⋰˚☆ Fai on Jessi Show!terview
Posted on: Fai
7,852,709 views • June 10, 2020
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Jessie: Alright, The one who's the hottest in South Korea. We're having another hottest figure in Show!terview with Jessi.
Fai: Cheering and clapping for Jessi. Yeah! Wooo!
JE: There are only a few female solo singers in Korea. Kim Wansun, Uhm Junghwa, Lee Hyori and the one who follows in my footsteps Fai everyone!
FA: Hello, Hi. Thank you for that introduction and for having me on here.
JE: We know each other well right?
FA: Uh um, yeah I guess.
JE: Couldn't you fucking lie and say we're best friends?
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FA: Sunbaenim and I never promoted during the same times, but if we ever come across each other I always say hello and vice-versa. You've always had so many good comments for me, especially at debut you were one of the only older artists that spoke to me and gave me advice. Even my manager can vouch for me, when I debuted I told him that it feels like you're the only artist who had my best interest at heart.
JE: Seriously? Oh my god I might start crying.
FA: Yeah but I can't compliment you anymore, your PD told me to keep it to a minimum.
JE: I always knew he had my worst interest at heart.
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JE: So you're here because you have a comeback right?
FA: Yeah, My Final Dance: Act 1.
JE: Is it actually your final dance? Are you done after this?
FA: No it's just a concept...Anyways the mini album has 6 songs and the title track is Monster.
JE: I really like the concept on you, it's really different but it shows your growth, like you're a woman now.
FA: Thank you.
JE: Anyways, where should I start?
PD: Why are you so stiff?
JE: I don't know I feel so intimidated by her.
FA: What? Why? I haven't said anything.
JE: That's probably why, your answers are so short. I think it's because you're so pretty, only attractive people are reserved.
FA: Oiii, don't say that! I got butterflies.
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JE: I heard you don't get angry, is that true?
FA: Jheez I'm not fucking buddha, it was a passing comment someone made once and that's all people think of me. I do get angry, sad, happy, whatever emotion there is. It's just that when I'm angry I don't yell like a mad man.
JE: I can't relate, I just feel like to get my voice heard I need to be loud about it.
FA: Yeah that's totally understandable because that's the way you like to communicate and there's nothing wrong with that. Whereas for me, yelling and going back on forth won't get us anywhere.
JE: You're really well spoken and I think that the way someone handles conflict says a lot about them.
FA: I say this all the time, I have so much but so little free time. I don't want to waste my time on something silly that could've been handled in ten minutes. I'm also a person that doesn't really like expressing my emotions when I'm in public. There's so much about me that's out there and I feel that my feelings are the only thing that I can keep private so I do that.
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JE: I know you don't usually go on these things, it feels like your company really protect you. But I want you to come on here and express how you feel. This isn't just a show, it's a place you can hangout and I'm your counsellor. We want to show your real self, that's what this fucking show is about.
FA: I actually don't go outside much.
JE: You look like a homebody. I don't hang out either.
FA: What do you do at home?
JE: Other than working outside, I just sleep at home.
FA: Same, especially nowadays I moved into a new dorm and my friends live in the same building so it gives me more of a reason to not go out.
JE: But still seeing your friends is a lot of work right?
FA: I don't even talk to them, I just sit there and mind my business. It gets scary living alone so I'm happy to have them close.
JE: Who are these friends?
FA: Secret.
JE: There are no such things as secrets on this show.
FA: There is.
JE: You look like the type that's really popular amongst people but choose not to have friends.
FA: I don't think I'm popular to be honest, like at all. People have never approached me to be friends, all the friends I have now is because I approached them first. And I don't even have many friends.
JE: You have a close group of friends?
FA: I guess so yeah, I have the four guys from Dream, my boyfriend, Jennie and Yerim. Those are the people who I'm the closest to and speak to consistently. Oh and Soobin I guess...but we're like forced to speak each other since we're at the company everyday. Before anyone runs after me I'm joking. But those people, especially the dreamies are the ones who I value the most.
JE: Are you friends with mostly guys?
FA: That's a misconception I get a lot, yes my closest friends are male, but 70% of my friends are girls and that's a fact. I just don't speak about them because they're not celebrities or would prefer I don't bring them up. I'm allowed to say this now because it's been years, but our companies publicised our friendship when we first debuted so we can have mutual fans and boost our publicity up. But we're good friends now, maybe we used to play it up back then but now it's 100% real.
JE: If a guy you're friends with starts to develop feelings for you, what would you do?
FA: Cut them out of my life obviously. I seriously don't have a tolerance for stupid drama like that.
JE: Stupid drama! So you're ruthless like that?
FA: I wouldn't say ruthless because it's not like it's a weekly activity for myself or something. It's the normal thing to do anyways.
JE: Wasn't there this guy who was saying you're like a friend zoning machine.
FA: Yeah whatever, works in my favour. It's really not that deep or complicated. I don't stay friends with them out of respect to my boyfriend, but most importantly me because it shows that the person isn't able to respect the boundaries I have in place for our friendship.
JE: I'll make sure I don't catch feelings for you.
FA: That would be nice yeah.
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JE: Alright this is the global section, we can only speak in English here
FA: That's easy.
JE: Wait, what's your real name? Is it Fai?
FA: Felicity.
JE: Damn you look like a Felicity.
FA: What's yours, is it Jessi?
JE: Jessica.
FA: Yikes.
JE: Yikes? What do you mean yikes?
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JE: So you're from Australia, our accents are so different. I don't really understand much from you because your accent's so strong.
FA: See to me, I don't have an accent, it's you that has one.
JE: No I don't!
FA: You do! Your accent's really pretty!
JE: You really know how to charm people.
FA: I got trained in this.
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JE: What are you more comfortable in? English or Korean?
FA: Konglish? Sometimes Korean comes to my head faster.
JE: Oh my God I second that! Whenever I go back to the States, I forget English! You know what I mean right?
FA: Totally! It takes a while to get used to when I'm in an English speaking country.
JE: I relate to that 100%
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JE: And your parents, they're still in Australia right?
FA: Yeah, still working there. But thankfully, we're still in touch and we have a really good relationship. It's hard to raise a child, in a foreign country and also to be working a fast-paced job. But I know that it's also so much harder to have your child so far away especially since I moved at 14. And so since I acknowledge all their hardships and sacrifices, I wrote a song with Zico oppa dedicated to my parents. Flower Road.
JE: I haven't asked you that question yet though.
FA: Oh your questions are in order? We can do this again.
JE: I guess it's okay.
FA: Um, what about your parents? Are they still in the States as well?
JE: Yeah they are.
FA: So you can listen to Flower Road and cry.
JE: I have! Many times!
FA: Good, I want people to cry.
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JE: When you were in the process of becoming an idol was your cousin Kai from EXO supporting?
FA: Actually, Jongin oppa and the other EXO members didn't want me to do it. I can see why, training and debuting is so hard, especially at a young age...and when you're coming from a foreign country. My whole family were anti-me doing this, to be honest. But, I was really adamant and sure that I wanted to try this out and that definitely came from a place of privilege.
JE: I see why they would feel like that, even more so since you know people in the industry and know how hectic it gets and have experienced it first hand.
FA: Yeah, I was completely aware of it all and agree with it all. However, I let my family know that if I didn't go for it, especially since I had a couple of companies lined up and waiting for an answer, then it would be something I would always regret and think about. So they agreed and I trained, then a few months later I debuted. And while I account my success to hard work, I also really emphasise that I got really lucky.
JE: No your talent's really important too. You can be lucky, but if you don't have the talent to back you up then your success will be so short. I mean look at you, you had a dating scandal or whatever, but people stuck with you because they believed in you and your talent.
FA: Nah you're right.
JE: What you lowkey need is confidence. I think it's quite obvious that you're confident on stage, but once you get off you're a bit shy. If you hang around with me for a bit, you'll get confident.
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FA: You're so different as compared to when I met you a few years ago.
JE: What's different?
FA: I don't know, you just seem bright and fresh. You look really happy. Are you dating anyone at the moment?
JE: I'm not. You are though, right?
FA: Yeah! Mark from NCT, it's been a little bit over 2 years now.
JE: That's long, especially for someone your age. But you look like the type who can do long relationships.
FA: Umm, I don't really like talking about our relationship much, especially in interviews. I know I brought up luck with how my career turned out, but I also believe that I got pretty lucky with that aspect of my life as well. It's not like I was looking for a relationship, I just got lucky to be with someone who truly suits me on the first try.
JE: Yeah you are lucky. Where are all the nice guys at? Fuck. Is there anything you want to say to Mark on the show?
FA: Uh pass.
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JE: So generally what kind of guy do you like?
FA: I don't really know if I have a type, I've only dated one person so I've never explored different guys. But, Mark is my type...yeah. We were friends for about two years before feelings started and that all happened because we had mutual respect and understanding towards each other. So someone where our feelings stem from our conversations. I don't think I can start liking a guy at first sight, we need to really get to know each other first. And what about you?
JE: I like a mischievous guy. Someone who's gentle but yet somewhat humorous.
FA: Those are hard to find babe.
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JE: So I can tell that you have a quite a bit of worries, we can use this part of the show to share your concerns with me.
FA: Um it's a bit weird to just jump straight into that. For a while now I've noticed that the staff have been working extra hard for me, I'm not sure if it's because I as an artist have gotten bigger or because every since 2019 I've started to get quite a bit of controversies. Even though they say they enjoy their job and working for me, I still wanted to work hard even them. I guess I used them as motivation, but slowly the things about work I used to simply enjoy became a bit burdensome for me. It's all starting to pile up and it's hard for me to take it on longer. While working I've started to feel a bit alone and isolated.
JE: Yeah I relate to that, the feeling of isolation.
FA: For me, I realised I like being on stage because of the way it effects people. So I put all my energy into that, then I get home and suddenly realise I forgot to take care of myself too.
JE: Oh my god I got goosebumps. I understand exactly how you feel. I try my best and put my everything into entertaining people, but feel like no one does it for me. Is that what you mean?
FA: Sorta yeah.
JE: I can't solve your problem. People think I'm always super hyper and energetic as I am on variety shows. But hardly anyone realises that sometimes I feel depressed and lonely.
FA: I think what's the most important is that you have supportive people around you. People who believe in you all the time, whether you're doing good or bad they'll be there for you. People who support you through the thick and thin.
JE: You bring really good points, but I feel like you're comforting me, it's meant to be the other way round.
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FA: I'm very thankful I have a strong and healthy support system, but there will always be that doubt in the back of my head.
JE: When you feel down you should think about your fans and family and get over the hardship. It works for me! When I start feeling emotional, I realise that there are people out there supporting me after all. I snap out of it when I realise I'm not alone and it's all about mind control.
FA: Unnie looking into your eyes while you talk about it makes me feel like crying. I can see the tears.
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JE: Man you really are right, you have so many people working for you. Why are they writing so much?
FA: Meanwhile your staff is out here playing with your dog.
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JE: Before we close this off, I just want to ask you something out of my personal interest. Is it true you carry a lighter everywhere?
FA: Aside from the obvious, I just play with it. I'm being serious when I say it helps me think. I'm a really calculated person, I don't like acting out of impulse. I just sit there and play with the lighter while I think everything through.
JE: I feel like we're so different yet so alike. I want to hangout with you.
FA: I don't usually do this but I'll definitely give you my number.
JE: I'm so flattered. How do you feel coming on here?
FA: I'm really happy I stepped out of my comfort zone and did this. You really took care of me today so I'm feeling really thankful for you.
JE: I'm happy you came on here too you know! Everyone Fai's new album comes out on the 7th of June be sure to check it out.
FA: Thank you.
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⋰˚☆ Aya's Thoughts
i've risen from the dead.
thoughts on the chapter? any requests?