I had decided to stay behind in Noah's room long after Dane and the others had left. I couldn't stop the guilt that was ripping through me. I ran my hand through my hair as I paced back and forth at the foot of his bed.
Why did you do that? I growled at my wolf.
You would never had done it. He is ours now. I just did what you should have done from the beginning. She surmised without much regret which only ticked my off more.
But because of you now he is going to suffer and hate us, I say with a slightly whimper in my tone. The thought of him hating me was enough to make me want curl in on myself. I knew it was the damn bond though because I would have never been that hurt before which just made me more frustrated.
He could never hate us. She states without hesitation.
I wouldn't be so sure of that. I growl before I block myself from her not wanting to continue that endless looping argument.
I peered over at Noah who was laying on his bed his brows draw together in discomfort and his body moving a bit restlessly in his unconscious state. I knew it was the bond working its way through him forcefully just as it had done to me. I shouldn't have cared that he was suffering. I mean he definitely deserved a little karma from me but now that it was happening I didn't feel any satisfaction. I let out a frustrated sigh and walked towards his side of the bed not really sure what I was going to do.
I stood over him looking down and feeling completely unsure of myself for the first time in the long time. This is my mate and I had claimed him which meant for better or worse we were stuck together now. I tongued my cheek at this thought and almost laughed at myself. I had been trying to escape one possessive Alpha only to fall into the hand of another—well he wasn't all that possessive more like extremely stubborn and demanding. I bent over leaning in closer examining him more closely and noting once again that he was extremely attractive.
My eyes fixated on his lips and I felt the desire to kiss them well up inside so much so that I leaned in close enough to feel the soft warm pants of his breath hitting me. I pulled back quickly my face rushing with heat when I realized that I had been about to kiss him like a creeper while he was utterly defenseless. I turned my back to him and put a hand to my heart to try and calm myself down. Great, this had to be part of strengthening the bond and if that was the case, this was not going to go well for me.
When Noah let out a soft whimper I turned back to him quickly with concern. He was beginning to move more restlessly in the bed. I bit my lips, rolling it between my teeth anxiously as I watched him. He only seemed to grow more distressed at the minutes ticked by. I didn't know if I could take much more of this honestly. I let my instincts take over and I reached out grabbing a hold of his hand. Surprisingly, that seemed to help calm him down some. Curiosity took over and I pulled my hand away from him. The distress kicked it up a notch and he seemed to be almost in a full panic in his unconscious state. I quickly reached out and grabbed onto him, "It's okay! I'm right here Noah—" I say to him even though I doubt he can hear me. I bring up my other hand and hesitate for a moment before I stroke his hair lightly.
I almost want to roll my eyes at myself for the fact that I am in this situation but at the same time I can't help the tightening in my chest at being able to touch him like this. Normally he was so closed off and I mean I guess I wasn't much better but if I thought Noah was willing to be open with me than maybe I could finally take down the walls I had erected.
I stayed like that for a long time but eventually Noah's calm breathing began to lull me to sleep. I decided against my better judgement to take up residence on the bed next to him making sure to keep out hands locked together. I remembered Noah staying with me and helping me heal so I figured it might work this way as well. It took a couple minutes to calm down my racing heart but eventually I fell asleep.
I didn't wake up again until I heard a loud thud and a flurry of curses. I blinked a couple times and rolled over to see that Noah was no longer in the bed next to me. I popped up quickly my eyes scanning the room nervously until I spotted that the bathroom door was open. I pulled myself off the bed and slowly ease my feet onto the floor. I made my way to the bathroom chewing on my lips not sure if he was going to attack me or something for what I had done. I wouldn't blame him, hell I would have attacked him if he had been anywhere near me when I had woken up.
I peaked my head into the bathroom to see Noah sitting in the shower with the water pelting down on him looking extremely uncomfortable. He was still wearing the sweats that Dane had helped me put onto him. His eyes were closed and his head was lean back against the tile.
"Noah?" I called his name my voice sounding very hesitant.
His eyes snapped open quickly at the sound of my voice his blue eyes seemed a little unfocused as they stared into mine. I felt my heart jump in my chest and my stomach was suddenly under attack by a plethora of butterflies. I broke eye contact with him my face feeling extremely hot, "Are you okay? Do you need me to help you? Get you anything?" I rambled out. When he didn't respond to me I was sure he hated me but then I hear the sound of quick movements and I peak over in his direction. I let out a small startled gasp because he was no longer in the shower. He was standing a few feet from me soaking wet and staring at me with dark hungry eyes.
His chest was heaving up and down like he had just run marathon, "What I need is for you to get out of here—" His voice is gruff and husky. My eyes widen in surprise at his words, oh I really had done it. I bit my lip to hold back the lump in my throat. Noah's eyes caught the movement and focused on my lip. He let out an animalistic growl and took a step towards me before he squeezed his eyes shut clenching his hands into fists at his side, "Get out Scarlett—" His voice almost sounded pained.
"I'm sorry Noah—I didn't mean to..." I mumble my heart clenching tightly in my chest. I took a step towards him, "Please don't hate me..." I reach out hesitantly and place my hand on his wet chest. His eyes snap open and his hand reached up quickly gripping a hold of wrist in a manner that is almost painful. My eyes widen in shock as the currents of electricity that are pulsing between us are so much more intense then they were before. Noah pulls me closer to him with his free hand and smashes his lips onto my with a hunger that takes me completely by surprise. I have no idea what is happening—none of this is making any sense.
He growls low in his chest almost commanding me to respond to his kiss but this passion feels darker and animalistic. It's not making me excited it's making me feel like I'm being dominated and scared. This isn't the Noah I know. I try to push him away and that doesn't seem to make him happy because his grip on my wrists tightens making me gasp. That sounds seems to pull him back into some form of sanity. Quickly he is shoving me away from him as if I burned him and I slip in the puddle he created landing on my butt with a thud, "Shit!" He swears his body visibly shaking, "Are you okay Scarlett?" He grits out between his teeth.
I stare up at him in shock but nod my head as I slowly pull myself up off the ground. His eyes start to grow dark again, "Stop looking at me like that!" He growls at me angrily. I flinch back at the strange bipolar behavior that is taking place, "What's happening?"
"Get out of here Scarlett—" He growls at me.
"Tell me what's going on. I'm sorry about what I did—but let me help you." I don't like the way my voice cracks. It makes me sound weak. It makes me feel weak.
"Just get out—Please..." He sounds like he's in some kind of agony and that make my wolf whimper inside of me causing me to feel unsure as to whether I should stay and help him or respect his wishes and leave. As I stand there debating with myself Noah takes a step towards me the hungry look back in his eyes. I take a couple step back and his eyes snap down to my legs catching movement before meeting my eyes. He has the look of a predator who has a prey set in its sight.
"Run Scarlett—" Noah rasps out, "Don't let me find you."
I stared at him in disbelief and confusion, what the hell was going on?
"Noah—"
He forces a smile to his lips, "It's going to be alright Scarlett—just run."
I don't wait to be prompted again. I listen to what Noah says and I take off out of the bathroom and across his bedroom. I open his door and bolt down the hallway. I have no idea why I am running, or what I am running from but when I hear a loud roar come from Noah's room my body begins to move faster.
Dane comes barreling around the corner at me almost knocking me down. He catches me quickly his eyes are full of concern, "Are you okay?" he asks. I nod my head quickly and point back towards Noah's room, "But something's wrong with Noah..." I say a little breathless. He gets a look in his eyes as if he knows something about it. Something that I am not supposed to know. I stare at him for a second before he completely masks it, "Don't worry—I'll handle. Go find Christa and Jane. Stay there and don't leave until I come get you." He lets go of me and takes off towards Noah without saying anything else.