Social-Suicide

By Romanogersroyalty

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(warning: signs of suicidal thoughts, attempted suicide, abuse, bullying and harassment) Natasha Romanoff is... More

Prologue
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9
Part 10
Part 11
Part 12
Part 13
Part 14
Part 15
Part 16
Part 17
Part 18
Part 19
Part 20
Part 21
Part 22
Part 23
Part 24
Part 25
Part 26
Part 27
Part 28
Part 29
Part 31
Part 32
Part 33
Part 34
Part 35
Part 36
Part 37
Part 38
Part 39
Part 40

Part 30

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By Romanogersroyalty

Natasha laid on the couch with Cooper's head laying on her chest as she watched 'Supernatural'. She was so consumed by the TV show that she didn't even hear the front door open or the sound of footsteps coming towards her.

Steve smiled as he walked into the living room and found the pair. Walking over to the couch he placed a gentle kiss on Natasha's cheek causing her to look up at him in surprise.

Natasha smiled "I didn't hear you come in."

Steve grabbed her feet lifting them up so he could take a seat and sitting down he placed her feet on top of his lap.

"I got off early." He shrugged as he began to rub her feet

"How long has he been asleep?" He asked after a moment looking at Cooper who slept peacefully

"About a hour." She shrugged rubbing the boys back gently

"Well if he's sleeping in our room he might want to find another pillow because those are mine." He joked looking at her breast that Cooper was currently laying his head on

Natasha chuckled amusedly shaking her head "actually, their mine because their attached to my body." She replied

Steve leaned forward and pecked Natasha's lips, careful not to wake the sleeping baby as he did so.

"You two already have dinner?" He asked

Natasha shook her head "Cooper has, but I was waiting for you."

Steve smiled "sweetheart, you don't have to wait for me to come home to have dinner."

"I know, but I like having dinner with you especially when we can't have lunch together." She replied

Steve smiled in understanding and getting up from the couch he walked into the kitchen to make dinner. Natasha got up from the couch placing Cooper in his basinet that Clint and Laura gave to her.

Natasha walked into the kitchen finding Steve seasoning the steak. Smiling lightly she wrapped her arms around his torso and laid her head against his back.

Steve smiled as he began to cook the steak and put the fries in the oven.

"Fries with steak?" She questioned with a raised eyebrow

"It's food there are no rules." He shrugged turning in her arms and wrapping his arms around her waist

Natasha stood up on her tippy toes and placed a gentle kiss to his lips "I love you." She murmured against his lips as they parted

Steve smiled rubbing the tips of their noses together "I love you too." He replied

----

After dinner they all headed upstairs for bed and Natasha laid Cooper in his playpen for the night. It wasn't the most comfortable arrangement but it would have to do for the night.

Making sure that the toddler was asleep Natasha got into bed and quickly laid her head on Steve's chest. Steve smiled down at the blonde combing his fingers through her short blonde locks.

They laid there for a moment in comfortable silence, the only sound that could be heard was Cooper's light snoring.

"He's so peaceful." Natasha was the first to speak, her eyes not leaving the toddler who slept soundlessly in the playpen

Steve followed Natasha's line of vision and hummed in agreement "yeah, but babies are supposed to be that way." He smiled lightly

Natasha chuckled lightly shaking her head against his chest "yeah right, not all babies are the same. Some sleep soundlessly others just cry and want you to hold them."

"What do you think our kids will be, soundless sleepers or cryers?" Steve questioned with a light smirk as he looked down at his wife

Natasha pondered the question for a moment before looking up and meeting his sea blue eyes "cryers. Definitely cryers." She replied

Steve raised a eyebrow "what makes you say that?"

"Just a hunch." She shrugged "I mean, you whine all the time when a man gets to close to me." She smirked

Steve chuckled placing a gentle kiss to the top of her head "I love you."

Natasha smiled "I know."

----

The next day was full of fun for the trio. It was filled with giggles, smiles and lots of hugs and kisses. And all though they had fun, the weekend went by fairly fast for the couple. To fast. Before they knew it, it was time to drop Cooper off back home.

Natasha walked up the front porch steps with Cooper in tow. The little boy laid his head on his aunt's shoulder as she rang the doorbell and not a moment later Laura came to the door with a smile on her face.

Cooper smiled happily as he reached for his mother and Laura took him kissing his little cheeks. Natasha smiled at the mother son duo.

"Thank you for watching him, I know he can be a handful." Laura said ushering Natasha inside

"He was an absolute angel." Natasha smiled at the little boy who was now running around the house looking for something to mess with

Clint scoffed "of course he was, that's because he's with you. But the moment he comes back home it's madness." He said taking a charger from the little boy who was trying to eat it

Clint walked up to Natasha kissing her cheek before he walked over to the coffee maker and made himself a cup of coffee.

"So how did Steve like our little monster?" He asked looking at the blonde over his mug as he took a sip and leaned against the counter

"He adored him, just as much as I do." She replied with a smile

Clint raised a eyebrow "oh yeah?"

Natasha nodded "you should've seen them Clint. There wasn't a damn thing Steve did this weekend without Cooper by his side." she chuckled

Her mind went back to Saturday afternoon, Steve sat on the couch with Cooper on his lap. A controller sat comfortably in his hands as he tried to teach the little boy how to play. Natasha found it hilarious, Steve trying to teach a almost two year old how to use an Xbox.

Clint hummed "that's good, now you know what to expect when you have kids."

Natasha rolled her eyes playfully at the comment "Steve and I aren't having kids for a few more years." She stated in a matter of factly tone

"You sure about that?" Laura asked picking up Cooper and brushing his dark blond hair out of his face

Natasha nodded "100%."

Clint and Laura shared a look, they had talked to Steve earlier that day and from the conversation they had with him they assumed that the pair weren't on the same page about the subject.

Natasha spent the rest of her afternoon with the couple, playing games with Cooper or just talking. As it got late she bid her goodbyes to the couple and went home where she had a nice dinner with Steve.

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Later that night,

Natasha walked out of the bathroom rubbing her arms with lotion. She frowned slightly when she saw Steve sitting on the bed staring blankly at the wall in front of him, it was clear that he had something on his mind.

Natasha walked over to the bed and sat down placing her hands gently on his shoulders, she began to massage them. Steve bent his head back and smiled up at her sheepishly.

"That feels incredible." He told her

"Yeah?" She questioned

Steve hummed in confirmation and Natasha's simply smiled as she continued to massage the area and move down to his arms, massaging the muscles.

"What's wrong?" She asked softly after a moment

Steve shook his head "nothing, it's just that...does it feel wired to you not having Cooper around anymore?"

Natasha chuckled "yeah, it does everytime he leaves but he'll be back. He doesn't stay away from his aunty Nat for to long."

Steve chuckled turning and wrapping his arms around her waist. He flipped them over to where he was on top of her. Descending his head down he placed a passionate kiss to Natasha's lips leaving her breathless.

"I love you." Steve murmured descending down to kiss her neck

Natasha moaned as he sucked on her sweet spot and her back arched, leaning into his touch. She could feel Steve's erection against her inner thigh as she wrapped her legs around his waist making her moan further.

Natasha put her finger under his chin and lifted his face so that he was looking at her. Steve furrowed his eyebrows as he looked at his wife, wasn't this what she wanted, what they both wanted.

"Steve are you okay?" She asked worriedly

Steve nodded "yeah, I'm fine." He smiled

Natasha raised a eyebrow "really, because just a few moments ago you looked like a lost puppy."

Steve sighed sitting up in bed and rubbing his eyes with the palm of his hand "I've been thinking a lot these last few weeks. About us, about our future." He started

Natasha nodded "yeah. And what does the future look like?" She questioned with a smirk

"I see you and I in a house, something simple like you've always wanted. I see kids running around with smiles on their faces. I see a dog-" he shrugged "maybe a cat."

Natasha chuckled "Steve?" She spoke gently after a moment cupping his face in her hands "is everything okay?" She asked rubbing her thumb over his cheek bones

Steve took a deep shakey breath as he looked at the blonde, their eyes locking on one another. Natasha always had a way of making him want to spill his guts.

"I want to start trying." He admitted

A/N:
Sorry about the short chapter and about how long it's taken me to post it. If you follow me you'll know that I've been trying to get my mental health in check and that there is a lot of family issues that I'm going through at the moment, but I won't bore you with that.

I just want to say thank you to everyone who has been patient with me and I want to tell you that your guys support means the world to me.

I'm sorry if there are any typos or missed punctuation's, I will fix them either later tonight or sometime tomorrow.

I am also sorry to say that I do not know when I'll be able to update this story. This story means a lot to me and I would never dream of abandoning it but as I said I have a lot going on. I'll try to update this story at least once or twice a month.

I hope you guys understand and have a great rest of your day...or night.
             Sincerely, Romanogersroyalty

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