I was about to take a step but I saw Thirdy on the end of the hall so I quickly changed my path. I've been avoiding him since the day he came to the house and talked to Daddy. I don't if it's just or he's also doing the same thing. He hasn't messaged or talk to me after that day.
Tahimik siyang umalis nun. He would go to the house naman to see the kids, atleast that was fine for daddy now. I can see him talking and smirking at Thirdy as if they've talked about something I didn't know,just between the two of them.
I sighed when he didn't even bother to look at me,he's not even confuse na I avoided him.
Cause why he would care?
"Because.. ". Hindi ko na rin naituloy ang pagsagot sa sarili ko.
Nakakahiya kasing aminin sa sarili kong nasanay na ako sa pangungulit niya. I missed his text and all those crazy stuffs he would do to get my attention. Now it seems like he doesn't even care.
Well,again I need to go on. With a hard feeling on my chest I managed to go the gym where I do lifts. I mean most of us from the team does.
Ng makapasok agad akong pumunta sa usual spot ko. I'm already wearing my workout clothes. I sighed before starting up.
Natigilan ako when I saw Thirdy came in with a girl,I remember her. I think her name is Biatrice? Ah yeah,siya nga. They're laughing about who knows? I sighed and continue. Dumating na rin ang mga teammates ko and did their thing.
"Guys where to after nito?". Narining kong tanong ni Ponggay.
"Edi uwi". Si Deanna.
"Ayy boring mo". Inis namang sabi ni Ponggay.
"Hmm what if.. night out?". Napalingon kaming lahat kay Des.
"Weh? Sure ba yan itsmedescheng?". Si Jem..
"Oo naman. Come on guys ilang weeks nalang start na ulit ng PVL,samantalahin na natin bago pa tayo sumabak ulit ng training". Taas ang kilay na kumbensi niya samin.
Last PVL ended great. We won 2nd actually,I'm a bit sad because who doesn't want to be a champion? Though I'm still grateful to have such a good team. I believe ginawa naman namin lahat so no regrets. Of course my family was there,I don't if HE was there though. I haven't seen him..I'm talking about our last game.
"Sige game!". Sigaw ni Ponggay.
"G!". Si Deanna
"Sige sama ako".
"Gors".
"Sure".
Hindi ako sumagot,I'm actually tore been going or not. It's fine if I go though,mom would take care of the two.
"Ikaw hot momma,gors ka darling?". Asked Thang.
When I looked at my teammates they're waiting for an answer,pinanlakihan ako ng mata ni Maddie. I sighed before nodding my head.
"Yehey! Ako na bahala sa place". Said Des and grab her phone.
I sighed before grabbing my phone as well and took a photo of the gym so I could put it on my IG story, nagulat ako when tinapat ko na sa direction Nina Thirdy because his just Infront of us ay nakatapat din samin ang phone niya as if taking a photo also.
I pretend to move my hand,as if taking a boomerang but in fact it's just a photo. I saw him look at my direction through my phone.
I looked away and put my phone down.
"Woi,sinong kasama ng mister mo darling?". I blink and look at Thang who's leaning on me.
"Sinong mister". Natatawa kong tanong.
"Yun oh,si Pogi na matangkad na Moreno. May kasamang iba diba yan ang mister mo?". Tanong niya ulit.
"He's not my husband darling". Bulong ko at pasimpleng tumingin sa direksyon nina Thirdy.
Agad akong nag-iwas ng tingin ng makitang nakatitig siya sakin habang nagsasalita si Biatrice.
"Ay hindi ba? Na fake news ako,eh sino tong Bea De Leon - Ravena sa Twitter? Finollow ko pa naman". Naiinis niyang sabi.
I saw her unfollow the account and I laugh at her reaction.
"Akala ko talaga ikaw yun darling". Naiiling niyang sabi.
"Tsss bilis mong mauto ha". Sabi ko at tinawanan siya ulit.
We went to.. the heck was this? A club. I don't know what to do. Sure thing I've into these places but with my friends and HIM before. I'm not really fund of going out. Hanging out in the house is for my liking,I like the close environment with a small group of friends or family.
But tonight,since I said yes,I have nothing to do but to go along. I sighed when I saw my teammates do their thing,surely they know how to move in here.
I sat on a big red couch. I sighed as the cold air kissed my bare back. I didn't realize that wearing my white backless top would be a wrong idea not until tonight. Hinawi ko nalang patalikod ang buhok ko so it can cover my back.
"Okay ka lang te Bei?" . Asked Deanna,I looked at her and nod.
"Bat kasi ang sexy mo ngayon Darling?". Tanong ni Thang.
"No,I'm always sexy darling". I answered back earning a laugh from everyone.
"Nah taas ng confidence".
"Woi totoo naman parang,di nga nag-asawa eh noh?". Si Caitlyn and halos maluwa ko ata lahat ng laway Meron ang bibig ko.
I almost run out of breathe because of too much coughing, naluluha na rin ako. My friends seem to not care at all because they're just laughing.
My head instantly turn on my side when I saw a glass of water being handed to me. When I look up I saw a man holding a glass and flashing a smile on me.
"I believe you need this BDL". He stated,I smile a bit before getting the glass of water from him.
Agad ko yung iniinom and sighed as I felt much better.
"Thank you". I said and look up to him.
I saw him blushed,he scratch the back of his head and look at me shyly.
"Ahmm Beadel,pwede bang magpapicture?". He said shyly before looking at the other table.
The people in there shout and tease him I laughed and nod at him. I saw him blush again,he looked like a tomato now. Natatawa ko siyang tinapik.
He placed his phone in front of us and we took a selfie.
"Ahmm thank you BDL, Kent nga pala". He said and offered his hand.
"Nice to meet you Kent,I'm.."
"Isabel Beatriz Paras De Leon". I laughed and shake his hand.
He looked at me lovingly and so I look away. Okay that was akward.
Napatalon kami pareho when the loud music suddenly boomed causing for our hands to get away from each other. We laughed because of that,what with the DJ?
"Ahh sige alis na ako". My forehead creased as I can't hear him.
I point my ear,trying to tell him that I can't hear him propely, then suddenly the music lowered. I sighed and talked to him.
"Sorry what was it? I didn't hear you eh". Sabi ko.
"I said,balik na ako sa table namin,it's just there,if... ...". I couldn't hear the last sentence because lumakas na naman ang music.
I just nod my head on him,he smiled once again,stare at my face then walk back to his friends.
When I sit down,I saw my friends/teammates staring at me. The volume of the music is now lower compare kanina.
"Wow dahil sa tanong ni Caitlyn nakahanap ka pa ng papabols HAHAHA ". Natatawang sabi ni Thang.
My forehead creased.
"What's papabols?". I asked confused.
"Ay darling". Naiiling niyang sabi.
"Oh here's our drinks na". Said Des.
In drinks,of course I can do that. I won't say I'm lassingera, I just do drink when needed and in special occasions,who would want to be a KJ? Not me.
We all cheer and drink together.
"The music is so good". I commented as the new song played.
"Of course so as the DJ". Said Maddie that made me look in front.
My eyes bulged,I immediately averted my gaze as I saw him,THIDY! playing the music in front. Didn't know he'll be here and will be the DJ. I wanna hide actually,not that I'm afraid of him,cause I'm not! Wala naman akong ginagawang masama,so what if he saw me talking to other man? He'll never get mad naman.
"Kabado bente yan?". I rolled my eyes at Ponggay.
I drink the rum on my glass. I drink and drink until I felt like I'm full,but conscious enough to remember the remaining events that would happen tonight.
"That was great, special thanks for tonight's DJ! THIRDY RAVENA!".Shouted someone from I'm sure Infront.
So he's here talaga ha.
I don't think he knows that I'm here.
I don't think he cares, because if he does he won't be with that Biatrice right now. I'm just watching them laugh about something. Lagi nalang ata kayong tumatawa?
I shooked my head and laugh,gosh too much for being strong and pretending to be okay, too much of thinking that I can't be hurt,that I can't gamble anymore because if I do lose on it again,I'll break and my kids..
I wanna shout at him,told him I wanna be over him. I wanna tell him and make him guilty for all the sufferings I've been through without him on my side when he's supposed to be. Gosh liquor and what it can make think and do.
I sighed as felt the urge to go to him and shout.
Gosh that's not even you Bea.
I shook that thought away and pulled myself together and just watch people dance in front of me.
There I saw Ponggay and Deanna dancing with a step contradict to the music. Seriously are they drunk now?
"Ayos ka lang ba Bea?" I looked at Maddie,and when I looked at her,she's staring at Thirdy's side..
I nod my head.
"Tara,shot puno". I laugh at her.
We did shot.
After a few minutes,I just felt the need to see the comfort room so I did.
Habang naglalakd ako,I can see people staring at me.
Agad akong pumasok sa isang cubicle and pee.
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I heard them talking about going out for the night. I thought Bea won't say yes but she did. And so I did my role. Not that I don't want Bea to enjoy pero gusto ko lang nandoon ako para kung sakaling kailangan niya ng tulong o maghahatid sa kaniya sa Bahay nila andoon ako.
Luckily Tito Elmer called and told me kung saan pupunta sina Bea, he asked me to watch over Bea or .. basta
Nauna pa akong dumating sa kanila actually,I just sit there and wait for them. Nagulat pa ako when Kianna with. .. Dwight? Was here,are these two dating?
Dumating din si Biatrice,I didn't invite her,she's with her friends but since I'm here alone in a couch they sit with me,so as Kianna and Dwight.
Napapainom na rin ako but I made sure I'm still conscious to watch over Bea later. Kaya naman ng dumating nga sila pakiramdam ko lasing na ako.
The host,who happens to be my friend ask me to be the DJ,I sighed and nod.
Ng makaakyat sa stage kung saan kitang-kita ko si Bea at kung sino man yan na nag-uusap. The man is facing me. I think I've seen him before sa UAAP. Di lang ako sure,but the way he stare at Bea make me wanna choke him and poke his eyes.
Agad kong nimaobra ang tugtog at nilakasan yun causing them to stiff.
At nagtawanan pa.
I saw Maddie looking at me with a smirk on. I sighed,hininaan ko ang music when I saw Bea struggling to hear the man,baka lumapit pa at bumulong sa tenga eh.
Nilakas ko ulit when I saw him pointing their table,baka mayaya pa eh.
Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng makitang umalis na din ang hinayupak. I saw those who were dancing on the dance floor looking at me. Baka naguluhan din sila sa lakas ng music na parang guguho na ang building.
I played the few more hours before going down..
"Ang galing natin ha". I laughed when Biatrice said that.
"Syempre inspired eh". I said and looked at Bea's direction.
"Ay sanaol". Sabi niya that made the both of us laugh.
Pasulyap-sulyap lang ako sa table nina Bea,she's just drinking. I saw her lean on the couch and stare at the dance floor.
Because of that,I can clearly see her features on the side.
Damn, Beadel is not just pretty rather than being that pretty and attractive. It's her personality that drives everyone on liking her. She endure,she never give up no matter what. She's a dreamer. She's humble,that no matter how high people looked at her he feet stays in the ground.
And she loves,she has a pure heart and lovely soul. I can't imagine being Thirdy Ravena, without Bea De Leon after that.
Ah si Thirdy Ravena,diba sila ni Bea De Leon?
Ano kayo ni Bea De Leon?
Lahat ata ng tungkol sakin nakakabit din siya. Sabi nga ng mga taong nagmamahal,kung ano ang sakin ay sayo na rin. And I would gladly give her everything.
Everything that I wasn't able to give during the two chances na pinalagpas ko lang dahil sa pangarap ko.
I grab my phone,sent the email I wrote last night.
"Are you sure about that Thirdy?". I saw hesitation on Dwight's eyes.
I nod my head.
"Time to be a father,a man, Dwight". I said and tap his shoulder before getting up because I saw Bea going to the restroom.
I saw people watching her,at her bare back to be exact.
Agad siyang pumasok and all I could do is to wait outside.
I waited for her,ng makita siyang lumabas ay agad kong nilagay sa balikat niya ang jacket ko.
Nagulat Siya and when she look at me. I saw her face switched from surprised to emotionless.
"What are doing?" She said seriously before glancing at the jacket on her shoulders.
" Baka nilalamig ka". Sagot ko pero tinitigan lang niya ako.
"Bat di mo ibigay kay Biatrice?". I was taken aback by that.
Hindi ako makasagot. I stared at her is she jealous? Or what?
"Total, we're wearing the same kind of clothes why not give her this". Pinigilan ko ang kamay niya ng akmang tatanggalin niya ang jacket.
"Don't get that off". I said seriously.
Binaba niya ang mga kamay at tinitigan ako.
"Why Thirdy? Are you tired of ignoring me?". My forehead creased.
"I am not avoiding..."
"Oh come on! What did daddy told you ba? To stay away? Hahaha ang hina mo pala eh". I felt bad.
Hindi agad akong nakasagot.
"You know what, let's get this done Thirdy... I'm done with you,let's bre----".
"No!". Matigas kong sabi.
She looked at me as if I'm telling her a joke..
"Anong no? Look I'm done with this okay?pagod na akong manghula sa mga nangyayari sa atin. We're not kids anymore,we have kids na Thirdy,can we act as parents and not as young adults who only know nothing but ourselves?". Pagod niyang sabi.
"Let's bre----"..
"No please Bea". I said at lumuhod sa harap niya.
When I looked up to her,nakita kong nakawang ang labi niya dahil sa gulat maybe she's not expecting me to do this. I'm not too,but if this is what will stop her from breaking up with me I would,and probably won't stand up not until we're okay.
"Thirdy,masasaktan lang tayo ulit"naawa man ang mga mata ay nasabi niya pa din yun.
"No,I won't hurt you anymore, you'll never cry". I said,and hindi ko na napigilan ang sariling maiyak.
Tanggal anggas ko,pero ano ang pakialam ko sa anggas eh mas maaggas tong iniiyakan ko..
"Thirdy..". No,you can't use thar tone on me I won't give you up. Not again,not anymore.
"Please Bea, just one more chance,one last chance. Hinding-hindi ko napapalagpasin to. Please,I'm begging you Bea just one more and if I fail, hinding-hindi na kita guguluhin". I said I saw her expression softened.
I saw hesitation in her eyes.
Niyakap ko ang binti niya,I felt her stilled.
"Please Bea, kahit ano gagawin ko. Kahit isuko Ang lahat Bea..just please give me a chance, just please let me be the man I want to be. I wanna be Davin and Deila's Daddy,I want to your boyfriend, I want to be who I wanna be before you left". I gulped as I felt my self sobbing.
"Kahit lumuluhod akong lalabas ng club na to Bea gagawin ko,gusto ko bang tumalon ako sa building? Gagawin ko.. gusto mong..".
"You don't have to". I looked up to her immediately.
Agad na bumuhos ang mga luha ko.. is she..
"All you have to do is to stand up". She said and pulled me up.
Nagpatanggay ako sa kaniya.
I looked at her while sobbing so hard.
"Tangina nakakabakla lang mahalin Bea". Sabi ko at niyakap siya ng mahigpit. I felt her caress my head and back.
"Welcome home". She said before letting me claim her lips.
Finally.. I'm home.
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sobs*