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SUNDAY, OCTOBER 15
𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐍, 𝐓𝐗 ➩ 5:31PM
TRUE PARKED IN THE DRIVEWAY of Kash's home. She had an habit of pulling up on people when they ignored her for an exceedingly long time. In a way, she felt like Kash didn't have a reason to be mad at her. She didn't understand why her best friend couldn't accept the fact that she was happy. Even if she decided to get back with someone that she quote on quote said 'once I'm off someone I'm off', but True couldn't help it.
Kaire did something to her. It made her feel different and she liked the feeling that he gave her every so often. Yeah he broke up with her for a dumb ass reason, but somehow she managed to move past it and forgive him.
True didn't tell anyone, but Kash. She felt like everyone would judge her for getting back with him. Though, at this point she could care less about what people had to say. She was happy and that was all that mattered.
Once True spotted movements from her peripheral vision, she looked up. Kash walked over to the side of the car with a sleeping Ava on her hip. She looked highly annoyed.
"...Kash." True spoke slowly as she read Kash's body language. "Why are you ignoring me? What did I do to you that made you mad as hell to the point where you had to ignore me for two weeks?"
True just didn't understand and wanted answers.
"I just don't see how you can be so damn delusional, True. This nigga broke up with you because he felt like he spent too much time with you then his own sister. What you told me? That it was false as fuck, but in reality he actually broke up with you because he has abandonedment issues. He broke up with you and left before you could. That's stupid as fuck. When he broke up with you, he was so nonchalant about it. Literally gave no fucks until he realized what he lost and what he did was wrong, but I wouldn't have took him back. No matter how many times he apologized."
"When I think about it what he did wasn't as bad as what Brazil did."
"But it still doesn't make it right! I would have kind of understood if you both worked on one another before y'all gotten back together. Yet, you just took him back and bitch that makes you look dumb and delusional as fuck. He definitely needs to work on himself. 'Cause what if he pulls another I had to break up with you and leave before you could. Then what?"
True sighed playing with her fingers. She knew what Kash was saying was real. What she should have done was told him to get his shit together first. Like deal with his abandonment issues before they gotten back together. And she should have healed properly and completely.
"Huh? Then what? I ignored you because you deserve more and I was mad at you. You don't deserve a lil ass boy, True. Like I stated, I would expect for you to go for someone like my brother or something. If you want to stay with KJ then do that, but I will never like him for what he put you through. You cried and vented your ass off when we first met! I don't want to see you like that again, True."
"I hear you."
"And stop sitting in my driveway for a long period of time. You're being a weirdo, but you can come inside." Kash backed up so True could open the door. True grabbed her phone, and got out the car before following Kash into her two story home.
"I'm just going to break up with him." True spoke softly watching as Kash put Ava down on the couch and put cover over her.
"If that's not what you want to do then don't do it. I'm just informing you on what you need to know. Don't be a delusional ass bitch, True. You deserve more than that, really. I still like you and you still my best bitch. Just don't be acting dumb over these stupid ass niggas. I had to learn that the hard way and so did you. What Brazil put you through?"
True blinked, she tried to keep the tears from falling. Little did she know, she needed this talk. It was clear as day that she was being delusional. She still didn't know why she stooped so low for niggas like that. She knew if her dad didn't do what he did and they still talked and she told him about this, he would be disappointed.
Kash couldn't help but to sigh. She didn't care about True crying because she needed to hear this. She wouldn't and couldn't allow her friend to go through the same hurt she's been through again. True deserved so much more and she wouldn't receive that by getting with niggas who could care less about her feelings.
"What did Brazil put you through?"
"Hell, he did the absolute fucking worst. You right, I do deserve more and I know that I won't receive that from KJ. I just.. I just got back with him for that feeling. It was different but it felt good. And in these past two weeks, everything went away. But I think what I should do is move on from him." True shrugged. She didn't know if what she was saying made any sense.
Kash pulled True in a hug and with that True let everything out. She didn't even know she was holding all of this in. The best thing for her to do was officially let KJ go. Block his number and socia media accounts permanently. And if healing meant blocking Ms.Lorelai and Kova then that's what she was going to do.
"Stop crying— you know what I can't tell you how to feel. You lucky you have a good ass best friend. 'Cause I could have let you go on with your life with him and then watched as y'all broke up. Plus I don't even think he really wanted you back. I feel like he using you." Kash shrugged deciding to be quiet and let her best friend take everything in.
MEANWHILE, KJ was waiting for a text back from True. He hasn't talked to her since this morning, but he did feel a weird gut feeling. So, it insinuated that something bad was going to happen and whatever it was he didn't for it to happen. He liked how his life was going. He had True back into his life and every since that day of the cookout he's been able to find himself.
KJ felt like he was slick using True. Sometimes, he just brushed it off. He liked feeling how he felt with being able to see the light after being in the dark for awhile. He knew it was wrong and maybe that's what his weird gut feeling was about. Maybe just maybe, True found out about it and was getting ready to break up with him.
KJ called True for the fifth time and unfortunately she didn't answer. He hated this. He hated how she was being such a little girl. Why couldn't she just answer the phone and let him know what was going on? She was making this situation worse.
"I'm about to kill this girl." He mumbled. He went into his walk-in closet and grabbed one of his Nike hoodies. After he put it on, he grabbed his keys and gun off the nighstand before making his way downstairs. Just as he was about to open the door, he came in contact with True.
Her eyes were puffy red letting him know that she had just cried. He sucked his teeth pulling her inside the house.
"What you crying for?" KJ questioned, again sucking his teeth.
"Kair— KJ, I don't think we need to be together. Now that I think about it I can't be with someone who broke up with me for a invalid ass reason. I was able to forgive you and kind of move past it, but I don't know. I shouldn't have took you back. However, I just did because of that feeling you give me. I missed that so badly that I feel for it." True told him and he twisted his lips to the side.
He felt his stomach drop.
True didn't say anything else afterwards. She just felt like she didn't need to. She was about to go since he didn't say anything back, but he grabbed her arm before she could go.
He sighed. "Honestly, this is what's best for us. You deserve somebody else. Ian made at you, True. When we decided to get back together, we weren't fully thinking about the shit. That's where we went wrong. Once we decided to talk to clarify all that we should have just left shit where it was. Well I should have left everything where it was at. I shouldn't have pressured you into talking to me at the cookout. I apologize."
True nodded and walked out. All she could think about was her healing stage. She'd have to go through it again but only this time she'll actually fully heal. He's no longer going to be in her life because he'll be blocked.
"WHAT YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?" A sleepy Judas asked over the phone. His voice had been raspy for a little now. I liked when his voice was like that. It made me feel a way. "Hm?"
"Nothing, just thinking about grandpa." I told him looking up at the ceiling. My grandpa had been in a coma for awhile now. He had gotten into a car accident almost four years ago. My grandma didn't want to pull the plug like most had been wanting for her to do. She felt like it was wrong and in a way she felt like he'd wake up.
"I feel like he's not going to wake up." I said. Judas had known about our grandpa. Simply because Judas had been around to be considered a grandson to both of my grandparents. Let's just say, Amiri and Judas had been friends since elementary school. They were really close. So, Judas knew a lot of stuff about our family.
I couldn't say the same about his. Judas parent's died when he was the age of six. That's when my parent's adopted him, but I never looked at Judas as my brother. Ew. He never looked at me as a sister. It wasn't weird to me but other people might think that and quite frankly I don't give two fucks.
"You and Amiri say the same shit. Why you think that?" He sat up rubbing his eyes. When conversations like this were important he didn't care what he was doing. He'd stop and pay full attention. That's what I liked about him.
"Well he's been in a coma for 4 years. If he wanted to wake up, he would have been woke up. I think my grandma just needs to pull the plug. On top of that them lil bitches at the hospital talking about he taking up room like bitch. Maybe if you would have moved him to grandma place then it wouldn't be an issue."
"Bae— Kash, you need to stop." Judas corrected himself and I laughed a little. We might as well get together, but he insist that we wait. He stated that he wanted to make the day he asked me out special so... "Well, I feel like it's up to the person on whether or not they want to wake up or not. Ion really know, but from what I read and watched, yeah. I feel like he should just be at peace."
"Same, what did Amiri say and how's he? His stupid ass don't never answer the phone for anybody. I still don't know why he moved to stupid ass Dallas. You too."
"Shidddd, we moved because we wanted something different. And he was just saying the same shit. He thinking about moving back down there. He said he might as well listen to yo' dumb ass. Look, that's what he said for real. I'm just being a messenger because you asked."
I laughed again. "Bye, Judas. Listen to me about what though."
"Transfer? Like his job."
"Oh, yeah. He might as well and they pay better down here."
Amiri was an Orthodontist. Something he'd been wanting since he was a child. On the side, he helped out an the gymnasium for the boys who were interested in Basketball. He also worked with my mom sometimes since she was a Veterinarian.
Me on the other hand, I worked part time at Walmart and did Youtube on the side. It was what I could do to provide for Ava.
"Fasho." Judas agreed.
Judas was a Real Estate.
"I might just stay where I'm at not gone lie." He said and I frowned. I could deal with Judas and I being long distance because I seen him every now and then. But sometimes I couldn't help but to want to be around him 24/7. We aren't together, but I wanted him in my skin. I wanted every part of him which he surely knew about. "What? Youn want me to?"
"It's not about me, that'll be selfish. What you want to do?"
"It don't matter, mamas. What you want me to do?" He licked his lips looking into the camera. Ion know why he was licking his lips, I looked ugly as fuck.
"I want for you to move down here, but it's not my choice, Judas. That's selfish of me."
"Girl, shut up. I'm moving down there. How's Ava doing? Where she at?"
"Ava is either sleep or she creating videos for her Youtube Channel."
"Since when she had a Youtube?"
"Since a week ago. I just had to get her everything she needed. I edit her videos though, but it's not as much editing because it's like she's was bound to do this shit. You feel me?"
"Hell yeah. On me, I'm gone have to subscribe to her shit. Finna put allat on my social media and shit. What she do?"
"She either do rollplays with her dolls or she vlog. She be like 'mommy say hey' and I just be so adored by it. Judas I swear I love my daughter with my full damn heart. She's really like a mini me for real."
"Hell yeah, I'm glad she look like you. What made you go for someone like Austin?" He questioned and I shook my head laughing. "Not gone lie, that's an ugly ass name. I know his momma hated him."
All I could do was laugh. And now I'm embarrassed because why would I go for a nigga named Austin?
"Well at the time I liked Austin. He wasn't like how he is now. He wasn't an asshole or anything of that sort. He actually cared about me and unlike everyone else, he liked me for who I was. He didn't care about the big breast and the big ass. He liked me for my personality. So, he was the first real nigga that liked me for that. I fell for him. He wasn't a dumb ass nigga, he was actually smart as fuck. We fell for one another, but when it came down to us meeting family it didn't go well. My momma liked him, but my dad and Amiri? Absolutely not. His mom and dad liked me but his grandma's and aunt's were like no, find someone else."
"Did that stop us from being with each other? No. We didn't care about them or anyone else opinions. All we cared about was each other. We were like them popular highschool sweethearts. Everybody wanted to be like us. We were so deeply in love with one another. At the time he was everything I wanted until he wasn't. After we fucked and I told him I was pregnant weeks later, he started treating me like shit. He didn't do the things he normally did. My whole pregnancy he gave me hell. I was stressed, but I couldn't lose my baby."
"So, guess what I did? I dropped him. Not permanently though. I took him back because I felt like I needed him. He said he was gone change and did he? Nope. I still stayed with him. I cried, screamed, all that. Until I was finally over it and broke up with him officially. Guess what? I didn't need him. I was able to heal and everything."
"All I can say is that Austin taught me a lot of shit. Yeah he hurt me but if I wouldn't have met him then I wouldn't know most of the shit I knew today." I finished off sighing deeply. "I just hate that he couldn't be there for Ava. She needs her dad, but he doesn't want her because he wasn't prepared for a baby."
"Like nigga what? If you wasn't ready then you shouldn't have fucked me without protection. Like be for real." I said rolling my eyes.
"Fuck him real shit. I know Ava gone wonder where her dad is and shit. Tuh, she might even cry about it, but once she gets older she gone realize a lot. She gone thank you for being not only her mother but filling up the role of her father. Hell, I'll step in the daddy role. Ion got a problem with doing that."
"I appreciate it, but I don't know Judas. You know I really appreciate you for everything."
"I appreciate you too. I'm gone come see you soon, mamas."
"I know, you literally don't have a choice but to come see me. I miss you a lot. You sleepy? I'm sleepy?"
"Hell yeah."
"Okay, well give me a second. I need to call True and see how she's doing." I told him and hung up. I wasted no time going to my recent call log and pressed on hers. She texted me letting me know she ended things with KJ earlier. It would be right for me to ask if she's okay.
"Yeah?"
"Are you crying?" I asked now worried about her. I did what I had to do. I couldn't let True be delusional. I wanted better for her. I wanted better for myself as well. And if that meant letting go of this immature weird ass niggas then that would be it.
"Yeah."
"Should I come over and we maybe eat ice cream, watch movies, do karaoke?"
"Um, no. I'm pretty sure you were on the phone with Judas. I'm gone be okay, I promise. Bye, hun." She hung up.
I frowned, usually when we were having bad days we'd do stuff like that. What if she was mad at me for telling her all that stuff instead of letting her be? What if she no longer wanted to be friends with me.
what did i do?
a/n;
okay maybe im a lil bipolar because i did state that i was ending the story because i felt like i was dragging it. just bare with me because i feel like NOW its getting somewhere.
so yall gotten to know more about kash. - how do yall feel about her?
- how do yall feel about kash telling true everything she needed to kno?
- do yall feel like she should have just let true be happy even though kash knew what the outcome was going to be?
thoughts about judas?
- him wanting to fill the father role for Ava?
im already knowin im gon like their relationship. it seems so mature.
w/c; 3319 words