Yasin in The MM.
Tamia Ford
An hour later
Midnight
"So do you know who that was, Sin?" I couldn't help but to ask for the hundredth time tonight, still freaked out about the entire situation from earlier.
The man was completely gone now and Sin had been checking and looking outside of my window every ten minutes to make sure that he didn't return. He'd even had all of his friends come around to my block to watch over my place for a few hours.
Which made me feel safe and protected but I was still afraid.
"Look like one of them niggas from sixth."
"Probably missed one, that's all, Mi." He spoke nonchalantly as if he wasn't afraid at all and I knew that he wasn't.
Yasin was good for life like this but he knew that I wasn't. This was my thing at all.
Yes, I wanted to live here since I'd missed the environment and I wanted to spend time with all of my old friends. But the hood was no joke when it came to wars and violence and I was slowly beginning to regret moving back here.
Even after all that I'd been through.
"You ain't got nun' to worry bout' though, ma."
"Ain't nobody gon' fuck with you or nun'."
"That shit gon' get handled." Sin went on saying, pulling out his phone and typing away on it.
As he did, I nodded my head, simply easing my mind from the negative thoughts that were trying to take over. I began to think about Ms. Davis's house and how it'd gotten shot up a few months back.
We were all lucky to be alive that day because it could have gone a lot worse.
I just really did not want to imagine that happening here, especially since I'd made so much peace here in the last few months. My mind just kept going off the deep end though, scaring me badly with my negative thoughts.
"Sin, I don't know.." I trailed off, trying to gather my words.
"I don't know if I want to stay here tonight." I ended up blurting out to him seriously and he raised his eyebrows, looking at me in disbelief.
"You serious, baby?" He asked me with shock in his eyes.
"See.." He trailed off, sighing heavily to himself.
"This why I ain't want you down here, Mi." He went on saying, sounding like his old self now as he spewed his old words but I was honestly beginning to understand why he didn't want me down here in the first place.
It wasn't safe for me.
"This yo' spot, baby. You ain't got to leave." He reassured me, looking into my eyes deeply.
"And you ain't got nun' to be scared of, ma."
"You with me." He spoke sternly to me, obviously trying to calm me down and it was slightly working but I was still freaked out.
We have a baby on the way and things were just getting good. We had just began rekindling our relationship and though I wanted to take things slowly, I didn't want anything happening to either of us to get in the way of that.
I just wanted everything to finally be okay.
No more drama.
"Look-"
"Com'ere." He said to me , holding his hand out for me as I made my way over to him.
"I got you no matter what, Mi."
"On my pops, cuh." He looked up into my eyes, wrapping his hands around the back of my thighs as I stood in front of him while he continued to sit in the chair.
"You ain't got shit to worry bout'." He went on and I nodded my head slowly, listening to his promising words, knowing that he'd meant them.
"I'a do anything for you, Mi."
"Anything, ma."
"I told you that before."
"So just relax for me." He finished off, looking deeply into my eyes as he rubbed the back of my thighs. I said nothing as I simply nodded my head with a sigh of relief, feeling much better in this moment.
His words and him being here was enough for me to feel secure.
And though I knew that he shouldn't be in my house right now and we should probably be taking things a lot slower than what we were, I was happy that he was here to comfort me.
"This still our night, ma." He went on saying, obviously trying to change the subject.
"What you wan' do?"
"You want me to order some pizza and we just watch some more movies or sum'?" He asked and a huge smile fell upon my face.
"Yeah."
"That sounds nice." I nodded, happy to hear the sound of that. I knew that would make me feel 100% better right now.
Especially doing that with him.
"I'm about to shower though, so give me a minute?" I asked and he nodded his head surely.
"Aight, coo'." He allowed me to go and I instantly made my way to my small clothes as I began to grab the things that I would need.
"I can smoke?" Sin then asked as I prepared myself for my shower now and I nodded my head, grabbing my towel.
"Yes. That's fine."
"Just be done by the time I get out, please?" I asked him, considering I didn't know how it affected the baby and I didn't want to harm him or her in anyway being negligent every time he smoked.
"Aight, I gotchu'." He nodded his head surely, watching me closely as I began taking my clothes off.
As I did, I quickly wrapped my towel around my body since I had on nothing but my panties and my bra now.
"Oh aight."
"Whatchu' tryn' hide from me or sum'?" Sin then spoke up as he licked his lips slowly and they slightly formed a small smirk as he looked at me out of the corner of his eye.
"You ain't got to hide, baby—"
"—it ain't nun' I ain't already seen."
"I put my whole tongue in your ass before, Tamia." He went on, talking his mess but I still covered myself, considering we weren't on those terms yet.
We were still on time and we would be for a while.
Saying nothing to him, I just playfully rolled my eyes as he began rolling his blunt in his lap carelessly. I can't lie, I was so nervous when he'd first came in here, considering it'd been such a long time since we were in a setting like this but it was also his first time in my place.
It was nothing like what our house was like upstate, my house was much smaller but it was comfortable and he seemed to have gotten comfortable quickly.
I watched him a while as he rolled his blunt, paying me no mind now. All before I made my way out into the hall and then into the bathroom.
When I did, the water was already steaming hot, considering I had started it a few minutes ago. I wasted no time getting in and began to wash myself almost immediately. I didn't want to be in here long since I wanted to finish spending the rest of my night with Sin.
It had been such a good night with him and I was glad that it got to last a bit longer tonight. Despite the circumstances of that crazy man standing outside, of course.
I was just happy that we were going to order pizza, watch movies and just enjoy each other for the rest of the night. And I already knew in the back of my mind, that I was going to let him stay overnight so I was excited about it.
We were finally doing things that I always wanted to do with him and no longer fighting.
It couldn't get better than this at the moment.
Breaking me away from my thoughts, I was rudely interrupted as I heard loud music blasting from my room and now throughout the house.
Baby let's go and have rich sex
Make a little love , have rich sex (yeah, yeah)
Baby let's go and have rich sex
Baby girl, let's have some rich sex (come on)
I'ma keep my AP on while I do it (do it)
We can keep an AP on when we do it (do it)
You can keep your Rollie on when I get to it (to it)
You can keep your Rollie on when I get to it (come on)
I couldn't help but to laugh to myself as Sin obviously blasted Future's - Rich Sex from my small speaker, being his old, loud and rowdy self. I can't lie and say that I hadn't missed him so much these past two months and I happy that we were doing this.
It was finally happening for us.
Wasting no more time in here, I began to wash myself up and about 30 minutes had passed before I stepped out of the shower. I dried myself off completely when I did before I wrapped my towel around my body.
I then made my way back into my bed room and saw that Sin was still sitting in my chair. He was no longer smoking but I could see the smoke in the air and his low red eyes as he looked at me from across the room. His shirt off was now and I couldn't help but to look over all of his tattoos on his chest. His large choker chains sat right above them and glistened from where I was standing.
I tried my hardest not to as I stood there with my towel wrapped around my body but I admired him and he was seemingly doing the same, look deeply into my eyes.
Obviously waiting for my next move.
I broke away from my gaze though, maybe a few seconds later, as I simply made my way to my closet to find my robe.
As I did, I could feel Sin's gaze still on me but I tried my hardest to keep this PG. I knew that we weren't ready right now and everything was still fresh.
So I was trying my hardest not to do what I really wanted to.
It was best for the both of us.
"Why you keep playin' with me, Tamia?" He then spoke sternly, breaking me away from my thoughts as he leaned back into the chair, awaiting my response.
"How am I playing, Sin?" I couldn't help but to ask him, finding my robe and quickly sliding it on so that he wouldn't see my body.
"You playin' because you walkin' around here in a towel and shit—"
"Tryn' act like I ain't never see your body before, ma."
"We grown." He went on saying and I understood his frustration but he needed to understand where I was coming from.
As a woman.
"Yeah, we are, Sin." I confirmed his words, allowing him his feelings.
"But we've also just began talking again and getting in good terms."
"I'm not in a rush to get back into bed with and neither should you be—"
"Tamia, I'm not." He clarified sternly, looking deeply into my eyes.
"All I'm saying to you, baby, is you ain't got to hide." He went on and I nodded my head slowly as he gestured for me to come over to him.
I did as told, making my way over to him and he wasted no time pulling me into his lap.
When he did, I could feel that he was obviously excited and I knew that if he could be would do things to me that we weren't supposed to be doing but I wasn't giving in.
Not that easy and not this soon.
"Are we still going to order pizza?" I asked, trying to change the tune but I could tell by the look in his eyes, he wasn't worried about any damn pizza right now.
"I already ordered it and shit."
"It should be here in the next 30." He said to me, still looking deeply in my eyes with sin in his.
He then licked his lips slowly, biting his bottom lip in lust as I looked down at all of his tattoos, his chains, and his red low eyes.
"Okay." I spoke softly, trying to keep myself from being just as hot and bothered as he was right now but it was obviously no use.
He wasted no time, leaning in to kiss my lips as I instantly deepened it. He then gently pushed his tongue into my mouth as we now tongued each other down, breathing out heavily.
Before I could even think, he instantly lifted me from his lap and carried me toward my bed, throwing me down onto it. He then climbed on top of me and began attacking my neck with kisses. All before he pushed his hand up my robe and touched my bare body underneath it,
"Sin." I whined softly as he wasted no time, putting his hand in between my thighs and feeling how wet I already was for him.
"Man.."
"Yo' ass be frontin'." He looked down into my eyes and I couldn't help but to look up into his guiltily.
I was already soaking wet for him.
He wasted no time as he trailed kisses down my body, biting at my robe strings before he pulled me toward the edge of my bed and pushed his face in between my thighs.
"Fuuck." I moaned out, arching my back away from the bed as he licked and slurped all over my clit.
"Wait. Wait."
"Sin, stop." I begged for him to stop, instantly having an epiphany in this moment.
Yes, there was a lot of pleasure and it felt great in this moment but I knew where rushing could take us and it wouldn't be anywhere good.
"Stop, Yasin." I told him seriously, pushing his head away from me now as he stood up straight with his large Piece poking aggressively through his grey sweatpants.
I could tell by the look on his face that he wasn't happy but this didn't need to be happening right now.
We both knew that.
"I don't want to ruin this by rushing, Sin." I began explaining to him as I closed my legs completely and sitting up from the bed.
"We shouldn't be doing this yet."
"We just got back on better terms." I went on expressing myself and though I could tell he wasn't happy about it, he still listened to my words anyway.
"Let's just enjoy us without sex for once."
"It'll be so much better if we just wait until we're ready to go there again." I went on, looking into his eyes and he licked his lips slowly, obviously disappointed by my words but respectful nonetheless.
He simply nodded his head, doing as I said while I laid there a few more moments still hot and bothered.
Lord knows I wanted him just as bad as he wanted me but I knew we need time. We couldn't just jump back into sex, that wouldn't be healthy for either of us.
"You okay?" I asked him as he plopped down onto my bed with me before nodding his head surely.
"I'm aight, ma."
"You good?" He then asked me and I nodded my head as I got up completely from the bed to put real clothes in.
I didn't want to keep sending mixed signals.
That wasn't fair to him.
"I'm fine." Was all I said with a smile, considering how patient he was being with me.
He didn't even understand how much he was making me fall in love with him all over again. With this new and improved attitude and consistency, we would be back to normal in no time.
Hopefully even better this time around.
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2am
"Sin, are you asleep?" I called for him as the TV was now turned off completely and I laid in the pitch black dark in his arms.
"Nah, baby." He spoke groggily, sleep evident in his voice and I couldn't help but to laugh quietly at his lies.
"What's up?"
"You aight?" He went on asking me, clearing his throat and I simply nodded, laying my head in the crook of his neck.
I was so conflicted in this moment.
We'd watched a few more movies, finally got our pizza and ended up spending the rest of the night joking around and having fun with each other. It was feeling like high school all over again, when we first met each other and I had the best version of Yasin.
Things were going great, in such little time.
It's just, we'd already gone through so many things so I just didn't know where exactly to pick up from where we left off.
I was already moved out, we were living on our own but I was falling in love with him again and I was sure he was feeling the same things for me. I genuinely just didn't know where to go from here, especially since we were spending more time together now and actually enjoying it.
I just knew for a fact that I didn't want to just rush into things.
I didn't want that at all.
"I'm fine."
"I just wanted to ask you something though.." I trailed off and he looked down at me slowly as he wrapped his arm around me tighter.
"What's up, Mi?" His deep voice spoke, awaiting my response and I gathered all of my words before I spoke.
"I was just thinking.." I trailed off, looking up into his eyes while we laid here in complete darkness.
"I wanted to ask you, if you would come with me to my doctor's appointment on Monday after class?"
"I want us to go together instead of separately." I went on asking him and I could see his eyebrows shoot up in shock as a smile slowly appeared on his face.
"Yeah?" He asked, obviously surprised and I nodded my head excitedly, seeing how excited he seemingly was.
"Well yeah, ma.."
"Of course."
"I'a be there whenever you need me to be." He tried to play it cool but I could tell by the look on his face he was passed excited and I was just happy to be able to do this.
I was happy to finally have the person that I loved and the person that helped me create our little baby, be able to go with me to the appointments, instead of going alone because of petty bullshit.
I felt as if I could finally invite him especially after all he's done in such little time to change his ways.
It was only right.
Changed behavior on top of the apologizes would always be rewarded in my eyes.
He deserved it. We both did .
"Okay." I smiled small, laying my head in the crook of his neck again and I could feel as he sighed deeply to himself.
But it didn't sound as if it was a sigh of relief, it sounded as if he was preparing himself for the worse.
"Before we do that though, ma.." He trailed off, licking his lips slowly.
"I feel like we definitely need to talk—"
"—bout' sum' shit that went down." He went on saying to me and I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, listening intently to how his tone had changed.
"What's wrong, Sin?" I asked him, awaiting his response but it never came as he simply sighed deeply again, obviously trying to gather his words.
"Look, Mi."
"Before I do anything with you—"
"—like coming to your appointments and putting in all of this work to make you my girl again."
"I want to come to you as yo' man and be truthful bout' the shit."
"Because I owe you that." He went on saying to me, still holding me in his arms and I nodded my head with furrowed eyebrows, listening to every word in confusion.
Before he could even say anything though, my phone began ringing loudly, breaking us both away from conversation.
I sighed deeply as I turned around away from him to see who it was before grabbing my phone from my dresser completely.
I looked down at it and I instantly saw that it was Yessenia calling. At 2am.
"What is she calling for? At 2 in the morning?" I couldn't help but to say as a smile appeared on my face before I put my focus back on Sin once I declined it completely.
"I'm sorry, Sin."
"You can finish what you were saying." I told him but as soon as he was about to, my phone began ringing again and it was Yessenia again, instantly making me think that it was something important.
I immediately thought the worst and thought that it was an emergency.
"Hold on, Sin, it's Yessi." Was all I told Yasin and he sighed deeply once I did as I instantly put it on speaker so he could hear as well.
"Hey, Yessi."
"What's wrong?" I spoke in a worried tone before her voice frantically came through the phone.
"Mimi!"
"Are you with my dumbass brother?" She spat angrily as Yasin licked his lips slowly before removing his arms from around me and scoffing to himself.
"Yeah, he's right here." I couldn't help but to giggle as he sat there with the coldest look on his face in this moment.
It was like his whole demeanor had changed in a matter of seconds.
"We're at my house, Yessi, and he can hear you." I couldn't help but to laugh as she went on, talking loudly into the phone anyway.
"Well then, goos. So his ass can't lie." She spat, instantly making my smile disappear as I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.
"Hang up, Tamia." Yasin tried to take the phone out of my hands but I quickly snatched it away from him, looking at him like he was crazy.
"Stop, Sin." I told him, putting the phone close to my ear now.
"Yessi, what's going on?" I couldn't help but to ask, considering I could feel things beginning to shift and it felt like something was being hidden from me.
I hated feeling that way.
"Sis, let me tell you what the fuck he did."
"Since I know his lying ass ain't gon' tell you and have you out looking crazy." She went on and I listened closely now as Sin tried to snatch my phone out of my hand again but I quickly stood to my feet so that he couldn't.
"MiMi, Yasin fucked on a few girls while y'all weren't together." She spat, instantly making my stomach drop as I listened to her harsh words.
"He fucked the same two bitches from the party that I told you not to be buddy buddy with—"
"—since they were just talking shit about you to him the day before."
"Then that's not even the worst part—"
"—he took them back to y'all house, had sex with them, then let them go through all of your shit."
"Now their carrying your bags and wearing your shoes all around the hood."
"And Yasin gave them both money yesterday not to say anything to you about it."
"Wait, what?" I asked looking from my phone to him in complete shock.
I couldn't believe what the hell I was hearing right now.
*
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