"Can I just love you in my heart, love you in my mind?
I have to find the guts to say it in your eyes
To love you in my heart, love you in my mind
'Cause I can only see you, I can only see you as mine
Oh, I can only see you, I can only see you
I can only see you as mine"
Love you in my heart love you in my mind | Brynn Cartelli
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After the incident with the grounder and almost dying Bellamy has ordered me to stay with him at all times.
I wasn't complaining though, I liked having his company.
"Bellamy I don't understand why you had to shove a spike into his hand" I stated looking up at him.
"I don't know if you remember but you were dying right in front of me, I was going to do anything to save your life" He explained.
"Woah, seem a little too friendly there Blake" I gave him a smirk.
I started playing with my necklace Bellamy gave me years ago. It was the one thing I would never give up.
"What are you playing with?" Bellamy asked me.
"Oh nothing" I said softly.
I didn't want Bellamy knowing I still had the necklace after all these years. Soon Miller came into the third level.
"Hey Miller" I said waving.
"Hi Annabeth" he smiled back.
"What you guys friends now?" Bellamy asked.
"I was Miller's guard up on the ark" I explained to him.
"Talking about the ark, have you take to Jaha yet?" Miller asked Bellamy.
Bellamy stayed silent.
"Same goes for you Annabeth, you need to talk to Jaha" Miller said.
"I told Diggs mother about his death, and John's father. Roma's family is next" he added.
"I feel so bad for them" I sighed.
"Thank you for doing this Miller, I owe you" Bellamy said turning to Miller.
"I wish we could get justice for the people who have died" Miller spat.
"We're not killing the grounder" I stated.
With out hesitation Miller walks up to the grounder and smears something on the side of his face.
"Miller leave him alone" I said standing up.
Suddenly the grounder head butted Miller to the ground. Bellamy didn't say anything while I started to shiver from the cold.
"You okay?" Bellamy asked me.
"What are we gonna do in winter bell, we're all going to freeze" I told him.
"We'll figure something out princess, don't worry" He replied.
"I'm going go see what's going on outside, I won't wonder off don't worry" I smiled.
"Be careful, don't slip on your hand" he warned me.
"I won't Blake" I said softly.
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I went down to the first level and had to speak with Clarke and her mother.
" I thought everyone hated me?" I asked Clarke.
"My mom believes you but you still need to speak with Jaha" she told me.
We sat down at the radio and waited to talk to her mom.
"Doctor Griffin, it's good to see you" I said.
"Please, call me Abby, Clarke tells me you broke your hand, may I see? Abby asked me.
Clarke unwrapped my hand and showed her mother.
"You'll need surgery, but for now put two sticks on each side of your hand, then wrap it up" Abby told me.
"Thank you Abby" I said before I walked off.
When I walked out of the drop ship I quickly realised the water on the seats was now frozen and delinquents were using pieces of metal from the ship to scrape it off.
It was getting colder with each day, we didn't have the kind of clothes or bedding to get through winter.
"Annabeth!" Clarke yelled walking over to me.
"What's up?" I asked.
"Jaha wants to speak with you" she told me.
I looked down for a moment. I didn't even know what to say to him.
"Not yet" I replied.
"I understand, also I need you and Bellamy to check out an old depot" Clarke added.
"Like an emergency aid depot?" I asked.
Clarke looked at me and nodded. I thought about it and it could have things for winter, maybe even food.
"Why me and Bellamy?" I questioned her.
"You two need time to get alone, and this is it" she explained.
"Whatever fine, I'll get Bellamy" i then walked back off into the drop ship.
Bellamy was talking with Octavia about the grounder. She was still mad at him for beating him even though the grounder saved her life.
"Bellamy" I stated interrupting their conversation.
"I'm not talking to Jaha" he spat.
"Calm down, that's not why I'm here. Clarke needs us to check out an emergency aid depot" I explained.
"Why you two?" Octavia asked.
"Clarke says we need to get along" I sighed.
"So what do you say? Ready for an adventure Blake?" I smiled.
"Meet at the gate in five" Bellamy replied then walked out.
"I should go get ready, do something about that grounder will you? He doesn't belong stuck her" I told O.
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Just like Bellamy said, he had some delinquents rebuild mine and Octavia's tent. I left my belt in my tent but grabbed my gun.
I went over to Jasper and Monty to grab some food packs for the trip.
"Hey boys" I said smiling.
"How you feeling?" Monty asked me.
"Pretty good since I could've died" I laughed.
"That's not funny Woods" Bellamy said firmly grabbing packs of food.
I realised he was taking more food then he needed.
"You do know it's just a day trip right?" I asked him.
"A lot can happen in a day princess" He replied.
"Let's go" he added walking off.
I gave the two boy a final wave goodbye and caught up to Bellamy. We made our way out of camp and started our journey.
"Clarke said the first drop ship will be down soon, you can avoid Jaha forever" I told Bellamy.
"Yeah well neither can you" he replied.
"I can try" I said walking off.
We soon reached an empty field. There was puddles of water everywhere along with mud and long grass.
"Clarke said it should be here" I explained.
"There must be a door around here somewhere" Bellamy said firmly.
"You know maybe Jaha will be lenient"I shrugged.
"I don't think the chancellor will forgive and forget, I shot the man Annabeth!" He yelled at me.
"Hey don't complain, everyone up there thinks I did it!" I snapped back.
"Split up, stay in shouting distance" I added as I wondered off on my own.
As I walked away from Bellamy I had a weird feeling that somebody was watching me, I turned around but saw nothing, I decided to ignore it and continue looking.
Soon I found something and uncovered it.
"Bellamy! I found a door!" I yelled out to him.
He immediately came running over to me.
"It's rusted shut. Here move your foot" he whispered.
He grabbed his axe and hit the door lock a couple of times until it opened.
We opened the door to a set of stairs, I looked at Bellamy and he went first. As I went in after him he held out his hand for me.
"I don't want you falling" he said softly.
I smiled at him and took his hand. I felt that same feeling again, where I had butterflies in my stomach and my heart raced.
"This is one horrible place to die" I whispered as we wondered through the depot.
"Clarke said to look for blankets, clothes even food. Anything to get us through winter" I told Bellamy.
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As we searched around both Bellamy and I realised everything was ruined and disgusting. I opened a small blue tub and found some orange blankets.
"Look blankets" I said excitedly.
"You're excited about a couple of blankets? What about a med kit? Or a decent fucking tent?" Bellamy spat pushing a barrel over.
As the barrel hit the ground something fell down with it. I gave Bellamy a confusing look and he checked out what had knocked over.
"Oh my god" he whispered.
"What?" I asked.
"Guns" he smiled turning to me holding one.
"One we can kick some grounder ass!" I yelled out.
Bellamy grabbed a the guns and ammunition from the barrel and put them on a table. He walked over to an entry way and hung up a piece of cloth and drew an X on it.
"Let's see who's the better gunner hey?" Bellamy said.
"Oh your on Blake" i said grabbing a gun.
He fired the first shot but nothing happened, I laughed as he took the bullets out.
"Mine are duds, try yours" he told me as he opened his food pack.
"Watch and learn" I smiled shooting at the X.
"Bullseye!" I yelled as I threw my arms in the air.
"Go again" Bellamy said.
"No we can't waste any ammo" I laughed at him as I ate my food pack.
"You left Miller in charge of the grounder, you must trust him" I said putting the gun down.
"Yeah, you should keep him close" he replied.
Suddenly I realised Bellamy was leaving, that's why he took so much food and why he complained before.
"Oh my god, you wanna leave camp" I said with disbelief.
"I can't stay here Annabeth" he told me.
"W-what about Octavia? What about the delinquents?" I asked him.
"Octavia hates me and you and Clarke can run camp" he explained.
I stepped closing to him and held his hand in mine.
"What about me?" I whispered looking up at him.
He didn't answer me, he couldn't even look me in the eyes. My heart broke in that moment.
I let go of his hand and turned around. Suddenly I heard him speak.
"I could never leave you Annabeth, but I have to" Bellamy said softly.
I then felt his body against the back of mine, I turned around to face him. He looked into me eyes and all my worries faded away.
"Always running away from your problems" I said.
"You don't mean that" Bellamy replied.
"Yes I do" I spat.
"I'm gonna get some air" Bellamy then walked out of the depot.
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I still don't know what chapter this is honestly but anyways I hope you guys enjoyed it. I liked writing this one.