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𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐃𝐀𝐘, 𝐒𝐄𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝟐𝟐
𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐍, 𝐓𝐗 ➩ 𝟔:𝟑𝟗𝐏𝐌
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"TATTOOS AFTER TATTOOS, HUH?" My mom asked as she got the Brownies and Cookies out of the oven. Her and grandma decided to come over so we could watch Wakanda Forever and Avatar The Way of Water.
"Right 'cause the last time I remember you only had one on your thigh I believe." Grandma sat down on the couch with cover over her body.
"Y'all being dramatic this my second tattoo and I plan on getting more but maybe later on." I shrugged sitting down as well so I could go on Disney+ since that's where Wakanda Forever was.
"I'm not I'm just asking..." Momma put her hands up in defense, but I knew where she was getting at by asking the question.
"So, who does the tattoos?" Grandma questioned.
"KJ." I shrugged simply because I didn't find anything wrong with it. I was comfortable with letting him still do my tattoos and when I went to his shop to get it done, we didn't really talk. It was just a hey and how you doing type of thing. Though, he wanted to extend the conversation because he knew he was wrong and wanted me back.
I knew he wanted me back. He still had my number and instagram, he made sure to text me and tell me how much he was sorry. How he wanted me back and this and that, but I wasn't trying to hear what he had to say.
He made it clear that we were done because he felt like he spent too much time with me which again was false as fuck. In reality, he broke up with me because he has fucked up abandonment issues and people always leaving him. And I wouldn't have done him like that.
Once I'm off you I'm off you and that's the end of it. There's no going back and that's literally what I told myself when Brazil and I ended things.
Grandma was going to say something but she chose to leave it alone. Out of my mom and her, she's the one that wanted for me to be with him so badly for whatever reason. She just needed to know that her vision or whatever just wasn't right. There's no more KJ and I.
"Okay, how's college going?" Momma asked coming to sit in the middle of us after feeling the tension. She put the Brownies and Cookies on the coffee table that sat in front of us.
"Good." I told her which was true, but the essays? Definitely not.
"How's Kash doing?"
Kash, Kashlynn, was my close friend. We had met the day KJ and I broke up. Long story short, I decided to go to a party to get drunk obviously because my feelings were hurt as fuck. I didn't know anyone at the party, but after seeing Kash sitting alone I decided to go up to her and introduce myself. Luckily, she wasn't like most girls— rude. Just like that we had already became friends and after being drunk off our asses and getting turnt to the music, we exchanged numbers.
Every since that day we been close as fuck. We talk nearly every single day whenever she isn't busy with Ava— her daughter. She was even close with my mom and my grandma. They loved her a lot and always asked about her. They even liked Ava, she was a sweet lil girl. Quiet and well-mannered.
"She's okay, I miss her though." I frowned turning the movie on.
"Where she at?"
"With Ava who has Covid and Kash caught it too from being under Ava."
After both of the movies were over with they ended up leaving knowing they could have stayed. Which left me up bored so I decided to post on my story 'ask me questions', and I was going to do a Youtube Video.
It was around 11PM almost 12AM, I couldn't sleep. So while I decided to wait on my followers to ask questions, either I was going to call Kash or play music.
I called Kash letting it ring on twice and once I hung up the phone, she called back. I hope I didn't wake her or Ava up.
"Hello?" She put her face in the camera also showing Ava laying on her chest.
"Did I wake you?" I questioned turning all the lights off downstairs and going into my room.
"No, you good girl. I just put Ava to sleep though. You okay? Why you not sleep?"
"My mom and grandma just left, but I don't know why I'm not sleep." I shrugged sitting on my bed.
"You still could be thinking about KJ. You don't never go to sleep, True. Maybe I'm being dramatic but you literally go to sleep around 4AM and only get three to four hours of sleep. There has to be something on your mind, just think about it." She said and I sighed.
"Have you acknowledged how you truly felt about the situation?"
"I was sad, heartbroken, and everything that comes with being broken up with. Now I'm just over it because it is what it is."
"I don't think you're over it. I think you still have questions that needs to be answered. That way after you ask him all the questions it will be like a weight being lifted off your shoulders. You'll be okay and able to move on from the situation without saying 'it is what it is'. Like be for real."
"I really don't want to talk to him."
"You need to! It's literally the same thing you did with Brazil. You went to talk to him and you were able to move on because he clarified everything up. I'm telling you I know it will work."
"Okay, I'll text him." I went to my iMessages and went to find KJ's contact name which was simply KJ.
KJ
Today 1:24PM
You don't understand how badly I want us back. I made a mistake and I'm admitting to it can't you see that? I hated how I just broke up with you. I'm dumb as hell and I should have thought more about it. Please talk to me.
Today 11:55PM
kj we need to talk.
Delievered
"Okay I texted him and now I'm waiting for him to text back." I told her. "How's Ava and you doing?"
"We both doing good. I feel better and every time I ask Ava she says she feels better as well. So, we're going to get tested tomorrow to see if we still have it and if we don't just know we partying. We haven't since July."
"Yeah I definitely will need it. Especially since KJ and I talk and everything will be clarified."
"You definitely will need it. You still hurt about the situation. You saying it is what it is isn't acknowledging your feelings. You just brushing them to the side and hoping that it goes away and it doesn't work like that. Get it together, True."
I didn't say anything because I knew what she was saying was the honest truth.
"He texted back."
"And said what?"
KJ
Today 1:24PM
You don't understand how badly I want us back. I made a mistake and I'm admitting to it can't you see that? I hated how I just broke up with you. I'm dumb as hell and I should have thought more about it. Please talk to me.
Today 11:55PM
kj we need to talk.
Delievered
Shit, when? Right now?
tomorrow would be better.
Delievered
Man c'mon True. Don't say we need to talk and get my head hyped up only to say tomorrow would be better. Might as well meet me at a park or something so we can talk this shit out.
lol, but we not getting back together
Delievered
Really not trying to hear allat right now. You gone meet me at a park or what?
which one?
Delievered
The one I took you and Kova to.
You liked "The one I took you and Kova to"
I began telling Kash everything and she told me to be safe and to turn on my location. I left the house making sure to grab something just incase. I didn't know what type of timing he was on so..
Once I got in the car I connected my phone to the Aux and allowed Novacane by Frank Ocean to play lowly. I took that time to collect everything I need to say to him making sure I didn't forget anything which I most likely was.
It didn't take me long to get there. When I arrived his car was definitely there and he was already out of the car clearly waiting. I parked next to his and got out as well.
We didn't say anything until we reached the swings.
"What we doing, True?" He questioned and I sucked my teeth because he was acting clueless. Like he wasn't the one who chose to break up with me for a dumb ass reason. "Huh?"
"I don't know, you tell me. You the one who broke up with me KJ for a dumb ass reason. Whole time you didn't break up with me because you thought you spent too much time with me. You broke up with me because you got horrible ass abandonment issues." I spoke truthfully.
"You right, I did. I should have been honest with you from the jump and that's my fault. I slick did break up with you because at the time I felt like you and I spent too much time together. Of course I'm gone think that after my sister tried taking her life. Another reason was just 'cause I felt like you were going to leave me. So I left you before you could leave me."
... be frl.
"I never gave off anything that would make you feel like I was going to leave you. And to say we spent too much time together was a lie. You was either at the shop most of the time— all the time. So you not spending enough time with your sister had nothing to do with you and I's relationship, KJ. Both of the situations were a you problem that you should've handled your damn self. You just chose to break up with me without thinking it fully through. And if you thought we met up here to get back together then you're delusional. It's clear as hell that you need to work on your damn self."
"And I know that."
"Okay, this really could have been talked about on the phone." I said and he sucked his teeth.
"Why you acting like that?"
"Acting like what?" I made a face now annoyed.
"Acting like you don't want me back."
"Us talking right now was to just clarify everything up, KJ. I said we weren't getting back together and I'm standing on that shit. You hurt me, you broke up with me like it was nothing. We had just gotten together. You knew how comfortable I was around you and how you made me feel. You still broke up with me and that hurt me. We are not getting back together ever. We can be acquaintances but as far as being friends or whatever then I'm okay."
"Aight, I love you."
"You're delusional."
"I'm not. I do love you, True. I ain't realize it but after awhile I did. I'm a fucked up person even before you got with me I was fucked up. I was still going through shit that dealt with my ex and my dad leaving. I wasn't healed from none of that. You deserve absolutely happiness, nothing less. You a good ass person bruh and you ain't want nothing but better from me."
"Okay, KJ. That's it?"
"Mhmm, let me get a hug."
"Bye, KJ." I got off the swing watching as he stood up as well. He sucked his teeth and pulled me towards him. He gave me a tight ass hug and kissed my forehead afterwards.
"I love you, True. Don't stop coming to get tattoos from me either."
"KJ you do not love me, stop saying that."
"You saying that shit 'cause we barely knew each other and we dated for like a week. I love you bruh, yeen gotta say it back."
"Okay, bye." I walked away and got in the car without looking back. Now that was over and everything was clarified up.
THE NEXT DAY
8:01PM
"WHAT HE SAY?!" Kash yelled rolling down the window. She tested negative for Covid and gave Ava to her dad. She stated that we were getting drunk off our ass and she was spending the night at my house. "Shawty, after all the fighting, the fucking's better. You got your left one and your right in, all of your vendetta!"
You punched me in my fucking jaw, you ain't have to do that
Just swung again and hit the wall, but I had to move back
I'm buying Plain Janes only for my main thing
We were listening to Extravagant Bullshit/Nunchucks by Tory Lanez. This and And This is The Intro is really my song for real. It's just so good, his voice was so damn good like...
She still got the nerve to argue, I guess that's the way of things
All she do is bitch at me like that's the way I'm saying things
Bought this bitch a hunnid bags like
"They don't do the same thing? Shit don't ever change, it don't ever change. Even when I try to change my ways, you gon' stay the same. Then you wanna pop up on me 'cause my feelings David Blaine!" Kash rapped like she could feel the lyrics.
She was in the passenger seat beating on her chest and everything.
"Got them disappearing niggas, listen up and hear this, nigga. How many of us bought this bitch a watch, and it ain't change shit?!"
How many of us bought this bitch a bag, and it ain't change shit?
How many of us bought this bitch a car, and it ain't change shit?
Man, it hurts to say, but some of y'all bitches ain't shit
"I might need some therapy, the last bitch I fucked with, lied and tried to publicly embarrass m— why you turn the music off?" She looked at me breathing heavy.
"'Cause you rapping like you feel the song. You okay?" I questioned.
"I'm fine, I'm not. When I went to drop Ava off at her dad's house, he was saying that he wanted for the two of us to get back together. Talking 'bout he gone change his ways and shit. Mind you, this isn't his first time saying that. The first time I believed him and he stayed the same!" She frowned.
"Then that right there tells you everything you need to know. Don't go back to him unless he actually shows he's a changed man."
"Like why couldn't I have a cool ass baby daddy? We been dating since I was 14 and I had a baby with him when I was 17. For them three years, he treated me so damn good. I didn't have to beg him to do this and that, nothing. As soon as I got pregnant, he started treating me like shit. I really hate him. I can't wait till I find me a man that actually fucking loves me and doesn't change. I hate that I'm such a lover girl."
"Same." I agreed. "Literally hasn't gotten me nothing but hurt. I want to give up on relationships all together. Then it's another part of me saying just give it another try." I shrugged and she nodded.
"This why you my friend. We might as well be best friends. Hold on, let me ask properly. True Salayah Evans, would you be my best friend?"
"Yesss."
"Okay, bitch. You better stay my best friend. No matter what we go through, you're still going to be my best friend. So, don't be childish when we get into an argument and say you don't want to be best friends anymore. Literally ain't had a best friend since like middle school."
"I'm not and that goes for you too." I told her playing the music.
So this album will not be about her this time
'Cause all that lying she did, fucked with my real bitch
Big time, this the sixth time I done fucked up
Once we made it to the party, we went right in and began drinking like there's no tomorrow. Kash was just mixing shit together so I knew she was gone be drunk off her ass. After awhile I decided to stop drinking because who were going to take us home safely?
"Ou this my song!" Kash yelled hearing Realer by Megan Thee Stallion came on. One thing about Kash is she loved her some Megan. She knew almost every song literally.
She was opposite from me when it came down to music. Kash listened to Hip Hop/Rap type of music like Durk, Lil Baby, Young Nudy, and etc. I'm not saying she didn't listen to R&B, but it wasn't frequent.
Ay, say, nigga, I don't wanna talk
Meet me at the bank, show me what you really 'bout
Niggas ain't real when the shit really count
"That's why I keep my lil' cat in they mouth. Say, bitch, I don't gotta cap. Everything I talk, yeah, I really did that!" She yelled, she was the loudest one.
I didn't really know the song so I just sat back watching her get turnt to it. It was a lot of people in here and at first my anxiety was on the roof, but after drinking I was calming down.
"If you want beef, then my bitch gon' scratch. I'ma get the money, so I let her handle that!"
Free JT
Real bitches fuck wit' me
I don't do shit for the free, man
Y'all niggas gotta pay me
"Put some respect on my team I'm the 1501 queen. Bitch, you better learn who run it 'cause all this money gotta come through me!"
"I keep it realer than real. Fuck all the critics and fuck how they feel!" Kash began drinking more and more of whatever was in her cup before sitting it down next to me.
Her facial expression dropped causing for me to look where she was looking. She was looking at some guy, I didn't know who he was. It definitely wasn't her baby daddy since he was with Ava.
The guy and his friends began walking towards her and she sucked her teeth.
"What you doing here?" She frowned.
"Everybody in Houston know about this damn party. Nigga is you drunk?"
"Getting there, it's kicking in. What you doing here, Amiri?"
"Like I said everybody in Houston know about this damn party, Kash. I ain't know you was gone be here though. Who yo' lil friend?"
"Bye, she doesn't want you, but Amiri this is my best friend True and True this is my older brother Amiri." She introduced us.
"You not gone introduce us to her?"
"Y'all aren't nobody special. Okay, can you go away now."
"Aight, but don't think I'm not gone keep coming over here to check on you, aight?"
"Okay, bye." She waved picking her cup up and watched as they walked away. "I have a confession to make."
"Mm, what is it?"
"So, you seen the tall light skin that was standing on the right side of my brother? I like him and we been texting." She twisted her lips to the side.
"How come I didn't know about you having a brother?"
"Because he isn't anyone special. Well, he isn't around. He doesn't stay in Houston, he stays in Dallas. He just visiting my parents. So why would I tell
you about someone who's barely around? You feel me?"
"Yeah." I said. I wasn't bothered by the fact she didn't tell me who he was, I just didn't know she had a brother. "Anyways, you and his friend?"
"Yeah, we been texting a lot. He not one of them niggas who's scared to date their friend lil sister. He said he give no fucks and he been standing onnat shit for real. That'a all to it though. Like we been talking and that's it. He doesn't care that I have a baby and stuff."
"Well that's good."
"BRUH, GET YO' ASS UP." Amiri sucked his teeth as Kash laid on the ground. When I tell you we was drunk, we were drunk. Literally falling and our words were slurred. He was moreso mad at Kash because she kept purposely doing it. Laugh my ass off. "You just gone stay there."
"N-nooooo, don't leave me!" She yelled getting a few people attention. We were outside of the house where the party took place. Most people were leaving.
"Then get yo' stupid ass up off the ground."
"I got it." The lightskin one with dreads spoke. His voice was deep as fuck, but not as deep as Amiri's. Anyways, he picked her up. "She going with you or what?"
"N-noooooo."
"She g-going with me." I told them.
"Mmcht, nah. You going with her, but she not going to yo' place. You going to her house instead." He told me and I nodded feeling myself get sleepy, but I didn't dare go to sleep. Yeah he might be Kash brother, but I didn't feel safe with him to go to sleep.
Kash on the other hand was throwing up everywhere just embarrassing me. When she wake up, she gone have a fit.
"My carrrr." I frowned waving bye to it. "I'm gone miss youuuuu."
Amiri and the lightskin one put Kash and I in the backseat. His other friends went somewhere, I don't know.
"I miss my babyyyyyyy. Take me to her, take me to the kingggg!"
embarrassing.
The whole time I was wide awake. Kash ended up throwing up again all over herself and Amiri's seat. He of course was pissed off and started saying a whole lot. Kash started apologizing, but he wasn't trying to hear anything she had to say.
Once we got to Kash place, lightskin carried Kash in the house and Amiri carried me inside the house, and right on her bed. They threw the cover on us and after that I fell asleep. So did Kash.
a/n;
i def had fun writing this chapter. this whole chapter was really like a catch up chapter since i did do a time skip.
i rlly wanted to clarify kj and true's breakup. they arent getting back tg like ever. true said she isnt going back, she's done!
lol, do yall like kash?
— i wanted true to have someone around her age and the same gender as her. now she has her own friend!
i have another book on the way. it's a young girl who was diagnosed with Selective Mutism. if you don't know what that is it's a severe anxiety disorder where a person is unable to speak in certain situations or just don't talk at all.
im still working on how i want it to go. it probably will be out by the end of this month or the beginning of next month.
& this book was only on hold for a week... i missed it so.
w/c; 3923 words