𝐀 𝐘𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐳𝐚'𝐬 𝐆𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 || 𝐁𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟒: 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐬

‼️TW‼️
Mention of Murder intent, slight NSFW scene (if you don't wanna read it, read until Y/N leaves the changing room and then continue with Sanzu's POV)

(Y/N)

»Fine«, Sanzu eventually complied to your request. Immediately, you didn't know what to do anymore. You hadn't expected him to actually agree, you just wanted to tease him a little bit since that was your newly beloved hobby since you joined Bonten. At least, you got nothing left to lose anyway.

Now, you had to do what you said anyhow, so you stood up hesitantly, putting the trash away at first. You wanted to clean the table but as you turned back, Sanzu was already doing so with a wet tissue.

»I'll get changed first«, you awkwardly gestured to the dressing room and he replied with a bored »yeah«, without even granting you a look.

You grabbed some comfortable clothes out of your still packed bags and left the living area. When you closed the door of the dressing room behind you, you let out a relieved sigh and looked up towards the mirror which was hanging right above the sink opposite of the door.

Why do I feel so...yeah what do I even feel like? Is he making me nervous because I can't really read him? Or is it the proximity we will have once I leave the room? By now, I really should have gotten used to things like that, considering I already slept beside Kakucho and kissed three of the other Bonten members...

But why am I even doing all this when I should rather try to wrap my head around my past with Soule? And what about Takeomi, he got attacked by Soule, even though he has nothing to do with him. I should visit him soon to apologise...and maybe make up for it. Although...the best way to make up for all this chaos would definitely be to kill Soule...

As you thought about killing him, your heart suddenly started to ache. The feeling that Soule and you had been friends before he'd become your enemy just wouldn't leave you. The memories that came back to you during the two times you've met him supported that theory as well.

What the fuck happened 13 years ago?

And who is that other boy from my memory?

'No matter what may happen in the future, if you tell me you need me, I'll be there'

Who said that to me? It definitely wasn't Soule...

And then, why does Mikey feel so familiar as well? Could it be that he...

»What's taking you so long? I'm getting tired«, an impatient Sanzu hammered against the door and you flinched as it pulled you out of your thoughts.

»Don't stress me, Haruchiyo«, you replied and hurriedly started to change your clothes.

»I told you to not call me by my first name«

»It's the least I am allowed to do when you already track me«

»If I didn't track you, you would be dead by now«

And Kakucho would be dead too. Because of my problems...

»Let's quit arguing, just lemme call you Haruchiyo«, you said, folding your clothes to place them on the shelf.

»Whatever, just hurry«, you heard his steps fading away and quickly opened the door, following him.

»I'm already finished, see?«

However you were the one who saw. Sanzu was just ready to place himself on his bed, dressed in casual clothes as well. Never before had you seen him wear anything less expensive looking than a suit. Now that he stood in front of you in that simple sweatpants and shirt, his eyes a little tired, he didn't look as intimidating as usual.

He looks cute.

You didn't dare to say that though, simply rushing past him, laying down on his bed. Sanzu placed himself beside you, obviously utterly careful not to touch you.

»Now, will you-«

»Yeah, yeah«, he interrupted you, grabbing for a remote and pushing a button which seemed to turn off the light.

What, does he plan me to stay beside him?

»Where's your tummy?«, he asked, searching with his hand, since your eyes still didn't adjust to the newly created darkness around you. Instead of your tummy, it landed on one of your boobs instead though and you froze under his touch.

»That's not my tummy Sanzu, you need to lower your hand a little«

»Oh-«, immediately he froze, then retracted his hand and placed it a little lower. »Should've said that earlier, idiot«

»You just touched me before I had the chance to say something«

He didn't say anything anymore, simply caressing your tummy in silence. Eventually, Sanzu reached the bottom of your shirt and carefully lifted it, placing his fingers on your bare skin. He hesitated, seemingly waiting for your reaction but you replied with a simple »go ahead« and let him caress your tummy under your shirt.

His fingers were a little bit cold, however you didn't mind. You never really had anyone being that gentle with you before, but just like you've read about some time ago, it somehow helped to ease the pain.

»Thank you«, you eventually mumbled, »it feels good, Haru«

You felt him stiffen beside you. »Can I stop already? My hand hurts«

»You're so annoying«, you rolled your eyes, although you knew he couldn't see it.

»You can be lucky I even did anything for you«, he sounded pissed and turned away from you, sitting up. His movement caused you to sit up as well and you asked him, »what's wrong?«

Usually you shouldn't care. And usually you wouldn't even think anything was wrong, but you had a strong intuition and learned to listen to it - it had been life-saving back when you were a spy.

»Nothing«, Sanzu replied dryly. »I'll sleep on the couch.« As he stood up, you instinctively grabbed for his wrist which made him halt. He was standing right in front of you, who was kneeling on his bed, his back facing you. »Let go of me«, he demanded.

»No«, you replied, not knowing why and already scolding yourself internally, as you remembered Koko's words from earlier that day.

'I would advise you to obey his will as long as it doesn't harm you'

Well, I totally failed at that from the beginning.

»What did you say?!«, Sanzu's tone sounded more threatening and he pulled his wrist out of your grasp, just to turn around and push you on your back, climbing onto you. There was no lamp lightening the room, except for the natural light of the crescent shining outside. That was enough for you to make out the features of his face once your eyes had accustomed to the darkness.

Now, you saw his cyan eyes burning into yours with a mixture of rage and conflict - or maybe you couldn't read him quite right yet.

»I really do make you emotional, don't I?«, you teased him.

»You make me wanna kill you«

»Oh, are you flirting?«

»Shut the fuck up«, he spat, pinning your arms to the sides of your head. »You bitch really don't know when to stop, do you?«

»Do you want me to stop?«, you asked, causing Sanzu to clench his jaw and he didn't reply, so you continued instead. »Or do you want me to do even more but are too weak to admit it?«

»You-«

»Are you mad because in fact you do like me already?«

»I said shut-«

You chuckled, interrupting him once more. You were going down a path without any chance of return and you knew it - but you didn't care right in this moment. »I like you too, Haruchiyo«

»You have no idea what you're talking about«

»Then you tell me«

»There's nothing to tell«

»Why are you always so mad at me even though I am loyal to Bonten? Even though I am loyal to Mikey?«

He hesitated and his grip around your wrists became a little more loose, as he averted his gaze. »Haruchiyo«, you whispered, making him look back to you. His eyes wandered from yours, down to your lips, and eventually back up. A small smile plastered on your lips, as you commanded, »do it!«

There weren't any more words needed for Sanzu to grab your face and passionately press his lips on yours. He pressed his body down on you, making you feel his bulge between your legs, causing you to moan into the kiss. His dick twitched as he heard it and you couldn't help but to lose yourself in the kiss more and more.

Sanzu's kisses were wild, demanding, craving, full of desire but mixed with a lot of caution. It actually told you quite a bit about him, yet you didn't really think much anyway when his hands started roaming around your body. He grabbed you in a lustful, yet gentle way which was totally new to you. Sanzu was the first one you let do this much to you, however there rose a voice in your head, telling you to try something else and see whether he liked it.

So you broke the kiss and Sanzu immediately retracted a little bit, which you used to your advantage and - catching him off-guard - you pushed his back down on the mattress and sat on top of him. You placed that sweet spot between your legs right onto his bulge and he slightly squirmed underneath you as a moan escaped his lips. Even in the pale moonlight you saw his cheeks blushing, as he hid his mouth behind his hand as if he was embarrassed. You couldn't help but to smile at the way he was looking up to you now, looking so submissively.

So he likes to be dominant and be dominated, huh? He really is cute...

You leaned down towards him, gently pulling his hand away from his lips. »No need to hide yourself like that, Haru. I like to see you so flustered, you know that«

You leaned down for another kiss, as his hands wandered down to your ass. »I don't-«, he stammered but he interrupted himself with a lustful gasp as you let your hands wander down towards his bulge, stopping shortly before touching it directly.

»You don't?«, you asked innocently. »You don't like that? Should I stop?«

You slowly retracted your hand, as Haruchiyo whimpered underneath you, »No!«

He widened his eyes, seemingly only then realising what he just had said. »What do you want then?«

»...touch me«, he mumbled.

»I didn't understand right, what is it?«, you mocked him and enjoyed his enraged reaction, his cheeks flushed, as he repeated, »T-Touch me!«

You smiled and slowly placed your hand on his bulge, palming him through his pants and reassuring him, still wondering a little bit about your own confidence. »No need to be so shy about it«

Sanzu turned into a whimpering mess underneath you and you could feel yourself getting more needy. However, you wouldn't have your first sex just like that. You already decided that you would only do it with someone who felt the same about you as you felt for them.

Your thoughts must have made you stop your hand movements, since Sanzu suddenly grabbed both of your arms and turned you around again. »So, you're a switch, huh?«

»A switch?«, you asked, not well-informed enough to understand what he meant.

Sanzu hesitated before he raised an eyebrow. »And a Virgin«

You gulped. »That's right. I guess you're not?«

»I won't fuck you then«, he leaned back, adjusting his hard-on as good as possible through his pants.

»I don't want you to fuck me«, you sat up as well.

»Oh yeah?«, he teasingly let his fingers run over your clothed clit. An unfamiliar, yet indescribably good sensation overcame you and you couldn't help but to cling onto his arm as you started moaning. He continued caressing you down there and eventually climbed on top of you again. You were an absolute mess under him but you couldn't care less, you just wanted him to never stop. »I think you do want more of me. You crave my touch that much?«

»I-«

You weren't able to form any full sentence anymore. »You? You want me to please you?«

»Please«, you called out, feeling nothing but a mixture of pleasure and pain. You wanted more.

How did things switch so fast just yet?

»You're such a slut, aren't you?«, he teased you and just when you tried to react at least in some way, he pulled back and stood up from the bed. A silent whimper escaped your lips at the sudden halt of satisfaction. You rubbed your thighs together as the dizziness of this new experience slowly left your body again. »I guess we're even now«, Sanzu said, adjusting his dick through his pants again and you gulped.

»Since you're new to all this«, he went to the sofa and placed himself on it, grabbing for a box of cigarettes. He put one of them into his mouth and lightened it. The fire shortly illuminated his face, which was seemingly still a little bit flushed. After taking his first puff, he leaned back on the sofa and looked at you, who was still sitting on his bed, »go to the bathroom and clean yourself. Even if we didn't fuck, you must be a mess down there«

A simply hand gesture of him pointed towards his crotch and a teasing smile plastered on his lips. You slowly nodded and stood up, doing just as he said. Before you went to the bathroom, you grabbed for changing clothes, a new plan forming in your mind.

Sanzu

The moment you left the room, Sanzu let out a relieved sigh. He had to admit that when you first joined Bonten, he wanted to fuck you before Mikey had warned him. However, over time he grew some affection towards you and somehow he couldn't bring himself to do something to you now. It wouldn't be the first time he popped someone's cherry but with you, he couldn't bring himself to do it.

Deep down, he knew you were important to him and he hated it. He heard your words from earlier echoing through his head.

'Why are you always so mad at me even though I am loyal to Bonten? Even though I am loyal to Mikey?'

As if he would ever admit it. In fact, Haruchiyo Sanzu was just more than bad at expressing love - he didn't know much about that topic anyway. Yet, he found himself asking whether you were feeling okay now and whether your stomach still hurt. The more worries about you arose inside him, the angrier he became. He lit himself another cigarette. While puffing on it, he started to adjust the sheets of his bed again.

Can she hurry? I wanna get changed.

Sanzu always had been a clean person, no matter whether it came to his home, his work, or his body. He preferred to take care of things himself and do things orderly. That's why he didn't smoke for a long time as well, he didn't really like the smell. However, it truly helped calming him down when needed and even Sanzu had to admit he needed to calm down a bit sometimes.

Just when he walked back to put the rest of his used cigarette into the ashtray on the table, he heard the creak of the bathroom door from behind him. He turned around and furrowed his eyebrows at the sight of you, who was fully dressed in black again, your hair styled to be out of your face. »What are you doing?«, he asked confused.

»Sanzu«, you looked at him with a serious expression, just like he was used to from you, »please accompany me to a personal mission!«

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To be continued...