To ,
Kim Y/N .
86 , Dongbyeon-ro , Buk-gu ,
Daegu .
19th December 1951
My love ,
How are you and my little kimchi ? Is he troubling you ? Tell him , Appa will scold him if he trouble you .
It's hard when you miss people . But you know if you miss them , you're lucky. It means you had someone special in your life . Someone worth missing .
And I miss you , Y/N .
Sometimes I feel like , I want to quit this and be with you . I want to end this distance which is separating us. But nothing can separate our heart , right ?
Every minute without you feels like a million years , Y/N . I wanted to be with you every single second but duty is important as much you are . Love , I know you miss me as much as I do but please endure it like I'm doing . Don't you heard people saying , small partitions are always good . As it can strengthen the bond of our love beyond the physical .
In this cold weather , while I'm writing this , I'm remembering the days we spend together , the hugs and kisses we shared , the secrets , your smile , your eyes , your small hands intertwined in mine , every little intimacy .... Before I even know it , my tears fell down in this letter . Once again I'm crying , love . Once again I'm missing you .
Hoping the day , we meet will arrive soon ,
Your husband ,
Kim Taehyung
She fold the letter and placed it in the nearby table with a tearful eyes . The letter had already drenched with her tears . Her salty tears intertwining with his dried ones . She placed her hand on her round belly , rubbing it to and fro . A small smile formed on her lips even though she was crying .
Didn't you heard what your Appa said ? He will scold you if you trouble me again . She said chuckling . Appa misses you , my little kimchi . She said , rubbing her swollen belly . As the baby know , what his mother said , as if he is responding to his mother's words , the baby kicked her . She gasped and then smiled . I know . You misses him , right ?
She scoffed . He is so cruel , right ? Who ? Your Appa . She said poking her stomach . How can he do this to us ? Didn't he know how much we misses him ? Are all soldiers like him ? Didn't they miss us ? They only care about their job . Cruel .
Didn't he wrote how much he misses you ? She turned around seeing her mother in law . Y/N sighed . Her mother walked in with a glass of juice . She placed it in the table .
Yes . He wrote . But it's getting little frustrating . Without him by my side , Eomma . I want to meet him , hug him..... I want him beside me . Her tears fall down one by one from her eyes . Her mother came towards her and wrapped her hands around her shoulder , pulling Y/N's head to her chest .
He misses you Y/N as much as you do . Mrs Kim said patting her daughter's head . She know her son and daughter misses each other .
Its... It's been 6 months . Y/N sniffling her tears .
He will be here , when you will give birth to our little kimchi. Hearing their little ones pet name , Y/N's hand automatically went down to rub her stomach . Now drink this . She said giving the juice glass to Y/N . She drank it and gave the glass back to her mother . Don't stress yourself . It's not good for both of you . Take rest . She said patting Y/N's head . She walked out of the room with the glass. Y/N slowly got up from the couch and walked towards the window . Her hand protectively wrapped around her 7 month belly . Looking outside the window , she sighed .
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To ,
Kim Y/N .
86 , Dongbyeon-ro , Buk-gu ,
Daegu .
10th January 1952 .
My love ,
One year has passed in a blink of an eye and it's been 32 weeks since our little kimchi came to our life . How is your life, love ? I know it's hard without me . As you were always depended on me . But my love , you are going to be a mother , mother of our child so you have to be independent on your own .
How is my little kimchi doing ?
Love , last night I dreamt about something . Something alluring . We are sitting on the bank of a river . Only both of us . Your stomach flat . Your head on my chest and mine on top of your head . My hands wrapped around your shoulder . We were enjoying our time . Just then we heard a small yet soft voice . ' Appa ' ' Eomma ' . That voice called . We looked at our sideways . There we saw a little boy , running towards us . A carbon copy of me . He looked exactly like me . He even had the same mole on the nose just like me . Guess who ? Our little kimchi .
Do you know how much happy I am ? I can't even surpass my happiness ,
Y/N . I hope he will come to us soon . We will be the best Appa and Eomma in the world .
I had already applied leave .
Waiting for the day , I'll be with you . Kissing and hugging you . Holding you and my little kimchi in my arms .
Your husband ,
Kim Taehyung .
Y/N looked down rubbing her stomach . Her lips adorned the smile. I had already applied for leave . He will come soon .
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A tear slipped from her eyes , rolling down to her cheeks , glistening her cheeks once more. Y/N stood there looking out of the window to the vast area . The rain pouring out heavily matching the tear drops falling from her eyes.
Her train of thoughts broke when she heard a cry . She looked towards the crib and noticed her baby , her little kimchi crying , she walked towards him and pulled him up. She sat on the bed , feeding him. You're being a crybaby , right ? Just like Eomma . She smiled . Your Appa would have teased us , if he saw us like this .
It's been 4 months since the baby born . 4 months since their little kimchi born . He had now began to notice different shades of colours , recognize faces . And most importantly , he had became more clingy to Y/N. He don't want to spare a single second without her. Just like his father .
And 6 months since , he contacted her . The last letter of his was about the baby and he even mentioned about the leave but didn't came . Did he didn't got leave ? He missed the delivery. It was little hard for her . As her ' strength ' wasn't beside her .
She heard about the sudden commotion in the border , through radio and newspaper . Maybe because of that he didn't got leave . But he could have just wrote a letter at least with 2 words , ' I'm fine ' , right ? But her stubborn husband couldn't do that. Worrying has became a daily basis in her life . Negative thoughts are always rummaging her mind .
Y/N sighed . She looked seeing her little kimchi had fallen asleep in her arms . Just like his father , her son sleeps with eyes open , half lidded eyes .
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Y/N walked towards the front door to open it as someone had knocked it . There is no one in their house except Y/N and her son as her in law's had to visit one of their relative's marriage .
Opening the door , she saw an unfamiliar man at door step .
He flashed a smile . Y/N responded with a not - so - sure smile . Kim Y/N ? He asked looking at her . She nodded .
I'm Jimin . Park jimin . He introduced himself .
Oh Jimin - shi . You're Taehyung's friend , right ? She asked . He nodded . Please come in . She opened the door fully , welcoming in . Jimin walked in . Looking around , he saw his friend's picture in the living room .
What do you want to drink - Her words got cut off with a small cry . She rushed towards the room . She took the baby in her arms keeping him closer to her chest . He stopped crying when he sensed his mother's presence.
Can I ? Y/N turned around , seeing Jimin standing near the door , gesturing to hold the baby . She nodded and slowly shift the baby to Jimin's hands .
Kimchi is ? Jimin asked rocking the baby in his arms .
Boy . Y/N said looking at her kimchi who is curiously looking at Jimin . He turned towards his mother started crying for her to take . She took him from Jimin's hold .
Just like he predicted . Did you name him ? Jimin asked . She shook her head .
When he arrives. She said . He nodded . They walked out of the room with the baby in her arms .
Jimin took a letter from the suitcase he carried when he came to the house and handed it to Y/N . A letter from him . He said .
I'll get going. He stood up dusting his pants off .
You didn't even drink anything . Y/N said standing up with the baby .
Maybe next time . He walked out of the house with his suitcase . She closed the door took a seat on the couch . She hurriedly took the letter .
To ,
Kim Y/N .
86 , Dongbyeon-ro , Buk-gu ,
Daegu .
15th January 1952 .
My love ,
I'm writing this letter with a thumbing heart . Hoping and praying , it won't receive . But if you're reading it , then I'm sorry , love .
I'm sorry for making you worried . I'm sorry for getting hurt . I'm sorry for breaking our promise , promise to grow old with you . I'm sorry for breaking the promise , promise of not to die . I have not kept it . I broke it . All of them .
Love , I can see the tears pouring out of your eyes . Wipe it , love . Wipe it off from your face . Didn't I always told you , " Tears don't suit your face " ? Tears don't suit you , love . Tears don't suit a soldier's wife . So don't cry .
There is no way in this world through which I can truly and greatly express my love for you . But now I think , this is the only way to show some of my love to you . It's only you I think about throughout the day and night . You have been a constant support to me throughout these years since we met . And I'm totally and deeply in love with you .
Sometimes , I would think about how much of a lucky person I'm to have a great life partner like you . You are not just a life partner to me . My childhood friend , my best friend , my first love , my wife . Mine .
You make me the happiest and most loved person in the world . Our endless conversation and the sweet meetings we had always made me to love you more each day .
Our little kimchi ...... I'm afraid Y/N . I'm afraid . For the first time in my life I'm afraid , I might die without seeing you and our kimchi . Without even glancing at him . Y/N , let's name him
' Taegguk ' . What do you think ? Tell him , Appa loves him . A lot . Tell him , Appa will miss him . Take care of him , Y/N . Just the way you took care of me .
Thank you for being with me . Thank you for choosing me as your life partner even though I had flaws . Love is something different . Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart . Love is patient , kind and deliberate . Love is hard . Love is pain and sacrifice , it's seeing darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship , yet you chose to stay . Thank you , love .
When tomorrow starts without me , and I'm not here to see you , if the sun would rise and your eyes filled with tears for me . I wish so much you wouldn't cry , the way you did today , while thinking of the many things we didn't get to say . I know how much you love me as much I love you and each and every time you think of me I know you will miss me too . When tomorrow starts without me , don't think we are far apart . Every time you think of me , I'm right there in your heart.
Again , you're crying , right ? Wipe it off ..... Yeah like that . You did it right . Now do it daily , for me .
I love you , more than yesterday but less than tomorrow .
With love ,
Your husband ,
Kim Taehyung .
There is a photo attached to the letter . She took it . Their photo .
The first photo they took right after their marriage . She looked down , their little kimchi had fallen asleep in her lap .
Taegguk . She called him in a low voice . Her tears falling down one by one . Wipe it off , love . She heard his voice . She slowly wiped off the tears but it didn't seemed to stop .
She took Taegguk in her arms and walked towards her room . She placed him in the crib covering him with his baby blue blanket . She walked towards the bathroom . Closing the door behind her . She cried her heart out , whimpering one name . His.
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Sergeant Kim Taehyung , a man of 35 years old , sacrificed his life to save the life of thousands . Soldiers - A person who put the interest of their country above their personal interest .
We sleep safely at night because rough man stand ready to visit violence on those who would harm us - Winston S Churchill
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The most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained . How much of a truth where these words .
THE END
My love will always be with you till the day I die . I promise to walk this life with you forever .
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