I had a panic attack,
But I'm not allowed to anymore
The worst part is that it ended
I deserved it for what I've done
Entirely nothing
My life is worthless
I'm not unique
There's nothing new or significant
About me
There's no way to escape
I'm not even brave enough
To die
I'm simply not there
So I strive for the future
And when I get too close
I dive
When others say they're
Proud
It makes it so much worse
When they say I can handle
Anything
Because they believe the
Mask I front
That makes me break
Apart
Because I'll never get what I truly want
It makes me want to stop
Wishing for the best
Wishing I could turn or
Pivot away from
Inevitability
Because the truth is I'm
Just another human
Just dust among the infinity
There's nothing I can do
All I am is a no one
And I know I can't
Be better
No matter what others
Say
I'm just a plague on
This planet
I'm a supporter of what
I hate
Motivator of that I
Fear
I don't deserve anything
And maybe that's why I'm
Still here
I'm too greedy to
Give up
Too selfish to
Stay
I can't admit to anyone
That I always knew
I'd be alone.