As I got home I went to my laptop and played '2ne1- missing you', the lyrics made me tear up.
These particular lyrics got to my heart very quickly. I felt like my cold heart would explode. The song made me want to cry but I couldn't upset Lily like that. I just couldn't. I held my tears in.
(Some Lyrics:
Stop whining like you're a child
Because I haven't even started yet
I'm just a little famished, I'm alright
Actually no, I'm...
Still hating you
Missing you, missing you, missing you
Missing you, missing you
Stop being so obvious
Because the world was always dark
(you heard what I said)
How can you smile so brightly? (what)
But looking closely, I see your face is sad
I know I've been there before
I'm just a little tired, I'm alright
Actually no, I'm...
Still hating you
Missing you, missing you, missing you
Missing you, missing you
Please be happy
Even after a long time passes, let's both remember
That we both had each other back then
That we both had each other back then)
Lily saw the tears building up in my eyes. "Oi! Don't cry! Are you crying??" She quickly rushed to my side. "No I'm not crying! N-n-n-o I-I-I am just. . ." I tried to say. "Do not let him get to you!" She said with a stronger voice. "I won't." I wiped my tears away. Lily hugged me from behind. "It's fine bub." "Thanks Lily."
Lily went home. I thought hard. Why do I feel like this? Do I hate Tim for not replying? Do I love him? What is with me?! I can live without him. . .right? I can not live without him. I smiled. I will love him even more.