#OLAPlayPretend
Chapter 33
Make Love
Magkahawak-kamay kaming dalawa ni Xaiver na lumabas ng airport. I immediately saw the chauffeur waiting for us, holding a sign with our names written on it. Sa likod niya ay nakaparada ang isang limousine. It was long enough to fit at least eight passengers.
I bit my lip and moved closer to Xaiver. Napakapit din ako sa braso niya at mabilis na inikot ang tingin sa paligid. Locals and tourists were watching us like we were in a movie. The limousine was unusual and over-the-top. Hindi ko alam na ganoong klaseng sasakyan ang susundo sa amin.
"Mr. and Mrs. Dela Vega?" Lumapit ang nakangiting chauffeur. He was dressed in a suit to look formal. His thick accent was audible when he pronounced our name.
Xaiver simply nodded, and the chauffeur helped us with our luggage right away. Binuksan niya rin ang pintuan para sa amin.
Una akong pinapasok ni Xaiver. My lips parted in awe to see the interior of the limousine. It was like a small, private bar inside a car. May mga mood lights pa, which improved the ambiance. May pang dalawahan na upuan sa tapat ng pintuan at sa pinakaloob ay ang L-shaped na upuan.
The bar was right in front of the L-shaped seat. Nandoon ang bucket na lalagyanan ng yelo. May mga naka-display ring mga bote ng wine, champagne, at whiskey. Bukod pa roon ay mayroon ding fridge kung nasaan ang soft drinks at beers. It was really a moving bar.
"Grabe... Hindi mo sinabi sa aking magli-limo tayo..." manghang-mangha kong komento kay Xaiver.
Bahagyang natawa si Xaiver at saka umakbay. He pulled me to his side. Kahit na mahaba ang upuan, nagsisiksikan kaming dalawa.
"That should be expected already," mayabang na sabi ni Xaiver.
Humalukipkip ako at konting humarap sa kanya. "Paano ko i-e-expect 'yon kung sabi mo wala ka ng pera? You're broke, right?"
"Kasama ang honeymoon natin sa mga binayaran ko kaya ako naghirap," paglusot niya.
I raised my brow. Alam ko namang nagsisinungaling lang siya, pero natural na natural talaga ang pag-arte niya. He even wore a straight face while saying those lies.
Hinayaan ko na lang si Xaiver na paniwalain ang sarili niya. During the 30-minute ride to the city of Barcelona, we drank our chosen beverage available in the limo. Hindi kami uminom ng kahit anong alcohol. I had organic orange juice, while Xaiver chose a local carbonated drink.
I didn't get to see the city view while we were traveling inside the limo. Kaya naman nang bumaba kami ng sasakyan para maglakad sa isang makitid na daanan papuntang sa aming titirahan, I couldn't help but be filled with awe.
The buildings and houses around us reminded me of the old architecture in the Philippines — that's already given since we were colonized by the Spaniards. However, it still felt like I had time traveled to thousands of years ago.
I had been to Europe with Xaiver for his business trips, but we had never traveled to Spain until our honeymoon. Ayos na rin palang siya ang hinayaan kong magplano ng at hindi na ako nakialam. I would never think of coming here, if ever.
"Let's go. Our apartment is still a few blocks away," aya ni Xaiver nang mapansing napatulala na lang ako sa pagmamasid sa paligid.
Hila-hila niya ang dalawa naming malaking maleta. He led the way to our apartment. He decided that we should stay in Spain for a month. Susulitin na naming dalawa ang rest days ni Xaiver bago siya maging busy ulit sa trabaho. It was also the last time I'd get to travel freely dahil papasok na ulit ako sa DVH.
Mukhang hindi first time ni Xaiver na makapunta sa tutuluyan namin. He didn't even have to look at the map. Dire-diretso lang ang lakad namin papasok sa isang building. Pagkatapos ay sumakay kami sa elevator saka bumaba sa sixth floor.
Nag-iisa lang ang pintuan pagkalabas namin sa sixth floor. Wala ring mahabang hallway kagaya ng ine-expect ko. It looked like a foyer. And when Xaiver finally revealed our lodging, I found it really similar to penthouse apartments in hotels and condominiums, lalo na't nasa pinakataas na palapag ang apartment.
It has a high ceiling and an unusual structure. The interior seemed very personalized. Hindi iyon katulad ng ibang airbnb na more on classic ang style ng interior. The apartment we'd be living in has a very specific target market.
Kumpara sa itsura nito sa labas, nasa modern side ang loob. The furniture and appliances screamed luxury. Agad akong nakaramdam ng matinding kuryosidad kung magkano nagastos niya sa tinutuluyan namin.
"You like it?" Xaiver asked when he noticed I was stuck in one place while surveying the apartment. "You can go to the terrace if you want to enjoy the view outside."
Hinarap ko si Xaiver. Nakaturo siya sa sliding glass door, covered with sheer curtains, kung nasaan ang terrace. Hindi ko pa man masyadong makita dahil sa kurtinang nakaharang, ngunit sigurado akong malaki 'yon. I could see the silhouette of the outdoor living and dining area.
"Dito ba talaga tayo titira ng isang buwan?" naninigurado kong tanong kay Xaiver.
"Yes."
Napaawang ang bibig ko. I still had not seen the rest of the rooms, and I had no idea how big the apartment was, but I wouldn't be surprised if the rate would go beyond 20 thousand per night.
Kahit na napakayaman ng mga Dela Vega, I couldn't help but feel like we were overspending for our honeymoon. Sigurado naman akong may mga maayos din na Airbnbs na mura. May downside pa rin pala talaga ang hayaan si Xaiver na magdesisyon. He couldn't care less about throwing his money away.
"Magkano 'to per night?" sunod kong tanong.
"The what?"
"Itong apartment."
"Oh, this..." Nilibot ni Xaiver ng tingin ang sala bago ako hinarap. "I didn't pay for anything."
Naningkit ang mga mata ko. Why does it sound so suspicious?
"It's a gift," dagdag niya pa.
"Galing kanino?"
"My father."
"Kay... P-Papa?" I tried my best not to stutter, but I still did.
Tumango siya at hindi napigilang sumilay ang ngiti.
"Hmm so siya pala ang nagbayad ng tinutuluyan natin ngayon..." sabi ko na lang para hindi mahiya. "Magkano kaya nagastos niya?"
"Seventy-two million."
"Seventy-two million?!" Nanlaki ang mga mata ko kasabay nang pagsitayuan ng aking mga balahibo. "Para sa isang buwan na pagtira natin dito? Seventy-two million?"
Xaiver's eyes narrowed a little before he realized something. He chuckled and massaged the bridge of his nose. "Baby, this is not for rent..." he said, then smiled meaningfully. "This is our very own property here in Barcelona."
I was more bewildered by that fact. Muntik na akong masamid sa hangin dahil sa pagkabigla.
"Matagal na 'tong binili ni Daddy rito sa Spain. They have golden visas. He and my mom lived here for a year after getting married. They fell in love with the country and the city when they visited once," kuwento niya. "They want us to experience the same thing. Hindi ko naman talaga plano na dito ang honeymoon natin, but... Dad made a lot of points. Now, he transferred the property to our names as his wedding gift. It's ours now, baby."
Napaawang ang aking mga labi. Wala pang tatlong araw simula nang ikasal kami ni Xaiver, pero may nakapangalan na agad na property sa akin.
"Pero... bakit niya binigay sa atin?"
This apartment must hold a lot of memories for his parents. Parang nakakapanghinayang lang na ibinigay lang nila sa amin.
"Well... It will become mine eventually kaya sa 'yo na rin kapag nangyari 'yon. Let's just say na pinaaga lang nila," natatawa niyang sagot saka lumapit sa akin.
Pumuwesto si Xaiver sa likuran ko. He wrapped his arms around my waist, with his hands claiming my stomach. Ipinatong niya rin ang baba sa aking balikat. It still felt unusual and awkward for me to be that intimate with him, but there was also that feeling of warmth and comfort.
"My father believes that we will take great care of it and..." His lips lightly grazed my cheek when he tilted his head to look at me from a very close distance. "He also hopes that this is where we're gonna have our firstborn."
My eyes went wide open. My cheeks were flushed. It should be a normal thing for married couples, pero noong isang gabi lang kami nagkapalagayan ng loob.
And to be honest, I understood what he meant, but I still wasn't that sure of his feelings. Xaiver wasn't direct with his words, kaya nangangapa pa rin ako.
Alam kong gusto niya ako, pero paanong gusto? Is it something deep, or a feeling so shallow like his feelings for Macy back then? Is it also just an infatuation? Will it last? How long?
"Mag-aayos muna ako ng mga gamit," sabi ko na lang at bahagya siyang tinulak.
Mabuti na lang at agad na akong nakawala. Feeling his warmth after hearing those words stirred up my insides. Hindi magandang pakiramdam.
Xaiver chuckled, knowing I was only trying to get away. "Are you on pills?"
Napapikit ako nang mariin habang hila-hila ang aking maleta. Hindi ako sumagot dahil pakiramdam ko'y nang-iinis lang siya. Wala akong ideya kung saan ang kuwarto namin, but I immediately entered the nearest bedroom to escape.
I started taking pills when my work schedule became hectic. Naging irregular ang menstruation dahil sa stress kaya nagpa-check up ako. At dahil hindi naman nawala ang pagiging busy sa trabaho, nakasanayan ko na lang din kaya kahit noong nag-resign ako ay tuloy-tuloy pa rin ang pag-inom.
Ngayong kahit kasal na ako, parang wala pa sa isip ko ang pagbuo ng pamilya. I don't think I'm ready to enter that phase of life. Madami pa akong gustong gawin. Madami pa akong gustong marating. I want to be financially stable. Kahit na asawa ko na si Xaiver, I still like the idea of being capable of raising my own child and providing for my family while paying for my mother's medical expenses. Ayaw kong iasa ang lahat sa kanya.
Nagsimula akong mag-ayos ng gamit. Mali nga ang napasok kong kuwarto kaya dinala ako ni Xaiver sa master's bedroom. He also organized his things inside the walk-in closet, which was very unlikely. Madalas ay ako ang nag-aayos din ng gamit niya o kaya naman ang housekeeping ng hotel.
Naunahan ko siya sa pag-aayos, as expected. Lumipat ako sa kusina para tingnan kung mayroong stocks, pero walang laman ang ref at fridge. The pantry was also empty. We could order dinner for now, pero mas makakatipid kung mag-go-grocery na lang kami lalo na't isang buwan kami sa Espanya.
"I'm done organizing my things!" anunsyo ni Xaiver nang sundan ako sa kusina. He looked so proud of himself for successfully doing a chore.
I smiled at him and pointed at the empty pantry. Malalalim na linya ang lumabas sa kanyang noo nang tiningnan 'yon.
"What?" he asked, then turned to me again.
"Kailangan nating mag-grocery. May malapit ba rito?" tanong ko. "Puwede siguro tayong mamili bukas. Mag-order na lang tayo ngayon para sa dinner or sa labas na lang tayo kumain?"
"Grocery?" Xaiver's eyes lit up in excitement. "Let's do it now. I'll just get the keys."
Bago pa ako makasagot, mabilis na bumalik si Xaiver sa kuwarto. Pagkabalik niya, may dala na siyang susi. I figured it was car keys. Dahil may apartment si Papa rito, hindi na ako nagulat na mayroon ding sasakyan.
The sun was close to setting when we went out for a ride to the nearest supermarket. Sayang at medyo may kalayuan iyon sa apartment kaya hindi puwedeng lakarin, but I bet it would be romantic to walk on the streets of Barcelona during dusk.
Xaiver quickly pulled a cart when we entered Mercadona. He was so enthusiastic about grocery shopping that I couldn't help looking at him in awe. Hindi man siguro 'yon ang unang beses siyang nakapag-grocery na siya mismo ang namili at bumili, pero sigurado akong hindi lalagpas ang bilang sa kamay ko. He has his own personal shopper na siyang bumibili ng mga groceries niya.
I suddenly remembered when I took him out to buy a shirt at the Mall of Asia. Parang ganoon din siya ka-excited kaya naman nakaramdam din ako nang matinding tuwa.
"What are you waiting for? Let's go," aya ni Xaiver nang hindi ako kumikilos.
Natauhan naman ako at natawa na lang. Agad akong lumapit saka kumapit sa kaliwang braso niya. Siya ang nagtulak ng cart. He didn't want to let go of it while we went through different sections. Bumibitiw ako ng kapit sa kanya tuwing kumukuha ng ilalaman, but he would extend his arm immediately once I was done.
Para talaga kaming newlyweds habang nag-go-grocery. We were clingy, especially Xaiver. Ayaw niyang nalalayo ako sa kanya.
"Hindi ko abot 'yon. Paki naman." Tinuro ko kay Xaiver ang pamilyar na brand ng sabong panlaba rito sa Barcelona. Ang ibang brand ay noon ko lang nadinig kaya ayon ang pinili ko.
For the first time, binitiwan ni Xaiver ang cart. He effortlessly reached the laundry detergent above me. And once he got the box, he suddenly dipped his head and pressed a quick kiss on my lips.
Xaiver smiled after catching me off-guard with the kiss and said, "You're welcome."
My eyelids fluttered in surprise, and I felt heat rise to my cheeks. Xaiver just nonchalantly put the laundry detergent in our cart. Akala mo hindi siya nagnakaw ng halik!
"Let's go! We still have to cook dinner," sabi niya at saka inilapit sa akin ang braso.
Kaysa pagsabihan siya sa ginawang pagnakaw ng halik, napailing at napangiti na lang ako. I did what he wanted me to do and linked my arms with his. Nagpatuloy kaming nag-grocery nang ganoon ang ayos. He watched me intently while picking out fresh fruits and vegetables. Para bang pinag-aaralan niya nang mabuti kung paano gawin 'yon.
"Ito na muna ang bilhin natin. Good for two weeks na 'to. Kapag naubos, saka tayo ulit bumili dahil baka hindi natin maubos," sabi ko.
Pinasadahan ni Xaiver ng tingin ang cart. He looked disappointed despite the mountain of groceries in our cart. "Kasya na ba 'to for two weeks? Parang kulang pa. We should shop more."
"Kasya na 'yan at baka nga sobra pa. Nakakamagkano na rin tayo," paliwanag ko.
"Money is not a problem," he said.
Nagtaas ako ng kilay at humalukipkip. "Akala ko ba naghihirap ka na? Anong money is not a problem? Kailangan nating magtipid!"
"I told you I have a separate budget for our honeymoon. Kasama na ang expenses natin sa trip na 'to. You have nothing to worry about," palusot niya na naman, talagang sumasakay pa rin sa nasimulang biro.
"Magkano naman ang kabuuang budget natin?"
"I don't know. Kung magkano man ang magastos natin," he simply answered and shrugged his shoulders.
"May ganoon ba? Unlimited budget kahit naghihirap?" Hindi ko alam kung bakit nakikipagtalo ako sa kanya, pero nakakatuwang madinig ang mga palusot niya.
"Now you know," he shamelessly replied and smirked.
Napailing na lamang ako. I realized I could never beat him. Fortunately, he also conceded. Nagbayad na kami at hindi na nagdagdag pa. Pagkatapos ay agad din kaming bumalik sa apartment.
While Xaiver was organizing the groceries in the pantry and fridge, I decided to cook our dinner. Para mabilis lang din at madali ang pagluluto, chicken adobo na lang ang napili ko.
"I'm done with the groceries. What about you?" tanong ni Xaiver pagkalabas niya sa pantry.
Sinulyapan ko lang siya saka agad binalik ang tingin sa adobo.
"Tapos na rin pero hinihintay ko pang matuyo. Mas malasa ang manok kapag natuyo," sagot ko.
"Uhuh..."
Naramdaman ko ang paglapit ni Xaiver sa likuran ko, ngunit bago ko pa siya nalingon ay pumulupot na sa bewang ko ang kanyang braso. Like it was already his thing, he breathed in relief as he placed his chin on my shoulder.
"I'm so happy..." Xaiver whispered hoarsely. "I feel like we're really married now."
Kinagat ko ang aking ibabang labi, ngunit nakatakas pa rin ang ngiti. Masaya akong malaman na hindi lang pala ako ang nakaramdam no'n dahil ganoon din siya.
"I want to stay here longer, but I can't wait for us to go back and do these things in our home..." he said. "We'll do groceries. I'll organize them in our pantry. You'll cook in our kitchen. We'll always eat together... sleep on the same bed... take a bath at the same time..."
I swallowed the lump in my throat. Parang may mali sa huli niyang sinabi na siyang nagdala ng init sa buong katawan ko, but I was too engrossed in his whispers to care about it. Xaiver has occupied every space in my head.
"I want to kiss every part of you..." bulong niya at nagsimula sa paghalik sa aking braso at leeg. "I'm so happy that I don't think I can wait for another night."
Xaiver swiftly spun me around to face him. Tinukod niya ang dalawang kamay sa countertop at ikinulong ako sa gitna ng mga braso. His sensual look made my throat feel so parched until he pressed his lips on mine.
His kisses quenched my thirst. He tried moving his mouth, kissing me from different angles. Hindi ako makasunod. Napakapit ako sa manggas ng kanyang t-shirt at bahagyang inilayo ang mukha.
"'Yung a-adobo..." paalala ko.
Xaiver didn't answer. He just leaned in for another kiss while pressing his body closer.
Nadinig ko ang pagtunog ng stove, hudyat na namatay ito. Binaba ko saglit ang mukha upang masigurado kung napatay ang induction. Nakita ko ang daliri ni Xaiver malapit sa button bago niya inangat ang kamay upang itulak ang aking baba pataas.
"Sa akin ka lang tumingin..." he whispered so sensually.
Aamba siya ulit ng halik, ngunit inilagay ko ang aking kamay sa kanyang dibdib upang pigilan.
"Paano 'yung... adobo?" nagsumikap kong sabi kahit na nasasabik na rin ako sa halik.
"We can just have that later."
Muling sumubok sa paghalik si Xaiver. His lips successfully touched mine. Umiwas nga lang ako ulit at tinulak siya upang makapagsalita.
Ngumuso ako bahagya. "Masamang pinaghihintay ang biyaya..."
"That's why I'm eating you now..." he said, wearing a lascivious grin before kissing me again.
Hindi na ako umiwas. Those words filled my head with naughty thoughts. Isinabit ko ang aking mga braso sa kanyang leeg nang idiniin ang halik. He then swiftly lifted one of my legs up bago ko naramdaman ang kanyang mga kamay sa aking pang-upo upang maiangat ako sa countertop.
His kisses went deeper. Bawat halik ay nakakapaso. Mas lalo akong napakapit sa kanya hanggang sa magkadikit na ang aming dibdib. And when his tongue slipped past the small opening of my mouth, tuluyan ko nang nakalimutan ang adobo.
Bahala na ang manok!
Xaiver's hand continued caressing my legs, fanning the flames inside me. Naramdaman ko ang unti-unting pag-angat ng bestida. I could feel the cold touching my skin, which was immediately replaced by his warmth.
Habang patuloy pa rin sa paghalik, ang isang kamay niya ay tuluyan nang ibinaba ang kaliwang strap ng bestida kasama ang bra. Ganoon din ang ginawa niya sa kabila. It revealed my bare chest. I was already half-naked in front of him.
His lips traveled from my neck to my collarbone until he started sucking and pulling my peak. Napasinghap ako sa kakaibang naramdaman. I unconsciously put my hands at the back of his head para ipagpatuloy niya ang ginagawa. However, when his hand slowly crawled in between my thighs, doon ko na itinuon ang buong atensyon.
"Hmm!" I held back my voice when his finger touched me indirectly.
Kahit na mayroon pang nakaharang na tela, hindi ko maiwasan ang mag-apoy dahil sa simpleng pagdaan ng kanyang daliri. Kaya naman nang ipinasok niya sa loob ang kamay, I lost it. Electricity ran through my body.
His fingers played with my clit, making circular motions. He wasn't being gentle at all with his touches kaya mas lalo akong nabaliw sa hatid no'ng pakiramdam. Nagpatuloy ulit siya sa paghalik sa akin. Para bang iwinawala niya ako sa mga nangyari at talaga nga namang nagtagumpay siya.
My eyes widened, watching him as he knelt down in front of me and removed my panty at the same time. I tried closing my legs when his face was at the same level as my naked flesh. Titig na titig din siya roon na mas lalo kong ikinahiya.
Hindi nga lang niya ako hinayaan. He used his strength to keep my legs open.
"X-Xavi..." nahihiya kong tawag sa kanya.
"Stay still." Diniinan niya ang hawak sa mga binti ko. "I wanna taste you."
Napaawang ang mga labi ko. And when he dipped his head to kiss my flesh, hindi ko na nakilala ang aking boses nang isinigaw ang pangalan niya.
"Xavi!"
Xaiver flicked his tongue on my clit. It felt better than using just his fingers. I arched my back and pushed my hips closer. He continued licking my sweet juices until his tongue plunged inside me.
"Oh! Xavi!"
He tried to reach as deep as he could using his tongue. And as if that wasn't enough to drive me insane, his hand also massaged my breast at the same time.
The pleasure rose every time I felt his tongue graze my insides. He played me rougher. I got wetter and wetter every second, feeling a strong buildup. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako kakapit kaya naman wala sa sarili akong napahawak na lang sa buhok ni Xaiver, and it was only a matter of seconds before I reached orgasm.
Kahit na wala akong ginawa at nakaupo lamang ako sa counter top, para akong pagod na pagod. Xaiver stopped the foreplay when I finally came. Tumayo siya at agad akong sinuportahan nang hinayaan kong bumagsak sa kanya ang aking katawan.
"I'm sorry, baby... but we're not done yet," he whispered and kissed the side of my head.
"Ha?" I felt too tired to speak.
Hindi na ako sinagot ni Xaiver. He scooped me up in his arms effortlessly. Para bang nagbuhat lang siya ng unan.
Muli kong isinukbit ang mga braso sa kanyang leeg dahil sa takot na baka malaglag. Mabilis naman kaming nakarating sa master's bedroom. The door was already slightly open kaya itinulak niya na lamang 'yon gamit ang matipunong braso. At nang makapasok ay ginamit niya na lang ang paa upang maisara ang pinto dahil buhat-buhat niya ako.
Xaiver carefully placed me on the bed. Namumungay pa ang aking mga mata habang nakatingin sa kanya nang biglang magising ang buong diwa ko.
Nagmamadaling tinanggal ni Xaiver ang kanyang sinturon. He also removed his shirt and threw it on the floor. I wanted to admire his abdominal muscles, but his lower part stole my attention when he took off his pants.
The evident bulge in the middle of his boxer shorts made me swallow hard. Nakatago pa lang iyon ay kinabahan na ako. I heard Xaiver chuckle, and I caught him smirking when I looked up to him. However, his face didn't pique my interest, especially when he was going naked.
Wala pang tatlong segundo ay bumaba ulit ang tingin ko. I held my breath the moment he removed his boxers to reveal his huge member standing tall. No wonder he was so confident. Ni hindi man lang siya nag-alangan at nagpakita ng hiya.
"Why don't you take the lead?" namamaos niyang tanong sa akin.
"H-ha?" Napakurap-kurap ako.
"Lead me," he said, taking my hand to hold his member.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. I felt his arousal contract in my hand, even though I was gentle with my touch. Narinig ko ang mahinang ungol niya. For some reason, it made me determined to pleasure him like he did to me.
I moved my head close to his thick shaft and licked the tip. Tiningala ko si Xaiver. He bit his lower lip, which was a good sign. I licked him again while simultaneously moving my hand around him to please him more.
"Baby..." he groaned.
I opened my mouth wide for him to fit and braced myself for his size. I sucked his member until the head reached the back of my throat, pero wala pang kalahati ng kanya ang narating ko.
"Baby, take it slow..." sabi ni Xaiver dahil sa biglaang ginawa ko.
I coughed and pulled my head away. It was a bold move when it was my first time. I couldn't do it again. I wouldn't dare. Kaya nang subukan ko ulit ay sinunod ko ang payo ni Xaiver — nagdahan-dahan ako.
I got on my knees, bent my neck a little, and gave him a blow at my own pace. I was slow and gentle compared to his way of doing foreplay. Sa laki niya nga lang ay agad akong nangawit. I couldn't do it for a long time.
Xaiver chuckled at that. "I'll take over now. You're tired."
Inihiga ako ni Xaiver sa kama. He kissed me again while he inserted two fingers in between my folds.
"Xavi!"
It was a different kind of pleasure to feel his fingers inside me. He thrust a few times to make sure I was wet enough before he knelt on the bed.
His tip teased my entrance while he positioned himself properly. Mariin kong kinagat ang aking labi bilang paghahanda. Napakapit din ako sa comforter. I didn't know if I was wet enough to ease the pain. Knowing how big he was, I was scared that it wouldn't fit. Na baka mas masakit iyon kumpara sa inakala ko noong una.
"I'll be as gentle as I can..." sabi niya at nahimigan ko rin ng konting takot ang boses ni Xaiver.
Tiningala ko siya at nakita ang paulit-ulit na pag-igting ng kanyang panga. Agad din naman akong napapikit nang naramdaman ang unti-unti niyang pagpasok.
"Xa..." Pinigilan ko ang mapasigaw sa sakit.
I bit my lip even harder. I tried to make it as painful as what I felt down there. Parang tip pa lang ang napapasok pero grabe na ang sakit. I could feel his member slowly widening me to fit inside as he pushed deeper, making sure that I would take its form.
Habang maingat na ipinapasok nang buo ang kanya, naramdaman ko ang muling paghalik ni Xaiver sa akin. He then went to suck one breast while molding the other one. Para bang gusto niyang sa sarap noon matuon ang atensyon ko kaysa sa sakit, but it was impossible because of his size.
So when he fully thrust himself into me, I couldn't stop myself from tearing up. "Xavi..." I cried his name. Sa kanyang mga braso na niya ako kumapit.
His arms flexed as he leaned down to press a soft kiss on my lips. "I'm sorry, baby..." he whispered, his hot breath seeping deep into my skin. "I love you... I love you..."
Panandaliang tumigil ang mundo para sa akin hanggang sa nanikip ang dibdib kasabay ng panunuyo ng lalamunan. Tears streamed down my face. Umiling ako at niyakap na siya nang tuluyan para matago ang pag-iyak ko.
I didn't want him to be sorry. Masaya ako. Despite the pain, masayang-masaya ako. Being one with him meant a lot to me. Hearing those words brought comfort to my anxious heart. Nawala na ang konting duda na natitira. It served as an assurance to my doubtful heart.
Pakiramdam ko'y nagtagumpay ako sa pag-abot sa kanya. I feared that I would never reach him. I thought our feelings could never meet halfway, pero siya pa mismo ang gumawa ng paraan.
He didn't lower himself for me, but pulled me up instead. He did everything not to make me feel less of him. He reminded me of my worth every single time I lost myself due to insecurities. But making love with him made me forget all of that.
I felt happy. I felt appreciated. I felt loved.
"Thank you..." I whispered while hugging him tightly. "...for making me happy."
Sandaling natigil si Xaiver sa unti-unting paggalaw, but I seemed to have stretched his limits as he said, "Now you've really done it."
"Xavi!" I shouted his name when he suddenly pulled me up and let me sit on his lap.
Ang kanyang kamay ay mahigpit ang hawak sa aking bewang. He kissed me roughly as he began to move my hips. The lewd sounds of my butt clapping on his thighs filled the room. Agad napalitan ng sarap ang sakit pagkatapos ng ilang paglabas at masok. Kumawala rin ang boses ko nang tigilan niya ang paghalik. He feasted on my peak until he picked up the pace.
Tumingala si Xaiver. Beads of sweat trickled down his neck. He groaned and clenched his jaw. I wanted to take a good look at him during that moment, but my vision was blurry as I kept bouncing in front of him.
It was the least of my concerns when I felt another buildup inside me. My body started tingling all over. I could feel my heartbeat down there. Bukod pa roon, naramdaman ko rin ang mas lalong paglaki ni Xaiver sa loob ko. I gasped to feel his tip kissing my womb.
"Baby... Uh..." he moaned before he flipped me over.
Nakadapa na ako sa kama. Nakasuporta ang aking mga kamay at tuhod doon. My hair was all over my face. Muling hinawakan ni Xaiver ang aking bewang bago ipinasok muli ang kanya.
I was right. It was bigger than it was earlier. Pagkapasok niya pa lang ay hindi ko na makilala ang boses na pinakawalan ko.
My stomach tightened while Xaiver pounded against me like crazy. Mas lumakas at mas umingay rin ang paghampas niya. I heard him groaning and moaning quietly as his member twitched inside.
"Xaiver!"
I felt a whole new level of intensity with my earth-shattering orgasm, accompanied by Xaiver's hot release. It sent shivers down my spine and spread warmth in my womb.
As my muscles relaxed from relief, my body collapsed on the bed. I was catching my breath like I had just run a mile. Gusto ko na lang matulog at magpahinga.
Naramdaman ko ang marahang pagpatong ni Xaiver sa akin. Hinalikan niya ang balikat ko. He didn't pull out, and I could still feel his arousal. It seemed as if he didn't come a few seconds ago.
Kaya niya pa?!
"I want more..." bulong niya at unti-unting umangat ang halik niya mula sa aking balikat.