Jin POV:
As I headed out of the apartment, I couldn't stop the guilty feelings that were coursing through me. From the look of hurt on her face I knew I had messed up. The other members had been right. She had been nothing but nice to me, but I let my emotions get the best of me. Seeing her standing in front of me like that, hearing the word she had said to NamJoon, had been enough to tear my heart in two. The way she had said she loved him and the sincerity in her voice had been enough to make me realize just what I was missing out on.
Once in the parking garage, I got into my car and slam the door behind me. Leaning my head back against the seat, I tried to calm the emotions that were threatening to take over me. Why had I done that? Why had I said those words to her? I knew the others would want my head on a silver platter if they found out what I had done. Especially Yoongi. Our relationship was still a little stilted and I knew this would only make it worse. Much worse.
Knowing I couldn't stay there, I started the car and pulled out of the garage, heading towards my own apartment on the other side of the complex. I had been surprised when they had moved into Hannam the Hill, but ultimately knew it was for their own safety. It was one of the most secure places in Seoul and we knew we were safe here. It was why I was trying to convince Mi-suk to stay here even though I knew she wanted me to move. Part of me wondered if she just didn't want me to live so close to my other members, but I pushed the thought aside. I hated having these negative thoughts about her, even though I knew they were right.
The ringing of my phone pulled me from my thoughts and my heart stuttered in my chest when I saw Namjoon's name. Fuck! Y/N must have called him and told him what I said! I knew he was going to rip me apart for it, but I hesitantly pressed the accept button. "H-hello?"
"Jin-hyung? I hate bothering you on your break, but the rest of us are here at the company. Manager-nim wanted to meet with all of us about the plans for the new album." Namjoon's voice sounded normal, no animosity at all, and it made me curious. Did she not call him?
"Um... sure. I'll be... I'll be there shortly."
"Thanks hyung." Namjoon disconnected the call and I couldn't help but feel uneasy. Why did he sound so normal? Why didn't he sound pissed at me? Shaking my head, I turned my car in the direction of the company. She probably didn't tell him yet. Maybe she didn't want to bother him at work. I didn't know. I knew if it had been Mi-suk, she would already be on the phone yelling at me, telling me that she had been disrespected and demanding I do something about it. Why did Y/N seem so different?
Distracted by my own thoughts, the drive to the company was quicker than expected and soon I was pulling into the garage. Parking my car, I got out and took a deep breath, hoping things would go smoothly. The last thing I needed was to get into yet another disagreement with my members. I understood why Yoongi was still upset with me, but I didn't know how to make it better. I knew I owed Y/N an apology. Not just for what happened during that first meeting, but for the nonsense I just spouted.
Knowing I needed to get this over with, I headed towards the elevator, returning greetings and waving at familiar people. After being with the same company for so long, I knew most everyone and it was nice to see smiles and hear everyone say hello. It made me feel seen, something I didn't always feel with Mi-suk, something I felt with Y/N.
Stepping out of the elevator, I walked down the hall to our normal conference room. I could see the other members already there and when I sat down next to Jimin, he gave me a small smile, one that I could see didn't reach his eyes. Feeling uneasy, I put a hand on his shoulder. "Jimin-ah? You okay?"
Jimin nodded. "Yeah. Just worried about Y/N."
"Why?" The uneasy feeling grew but when he didn't show any anger, it started to fade.
"I called her to check on her and she... it was obvious she had been crying. I asked her... asked her if she was okay and she said she was just feeling a little homesick." Jimin's lip quivered and I could see it was affecting him more than he was letting on. "I'm afraid that she's going to want to go back home."
My heart shattered at his words, knowing I was the cause of his hurt. Y/N had the opportunity to tell them about what I had said, but instead had covered it up, hid it from them. Why? Why was she protecting me? Why was she not throwing me to the wolves and letting them tear me apart? I didn't understand it. I wanted to reassure him, but before I could speak, Yoongi's voice cut through the room.
"Jimin-ah? Don't even think about that. Our soulmate loves us. She's not going anywhere. Trust me." Yoongi's voice was confident and I knew he believed every word he was saying. "It's only natural for her to miss her family, her home. And because we're not there today, it's giving her time to think and be alone."
Jimin nodded and I could see Yoongi's words had reassured him. "Yeah. Just climb in her bed tonight and you'll feel better." Taehyungs voice was filled with amusement and from the way Jimin's cheeks flushed, I could see it was something he did frequently.
As the other members teased Jimin, I couldn't stop the feelings of jealousy that filled me as I thought about their relationships with Y/N. I knew deep down that I should be a part of it all, that I should reminiscing about climbing in her bed and pulling her close, but I couldn't. Even if I had the opportunity before, I really lost it all now.
***
The meetings passed quickly and before I knew it, we were standing up, ready to exit the room. From the way the maknaes danced around excitedly, I knew they were in a hurry to get back to Y/N. And from the way, Namjoon grinned, I could see he could sense the same thing. With a wave, he released them and the three youngest members hurried from the conference room, chattering happily about getting back to their soulmate.
"Hyung? Would you like to come have dinner with us? I'm sure Y/N wouldn't mind. We can order takeout." Hoseok's voice was hopeful as he spoke and every part of me wanted to say yes, but I knew it would be a bad idea.
"I can't tonight. I'm having dinner with Mi-suk and our parents." Even though it sounded like an excuse, it was actually the truth. Mi-suk had texted me (several damn times) throughout the meeting, telling me we needed to meet to finalize the dinner menu for the reception.
Hoseok's smile faded and he nodded. "Uh... okay. Maybe another time."
I nodded and with a last smile, he left the room, leaving me feeling guilty. Ever since I had started dating Mi-suk, I didn't spend as much time with the other members. It had been nice during the tour, but I knew that being back in Korea would change everything again. Mi-suk was demanding and took much more of my time than I wanted, but sometimes it just wasn't worth the argument, worth the headache of telling her now, giving her something else to complain about.
Grabbing my bag, I headed out of the conference room, my steps feeling heavy as I thought about what had happened that day. I knew I had made a mistake saying those things to Y/N, but I couldn't stop the words from leaving my mouth. If I didn't reject her the way I did, I would have begged her to save me, to hug me, to love me like she did the others. A love I desperately wanted but knew I would never feel.
Yoongi POV:
Something was wrong with Jin and I was sure of it. It was even bigger than the issues going on with his fiancé. From the time he walked in to the conference room, he had been on edge. And there was something thing about the way he looked at all of us that made me uneasy. Throughout the meeting, he had avoided eye contact with me and it only increased my suspicions. When Namjoon had come in to the meeting, he had The same look of doubt on his face. When I had asked him about it, he had told me that Jin had visited the apartment. Part of me no that something had happened with our soulmate.
In a hurry to get back to Y/N, I rushed out to the car. The maknaes had already left and I knew they would probably already be discussing plans for the evening with Y/N. As I thought about the three youngest members, I couldn't help but smile. It was obvious from the looks on their eyes and the smiles on their faces and they loved our soulmate. And from the way she looked at them, I knew the feeling was mutual.
As I climbed into the car, a hand on my shoulder stopped me. I looked behind me to see Hoseok getting in with me. The grin on his face told me he was ready to get home just like the rest of us. "Namjoon-hyung is going to be a couple more minutes. Manager-nim wanted him to sign off on the schedule for the album release. Apparently he forgot it during the meeting." Hoseok closed the door behind him and leaned his head back against the seat. "He said don't wait for him and he'll be home in a little while."
I nodded and after exchanging a few quick words with the driver, we were finally on our way. "Did you notice anything wrong with Hyung?" I couldn't stop the question from leaving my lips, knowing that I couldn't keep it in. There was something wrong and I was bound and determined to figure it out.
Hoseok nodded. " Yeah. I could see it too." He was silent for a moment before continuing. " I'm a little concerned because I know he was at the apartment before coming to the meeting. I'm wondering..." His words trailed off, but I could tell from the look on his face what he was thinking.
"That is exactly what I was thinking about too." We were both silent for a moment, lost in our own thoughts. "Do you really think...?" I didn't want to finish my question, saying the words out loud, that made me think so badly of my brother.
Hoseok shrugged and I could see the wheels turning in his mind, lost in his own thoughts. Turning to face the window, I tried to push the thoughts away, not wanting to think about it all. The ride back to the apartment was quick and when the car stopped in the garage, I hurriedly got out, the need to see my soulmate almost overwhelming.
Still silent as we stepped into the elevator, I couldn't help but think about the last several weeks with Y/N. It was going better than I could have ever imagined and part of me was worried that it was going to fall apart, that things were going too well. I had voiced the concerns to my mom and she had laughed at me.
"The moment you start thinking negatively, you are going to bring it into your life. Your soulmate? She loves you. It's real and it's okay to be happy." My mom had been quiet for a moment before continuing. "Appreciate the love you have. You're one of the lucky ones."
As the elevator rose to the top floor, my mom's words rang in my ears and I knew she was right. I was one of the lucky ones. One who was fortunate enough to find my soulmate, one who clearly loved me. I needed to stop letting negative thoughts fill my mind since the only thing that would accomplish is driving a wedge where one didn't exist.
When the elevator stopped, I followed Hoseok out and into the apartment, slipping off my shoes. I could hear Y/N's laugh as soon as I stepped through the door, followed by Jimin's bright giggle. They were snuggled on the sofa and Jimin was kissing her neck, making her squirm. I flopped down on her other side and tugged her from Jimin's arms and into my own. "Hey honey."
"Hi." Y/N's smile was genuine, but I could see a lingering sadness in her eyes, something I had not seen before.
Leaning back, I cupped her cheeks in my hands, directing her eyes to mine. "You okay?"
Y/N hesitated then nodded. "I'm okay. I talked to Arely a little while ago and I just... I just miss her." From the way her voice hitched and the way her eyes darted off, I could tell she wasn't being completely honest with me. I knew missing her best friend was a part of it, but I also knew there was something else going on. However, I also knew that if I pushed, she would shut down.
Pulling her close, I kissed her forehead, making her smile. "Okay honey." A huff from the other side of Y/N had me looking over to see Jimin with his arms crossed and a pout on his face. "You good there Jimin-ah?"
Jimin just huffed again and turned his face away. "I was snuggling my soulmate and you took her."
"Your soulmate?" I laughed at his silliness. "Did you forget we share a soulmate?" Saying nothing, Jimin moved closer to Y/N and tugged her back into his arms. Standing up, I stroked her cheek gently. "I have to go talk to Joon-ah. You can snuggle with whiny baby here."
Y/N laughed at my words while Jimin let out a snort, but when I turned back to look at them, Jimin's eyes were so full of love as he looked at our soulmate, that I couldn't help but smile. Shaking my head in amusement, I headed down the hall towards Namjoon's room. His door was cracked open and when I peeked in, he was pulling a Tshirt over his head. He turned as I pushed the door open. "Trying to get a sneak peek?"
I rolled my eyes and stepped into the room, pulling the door shut behind me. "Did you talk to Jin-hyung after he left the meeting earlier?"
Namjoon shook his head. "No. I didn't." He turned to face me fully, a concerned look on his face. "Did something happen?" I shrugged and Namjoon's eyes narrowed. "What happened?"
I rubbed a hand over my face and let out a sigh. "I don't know if something happened, but Hyung seemed weird during the meeting and then when we got home... Y/N just looked sad. She said it was just her missing Arely but I don't think that's it. I'm worried something happened when Hyung was here."
Namjoon's eyes widened and from the tight set of his mouth, I could tell he didn't believe me. "No. Jin-Hyung would never do something like that." I wanted to protest immediately but Namjoon stopped me. "I'm telling you. He would be polite."
Knowing there was going to be no way to convince him otherwise, I simply nodded and let the subject drop. We talked about the meeting for a few more minutes and I excused myself, wanting to see how Y/N was doing. When I entered the room, I had to laugh. Y/N was snuggled on the sofa, Jimin and Jungkook on either side of her. Jungkook was whispering in her ear and from the way she ducked her head, I knew it couldn't be innocent. Some of my earlier worry faded away at seeing the smile on her face, but I couldn't stop the lingering feeling of uneasiness that had planted itself in the back of my mind. Hopefully it would disappear soon enough.