You never thought you'd make it past 14
And now you're 21
Such the life you lived
With no plan beforehand
Cause you decided to end it at the ripe age of 14
But you couldn't quite go through with it as you felt yourself slip
Here you are embarking on your new journey
Finding love unexpectedly
You lived !
You experienced serenity and rowdiness
Calm days and crazy nights
What would it have been if your days stopped that night
Dreadful on your prayer mat
Crying to your Lord above
Asking for forgiveness on what you were about to do
They told you everyone would be better off if you were dead
It wasn't enough for them when you stopped speaking
They needed to cut your breath out of your damaged lungs
Heaven sent its strongest angels to sing you to sleep
Carried you from the ground and closed your lids with a lullaby
As the sun rose you opened up your eyes
To find yourself with a heartbeat and tucked in nice
All the tears that stained your mat became your reminder
That you shall live to see another day
For your life is not yours to interfere with its ending
You were entrusted with this soul to take care of and nurture
But as everything in this life it goes back to its true owner
Returning it on your own terms is quite rude
To the one that generously granted it to you
It's all called "borrowing what rightfully isn't mine"
He'll take it whenever he chooses
All you have to do is show it kindness
It's scary to think that all of these memories that live rent-free in your head
Wouldn't have taken place if that night you became nonexistent
You had your fair share of red people the ones that burn with the drive to live
Oranges were motivated by endless bounds to thrive
Everyone knows a yellow field of sunflowers in their life
Greens have always managed to be persistent to do more than just survive
Blues are the ones I resonate with, willing to take the first dive
And purples on their foot to make their mark in this world and strive
My grey days were showered with color
Each one had its own impact on the way I view the world
In the mirror, how I see myself change with the days
I watched myself get washed with hues of an ever bright rainbow
Now, without a plan beforehand and made it to 21
Do what you want and give it your best shot
Love who you love and some will break your heart
Don't worry you have your own support system to back you up
The one you wished for when you were younger
It's thrilling and terrifying, which makes it all worth the while
Trust me, you'll be okay