that I want this and I’m serious. I do love you a lot but I don't know how to show it.” she admitted softly, not looking him in the eye but keeping hold of his hand. Then he didn’t know what to say. He smiled at her and brought her hand up to his mouth, kissing her knuckles.
You don’t have to prove anything. Not to me.” he promised softly, stroking the back of her hand gently.
It’s easy for you. You prove you love me every day. And I’ll never be good enough at showing you the same thing.” she mumbled, still not looking him in the eye. He gently moved her legs from his lap and scooted closer to her on the couch, slinging his arm over her shoulders.
I know being vulnerable isn’t the easiest thing for you, but it’s not something you have to be perfect at. You do it in your own way, and that’s good enough for me.” he promised, leaning over to kiss her temple.
I’m all in. I just wanted to make sure you knew that. I don’t want you to question how I feel about you because I’m shit at saying it.” she admitted, finally looking him in the eye and flushing at the overly fond look on his face.
I think you’re a little better than you think you are.” he grinned, moving a hand below her chin to tilt her head up and kiss her softly. She smiled against his lips, resting her hand on his side, stroking his side through his shirt gently and teasingly. He shivered under her touch, making her smile widen until she literally couldn’t kiss him anymore. He wrapped his arms more firmly around her, and she gasped when he hoisted her up and into his lap. She laughed, throwing her head back a bit as her hands settled on his shoulders to stable herself.
She settled into his lap, her knees pressing into his sides as she clung to him. She couldn’t get any closer to him without physically crawling inside his shirt, but all she wanted was to be closer. He wrapped his arms completely around her waist, hugging her close while she wrapped her arms around his shoulders and let her head settle in the crook of his neck. He played with the ends of her hair without having to move his arms too much while she ran her fingers through the strands at the nape of his neck.
I really do, you know.” she mumbled into his ear before sitting up to look him in the eye, cupping his face. “I’m not sure when it happened again, and it took me even longer before I admitted it to myself after you left, but I do. I love you” she told him, her voice fading to a whisper as she spoke.
It was proven then more than ever that she hated being vulnerable, but the beaming smile on his face made everything worth it.
I love you too, beautiful .” he whispered, and almost before the words had left his mouth, she was kissing him again.
He tightened his grip on her waist, his fingertips digging into her skin, making her groan into the kiss. She tightened her grip on his hair, pulling on the strands and surging even closer to him. When they readjusted, his fingers slid underneath the hem of her shirt, making her shiver and arch into his chest. She felt his hands still, and for a moment, his kisses became less enthusiastic. She could feel him questioning things before he’d even decided if he would say it out loud or not.
Yes.” she mumbled before he could even think to open his mouth. He still pulled away from the kiss for a moment to look her in the eye, but when he saw a firm look on her face and blown pupils, he knew she was serious.
Yeah?” he asked in a breathy whisper, swallowing heavily as he gazed at her. She smiled, laughing softly and leaning in to kiss him again as an answer. He slid his hands more confidently under her shirt, making her shiver when his cold hands skated across her ribs. He trailed kisses across her cheek, smiling against her as he caressed her skin; her pyjama top brushing the back of his hands, loving how comfortable they were with their domesticity even without having sex
He kissed the underside of her jaw, grinning in satisfaction when she let out a soft whine. She pulled back and quickly tugged her shirt over her head, laughing as his eyes went dark. She was still in a sports bra and her sweatpants, but it was so tight it left very little to the imagination and she knew that she could be wearing a paper bag and Daeron would still find her attractive. She could feel how attracted he was to her.
I could probably be persuaded to go back to bed.” she mumbled teasingly, tracing a line of skin along the collar of his tee shirt. Quicker than she thought possible, he was bracing his arms around her and picking her up, carrying her up the stairs, and tossing her onto the bed with a surprised squeal while he laughed. He tugged his shirt over his head and tossed it onto a chair in the corner on top of a small pile of dirty laundry before crawling over her. He braced himself on his elbows as he hovered over her. He smiled down at her, nudging his nose against hers sweetly. She couldn’t help but run her fingers through his hair softly as they just stared into each other’s eyes. She slowly tilted her chin up, almost challengingly, then nipped at his bottom lip, her grin widening as she watched his pupils dilate and his jaw stiffen.
You’re gonna get all shy now?” she asked teasingly, cocking her head to the side, fighting to keep her expression neutral. He rolled his eyes fondly and shook his head. He still didn’t say anything but any retort died in her throat when he rolled his hips against hers, making her throw her head back with a sharp gasp, arching her back. He then quickly moved to slot one of his legs between hers, gently but firmly pressing his knee against her, watching as she moaned lowly and rolled her hips against the pressure, craving more. She moved her hands to shimmy her sweatpants down her hips, raising them when he helped her remove them and toss them on the floor.
Fuck.” he choked out, taking her in. She was wearing her own sports bra under her shirt but she was wearing a pair of his own boxer shorts under her sweatpants. She was sexier than anyone he’d seen in fancy lingerie in Old Town. While he was still sitting back on his heels, she pulled her sports bra over her head and tossed it in the corner, ruffling her hair in the process and spreading it out across her pillow like a halo.
Daeron ran his hands up her sides, his fingertips brushing the underside of her breasts, making her shiver and sigh happily. He still seemed hesitant to touch her though, like he was afraid she was going to break or disappear under his hands. She finally physically grabbed one of his hands and, while maintaining eye contact, laid his palm on her breast.
It’s alright. I want you to touch me.” she promised, reaching up to brush his fringe back from his forehead. And that was apparently all the encouragement he needed because he quickly ducked his head to trail kisses down her chest, sucking a bruise on her sternum as he rolled her nipple between two fingers. She moaned, gripping his head and holding him to her chest. He slid his hand down her stomach and her hips until his palm was pressed against her, smiling against her ribs when her hips bucked into his hand. “Yes, please!” she mumbled before he could even ask the question. He laughed softly but didn’t waste any time in hooking his fingers in the waistband of her boxers and tugging them down and off.
He swallowed her moan with a kiss as he pressed his thumb against her, rubbing in clumsy circles. Her legs fell further open, giving him more access to slowly slide one finger inside of her. He ducked his head towards her chest, flicking his tongue over her nipple before sucking it into his mouth. She gasped loudly, her eyes slamming shut as she arched her back, pushing herself even closer to him.
Fuck.” she practically growled, tugging on the ends of his hair to pull his lips back to hers, kissing him frantically as she rolled her hips into his hand.
Gorgeous.” he whispered, slipping another finger into her, grinning proudly when she moaned. He quickened the pace he thrust his fingers into her while slowing the movement of his thumb. The contrast was enough to set her nerves alight, making her practically see stars. He felt her tighten around his fingers at the same moment that her eyes slammed shut, her back arched, and she let out a high-pitched moan. Her hips bucked wildly for a few moments before she slumped bonelessly back onto the bed and batted his hand away.
Oh, my god.” she groaned, sighing happily as she pushed her hair away from her face. He laughed, shifting to flop down beside her, leaning to kiss her cheek.
That was fun.” he joked, nudging her gently in the ribs, laughing when she groaned, rolling her eyes and whacking his bicep.
Oh, we’re not done. Just give me a minute.” she mumbled, blushing when she looked at him. He raised his brows teasingly, but he shook his head.
We don’t have to if that was too much.” he promised, but then it was her turn to laugh.
You don’t have to be so passive all the time. You can tell me you want it. I can tell that you want it. I just need a second.” she reassured him, rolling onto her side to face him and smoothing a hand down his stomach. He laid his hand on top of hers, threading their fingers together.
I’ve always wanted you.” he replied honestly, squeezing her hand. She smiled, pushing herself up over him a bit to kiss him. She quickly straddled his lap, cradled his face, and gently stroked his cheek. She kissed down his chest, nipping his abs gently before continuing down until she was nosing the soft, fine hairs that disappeared into his boxers. “Jocelyn,” he whispered, his eyes darkening. She glanced at him questioningly, grinning when he nodded frantically. He raised his hips, letting her tug his boxers down.
Unlike what Daeron did, she had no idea what she was doing, but eagerness outweighed inexperience. She took him in hand, slowly and teasingly dragging her palm along his length before thumbing over the tip and grinning when he shuddered, moaning softly. She worked him over for a few moments before glancing up into his eyes.
Ready?” she asked, shifting back to sit on her heels. He nodded wordlessly, starting to move so she was under him, but she stopped him with a hand on his chest. “My turn to make you feel good,” she told him, quickly pushing herself up and bracing both hands on his chest. She moved to straddle him, positioning herself directly overtop of his erection. He reached down to help guide him into her, then moved to grip her hips, holding her steady and squeezing his eyes shut, moaning as she sunk down on him. He managed to open his eyes in time to see her breathing heavily through her nose, her face a bit screwed up in pain.
Are you okay?” he managed to get out, his grip on her waist tightening to support her.
Yeah, it’s fine. It’s just a lot. I’ve never done this before, and you’re not little, love.” she forced out, the term of endearment slipping easily through her lips, making him smile.
We don’t have to if it hurts. Or we can switch positions.” he suggested, but she shook her head. He should’ve known that she wouldn’t change her mind. She’s way too stubborn.
I’m good. Just distract me for a minute.” she instructed, which he could happily do. He slid one hand between her legs to hopefully increase her arousal and make everything easier and more comfortable by going back to rubbing tight circles on her clit while running his other hand all over her chest to hopefully distract her further from any pain she was experiencing. She moaned at the touches, her head falling back and cascading over her shoulders.
Daeron bit his lip as he stared up at her, groaning lowly as he watched her. It took all of his self-control not to thrust up into her. The good thing was that it seemed to be working. Slowly but surely, he watched her sink further down, spreading her legs to take him further in a while slowly starting to rock her hips.
Finally, she was fully seated on top of him, and the moment he hit a spot deep inside her, she let out a high-pitched, stuttering breath, and her upper body curved towards him.
Oh fuck.” she shivered, leaning forward and running her hands up his chest, changing the angle.
Okay?” he asked breathlessly, still fighting the urge to roll his hips.
Oh, god, so good.” she sighed happily, rolling her hips and throwing her head back with a low moan. Then he couldn’t help but thrust his hips up in time with her movements as he watched her dark locks cascading down her back, making her look even more beautiful than anyone. Still, he didn’t stop the movements of his hands, trying to make the experience as good as possible for her while also distracting himself so he wouldn’t come as quickly as his body wanted to.
You’re so gorgeous, Jocelyn.” he groaned, squeezing her hip so tight she swore he’d leave half-moon-shaped indents in her skin from his nails.
It wasn’t long before Jocelyn could feel the familiar coil of tension and heat in her abdomen tightening and she knew that it would only be a matter of moments before it snapped but when she looked down at Daeron, she found him with his eyes shut tight, brows furrowed, and biting his lip, barely hanging on. She leaned even further down, changing the angle again, to kiss him deeply. He moaned into the kiss, his hips bucking up frantically into hers.
I love you so much, beautiful.” he whispered against her lips, and she immediately gasped and ducked into his shoulder as the coil of tension snapped, sending a scorching wave of heat over every inch of her skin. She bit down on his shoulder to muffle her cries as she frantically rolled her hips as she rode out her orgasm. It only took a few moments for her movements to send Daeron hurtling over the edge as well. He thrust up into her with a low moan, gripping her waist as they both came down from their highs, and she collapsed against his chest.
You can’t just say that to me.” she grumbled against his chest, but she definitely didn’t sound angry about it.
If I get that reaction every time, I think I do have to, actually.” he teased, laughing as he ran a soothing hand along her back. She groaned in protest but only nuzzled closer to him.
I vote we go back to bed.” she mumbled sleepily, muffling a yawn into the crook of his neck.
There are no arguments here.” he agreed, manoeuvring her to tug the blankets up over both of them. He rolled onto his side so he could tuck her against his stomach protectively, and she just snuggled in as if she belonged there. Because she did. There’s no other place she’d rather be.
She quickly settled in, and Daeron thought she’d almost immediately fallen asleep until she spoke up a few minutes later.
I don’t know how to be in a normal relationship. But I know I love you.” she told him, making him smile and stroke her hair affectionately.
I’d give you the manual, but I think I misplaced it somewhere on the way.” he teased gently only for her to snort and jab him gently in the ribs. “There is no manual, Jocelyn. It’s just us; like it’s always been. And that’s it.” he promised, leaning over to kiss her temple. She was quiet for a few moments before she nodded.
Okay.” she mumbled simply, tilting forward to press a kiss to his bare chest.
Yeah?” he asked, wanting to make sure she wasn’t secretly freaking out.
Yeah.” she mumbled softly, throwing one arm protectively across his waist like he was doing to her and tugging him as close as he could possibly get. He smiled when he heard her snoring within minutes. He knew he was serious and that she wasn’t worried about anything. Not that she should be. It didn’t matter that neither of them had a clue what they were doing. They were both messes, but they somehow always figured things out. And they’d continue to figure things out together for the rest of their lives.