Tang Yan didn't expect Zhang Tao to appear here.
He knew that they would meet again. The person who he liked so much back then. He liked the other's little details, wished he could zoom in and observe them infinitely.
As for the other party, even if he saw his tombstone, with Zhang Tao's personality, he might have to dig the grave and test his bones to confirm whether it was him.
It's just that he didn't expect that their meeting would be so fast.
It's been almost two months before and after separation, but it feels like a world away.
Seeing Zhang Tao, Tang Yan stood up slowly. The tears on his face were not dry, the eyes were still red, but they had turned cold.
How could Zhang Tao believe in Tang Yan's death based on a so-called death certificate?
Just as Tang Yan knew him, even if it was digging a grave, he had to confirm the authenticity. The death certificate had too many omissions, you can tell the truth from the fake if you calm down. But Tang Yan's treatment case is true.
Severe heart failure. Every time he sees these four words, he feels his heart is also being pulled and hurt.
It was a coincidence that he came here after him.
His friends back then were also witnesses to the initial beginning of him and Tang Yan, so when one of them thought he saw Tang Yan at the airport, and there was even a tall and handsome man beside Tang Yan, he couldn't help but come to gossip with him. So Zhang Tao checked the flight information.
After finding out that Tang Yan had come to the imperial city, he arranged for someone to wait at the airport in advance, and followed him all the way. After he flew over on the scheduled flight, he came over immediately, only to see that strange man holding Tang Yan hand and wiped his tears.
Zhang Tao restrained his emotions and stepped forward. He didn't dare to get angry, didn't dare to provoke Tang Yan. He was afraid that if he couldn't restrain himself, he would end up losing this person forever. Compared to Tang Yan, who is fine, everything else becomes unimportant.
"Tang Yan."
As Zhang Tao approached, Tang Yan took a step back almost subconsciously. This instinctive avoidance made Zhang Tao freeze in place, and a chill almost penetrated into the bones.
Tang Yan wiped his face with his hand, and looked at Zhang Tao: "Did you come here on a special trip?"
Zhang Tao looked at the person in front of him almost greedily. As if he was afraid of frightening the other person, he answered cautiously: "I just want to know if you're okay."
Tang Yan lowered his eyes: "You saw it, then what?"
Zhang Tao: "I'm sorry, what happened back then, I, I was wrong, I made a big mistake. I don't know how to make up for it, how can you forgive me. Even if you never forgive me for the rest of your life, it doesn't matter. Tang Yan, let me take care of you in the future, okay?"
Tang Yan smiled, his eyes were no longer infatuated as before, and he was even a little cold: "If I say no? If I hope you will never appear in front of me again, never bother me again, will you agree?"
Zhang Tao didn't speak, but his expression already gave the answer: it's impossible.
Tang Yan closed his eyes, and snorted lightly with a hint of self-mockery: "You didn't even give me what I wanted, and you still said you would make up for me. Your so-called make up is just trying to make up for the guilt in your heart.
"Do you think it's good to take care of me in the future and treat me well?
"No, what you love the most is yourself. What do you need is to make yourself feel less uncomfortable. Even if I don't want to see you, you don't care. As long as you get what you want, that's enough."
Zhang Tao hastily denied: "No! Tang Yan, it is not like that! I know that no matter what I say now, you won't listen to it or believe it, but I love you. Not out of regret for the past, but because I really love you."
Tang Yan said: "If you love me, then I must love you too and be with you?"
Zhang Tao thought about many possibilities. Tang Yan beating him, scolding him, even hate him, but he never thought about what he would do when facing the calm Tang Yan.
"Tang Yan..."
"You are still so domineering, but it's not that you haven't changed a bit. If you were the old you, you would have dragged me away involuntarily. If you went too far, you might even lock me up and restrict my freedom."
Zhang Tao shook his head: "No, Tang Yan, I will not do anything to hurt you!"
Tang Yan looked at him: "Then I don't love you anymore, can you let me go?"
Zhang Tao gritted his teeth and tried his best to restrain himself. He felt that Tang Yan was speaking out of anger, how could he not love him anymore?
He didn't believe it, couldn't believe it, wouldn't believe it.
He looked at the person standing next to Tang Yan, his face changed slightly, and his eyes instantly turned cold like a knife: "Who is he?"
Before Tang Yan could speak, Qiao Jiang stepped forward and stood in front of Tang Yan: "I didn't want to interject. After all, this is your past. I haven't participated in it, so I don't have the right to speak.
"But now you're asking me, so let me introduce myself. Hello, my name is Qiao Jiang, and I'm Tang Yan's suitor."
Tang Yan looked at Qiao Jiang in surprise, then quickly realized something, and then looked away. He knew that Qiao Jiang was helping him. Although he thought it was unnecessary, he would accept other people's kindness and will not be ignorant of good and bad.
Zhang Tao's eyes were red. If this person said he was Tang Yan's new boyfriend, then Zhang Tao would not believe it. He knew Tang Yan too well. In just two months, it was impossible.
Zhang Tao believes that Tang Yan is an existence that doesn't look too shiny, but once someone comes into contact with him, he will be attracted to him. It is not impossible for someone to pursue him.
But Zhang Tao didn't care about Qiao Jiang. If Tang Yan could accept other people, he wouldn't be entangled with him for so many years.
Seeing Zhang Tao's eyes, even though Qiao Jiang didn't know their past, he could somewhat guess what this person was thinking. He had seen too many arrogant and proud people.
Thinking of what Tang Yan asked him just now, that the one who is loved is fearless, it is not difficult to piece together a love-hate relationship.
Qiao Jiang said: "I'm afraid you can't finish talking about your affairs in a few words. Can you change the place? Since you are his ex-boyfriend, you should know that he is not in good health."
The words 'ex-boyfriend' strongly stimulated Zhang Tao.
Unexpectedly, Tang Yan immediately disregarded the relationship and said, "He's not my ex-boyfriend. I've never been with him."
Tang Yan said it very calmly, without the slightest hint of emotion in it, and it was indeed the fact that they have never been together.
Qiao Jiang was a little surprised, and then said: "Sorry, I misunderstood. But no matter who it is, it's not good to stand like this. Didn't you just feel your heart hurt?"
Zhang Tao suddenly became anxious: "Are you feeling uncomfortable?"
Qiao Jiang sneered: "Look at you just now apologized and showed love, and you also said to took care of and made up for it for a lifetime. You can't even tell if he is not feeling well."
Turning to Tang Yan, he said: "This kind of person, you shouldn't believe in what he say."
Zhang Tao said angrily: "You!"
Qiao Jiang ignored him, and directly stretched out his arms to hug Tang Yan, and took him to the car parked by the roadside.
Zhang Tao hurriedly followed. He finally found Tang Yan, how could he leave just because of a few words.
Knowing that Zhang Tao would not give up easily, Tang Yan couldn't help but sighed, and then asked Qiao Jiang: "Are we going back to J City now?"
"I also have a house here, if you don't want to see the person behind, you can go to my house. Don't worry, there is no parent in my house. If you think you need to have a good talk, you can go to the hotel, and I will stay in the hotel with you. "
Tang Yan was a little embarrassed: "It's too much trouble for you."
Qiao Jiang smiled: "I don't think it's troublesome. To be honest, it's the first time I have experienced this kind of helping friends with troublesome things. It's quite novel. "
Tang Yan said: "Your friends must be as powerful as you."
Qiao Jiang shook his head: "I have no friends."
Tang Yan was a little surprised. Someone Like Qiao Jiang, he looks good and looks capable. It also seems the family background is not simple, it is impossible to have no friends.
Qiao Jiang said: "Have you heard of five disadvantages and three shortcomings?"
Tang Yan nodded. He hadn't heard of it before, but because Wen Ran was in this line of work, he also wanted to know a little bit about it, so he looked it up online. There are less about Celestial Masters, and more supernatural stories, although those stories are very fake.
Qiao Jiang: "I was born with one of those.
"Originally, my family had gradually started to change careers, but they didn't expect that I was born with the talent for cultivation but have one of those. My grandfather counted it for me.
"If I step into this line of work and hold this bowl of rice, I may still have a chance to change my life. You know that if you liberating ghosts you will be rewarded with merit.
"I'm also different from ordinary people since I was young. Although I can't see it, I can feel it. When you were a child, who would dare be friends with this kind of people."
Tang Yan thought about it. Unless they are from the same circle, otherwise this kind of people who often have to deal with ghosts seems a bit scary in terms of children's world.
Seeing Qiao Jiang's regretful look, Tang Yan said, "It's okay, it's not just you who don't have friends, neither do I."
Although Tang Yan didn't say the reason, Qiao Jiang knew it when he thought about it. Few parents dared to let their children play with Tang Yan. If things went wrong, it would be fatal.
After thinking about it, Qiao Jiang stretched out his hand: "Then we are each other's first friends?"
Looking at Qiao Jiang's extended hand, Tang Yan smiled and held it: "Hello, friend."
After talking for a while, Tang Yan's mood also improved a little bit. Seeing Qiao Jiang happened to bump into Zhang Tao, Tang Yan looked at him: "Want to hear a story?"
Qiao Jiang's eyes moved slightly, and said: "Yes."
Tang Yan smiled: "He is my senior. It was the orientation meeting that day. He spoke on stage as a representative. He is handsome and confident. His smile seems to be able to dispel all the haze.
"That was the first time that my heart beat faster not because I'm sick. Then, like a madman, as long as he was there, I couldn't see anywhere else.
"Because he is a member of the student union, I also joined the student union. People with different backgrounds are destined to have different visions. Among a group of high school students who have not even grown up, Zhang Tao, who has experienced it for a long time, is so different.
"He is like a luminous body, he can attract everyone's attention wherever he goes. As I get along with him, I like him more and more, and I can't extricate myself. I like his likes, get used to his habits, and what I really thought at the time was that such an excellent person will definitely have a better partner by his side in the future, not like me.
"So I secretly letting go of my liking. Anyway, my secret love is my own business and has nothing to do with others. I only let this secret love grow wildly when I am alone, and try to restrain myself when there are others.
"I only found out later, at that time Zhang Tao already had a lover, and his lover also had a heart disease. When that man was ill, Zhang Tao was so anxious that he sent him to the hospital, stayed outside the emergency room, and stayed by the hospital bed.
"I admit that I was envious and jealous at that time, but he has a boyfriend, even if it is my own secret love, I can only show it secretly. I gave him the gift I prepared for a long time, but he refused. He is so smart, he must have seen my intentions.
"I thought it was fine, he knew it, and I knew it, even though he didn't directly tell, it was an ending. Soon I quit the student union.
"But fate played tricks like this, we always meet by accident, and we always meet because of some things that are out of control. Even when I deliberately avoided it, I became the guilty party of being a mistress and was hung up on the forum."
Tang Yan looked out of the car window and let out a sigh: "At that time, my uncle was going to transfer me to another school, and I agreed, but I didn't expect that there would be a chance to transplant my heart soon, and so the transfer was delayed.
"I thought, love is not as important as life. As long as you have the opportunity to be a normal person in the future, you will not lose a piece of meat when you are looked at by those strange eyes. But I didn't expect that the heart was end up transplanted to Zhang Tao's first love and my uncle was dismissed because of favoritism."
Qiao Jiang frowned, looked at Tang Yan's slender wrist, and held it unintentionally: "At that time, it must have been difficult for you."
Tang Yan smiled softly: "It's very difficult. My own life, the future of my family, but I finally got through it, and then Zhang Tao went abroad.
"I went to university, and found a leisurely job for a few years. But when the heart is sick, it is broken, and its decline cannot be stopped. When I was told that I might not live long, Zhang Tao returned to China and squeezed into my life forcefully.
"I found that my liking for him became complicated. Yes, the love is still there, the hate is also still there. I don't want to get entangled with him, but as long as I back away, he will definitely come forward, and I can't back down. So I made a terrible decision."
Qiao Jiang said: "Something must have happened later. You changed your original intention."
Tang Yan nodded and said, "I met Wen Ran, my Celestial Master friend. He was actually Zhang Tao's childhood friend lover. He was also hospitalized at the time. I thought he also has this kind of disease, and I later found out that I misunderstood.
"He said that he was a Celestial Master and could tell people's fortunes. He calculated that I had a chance in J City, and said that as long as I let go, I would get more.
"I actually didn't believe it at the time. I just felt tired and didn't want to bother anymore, and didn't want to be unable to control myself before dying, so I went to J City."
Thinking of hearing Tang Yan's call before, Qiao Jiang said: "Then your Celestial Master friend made a fake death certificate for you, and then let Zhang Tao find out, but he didn't give up and went all the way to investigate?"
Tang Yan nodded, and Qiao Jiang smiled: "Do you still want to be with him?"
Tang Yan was silent for a while, then shook his head: "I don't want to."
It's impossible. Those scars can't be smoothed out with a change of heart. When the love is no longer pure, being together is just hurting each other and self-torture.
He has lived a very hard life, it was too difficult, so he wants to simplify his life in the future. It would be better if he can have a partner who likes him. If not, it's not bad to live a simple life by himself.
But no matter what, he and Zhang Tao was no longer possible.
When his uncle was dismissed, the hope he thought he had gained was lost. Even when he thought about it now, it was still stuck like a thorn taking root in his heart. The root of the problem would only get deeper and deeper, making it impossible to pull it out.