"Temptation feels so good"
I was walking ahead to the park and Taehyung was dangerously close behind
The wind was cold, that was until he moved them all to my left shoulder "are you cold?"
"Obviously enough" I retort with an additional eye roll
"Let's make it warm then" he tried grabbing my hand when I pulled it away from his grasp, I laughed it off
"ahh...no thanks"
This is bad. Whatever is happening right now, it's not friendly gestures
Jungkook is a piece of crap but I don't want to double it by doing a more sinful things
Just like this
"I'm flirting with you" with a small tug at the edge of my skirt, it was silent again
As I walk, his hand brushes up against my thigh. So, what am I supposed to say, wow nice?
I purse my lips and swat his hands touching the edge of my skirt, it feels weird
I hug myself and we arrive at the park. I sat on a bench with him beside me
"so..." he starts with a teasing voice hanging at the edge of his throat, he crossed his leg over his other and rubbed his chin
"You sit here with your pretty boyfriend everyday after school because?"
"It's none of your business" I huffed, reaching out to grab my phone when he beats me to it, I gasp when he started scrolling through my messages
"hey!" I stood up and he blocked me with his arm
"You don't reply..."
I'm not feeling good about this
"I see you can't feel anything for him anymore?" after saying that my mind slows down, my arms fall on my sides and he noticed my change of mood
"so what about it?"
"You know you could just say you're sick of him" I sat down again and pout, tapping my feet on the ground to focus on his words "I will, I just can't find the perfect moment"
"That perfect moment of yours doesn't exist" he chuckled dryly, and I glared at him, delighting his ego
He typed something on my phone "next time his mom gets in between you two cut him off"
"that's not something you'd say to your friend" I said, and he laughed, a playful grin on his lips
"who said we were friends, we obviously aren't"
"And you should know that..."
I looked into his eyes and figured he didn't want me to take it as a joke, he was serious
"you don't have to lie. You can't leave him because he mended your mind that you can't do anything without him" he smirks
"He doesn't give you butterflies anymore, does he?"
"What does that have to do with you?" I asked "it's none of your business"
His lack of response just threw me off the bus, there wasn't a concrete answer because I'm correct!
I don't know what he really wants with me but it has to stop. we're not making the same mistake as before
I stood up ready to leave when he grabs my arm, the grasp was strong "were you just tempted with me back then?"
What kind of question is that?
I get turned around to face him "was it only the thrill of forbidden things that made you want me back then?"
"Stop bringing up the past, Taehyung"
"And why?" he stood up "are we just gonna act like nothing really happened?"
I don't know, I really don't know. Jungkook respects him so much that it's making things hard for me
It would have been better if we just ignored each other because there's no other reason to even interact. but he mended everything
Like boundaries never existed in the first place, he does what he wants even if the consequences are crucial
"This is wrong" was all I could say
"Yes"
Temptation, that word always went after the topic in relationships. desire, lust, infidelity were a sin
That Taehyung offered me years ago, when we just met
"I don't know how to act because Jungkook looks up to you" my fingers trembled from the thought
I'm trying, but I'm not trying hard enough to avoid him and these weird feelings running through
Taehyung will always give me weird demons that squeeze my chest. It's a painful ache that I used to love so much
"Have you forgotten how to pretend?" he laughed before pulling me in his arms "you were such a pretty liar back then"
"Shut up!" I tried pushing him away but his hold on me tightens "shut the fuck up Taehyung you're just tempted with me"
"I've never seen a tempted man beg so much though" he softly drops his hands and chuckles "lust doesn't make someone's heart break"
I lift my head to stare at him, is he serious?
"I wouldn't go begging on my knees if I didn't love you"
I sat on the couch, staring at the TV late at night, with Niki, as usual, playing his Nintendo. Every now and then, my thoughts return to Taehyung.
I'd known those butterflies had vanished for over a year.
When I look at Jungkook, the childish love in my eyes fades away on its own. My blind affection for him was replaced by remorse during those prime years.
I'm ending my relationship with him.
However, the timing
"What are you thinking about?" Niki asked as he turned to face me, his voice subtle and curious for him to comprehend "you can tell me anything, I won't tell anyone."
"breaking up with your hyung" I didn't wait for him to respond as I rested my head on his shoulder, scooping some ice cream from its tub, my fingertips freezing from the cold surface "when do you think I should?"
"When he gets in your nerves again, but this time do it with people around, he might hurt you again" he said, knowing that his theory is plausible
"I really want you to make him feel what you did, treat him like crap first, I'd appreciate it very much" he huffed, grabbing my spoon to shove the ice cream into his mouth.
"Piece of crap" he said as he scooped another spoonful of my ice cream, obviously referring to Jungkook "me and Sunoo liked him a lot but my opinion about him changed, he's a douche bag, yeah, garbage that needs a good beating."
I chuckle "You talk too much for a teenage boy."
"I'm sure Sunoo's gonna defend his ass when I tell him I'm going to beat the hell out of his favorite hyung" he boasted to the void, confident that his frail body could handle Jungkook. It could even be the other way around, with him ending up in a hospital bed.
As I turned channels on the TV, he handed me back my tub of ice cream and asked "Did Taehyung and you have a past?" I sat back on the couch "yes."
"Since when?"
"Two years ago. In Busan" I remarked nonchalantly, assuming he wanted to know. It's exhausting to keep up with such non-existent lies until I die "and I left him when I returned to Seoul, end of story"
"Have you kissed him before?" he asked, causing me to scowl and painfully slap his shoulder "It's none of your business" I muttered to the laughing man on the couch
"I bet you did. He kept grabbing you at the party, was he so clingy back then too?" he questioned, hoping for an answer "How was he to you back then? I mean, he's incredibly lovely to me, what else to you?" he wondered
"I'm not gonna give you bed time stories" I shake my head and turned the TV off, the thought of telling him those past memories "good night"
"Mind telling me why we saw you and Taehyung kissing" Dahyun asked me as we sat on the courtyard after lunch, I puff my cheeks "we didn't kiss, well, he was about to but I panicked and jumped in the pool"
"Do you see how things between you two will go?" she asked and I purse my lips looking back at the same question I told myself years ago "I can't predict things all the time."
"You see.." she stated the moment I saw Jimin and Taehyung in front of us, far enough for me to wonder what they're talking about "there's this thing called unwanted love and that's what's happening right now"
"Where your heart starts to hurt because it feels too good?" she whispered and Taehyung's eyes met mine, he smiled before looking back at Jimin "too good that you're starting to hate that feeling?"
I clenched my fists tightly and started to hurt myself because my mind was starting to contradict with my feelings, I know that holding Taehyung in my arms again would do nothing but trouble I can't help but remember his words years ago
As long as I'm yours you don't have to be mine
I wonder what is going on in Taehyung's head. What if I said I'm his? what would he feel then? would he be happy or confused about the situation
"Shit" I snap out of my thoughts when Dahyun cursed and scooted away from me. It was by then I felt a different warmth from beside me, and before I knew it Taehyung was already smiling at me "you seem to be thinking about a lot of things"
I felt his arm creepy from behind me as he slumps on his seat, I pursed my lips and tried to calm myself "it's nothing much."
"If you're not busy then, can I come over tonight?" he asked me, knowing that if I refused he would still come "do whatever you want"
"Yay! Can I have one?!" Niki said in joy the moment Taehyung opens a bag of candies, and oh, if ever you're asking where we are we're at the apartment's rooftop
"This is crazy" both of them laughed at my remark, whoever suggested this, I hope he dies a virgin this is so not my place "come on, the land lady said it was fine to camp here" I looked at Taehyung in disbelief. She only said yes because you're so handsome! how could she say no to a face like that?!
"I don't know" I open my phone to see Jungkook's text, I squint my eyes when he mentioned a family dinner without me, I'm not even surprised anymore
And I'm even more unsurprised when Taehyung snatches my phone and snorts, he looked pissed "where'd you find a guy who doesn't bring you to family dinners? I think he's the worst out of them all"
"Stop speaking ill of your friend" I said and tried taking my phone back but he shook his head "listen to me first" he then grabbed my hand
"Taehyung!" I hissed, worried if the histerical Niki would see our acts but he simply threw a look from behind my shoulder and laughed "relax, he's not here."
What?
I looked around and the door hanging open, my brother has left me and Taehyung all alone, was this planned or not? "why you keep on telling yourself this is alright?"
Our eyes met and I saw my innocent Taehyung, a faint photograph of us from years ago suddenly struck me. These questions remind me of the past a lot "why do you think so?"
He leaned back, both hands on his sides as we accompany the moon but faces are turned to each other, he gave me a smile "I always hated the fact that you were so beautiful that I tend to get a speechless mouth."
You're one to talk
"I always hated how you looked at me like I was yours even when it sounded so delusional" Taehyung groaned and threw his head back "you drive me crazy"
"Tzuyu" he grunted under his breath and sounded so angry, but before I could even question him he slants his face close that I forgot about Niki possibly walking in on us. His eyes were dancing in the dark and shining under the starlight
"Tell me..."
His eyes fell on my lips and I knew well enough he wanted a taste of my love, he licked his red one and nibbled on it before looking at me straight in the eyes
He smirked
"Don't you think temptation feels so good?"
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Hi! I've been back after a while. I was busy with some things in regards to paperwork. anyways, I missed you all! >3<