Hong Joshua, a member of the boy band seventeen
is in love with his band mate, Yoon jeonghan
Since their debut he felt like he have something for the elder
But he knows that he only see him as a brother
And even after those years of being together and knowing that fact he couldn't contain his feelings and fell for the elder even more
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Author pov
Today was a fansign of their new album
They were exited to meet their fans and interact with them
They were sited in order of their ages and each fans came one by one
At a moment a fan came and was asking a certain question to jeonghan
F: oppa~ how are you to the members? What your relations to each of them
Jh: they are all like my brothers I love them all as if they were my second family
F: and Joshua oppa ? What do you feel about him ?
Jh: shua~ is my dongsaeng and is like a brother to me and I love him so much and since our debut he's there for me, he's I think the twin brother I never had
He answered and the fan smiled and goes to the next member (Joshua)
Joshua listen to it and he's heart start aching, he didn't know why he felt sick suddenly but keep a straight face for the fans
But this sudden change in his face didn't got unnoticed by their leader
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The fans sign pass and every members were happy to have met many fans but Joshua right after putting a fake smile on just went to the back stage and stayed alone and had teary eyes
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Suddenly he felt like throwing up and run to the bathroom and what he saw make him scared, nervous and wonder what's happening
He saw petals
Yes Joshua throw up petals
He cried and was scared of what was happening
Until someone knock and spoke
Sc: shua ?
Joshua recognized scoups voice and didn't knew if he should hide it, the only thing he knows is that he can't hide anything for too long to scoups or anyone
He decide to open the door and scoups enter and gasp by seeing the petals
Sc: what did happen ?
Joshua start crying and said
Js: I I didn't felt well and felt sick and throw up and it's petals
scoups gasp and start to search what could it be until he get it, he remembered a story from one of his friends
Sc: do you love someone? In romantic way ?
Joshua gulp and felt his throat again getting filled
He couldn't contain and throw up again
Sc: that's what I thought, shua, tell me who do you love ?
Joshua look down and said almost whisper
Js: j jeonghan
Scoups gasp and in same time knew it, since their debut Joshua looked after jeonghan even tho he was younger and make sure that jeonghan was always fine and if he had to get tired for him he will, if he had to get hurt for him, he will
Sc: tell him, tell him shua, you can't stay like this
Js: w why ?
Sc: shua~ you have the hanahaki disease, it's when your one sided love, to cure it, one, you got loved back by that person, two, you get the petals removed but you also loose your feeling for him or even worse you loose your memory of him
Joshua was speechless, loosing his memory of jeonghan ? No he can't, he love him so much for that, but that love is killing him, what to do ? That was the fatal question that will now decide Joshua's life
Js: I I need to think about it
Sc: you don't have much
Joshua nod and scoups ask if he was okay and he nod and both left
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Time skip
It's been now a week and Joshua was still not feeling good, but he have to take a decision
But scoups told him to ask jeonghan first, maybe it was cause he was with the fans, who knows he's true feelings, but Joshua didn't accept he was scared to look weak, to look stupid in front of jeonghan for asking this question as if the statue jeonghan gave him didn't satisfy him, which was true but he don't know how to ask him
But the dis ease get worse than planned and faster as well, that worse that he start throwing up more than three times and it start having blood mixed with the petals and that's worry scoups
And by the time some other members get to know about it but to not stress Joshua they didn't say anything except to scoups
By the time the dis ease got here worse but that's meant he had to do something and by now jeonghan didn't knew anything and Joshua will have only one option if he wanna live
So scoups decided to do it on his own, he knows he shouldn't do that and that Joshua and jeonghan should do it on their own, but he don't like seeing one of his brother dying
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He knock on jeonghan room and when he said to enter he enter
Jh: oh hyung, what happen ?
Sc: I need to talk with you
Jh: s sure
He said and scoups goes to sit beside jeonghan
Jh: so ?
Sc: I need to know something, it's important and be honest it's really serious, in the fansign you said you saw us as your brothers ?
Jh: yea ofc, y'all are like my brothers, why ?
Sc: tell me honestly....
He sight and look down than how and took a deep breath
Sc: do feel something stronger than a brother bond with Joshua
Jeonghan was taking aback and didn't know how to answer to that sudden question
Jh: ab... why that question
Sc: just answer
Jh: I Idk
Sc: think about it, have you never felt like you felt something different while being with us than when you're with shua ? Don't you feel something in your chest or anything ? Think and don't be scared to say it, we're alone
Jh: I i, i do feel like something is raising in my chest like my heart beat fast when he hold my hand or put his arm around me, like when he got closer or smile at me I feel like my heart start beating as if I was nervous to talk in public
Sc: tell me clearly, try to guess your feeling, put a name on it
Jh: why you wanna know that much
Sc: I'll tell you later just tell me please I'm begging you, do you love Joshua
Jh: I i do love joshua
He said while yelling and teary eyes as well from fear of judgment
Scoups smiled and hug the younger
Sc: that's what I wanted to hear, do you really love him ?
Jeonghan nod
Sc: tell me more
Jh: I love him since our debut, he was the first one to come to talk with me, he didn't judge or was mean, he was kind and friendly and I felt something with him at first I thought it was a friend/ brother bond but later I realized I got attached to him so much and wanted to be with him always
Sc: then go tell him, tell him before it's too late
Jh: w what ?
Sc: just do as I said
Jh: what if he reject me ?
Sc: I'm sure he will not, just go
Jeonghan was hesitant and stood up and went slowly and look at scoups before leaving and scoups goes to the living room
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D: what did happen ?
Sc: just jeonghan realizing his love for Joshua or just him stop hiding it
V: you told him for Joshua hyung ?
Sc: no, I only make him say it and told him to confess before it's too late, but I didn't told him he loved him nor he was having yk what
Sk: let's hope for the best
All nod
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Joshua's room
Joshua was resting when he heard a knock he goes to open it and saw jeonghan
He gulped and jeonghan look at his tired eyes and took him to the bed
Jh: I need to talk to you
Joshua was surprise and got nervous, did he get to know ?
Jeonghan look at Joshua and saw something from the bathroom door at the back but didn't care much and keep going with what he was suppose to do by coming here
Jh: I i wanted to tell you something, but don't get mad at me nor hate me
Joshua nod slowly
Jh: since our debut, I I wanted to tell you something but keep it inside, and I it's that I I love you
Joshua was speechless
Jh: hong Joshua i love you
Joshua was more than shock, his crush, hyung, best friend, soulmate, brother, the boy he love more than anyone just said he loved him back
Jh: I it's okay if you don't love me I I will not mind I It's ok...
He was cut off by Joshua who hug him tightly and cried in his arms
Js: I I love you too
He said between his sobs, jeonghan pulled away and caress Joshua's cheek and hug him again than his eyes land again on the bathroom door and saw colorful things that look like petals
Jh: shua~ what is this
He said pointing to the bathroom door
Joshua look at it and start panicking
Jh: tell me shua ?
Joshua then sigh and start explaining and jeonghan gasp and hug him tightly and cried
Jh: I'm sorry I should have confess earlier and should have seen it before I'm sorry
Joshua hug him back and than jeonghan pulled away and said
Jh: will you be my boyfriend ?
Joshua cried and nod
Jeonghan couldn't be more happier and kiss him and Joshua kiss him back and he felt like all the pain he felt this week was fading away
Then pulled away and look at each others eyes and rest their forehead on each others one
Jh: I love you
Js: I love you too
Jh: don't hide anything from me anymore
Js: I promise
Jh: you must be tired, come
He said and lay on Joshua's bed and open his arms for him to come and Joshua did and hug jeonghan and snuggle his face into his chest
Jh: I love you and will never leave you and I'm sorry for the pain I cause you
Js: don't be, now were together and that's what matter
He said and kiss jeonghan who didn't hesitate to kiss back
They soon fell asleep, and the other members enter and cooed at the two and were happy for jihan (mostly that Joshua is safe)
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Since that day they become more inseparable, except when the staff said to separate each other during shooting, they will always ending up together cuddling on their break time
Day by day since that confession, Joshua felt better and the petals did disappear and are no more and only love and happiness is filing his heart and everything
And that cause of Jeonhan
(Thanks scoups)
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