I curl up in the darkness, the sheets are seething, the air is like steam. everything is so fucking hot.
My head spun wildly, the fan spinning above my head going in slow motion every time my vision pans in and out
I barely manage to keep heavy eyes open
How many days has it been since the mall incident?
Was it all a dream?
Ding!
Beeeeeep!
ding
ding!
ding!
My phone notifies and alarms rapidly, the battery draining out of it with every spam message sent
Why is my life like this, I was so close..everything was perfect..I was fine..
I think back to the moment
.
.
My body freezes completely, chills running down every inch of my skin
My throat feels tight. So tight, I swear I cant breathe
She heard. They all heard. What do I do? what do I say?
do I have to speak?
The world spins around me
I cant look up, I cant face her. I cant face them. I cant do it
"John"
I cant breathe
"John"
I cant bre
a t
h
e
My head throbs horribly refusing to remember the scene
I hold my head in my hands with a tight grip
If only it wasn't for that man everything would've been fine
Useless.. they're all so useless they always get in my way..im king so why..
why
why...
Am I so miserable.. why is it only me? why isn't their life as fucked as mine? why aren't they as cruel and fucked in the head as I am? why is it always me?
The screen goes on and off with notifications before it halts completely
The noise stops, but the room doesn't feel silent
Why is it always so loud?
I curl up once more, ignoring my aching muscles and bodily needs
Ding!
Something in me tells me to look at this one. to take one last glance
The light stings my eyes but I turn the phone to myself regardless, noticing the 2% battery its drawing off of
[Arlo]
"John. Are you ok?"
My eyes widen a bit
Is he really asking me that. after everything.
Of all fucking people..why would this piece of shit who does nothing but ruin my life..
Hatred builds deep inside my stomach
Ding!
[Arlo]
"I'm worried."
I freeze in place, my phone lowering
Hes..What?
Thats.. that's a lie. Why would he be worried after all the things we've done to each other? I threatened him, took his crown.. beat his ass..so..why?
I feel water build up Im my eyes. The very thing I had been fighting ever since that day, I cant cry. Its weak. If Im weak..how will I..face her?
...
Would she even want to face me?
Everything is gone. She's gone, who else do I have now?
What do I do now?
I cant do anything
I CANT DO ANYTHING..
should I just---
Ding!
My eyes dart over to my phone as the hands on my face slowly retract
The same feeling possesses me once again, no matter how my will struggles against it I cant seem to get a grip on my conscious
Hahaha.. I've lost it haven't I?
Why do I keep going back...
Why is it always him?
my fingers move and wrap around the lightly illuminated device
1%
[Arlo]
"Please, Be safe and don't do anything dangerous"
Arlo is typing..
...
[Arlo]
"I care"
I feel my throat hitch, as if something was stuck.. jammed inside of it
"Haa..he always..hic--uegh..knows..what to say to get under my..--hic..skin.." My voice trembles as I cry into the phone, forehead nuzzling the light, probably touching something on the screen but I couldn't care less
"Asshole"
My phone powers off as tears stream down my already sore face
The roaring wind and rain outside my window drowning out my quiet sobs and lighting the darkness that envelops my room
.
.
My cries die out slowly with the rain
its drizzling slowly, the moon is still high in the sky
Its hot
My legs move to the side of the bed, touching the floor after only god knows how long
Its too hot
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Arlos POV
"Seraphina cares|"
I look at the message Im typing
Something in my gut tells me it would make the situation worse than it already is,
He probably doesn't want to hear about the one he's mourning over right now, especially from me.
I delete it quickly and type whatever comes to the top of my head first
" I| care"
My face flushes a bit before I Miss click and press send
My palms sweat as I ponder what just I sent to the worst pain in my side I've ever had the misfortune of experiencing
Why did I do that? "Im worried"
Is this some kind of teen drama? so fucking embarrassing..
What would that do for him anyways? I should've just mentioned Seraphina..
Ding!
[John]
"ajkkk"
What?
Is that some kind of new acronym?
I stare at my screen for a minute,
......
My brows furrow harshly and I burry my face into my hands
For the love of god..
Am I seriously sitting here stressing, trying to decipher what JOHN sent?
I get out of my seat to make some tea, clearly Im not in my right mind right now
.
.
.
I unplug the kettle and start to pour the hot water into my mug, the scent sweetening the room instantly
I smile lightly
BANG!
I hear a single loud knock on my door
What the hell? who is at my door in the literal middle of the night?
I cautiously walk over to the door, hardly making a sound, I put my hands on the door and lean towards the peep hole
BANG!
I hear another loud knock, making me flinch back hard
I grit my teeth and glare
Seriously who in the hell comes to someone elses house so late and causes this kind of racket?
I look through the small hole to see black hair and a light brown hoodie
...
I swing the door open with force that should've popped the thing off of its sockets
"John..." I say with wide eyes
He looks up at me, eye bags prevalent and extremely dark, A reddish pink tint spreading from his forehead to his cheeks.. and he's soaked. did he not realize it was raining??
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Johns POV
My legs take me. I don't know where Im going, Its dark.. everything is dark
Sera's fucking gone
She left
She betrayed me
Just like her
...
I find my self on a doorstep
I stand there silent, water droplets dripping off my hoodie and onto the door mat
My fist brings itself up to the door and bangs,
once
twice
...
I hear light creeks on the inside
The door flies inward, a warm light hits me, stinging my eyes brutally as I see a lean figure illuminated in the doorway, like some kind of divine deity
"John..?" A familiar voice calls
Arlo..
Did I really come here?
I..
"In" I say, devoid of any life
"What?" He questions me
"Let..me..In." I repeat
"You walk up to some elses house and demand to enter? You might as well break in."
"How classy, John."
The space falls silent only the patter of rain filling the air, not a trace of playful or slightly less playful banter in the air
I feel a chilled hand graze my forehead, I almost want to chase after the cool touch
I hear a 'Tsk' before Im dragged into the cozy home
"You're soaking wet, idiot" He lectures me one last time
I smile weakly
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