Kabanata 28
Cuffs
(SPG Alert!)
I need a lot of explanations about this.
Samu't saring mga tanong ang nagkukumpulan sa aking isipan.
Bakit niya ako inaaya makipag-'date'?
Seryoso ba siya?
Bakit ako?
May gusto ba talaga siya sa'kin?
Joke time ba 'to?
Asyumero man ako kung tatawagin, pero sige nga, what would be your conclusion if a man just asked you to go out with you for a date?
Of course, it means that he likes you! No doubts.
But I'm having doubts right now.
I can't see myself as someone who could level Sir London... or Don in any way, so it is impossible that he likes me. Totally impossible. This trope only exists in fiction. I'm so confused.
"Bakit, Don?" I asked stupidly.
"I know, its sudden. But I can't just stand, not telling you about this."
Napaiwas ako ng tingin. I can see the sincerity in his eyes. Is he for real?
"I never admired anyone like this before, Sef... There's a lot of things about you that attracts me... Your determination. Your denseness. Your ability to connect with people. And more. Things that can't get off my mind. And one day, I realized that I'm already into you. Its hard to believe but I already have this feelings and I can't deny it."
Feels like we're puzzle pieces that don't even fit.
But come to think of it, Aidan and I were also the complete opposite of each other. There's no need to state each of our quality. We were from complete different places and different lifestyle, but suddenly, our worlds collided and made a severe connection. Like magnets. Positive and negative attracts.
"Uhm... Did I stun you?" tanong niya gamit ang mahinang boses.
I said no response.
"Naiintindihan ko kung hindi ka makapagsalita. I assume you are thinking at this very moment about how you can reject me without hurting my feelings, am I right?"
He smiled sadly. Guilt just struck through me. Mabilis akong umiling.
"Hindi naman sa gano'n, Don. Nabigla lang ako," I said. Gusto kong sabunutan ang sarili ko dahil yun lang ang tangi kong nasabi.
Someone confessed to me and all I can say is that I'm shocked. Its not my first time, since Aidan did this before, so why can't I say anything?
My relationship with Aidan is a secret. Both of us agreed that no one else should tell anyone about it, even to my closest friends. If a single detail just slip to anyone else, maaari kaming mabuking.
I can't give him a chance since I'm already tied with someone, and I can't tell that reason. It's a secret!
This is too much for me! Why am I so blessed in just a sudden time? Its crazy!
Now, how can a potato like me reject this overly beautiful man?! Bet he has everything what it takes to be a perfect boyfriend. Parang nahiya naman ako sa sarili ko.
Kung isa akong mangingisda, para akong nakabingwit ng malaking tuna gamit ang tingting at sinulid.
This man deserves somebody more than me. But as a lesser mortal, rejecting him would hurt my feelings too, because I faced so many rejections in life and I know how it feels.
"Hindi ko alam kung bakit at paano. Wala namang espesyal sa akin. Hindi ko maintindihan," saad ko. Halos pabulong ang aking tinig.
Tinanggal niya ang aking salamin at tinitigan ang aking mukha. Mabilis 'yon at hindi ako nakaalma. Tinitigan niya pa ng maigi ang aking mga mata na para bang wala na siyang ninanais na makita pang iba. Nakaramdam ako ng matinding init sa aking mga pisngi.
Ngayon ko lang natitigan si Don na ganito kalapit. Aaminin ko, sa sobrang gwapo niya ay hindi ko mapigilan na mailang. Mapapansin mo na may pagkakahawig sila ng bahagya ni Aidan, ngunit hindi ko kayang husgahan kung sino sa kanilang dalawa ang may mas matimbang na kagwapuhan.
Tumagal pa ang aming titigan ngunit wala ni isa sa pagitan namin ang nagsalita. Huminga si Don ng malalim.
"Do you know how attractive you are, Sef?" he said.
Hindi ko man masyadong naaalala pero parang sinabi na yata 'to ni Aidan dati sa akin. Magkatulad nga silang dalawa.
I really don't know if he's telling the truth. Whenever I look my reflection in the mirror, I see a person, and that's it! I can't find anything special about my appearance, or maybe I'm just unaware of it.
"Maaaring hindi mo alam... pero alam ko," he said and smiled at me.
Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko pabalik. Dapat nalang siguro ay huwag nalang ako umimik. Natatakot ako na baka may masabi akong hindi niya magugustuhan, knowing na nagconfess siya sa akin.
"Now, let's go back to my question," he said and cleared his throat. "Can I take you out for a date?"
"Let me think about it, Don," sabi ko sa kaniya. I smiled, just to make it less awkward, but that's how it appears to be.
He looked straightly to the eyes. I can see the bitterness in his face. I badly wanted to erase it by finally accepting his offer. An offer for a date. Yet I should still consider Aidan in this case. Siya naman ang masasaktan kung pinili kong sumama kay Don.
"Don't worry. I will let you have some time to think. I can wait whenever it is," aniya.
He handed me back my glasses at sinuot ko ito muli.
"I'm just curious, Sef... Are you visually impaired?" tanong niya.
"Uhm... Not really. Sensitibo lang yung mga mata ko, kaya kapag walang protection. May mga times kasi na lumalabo," I explained.
"Ganun? Paano kung sabihin kong mas maayos kang tignan ng walang salamin, hindi mo na ba ito susuutin?" tanong niya.
Huh? Pinagsasabi niya?
There is something in his tone... hmm... I think he's just trying to flatter me. But unfortunately, it didn't work. May dahilan ako kung bakit nagsusuot pa rin ako ng salamin kahit hindi madalas malabo ang mga mata ko.
At isa pa, kapansin pansin pa rin na hindi rin siya natuwa sa sinabi niya. I know that he's trying hard to make casual talks with me. At alam ko rin ba gusto niyang kuhanin ang loob ko, kaya lang, halatang hindi siya sanay na bumuo ng banat. He's innocent in persuading, which I found cute to be honest.
"Uhm... I don't think so," simple kong sagot. It made us feel more awkward. But I should be thankful na hindi lang ako ang nakakaramdam nito, at least the feeling is mutual.
"Oh, sorry. I shouldn't have said that," aniya at napakamot siya ng batok.
His cheeks turned bright red. Oh god, I haven't seen this side of Don. And its freaking adorable! Damn it. This makes me hard to reject him. There is a part in my heart that wants me to give him a chance.
"Naku, Sir. Okay lang. Sa tingin ko rin, mas better akong tignan pag walang salamin," sabi ko. Dapat talaga sumang ayon nalang ako sa kaniya sa una palang. "Pero wala eh. Necessary talaga."
"I get it," aniya at tumawa ng mahina. "You're still attractive whatever you wear."
Mas lalong pang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Aatakihin yata ako dito. I can't fucking handle his compliments.
But still I can sense the tension in between. You need to think of something casual, Sef. Treat him like a friend, someone that you are very comfortable to talk with. Gawin mo na, dali!
"Naks! Bolero," sabi ko sabay hampas sa balikat niya. Napalakas ko pa nga yata yung impact dahil malakas ang tunog ng pagkakapalkat. Bigla akong natauhan sa ginawa ko. "Ay pu--! Hala! Sorry. Hindi ko sinasadya."
Muntik pa akong mapamura sa harap niya. Napasobra naman ako sa pagiging kaswal.
Sa halip na magalit siya sa pagkakahampas ko ay tumawa siya.
"It's okay," aniya. "I like it when you're casually talking to me. I'm happy that you are getting more comfortable than before. You're always being respectful and slightly formal when we're having conversations."
I chuckled.
"Well, boss naman kita so bakit hindi kita kakausapin na may respeto, 'di ba?" sabi ko.
"But your duty is now over, Sef. I'm not your boss or anything superior anymore. Please, just treat me as your friend... or maybe, you know, something more," aniya at tinaas-taas ang kaniyang mga kilay.
Tumawa ako.
"Ikaw, ha. You're really pushing it," sabi ko and laughed awkwardly.
He smiled.
"Well, if its not okay with you, just tell me right away, okay? I'm aware of my limits. Naiintindihan ko rin kung nanghihingi ka pa ng oras para pag isipang makipag-date sa akin. I still feel so happy 'cause you're giving me chance."
Bang! Guilt struck my heart.
It's hard to see his innocent and hopeful eyes. Bakit ko nga ba pinag iisipan na i-reject ang lalaking 'to bukod sa kadahilanang may relasyon kami ni Aidan? Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to two-time both of them, but it just hurts to think that I'm going to dump him in the future. Yes... This freaking drop dead gorgeous man. Its like throwing away your new iPhone because I already have an existing one. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sarili ko.
"Matagal pa ba kayo?"
Pareho kaming napalingon ni Don kay Aidan na nakasandal sa pinto ng kusina.
"Ahh... Ehh." Hindi ko kung paano ko ipapaliwanag 'to sa kaniya.
"No," Don simply answered.
"Lalabas na kami," sabi ko kay Aidan.
I scanned the whole kitchen for a second time and it looks fine. Hahakbang na sana ako kaso hinawakan ni Don ang aking pulso upang pigilan.
"Wait, Sef. I'll give you something," sabi ni Don at agad na binitawan ang pagkakahawak sa akin at nagtungo sa upper cabinet at may kinuha siyang malaking tupperware. Inabot niya ito sa akin. "This is for your dinner."
"Uhm... Thank you," yun nalang ang tanging nasabi ko.
"No problem, Sef. Enjoy your meal. I cooked it for you."
...
Nakauwi na kami ni Aidan sa bahay. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin mawala ang bakas ng pagtataka sa kaniyang mukha. May bagay na gumugulo sa kaniya at pansin kong kanina pa niya gustong sabihin sa'kin 'to.
"Don is very suspicious," aniya habang sabay kaming nagbibihis sa kwarto.
Napatingin ako sa kaniya. Hindi ako nailang na makita siyang walang saplot sa katawan sapagkat komportable na ako at matagal ko na siyang nakita na nakahubo't hubad. Hindi na rin mahalaga kung sakaling mahuli niya akong nakatitig sa kaniya.
"Suspicious? Paano?"
"Uhh... I noticed, something's wrong with him. Palagi siyang sobrang galit sa'kin kahit wala naman akong ginagawang masama," aniya.
"Ano naman yung kahina-hinala do'n?" tanong ko at nagsalubong ang mga kilay.
"Well, if you compare the way he treats you and the way he treats me... totally different."
"Sigurado ka ba sa sinasabi mo? Or maybe you are really being an asshole to him, that's why he got into his nerves. Katulad nalang ng ginawa mo kanina," I said. He turned to me and rolled his eyes.
"He's being an asshole too!"
"But that shouldn't be an excuse, Aidan. Sa trabaho, boss natin siya. We have to respect him."
We ate our lunch and did some household chores. Aidan did the dishes, and I cleaned the dining area. Pagkatapos, ginawa ko na ang mga assignments ko ng maaga para hindi ako mahirapan pa sa mga susunod na araw.
I streched my arms and yawned. Ang dami ko nang ginawa ngayong araw. Hindi na ako makapaghintay na makapagpahinga.
Lumapit sa likod ko si Aidan habang nakaupo at tinatapos ang mga school tasks ko. Bigla niyang inilapat ang kaniyang mga kamay sa aking ulo at hinilot-hilot ang noo at sentido ko.
Napapikit ako sa ginhawang dulot nito sa akin. Sana ganito siya palagi. Nakakawala ng stress.
"Bukas nalang 'yan, Sef. Magpahinga ka naman," he said and kissed my forehead.
"Okay," pagsang-ayon ko. Hindi na ako umangal dahil medyo nahihilo na rin kasi ako.
"Bubuhatin na kita," aniya. Bago pa ako tumaggi ay binuhat na niya ako sa kaniyang likuran. I just chuckled and let him do what he wants.
Inilapag niya ako sa kama ng dahan-dahan. I feel so relieved.
"Come on, Aidan. Let's sleep," sabi ko sa kaniya, while patting the space beside me.
"Matutulog na ba tayo agad?" Aidan asked.
"Oo. Ano pa bang dapat nating gawin ngayon? Hindi ka pa ba pagod sa mga ginawa natin buong araw?" I asked.
Umiling siya.
"Really?" tanong ko.
"I want to do something before we sleep," aniya.
Umirap ako. Alam ko na 'yan. Sa makahulugan niyang tingin, alam ko na agad ang nais niya.
"Sige, pagbibigyan kita," simpleng sagot ko.
"Whoah. Sure ka na ba diyan?" nagtatakang tanong niya. "Hindi ka man lang ba tatanggi para mapanood mo akong pilitin ka ng paulit-ulit?"
"Alangan namang magpakipot pa ako, eh alam kong dun din naman ang tungo natin," sabi ko.
Tumawa siya.
"What happened to the 'Sef' that I used to know?" aniya.
"What do you mean? Hindi naman sa lahat ng oras, tumatanggi ako. Hindi mo ba naaalala na ako pa nga ang nagturo kung paano ito," bulong ko sa kaniya habang pinapadausdos ang aking daliri sa hubad niyang dibdib.
I can see his prick growing against his underwear. I want to touch him so bad, even though my hands were weak to handle such things. But I still really want the feel of his cock in my palms.
"Wait!" aniya nung dumako na ang aking kamay sa pagitan ng kaniyang hita.
Inatras ko naman agad ang aking kamay dahil sa pagpigil niya sa akin.
"I have something to show you," aniya at dumako siya sa drawer ng side table malapit sa kama at may kinuha do'n. Ipinakita niya sa'kin ang hawak niyang posas.
"Ano namang gagawin mo riyan?" tanong ko.
"I need you to wear this," sagot niya.
"Huh?... While making out?"
"Yeah."
"What the hell?! Are you for real?"
Tumango siya.
"I'm dead serious," aniya.
Agad siyang pumatong sa'kin at isa-isang hinubad ang aking mga damit hanggang sa wala na akong kahit anong suot sa katawan. Para akong batang ninanakawan ng saplot. Pagkatapos, pinagsadahan niya ng tingin ang aking kabuuan.
"Sandali!" angal ko nung hinawakan niya ang magkabila kong kamay at punusasan. Too late. Naikabit na niya ito.
"Matagal ko nang hinihintay na masuot ko 'to sa'yo," aniya habang nakangisi.
"When the hell did you learn about this stuff?"
"Let's say... I got so curious more about sex, so I tried to explore deeply to the darkest side of the internet. I've seen this type of kink and became interested about it. So I thought I should give it a try," he explained.
"Wow. I can't believe you are that horny to try new things in sex," I said and chuckled.
"I have no regrets, Sef. You look so enticing with cuffs."
Binuksan niya ang aparador at may nilabas siyang kapiraso ng tela. My left brow shot up. Gumuhit ang malademonyong ngiti sa kaniyang labi at lumapit sa akin. Tinanggal niya ang aking salamin at tumitig sa aking mga mata.
"Bakit mo tinanggal?" tanong ko.
"Just wait," he simply said. Tinupi-tupi niya ang tela at saka inilapit niya ito sa aking mata.
"What the hell are you doing?!" I exclaimed as he tied the fabric to cover my eyes. Hindi ko siya mapigilan sapagkat nakaposas ang aking mga kamay. Now, I can't see anything.
"Shh, Kitten. Please, just trust me." Again with the nickname. Pfft. "I shall start."
I moaned as he traced the length of my rock-hard cock. If felt his other hand, squeezing my balls. I let him expertly touch my genital that brought me to nirvana.
I can't move properly while he's doing all the work for me. This is driving me insane!
"Ahh!" I cried in pleasure when I felt that I'm about to reach my climax. In that moment, Aidan swallowed my dick and started bobbing it up and down.
Hindi na ako makapagpigil. I let all of my juices release inside his mouth. He unhesitatingly drank it all.
Naramdaman ko na inangat niya ang kaniyang ulo at lumebel sa aking mukha. I feel like we are now in face to face, even though I can't see it with my covered eyes.
"Hmm," bulong niya sa aking tainga.
He bit my ear. I moaned.
"Open your mouth," utos niya.
Sinunod ko naman ito. I felt his tongue licked my lips for a while. Then I felt something entered my mouth. Its his dick!
Hindi ko pa naman naihanda yung sarili ko. Batid ko talagang sobrang laki nito at mabibilaukan ka talaga. Lubos akong nabigla at agad akong nabulunan, ngunit hindi niya ito hinugot. Nagpupumiglas ako sa aking posas. Hindi ko siya maitulak palayo.
"Hmm..." he grunted in pleasure. Hindi niya siguro napansin na hindi ako natutuwa sa ginawa niya.
I rolled my eyes mentally. I'm not really enjoying this, so I decided to bite the head of his dick to stop him.
"Aww! Fuck!" sigaw niya at agad na napaatras.
Nagpipigil ako ng tawa.
"Why did you bite it? Damn you!!" sigaw niya habang sapo ang kaniyang pagkalalaki.
Pinanood ko lang siya na namamalipit sa sakit. Dapat lang sa kaniya 'yan! Masyado siyang pabigla bigla.
"You ruined the moment, Sef!" sigaw pa niya.
"That's your fault! I wasn't prepared yet. Then you just fucking carelessly shoved your dick to my mouth! I have lost my breath. Dapat lang na gawin ko 'yun."
"Argh!"
I laughed.
"Pakawalan mo nalang ako, please," pagmamakaawa ko. "Remove these shitty things!"
"I won't... Unless we're done," he said sensually. "Open your naughty mouth again."
I, being stupid, obeyed him.
I swallowed his entire length and moved my head back and forth. He welcomed every pace with thrusts. I can feel the tip of his dick poking the deepest points of my throat.
"Fuck, Kitten! Suck it more," aniya at sinabunutan na ako.
Pinabayaan ko lang siya at mas lalo ko lang binilisan ang paggalaw ng aking ulo. I am kinda used to his size. Sinasanay ko na ang aking sarili na huwag mabulunan sa kaniyang pagkalalaki kahit gaano man 'to kalaki.
"Sef," he moaned and released his juices inside my mouth.
...
"Good morning," Aidan greeted at the very moment I opened my eyes. His face were stuck by the morning light from the window. My eyes locked in his dashing face and yawned.
Hindi ko na alam kung nakailang ulit kami kagabi. Wala na akong panahon kagabi sa pagbibilang.
Nakatanggal na sa akin ang posas na kinabit niya, pati na rin ang piring sa mata. Kainis! Wala man lang akong nakita kahit ano sa ginawa namin kagabi.
"What time is it?" tanong ko at kinusot-kusot ang aking mga mata.
"I don't know..." he just said.
Napaangat ako nang biglang naalala ko na linggo pa pala ngayon kaya dapat kaming mag-ayos para pumasok sa restaurant. Napatingin ako sa orasan at napansin na 30 minutes late na kami! Wala pa naman kaming nasisimulang kahit isang gawain.
"We're fucking late, Aidan!" sigaw ko at napasabunot sa aking buhok.
I heard him yawned. He's now stretching his arms while showing his hairy pits. He looks so hot and cute at the same time.
"Huwag na tayong pumasok, Sef. Dito nalang tayo sa bahay buong araw."
"No! We have to go!"
Umamba akong babangon sa kama ngunit pinigilan ako ni Aidan gamit ang mahigpit niyang yakap.
"Let us have our free day, Sef. Hindi ka ba napapagod? Lahat ng araw sa bawat linggo, lagi tayong may pinagkakaabalahan. Why can't we just have a long leisure time?"
Pagkatapos niyang sabihin 'yon, nakuminsi niya akong huwag na munang pumasok sa restaurant. Tama siya, halos araw-araw na yata akong nagbabanat ng utak at buto. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ang hangganan ng aking pagpipigil, pero nais ko namang bigyan ng oras ang sarili ko upang makalanghap ng matagal na ginhawa.
"Okay, let's have a free day, then," sabi ko.
He smiled.
Pagkatapos, may narinig kaming sunod-sunod na pagkatok sa labas ng aming bahay.
"Who that fuck was that?!" iritadong atungal ni Aidan. "It's so freaking early. How come there's someone outside our house?"
"Pagbuksan mo," utos ko sa kaniya.
Napatingin siya sa'kin at napansin kong nais niyang tumanggi, ngunit huminga lang siya ng malalim at tumango.
"Argh!! A'right! Just stay right here and take a rest okay?" aniya at mabilis na hinalikan ako sa labi, bumangon siya sa kama kahit pa labag sa loob niya.
I blushed so hard.
Nagsuot siya ng boxers bago naglakad patungo sa pinto upang pagbuksan kung sinuman ang bisita namin.
"Mom?!" sigaw ni Aidan.
Bigla akong napabalikwas sa kama.