We went back to the theater and Ellie knocked on the door, as Jesse and I had leg injuries and were leaning against the wall.
Dina opened the door and let us in, but it didn't matter to Ellie and me how she saw Jesse. I went upsatirs and Ellie followed me
"Ellie? What's wrong?" I asked her
"Nothing" She said rubbing her hands together, she usually did that when she was nervous about something. Then I put my hand on her shoulder.
"Come on, come with me" I said the moment I understood why she was being strange
We took a tour of the theater, seeing so much stage equipment
"So much stuff!" I said in amazement, trying to cheer her up
"Look at those masks!" Ellie said
"Did people find them funny?" I asked
"It seems so, very strange" She replied
We kept walking and I saw a room we had not yet entered, there we found some first aid stuff, so I told her
"Sit down"
She did as I said, I lifted her shirt off her back.
"Shit, you're full of scratches and cuts!" I said surprised
"Yeah" She replied
I grabbed some alcohol and cotton and said.
"It will burn a little, give me your hand"
She gave me her hand and I began to medicate her, feeling her grip get stronger each time I passed the alcohol over her wounds. Once I was finished I put my shirt back down.
"Done! How was it? Bad?" I asked, noticing that she had not yet let go of my hand
"It did hurt a little, however thank you" She replied looking into my eyes
She sat on my lap and continued looking into my eyes, this time licking her lips. Our foreheads came close until they touched, at that moment we could hear our breaths, we were about to kiss each other
"I want it so much" Ellie said
"Me too, but we can't" I said remembering Dina
So we got up and left the room. My back was turned and I was closing the door when I heard Ellie screaming
"HEY! WHAT THE FUCK!?"
I turned around and saw that Dina was kissing Jesse, who poor guy got so scared of Ellie that he walked out of the theater.
"I'm going to go find Jesse, please don't kill yourself," I said looking Ellie in the eyes
I walked out of the theater and Jesse was out there in despair, so I approached
"Jesse, are you okay?"
"No, now she's going to kill me!" He said referring to Ellie
"Don't worry, she's just pissed off at Dina" I said cheering him up a little
"Sorry, I ruined everything, our friendship. EVERYTHING!" He said despairing again
"Don't worry, Ellie won't be mad at you, you've always been friends"
"Okay, surely you know her better than I do, I trust her" He replied
At one point we heard a door slam
"This is definitely Ellie, you stay here" I said as I entered the theater again
I saw Ellie walking away looking down, so I called her
"Ellie!"
But she didn't turn around, so I ran toward her, forgetting about the pain in my leg
"Ellie?" I said, but she didn't look at me, instead she began to rub her hands together
"Look at me please" I whispered placing my finger under her chin lifting it slightly
I saw her eyes begin to water and we sat down in the back of the theater
"What happened?" I asked
"Fuck it, I'm done with her!" She replied still pissed off, then added.
"She even scolded me about my relationship with you, that you are not sane, and things like that. In short, she doesn't like you"
"That she didn't like me had been obvious to me for a long time," I said, chuckling, and making her laugh a little as well
"Fuck her, I never want to see her again!" She said
"Now calm down though, it hurts you to get pissed off" I told her
"Okay" She replied
I got up to fetch the guitar and Ellie said
"Wait! Where are you going?"
"I'm coming back, stay there" I replied
I came back with the guitar and sat down next to her and started tuning it
"Do you hear that?" I asked
"What?" She asked
"A perfectly tuned guitar" I replied, and I don't know why, but it made her smile
So I began to play and then to sing
"If I ever were to lose you
I'd surely lose myself
Everything I have found, dear
I've not found by myself
Try and sometimes you'll succeed
To make this man of me
All my stolen missing parts
I've no need for anymore
I believe
And I believe cause I can see
Our future days
Days of you and me"
As I finished singing, she hugged me and said
"You sing really well!"
"Thank you!" I replied, smiling
"Listen, you never told me about your father, may I know something?" She asked
I put my fingers over my eyes and lowered my head
"Did I say something wrong?" She asked worried
"No, don't worry, it's just that-" I began to sob
She noticed and hugged me tightly
"Shh, don't worry" She whispered
After a while we broke away and I began
"What would you like to know about my father?"
"Well I don't know, who he was, what he did. You decide what to tell me" He replied
"You see he was the one person when I was growing up who never abandoned me. He liked to play and sing, he was a pianist, and when I was little he always played me something to make me smile even when I was sad. He taught me to play the piano when I was 4 years old, and thanks to him I learned a passion for drawing. When I cry, it's because I always remember that fucking day, when a man killed him. I remember I was so pissed off that I shot him 3 times in the chest and then, once he was on the ground, I started stabbing him always in the chest and throat. Even when he was already dead I continued until I was tired and looked at my hands and they were full of blood. From that day I realized how bad I could be"
I told her everything, leaving nothing unsaid. When I lifted my head, I saw her crying, so I hugged her
"Hey hey, it's okay, don't cry" I said
"Sorry but I couldn't help crying" She said and then continued
"You've been through so much, and despite that, you always thought of me before you"
"Ellie- I don't want what happened to my father, to happen to you- If I had to give my life to protect you, I would" And I burst into tears
"I don't want to lose you again, I love you Phil" She said
She finally told me how she felt about me, but I felt a little guilty about Dina.
After a while she reached into her backpack, and took out a notebook
"Do you know this?" She asked
I froze for a moment, and then I said
"But it's my diary!"
"That's right" She said
"How do you have it? I had it in my backpack!"
"No, you didn't have it. I have always kept it with me since the night of the party, when you went to Joel's house, you forgot it on my desk" He replied
"Oh my god how embarrassing, did you read it all?" I asked turning red
"Yes, and I have to apologize"
"Why do you have to apologize to me?" I asked
"Because you are a wonderful guy and I treated you like shit. I don't deserve you" She said
"If you are referring to what happened at the party, don't worry about it" I replied
"Except for the party, but I never treated you well" She added
"Ellie" I said looking into her eyes
"I don't want to look back, now we are here together, if you want to be forgiven I forgive you. But know that I was never pissed off at you"
"Okay" She replied wiping away her tears
"I read the lyrics of this song, what is it called? Uh- Oh yes, 'The Loneliest' "
"How does it sound?" I asked
"It moved me to tears, I read it on the night of the party, once I got home. Could you sing it for me?"
"Well yes, I had thought of it for you"
So I picked up the guitar and began to sing
"You'll be the saddest part of me.
A part of me that will never be mine
It's obvious
Tonight is gonna be the loneliest
You're still the oxygen I breathe
I see your face when I close my eyes
It's torturous
Tonight is gonna be the loneliest
There's a few lines that I have wrote
In case of death, that's what I want
That's what I want
So don't be sad when I'll be gone
There's just one thing I hopе you know
I loved you so
'Cause I don't evеn care about the time I've got left here
The only thing I know now is that I want to spend it
With you, with you, nobody else here
Tonight is gonna be the loneliest"
As I finished singing, again her eyes were watering. But this time, as soon as I placed the guitar on the ground, she immediately sat on my lap, and again our foreheads touched
"This time I really want it Phil" She said licking her lips
"This time I won't stop you Ellie"
So finally I felt her lips on mine and we kissed for a long time. After a while we pulled away and both of us caught our breath, she looked at me and smiled
"How would you rate it?" She asked
"10 would not be enough" I replied
We stayed cuddled for maybe five minutes and then she said to me
"I'm tired, do you want to sleep?"
" Yeah Ellie, I'm tired too"
So we lay down in the theater seats and she lay on top of me
"Did you like the song?" I asked, running a hand through her hair
"Definitely beautiful, thank you babe"
Wow, it was the first time she called me babe, it was really nice. After a while I could feel that she was already asleep, she was always a fast sleeper, so I also fell asleep thinking back to what had happened.