Nagising ako ng maramdaman kong may biglang sumampa sa bed ko.Maya-maya pa ay naramdam ko ang maliliit na kamay ni Davin sa balikat ko.
"Mi!mi!",marahan niyang tawag sa akin.I didn't move,hindi niya rin nakikitang gising nako dahil nakasubsob ang mukha ko sa unan.
"Mi! Mi! Mikkkyy". May bahid ng inis ang boses na tawag at tapik niya sa mga balikat ko. I didn't move. Pinakiramdam ko ang mga kilos niya,but I know he'll cry any minute now.
I counted 1-5 and get up just as he was about to cry,his lips is in pout and his eyes were filled with tears.
"Good morning baby, what's wrong?", I asked as if he didn't woke up me up just to get his milk.
He didn't answer,we just stared at me,about to cry. I smile at him,he jumped off my bed and ran outside that shock me. I followed him immediately.
Nakita kong pumasok siya sa room Nina mom,I tried to catch up but he just shut the door right at my face na talagang ikinagulat ko.
Aba..
I opened the door and look around,I saw him sitting in between mom and dad,he's hugging mom and when he look at me,for the first time he glared at me. Gulat ko siyang tiningnan.I glared back at him but he just ingnore me and hug mom.
Tss now I know..
Nakahanap na siya ng kakampi,back at California he wouldn't do this,wala siyang choice at hindi siya pwedeng gumanyan dahil kami lang namang dalawa ang magkasama.But now,he has this whole household to be his kakampi.
Tss,what a smart kid.I sighed,mom and dad is still in bed but I know they're already awake so I won't worry about Davin if he will fall or something.
When I looked at the window Nakita ko na sumisilip na si Haring Araw. I looked at the wall clock and saw that it's just 5:09 am in the morning,sobrang aga pa. I think Davin's still adjusting from the time gap of the Philippines to California.
I went back to my room when I thought of running around the village,I changed and went outside,I bring George with me. As I was running I saw some familiar places and faces. I smile as I try to remember their names.
Nang mapagod si George ay nagpahinga kami sandali,I thought of going home when George recover from tiredness dahil may nakikita na akong mga tao na nagtatake ng photos.Madami na ang nakatingin.
We were about to run again when I saw a familiar car approaching, I had to pull George back before the car would hit him. Pero medyo napalakas ata ang hatak ko,I tried to balance pero natumba pa rin ako.
Shit!
Nabitiwan ko si George,I stand up immediately just to catch him pero parang matutumba ako ulit ng makita kong may nakakuha na sa kaniya,and it was no other than Thirdy,the Thirdy Ravena!
I blink multiple times hoping that I am just hallucinating or I am just too afraid to see him that my imagination is already playing with me.
But I am not,I saw him walking towards me with that expressionless face as he hand me George's leash.
I sighed and inabot yun,I tried to smile at him,but he just stared at me for a short time.
"H-h.."
"Mag-ingat ka".
I was about to greet him but he cut me off,and just like that he went back to his car,did a u turn and drive.
My heart was pounding too fast that I can barely breathe. Ewan ko kung pagod lang ako o masyado akong nabigla dahil hindi ko inaasahang ganun ang mangyayari ngayong umaga.
Wala sa sarili akong naglakad pauwi,hindi ko namalayan na nakauwi na ako dala si George.
"Mi!mi", bati ni Davin sakin habang kalong siya ni Dad,as if iniingit ako, they're already in the dinning area.
I smiled at him,he pouted and raise his hands,wanting me to carry him. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.
"Oh? I thought you don't want mommy anymore?",pang-iinis ko sa kaniya.
"No,mi!". He started crying.
"Bea,ano ka ba naman,para kang bata". Sermon ni mom.
I rolled my eyes at her,kidding and then got Davin.
"Luvyo mi". He said and hugged me.
"Sus you just want milk don't you?". Tumango Naman siya.
I made his milk and let him drink it,pagkatapos ng breakfast ay pinaliguan ko na siya at hinayaang maglaro sa labas,I was just watching him while he run around.
As I stare at Davin napansin Kong mas nagiging evident na ang kulay ng balat niya which is Moreno.But he has my face really,but as he grow up I notice that he attitude is more like Thirdy,the way he thinks,he moves,I watched him in awe as he dribble the little basket ball on the ground. Though it wasn't perfect but he can.
I took a video of him dribbling the ball,I posted it on my IG story. Nag hesitate pa ako noong una dahil natatakot ako sa magiging reaction ng mga tao,at ng nag-iisang tao.
I sighed.
Hindi ko naman na sinabi sa kaniya Ang totoo about Davin,I did lie to him but I don't know why something bothers me by the thought that we are in the same country,that anytime he'll see Davin. Like what happened to us earlier.
As I was about to put my phone on the table it rang. Tiningnan ko muna ang caller to see it was Maddie.
"Hello Mads?", I greet.
"Hello Bei! Punta ka na dito kanina pa kami akala ko pupunta ka? Naghihintay si Couch excited na siya,nagsshine na ang noo niya sa sobrang excitement". Bungad ni Maddie,natawa naman ako.
"Si Beadel? Wait kausapin ko". Narinig ko ang boses ni Jho maya-maya pa.
"Bei! Punta ka dito! Punta ka ha".
Tsk
"Walang magbabantay kay Davin Jho,you know I can't just go". Sagot ko naman
"Ha? Sino ba si Davin?". Natigilan Ako sa tanong na yun ni Jho and at the same time gusto ko kutusan ang sarili ko,such a careless Bea!
"Hmm.. y-yeah,I'll be there, I'll just settle some things". Wala akong choice but just to agree just to get away from the topic.
"Ahh o-okay sige wait kami sayo,and anyway ang weird mo!". Anya ay binaba na .
Hoooh!
I looked at Davin he's now playing with his newly built play pen dito sa labas ng bahay.
"Davin!". I called him.
He faced me with the expressionless face. Natigilan ako, it will be a lie if I won't say he somehow look like Thirdy when he does that. I sighed,napapa-overthink na naman ako, natatakot na naman ako.
"Mi,mi?". He asked when he went to me.
"Let's go to Lola,mom's gonna go somewhere". Imporma ko sa kaniya.
"Oki". Cute niyang sagot.
Hayst this young man.
I carried him and told mom that I'm going to meet Maddie and the gals at BEG.I saw hesitation in mom's eyes when I mentioned the BEG which is located in my old campus,Ateneo.
Even if I won't tell,she can feel that I am afraid of this country and people with it. She knows everything because I am her daughter.
I just gave her a smile that assures her that I will be fine.
With that,she let me.I drive to Ateneo after getting ready. I smile when I saw the familiar streets,buildings that I always see everyday back then.
When I arrive at the campus the guard was quick to recognize me,though a bit shock he just let me in.
I sighed when I finally parked my car, I sighed over and over again before stepping out of the car,why am I so nervous,as if I'm gonna see him today.
"Beaaaaa". As expected I heard my friends shouting my name,as usual nangunguna si Jho.
I smiled at them and walk at where they're all sitting.
Natigilan lang ako ng makitang halos lahat ng lady eagles ang nandito.Some were familiars,some were new in my eyes but I know they're part of the team.
Isa-isang lumapit Ang mga kaibigan ko at binati Ako,then some of my kakilalas.
"H-hi ate bei", bati sakin ni Dani,I can't help but to hug her tight,I missed her. Medyo nagulat siya dahil sa yakap pero agad ding nakabawi at niyakap ako pabalik.
"I missed you danyot". I said when he free each other from the hug.
She smiled and hug me again.
"Luh Bea?",napabitaw Ako sa yakap ni Dani ng marining ang boses na yun.
"Keifer". I smiled at him then we hug.
"Uy kumusta ka? Buti nakauwi ka na maglalaro ka na ba ulit?". Maya-mayang ay tanong niya.
"Hmm still thinking about it, I'll settle here first before playing again". Sagot ko naman
"Oh? So you're staying for good?".
"Yeah". Tanging naisagot ko,iniisip ko na din namang magstay nalang,my family needs me here.
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"Oh? So you're staying for good?" . Natigilan Ako sa paghakbang ng marining ko ang tanong niyang yun kay Bea.
I was so shock when I saw her inside our court,though I know na may training ang lady eagles ngayon kaya nag-adjust kami. At hindi ko talaga siya ineexpect dito. I just saw her this morning when I went to their village dahil ewan ko ba,since she went back I couldn't stop myself from thinking about her and doing the things I don't why. Nagdrive lang Ako hoping to see her,or I don't really know gulong-gulo na ako.
May konting tampo oo,dahil kahit na nagpaalam namam siya,dahil kahit ineexpect ko na aalis Sila,sa loob ng tatlong taon never siyang nag message sakin,she even changed her phone number. It was as if she want me of her life.Kahit for the sake of our friendship nalang pero wala.
Pero ng makita ko siya kanina,the only thing that matters to me was just her,not my feelings but her at ayoko nun,baka makalimutan ko na naman ang sarili ko at puro siya,hindi naging madali ang lahat ng pinagdaanan ko when she left,when she broke my heart.The moment I heard her saying that she's pregnant and I am not the father,it broke me.Because the only explanation for that is she cheated on me.
"Yeah". Natigilan akong muli,what? She's staying and it's for good?
Naiyukom ko ang kamao ko at pinilit ko Ang sarili kong pumunta sa area namin. I breath and sit,I stop myself from looking at her direction,Manong is still talking to her.
Hindi man lang Ako napansin ah.Tsk sabagay sanay na kasi siya sa pag-iignore sakin eh.
"Kuya,papunta na si Julia dito". Nagulat pa ako ng marinig ang bulong na iyon ni Dani.
"Ha?".
"Tsk si Julia papunta na?". Inis niyang Sabi.
"She's coming na Kuya!" May kasama pang kurot .
"Aray! Ano ba Dani!". Sigaw ko, agad akong tumingin paligid only to see them staring at us,ng mabaling sa direction ni Bea Ang paningin ko, she's not looking at me like others at naiinis ako hindi man lang ba niya narinig yung sigaw ko.
She's busy with her phone
Tsk!
"Huy! Anyare sayo? Okay lang". Naikurap ko ang mga mata ko at dahan-dahang tiningala si Julia na nakatayo sa harapan ko habang nakaupo ako.
"Ah yeah I'm cool". Sagot ko pero pasimple kong tiningnan si Bea..
"No your not,Dani told me you need to tell me something? Ano yun may masakit ba sayo". Nag-aalala niyang tanong.
I blink again before looking straight into her,I am totally doomed I forgot everything that I should do,Wala na talaga akong naalala sa Plano namin ni Dani. I looked at Bea's direction malayo siya sakin at nakikipag-usap pa din kay Manong.
"Nah,nothing nag-aasaran kasi kami,so you know HAHA".I told her with that awkward laugh.
I saw disappointment in her face but she managed to smile at me.
"Ah okay sige aalis na ako tinatawag na ako eh". Aniya at umalis na.
Agad ko namang Nakita si Dani na tumatakbo sa papunta sakin.
"Anyare? I was waiting for your signal". Nagtataka niyang tanong.
"I'm sorry Dans,I forgot about the plans kinakabahan kasi ako". Sagot ko habang nakatingin kay Bea na nakikipagsuntokan na kay Jho,in a joke way though.
Dani sighed.
"Yeah,and I know why you're nervous". She said and march back to where Jules is.
Late na nagsink sakin ang sinabi ni Dani,no way! I'm just nervous,I forgot because I was so nervous not because she's here. Or maybe nahihiya lang Ako kasi sobrang daming tao,halos lahat nandito. O kinakabahan lang ako sa magiging sagot ni Julia. I'll do it next time when I'm totally ready and I will make it perfect.
I look at Bea's direction,she's smiling with Jho and talking to Maddie, ngayong nakikita ko na siya sa personal ay nakikita kong medyo nagkalaman nga siya ,her skin is still fair like before,her short hair suits her well. Well I can say.. motherhood suits her. She's glowing and I can see that she's happy.
I gulped when she look at my direction and meet my gaze,Nakita kong nanlaki ang mga mata niya,maybe she's not expecting to see me.
Tsk hindi mo man lang ako napansin?
I just keep my gaze at her,I saw how she gulp and manage to smile at me, genuinely. Ako naman ang nagulat dahil dun.
She smiled at me!
"God you're so pretty Beadel".tulala kong bulong sa sarili.