The ride home is silent.
"Jere, I'm s-" He opens his car door to get out and closes it before I can finish.
I wait in the car for a second, letting him get inside before I follow so I can give him some space.
After a few minutes I walk up to my room and turn on the shower.
A shower to cry in, and think in. That's what I need right now. I'm so confused.
After the shower I change into my pjs early and sit in bed. I just want to read, get my mind off of things.
I've only read a few chapters before Belly walks in.
"Hey, I heard your sad shower playlist earlier. What's going on?" She sits down next to me.
I put the book on my nightstand.
"He uh, Jeremiah tried to kiss me and I uh, pulled away." I admit quietly.
"Oh," She says slowly. "I thought you liked him?" She asks softly.
"I di- I do. I think. I don't know." I can't even tell if I'm acting or not anymore.
"But you didn't want to kiss him?" She double checks.
I shake my head.
"Sounds like you enjoy him, his company. But as a friend." She concludes. "Does that sound about right?" She asks.
I shrug my shoulders, "It makes sense." I admit.
She pulls me into a hug and I sniffle. I'm just confused.
"He was supposed to be my escort." I laugh through tears.
"That is an easy solution. Conrad will take you in a heartbeat." She says.
"Really?" I ask.
"I know you've been a bit busy with Jere, but yeah. You have him wrapped around your finger." She laughs.
"Oh," I say.
"In fact," She grabs my phone and hands it to me. "Ask him right now."
"Right now?" I ask wiping a tear.
"Right now." She nods.
I pull up the conversation and text him, "Hey, I could use an escort to the deb ball... would you mind stepping in?"
"No doubt." He replies within the minute.
"Said yes." I look up at Belly with a sad smile.
"Problem solved." She says. "You gonna be okay?"
"Yeah," I nod. "It wasn't serious, we weren't official. I can get over myself. I'm more confused than sad anyway." I laugh through the last few tears.
"Okay.." She wipes a tear off of my face and gives me one more hug before leaving.