I swear to god
Preach it Barbie
Is it too much to ask for
(The girl was scared to ask to put her socks into his sock drawer cause she was just moving in with him 🥹)
There was a performance at my school of all the band and chorus ppl
The chorus was amazing, they did Disney songs and they were all dressed up in constumes
But some white bitch was dressed as fucking Pocahontas
Like she even soloed colors of the wind
Wtf
The band was ehh
But there was also a friggin boyband
They were fuckung great
They were killing it, at the end the drummer broke his drum stick cause he went all fucking out
They sounded so fuckung good
Ig they started a personal band together outside of school
I was attracted to them more than I'd like to admit, makes me want a boyfriend who's in a band
The guys weren't bad looking either, but one of the guitar players I see everyday at lunch
He's always making out with his girl friend in the damn courtyard during lunch, it's borderline sex if they didn't have they're damn clothes on
It's so ducking weird
And he's so fuckung cute and he just has to be s a weirdo with a girlfriend
Like even for some reaosn somehow he became an option for me and he suddenly knew who I was and liked me and pursued me
I would have to decline cause he just cannot recover from thsi lol
There was another guitar player that was really cute to me, he seemed so fucking sweet
He had like this really mean face like a resting bitch face lowkey
But then he's randomly have a little smile and it would comepletky change his face
It was so fucking cute, he looked so happy to be up there
His smile is so cute and the transition between the faces was so interesting to see
The drummer was ok ig
Is see him at lunch everyday as well but I don't know much about him
He's ok looking and he's killer at the drums
I always thought I had a thing for drummers but I think I realized it's cause usually they have nice or bigger arms
This guy is a bit more on the slimmer side all over
So ig that's what I'm into lol
But yeah I don't know if that cute smile guy has a gf or not
He's older than me, I think he's only a grade above tho
I haven't seen him around until today so this will be a bit difficult to pursue
Oh like id actually try lmao, I need to stfu cause I'm talking a lot of shit now
Oh and there's also this other guy who talked to me once at the beginning of the year that always lingered in the back of my mind
I was sitting at a lunch table doing geometry homework before school started. He was at the same table and kept looking over at me, I could see him out of like the corner of my eye but I wasn't looking at him
He kept turning to me and it seems like he wanted to say something. He finally asked me what grade I was in
Weird, I know
I think he's only a year older as well or maybe in the same year cause we're both in geometry, I'm a year ahead in math than what kids normally have in my grade
I think that's why he asked, he saw me doing work from that class and asked ig idk
The convo ended when I said I was in 9th and he said oh yeah you do look like a freshman
Confusing
But I see him on b days cause he has geometry 6th period, so I pass him when I'm leaving the class and he's entering
We make eye contact a lot and idk
He's really tall tho and idk how to feel about it
Let's pretend I have a shot with him at all for a sec
I'm short as hell, it's been a while since I've been measueee but last I heard I'm 4"11
So that's not something I like, talk dudes just ain't going to work for me yk, I don't want to feel like a child when I'm next to them
There's also another guy who talks to me sometimes, he's in my math class. One day he just asked me what my name was and asks me how I am every now and again
He'll come over and ask for fist bumps and high fives and I try to play it cool but I know I'm failing at that. They're just strange interactions yk, idk why he's talking to me and I'm really good with talking to new ppl
He's ok looking too, like he's actually not bad at all. But a big goal in my life is to have a hotter man than my sisters, end up with the hottest guy and have the prettiest babies and they can't talk shit about him yk. I want them to be jealous
But I'm attracted to "less conventionally attractive" people in real life situations. Like either the really pretty people are douchbags or are too frustratingly beautiful I can't stand them.
And like idk, I like people for who they are more than anything. Of course looking good would be nice but personally I'm not really that picky. And that sucks cause I really want a hot guy to end up with cause I want to be better than everyone else ugh
He seems like a really nice guy but idk how to talk to him
The comvos never continue past him asking me like two questions, I neve respond with words I only nod and gives thumbs up
I know is sound so stupid god
But I'm a quiet person, I never talk at school and it's what I'm known for yk
I'm known for not talking and being really quiet when I do talk
Tho his group of friends are a little intimidating, but it's not too bad
He's friends with nice enough people I think, one person in particular is always nice to me and helps me out a lot in other classes
So I don't think he's a bad guy to maybe date someday
I think he'd be down to the idea too, we'd just have to get to know eachother a bit better
Omg I don't know any of they're names lol
When i know guitar guys name cause he introduced himself at the concert. He sounded really cute too ugh
But yeah I don't know they're names Jesus
That's not good
Oh and there's also that one guy that was lowkey giving academic rivals to lovers vibes
He's quite cute, he looks like Tom holland kinda
He's quite sweat and he's smart as well. He's a bit muscular and he's tannish
He has a lot of little siblings and takes care of kids a lot
And I know his name which is a bonus
So how many is that ? Smile guy, geometry guy, fist bump guy, and academic rivals to lovers trope vibes guy
That's 4
Oh and there's also a guy that likes me that I don't like
He's obnoxious and gives pick me energy. I just tried to be nice to him and he went crazy
Guy went hyper-fixating on me and got jealous over everything
I was working on a project in class and was tracing an animation of an alligator in a suit on my paper
I showed it to him and said how cute it was and i was happy cause it was cute and I'd been searching for a good picture to use for a while
He got super weird and asked stupid and creepy questions
He like took it like I thought the alligator was cute like romantically, like it was attractive
I explained to him multiple times I said cute as in a pet or ANIAML TF
why would I find an alligator attractive
He kept saying "oh so you'd date it ??"
I kept trying to explain myself cause he was getting annoying and was speaking very loudly
Then he said "so you'd date it instead of me ??"
But he like trailed off at the end cause he realized what he was saying. He stumbled over the words for a bit and I just ignored it
Whenever he says stuff like that i ignore it and hope he'll just take a hint or move on
My friends had been telling me they thought he liked me and I kept denying cause thats embarrassing to admit especially when it's an annoying ass weirdo
But that alligator thing was like my breaking point
And that had been the beginning of the school year, I still had to deal with him for all this damn time and I'm taking finals rn. School is out in like two weeks
I had a plan to block him once school was over, he's moving schools next year. I even mentioned it offhandling to him and he took it as a joke
But I think I'm really going to
Or maybe I won't idk
He's not that weird over text yk and it's good to have people and know people
He might be useful to me eventually
But at the same time he will not probably
I remember he saw I was struggling in geometry, I was behind on a lot of assignments. He offered to do my ixls for me and had this big thing about how we're good friends and that what friends do for eachother
He said he wouldn't want anything in return cause I offered to like pay him or something, or do homework of his in another subject. But he said no and said that's what friends are for
Then I said ok, sounds good and sent him my r2.d2
Then he got mad at me, like he suddenly got so dry and it was really noticeable cause he had just sent that fuckung speech
He was mad at me for accepting the offer for some reason EVEB THI HE OFFERED
I even thanked him a lot and told him how much it meant for me cause I was struggling to keep up. I had a lot of hard classes and was running short on time, he on the other hand was taking much easier classes. He's a year behind me on everything except math and I always help him out in English and stuff
But no he can't do this thing for me since we're "such good friends"
He didn't even do the ixls for me, he tried to tutor me instead and he wasn't even teaching me right
Our teacher sucked too so ig that could be a contributor
I finally had to hurry through my English assignments so I'd have time in that class for my friend who took geometry last year teach me everything cause no one else was helping me
The only things I know in geometry I learned from her, I stopped paying attention to the teacher once I realized she sucked at teaching us
Anyway, I need to stop trauma dumping on y'all
I know y'all don't give a fuck lmao
And I also had something about trauma dumping a couple chapter back I think, so this is not a good look for me
I need to gaslight myself into liking this career again cause idk what else i'd do
Yuh
Any offers 👴🏻
LOL
🕺💃 crying in a cool way
LOL
Her parallels do things to me