love, your sweet p

By jwedek5352

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***MATURE WARNING*** Name: Pressley Isabella Hosbach Age: 12 Live: New York City, New York/Florham Park, New... More

prologue
dear mommy and tallie,
i'm so sorry.
i know how much it must hurt to read this.
it wasn't the show.
i've been suffering for a while now,
ever since the car accident.
i know how much you loved me,
but i still felt unworthy of it.
i know how much worth i had to you,
but i still felt worthless.
i know i could have talked to you,
that you might have helped me,
but i needed to take care of it on my own.
i felt alone,
like i was in a dark room,
and it was locked.
this was the only way
i could get out
and finally be happy.
i forgot what that feels like,
to be happy.
i didn't want to do anything,
not even dance.
i just stopped caring.
if i ever hurt you in any way,
i'm sorry.
if i made a mistake in any way,
i'm sorry.
i deserved any bullying.
i deserved all the hate.
i can't do this anymore.
i love you guys so much,
but i couldn't love myself.
it was tiring,
being happy all the time,
when i would cry myself to sleep.
every. single. night.
i wish it didn't come to this,
but i needed to end the pain.
i needed to do it so i could be happy again.
this isn't goodbye.
i'll always be your baby.
i'll always be your best friend.
i'm not gone.
i was misplaced,
a mistake.
i'll be watching over you,
forever and always.
again,
i'm sorry.
love, your sweet p
Day 1
Day 2
Day 3
Day 4
Day 11
Day 12
Day 13
Day 18
Day 19
Day 20 (FINALE)

⚠️Caution (PLEASE READ)⚠️

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By jwedek5352

Hey, the author here.

I just wanna say a couple of things about love, your sweet p.

1. I mean no harm nor shade to anybody in this book. I idolize these people and wish them the best in life. I understand this is FICTION.

2. This is an isolated diary-entry style book. There will be four entries per week.

4. Frequent updates will be made! They will be very long chapters and many many of them. You've. Been. Warned.

5. There are MANY trigger warnings. I will not mention them in every chapter, so I'm going to dump them in this chapter. If you are triggered by any of these topics, DO NOT read this. I would much rather lose a view or a follower rather than you being emotionally screwed. Please get help before it's too late.

- depression

- suicide attempt

- suicidal idealization

- feelings of worthlessness

- brief substance abuse

- overall just really bad mental health in general

I really hope you enjoy this book, everybody!

P.S. Go check out my other book, Une Fleure Fanée, if you want.

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