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I hope you also read all the lyrics 🙃
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[Third Person's POV]
Sasaeng translated tweet:
The 'TT' couple has officially broken up. They've been in an 'on and off' relationship recently on the last half part of 2020 and on the early half of this year. We thought they would get back together again last week but it seems that it's official this time.
April 18, 2021. 9:39 pm.
(The tweet has been deleted now)
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{Click to play}
Dreamcatcher's De Ja Vu lyrics:
Your two eyes, their glow is lost,
Please erase all my memories
Far away through the dense fog
The far path I departed on only left hurtful marks
Even as I try to grasp the ends of the dream
Eventually, longer and longer
I fall asleep in a deep silence
Oh now, holding this pain
Like the day I abandoned everything
It grows more painful every day
Endlessly in front of my eyes, deja vu
Oh deja vu
Oh deja vu
Oh deja vu
So I fallen now
As long as I can breathe
I can't let go of you again
We'll be together for every moment
Don't move far away from me
Eh I want these moments to all be false
Uh I hope these are passing delusions
If through wet tears, through belated regrets
I can go return, return yeah
So now, I'm holding this pain
Like how you abandoned everything
It grows clearer every day
Endlessly in front of my eyes, deja vu
Oh deja vu
Dreamcatcher's Daydream lyrics:
There's a lot that I wanted to say
That my heart my heart
Couldn't convey, right?
What were you thinking then when you are alone
At that time, that time
Are you thinking about me?
All I ask by Adele lyrics:
I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word
They've all been said before, you know
So why don't we just play pretend?
Like we're not scared of what's coming next
Or scared of having nothing left
Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?
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May 28, 2021
Sasaeng Translated tweet:
Taehyung hasn't moved on yet from his ex-girlfriend.
14:22. 28 May. 21
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-June 27, 2021-
Taehyung' s post on twitter:
Only you by MSG Wannabe Lyrics:
I have something to say right now
So I'm waiting for you, blankly pacing back and forth
It's already been long
Since I've passed the age where I don't know much
But still, I can't explain this trembling feeling
Do you know that your voice
Embraces my tired shoulders after a long day?
Do you feel the same way too?
Out of all the people who know me
Is there another person who smiles at me like that?
No, it's only you
How about you?
Out of all the people who I know
Is there another person who is this lovable?
No, it's only you
June 27, 2021, Tzuyu's melody project was released.
The Lyrics:
I promise that you'll never find another like me
I know that I'm a handful, baby, uh
I know I never think before I jump
And you're the kind of guy the ladies want
(And there's a lot of cool chicks out there)
I know that I went psycho on the phone
I never leave well enough alone
And trouble's gonna follow where I go
(And there's a lot of cool chicks out there)
But one of these things is not like the others
Like a rainbow with all of thе colors
Baby doll, when it comes to a lover
I promisе that you'll never find another like me
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See Your Smile by BTS V Lyrics:
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You call it madness by the Nat King Cole trio Lyrics:
I can't forget the night I met you,
That's all I'm dreaming of.
Now you call it madness,
But I call it love.
You made a promise to be faithful
By all the stars above.
And now you call it madness,
But I call it love.
My heart is beating,
It keeps repeating for you constantly.
You're all I'm needing
And so I'm pleading,
Please come back to me.
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Them changes by Undercut lyrics:
Nobody move, there's blood on the floor
And I can't find my heart
Where did it go? Did I leave it in the cold?
So please give it back, 'cause it's not yours to take
It must've fell when I lost my mind
Deep in the cut, drowning in a pain
Somebody help, 'cause I can't find my way
Nobody move, nobody move
Somebody tell me how I'm supposed to feel
When I'm sitting here knowing this ain't real
Why in the world would I give my heart to you?
Just to watch you throw it in the trash
I've been traveling so long, I don't think I can hold on
Where were you when I needed you the most?
Now I'm sitting here with a black hole in my chest
A heartless, broken mess
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Taehyung's vlive:
And so Sally can wait
She knows it's too late
As we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say
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February 2022
"you really think your Sally would wait for you to comeback again? *smirks* " Woo-shik said as he chuckled while drinking wine with Taehyung at his house
"I will not give up as long as she's still not married" taehyung answered as he drink too
Seo joon smirked "she's not gonna forgive you man"
"taetae is her first love though" Hyung sik said while eating nuts
"that's exactly why the pain is extra harder for her. She's never really gonna forgive him" Seo joon emphasized
"she's my first love too" Taehyung said
Woo-shik almost spit out his drink "who are you fooling huh? We all know it's someone from your high school" he further said
"I thought she was too. Not until I met Tzuyu..." taehyung gloomily looked on the ground "I never felt that kind of love I've experienced with Tzuyu..." he further said with obvious sadness in his eyes while looking down
"See? He was too in love with her and yet he still cheated. That's why I don't trust myself either. *Smirked* better be a single uncle forever" Seo Joon chuckled
They all chuckled too
Well except for Taehyung.
"How could she forgive me?" taehyung ramdomly asked in is helpless voice in the middle of his squad's laughter
" it's been almost a year dude, your daily delivery of flowers and bread for her aren't even effective." Woo-shik smirked
"woah, you're still sending her things like that up until now?" Hyungsik surprisingly asked
"I just stopped recently... Nayeon told me they're the ones who are taking all the bread for Tzuyu and it's ruining their diet. And the flowers are making their dorm looking like a forest now" Taehyung said that made the Wooga squad laugh again
"Well at least she's not throwing it" Peakboy said
Taehyung can't help to smile a little after he heard those words
Seo Joon noticed him
"Don't get your hopes high up dude" Seo joon said "the point is, she's still giving away all the stuffs that you're giving to her and maybe she's not just throwing it straight to the trash cause we all know that she has a soft heart for all creatures in this world.
Maybe she just felt pity for the flowers and bread, but not to you" Seo joon further smirked
"Hyung is too hard to taehyungie haha" Hyungsik laughed. Others laughed too
"Seo-joon-hyung's words...actually makes me feel more eager to still pursue her...she really has the purest heart... I cannot let my whole life pass without marrying her. She's... my lifetime dream... I cannot die until she became my wife..." taehyung said with so much eagerness
Seo-joon smirked" this man's really a pathetic hopeless romantic"
Hyunsik sighed "Well just look at the songs he made"
Peakboy shook his head as he chuckled "it's been exactly 11 months now since your break up dude, I thought you've already really moved on the moment you followed Jennie on IG *laughs*" he further teased him
"that was an accident" taehyung irritatedly said
"no dude, Jennie is so hot, why don't you pursue her? You're really gonna win at life if you make her your girl. She's the hottest in your generation. Don't you find her so attractive? " Woo shik insisted
"she's sexy.. pretty.. and has a cute gummy smile.." taehyung slowly nodded "Not gonna lie, I'm attracted to her at some point in my life..." taehyung bit his lower lip "but..." he continued to speak
"its just that...." he looked on the ground again
"its still... Tzuyu"
"it would always be tzuyu..." he further said
His friends right now:
"aigoo when could you ever move on? Everytime we drink and hang out like this, you would always talk about Tzuyu. And its been a year! " Seo-joon frustratedly said
"give up on her dude" woo shik said
"it's been only 11 months... " taehyung said
"thats still almost a year man! " peakboy said as he shook his head
"are you still talking to her?" hyungsik curiously asked
"Our last real conversation was that night.. at the rooftop..." Taehyung said as he closed his eyes "I tried to call and text her after that night and even up until this morning of February 2022, but I've got no response"
"you're still calling her up until today?!" Hyungsik surprisingly asked
Taehyung nodded slowly "ne (yes)..
I even went to their dorm a lot of times.. But her unnies would always be the ones who would face me and would always tell me
the words "back off" in so many ways and different styles"
The squad can't help but to chuckle as they imagine the scenario that Taehyung have told
"dude, you're unbelievable" Wooshik said trying to control his laugh
"just give up on her dude, you are looking so pathetic now" Seojoon said as he still shake his head
"Just go date the hottest girls around you. You're single, rich, young and fvckin handsome, you would definitely get any girl you like. Why are you limiting yourself so much? Damn dude, you can even get the recent Miss Universe chick if you want. Even Hollywood celebrities are so into you right now. If I am you, I would be the happiest guy on earth right now, I would date a different girl every week" Woo shik said
"well.. Dispatch.." Peakboy smirked
"dude, dispatch is not even his problem. Their company could pay that assholes as much as they want. BTS members are just so really lucky. They always win at life." Woo shik said
Taehyung remained silent while staring blankly on his tiny shot glass
"dude, wake up, you're the luckiest man on earth, why are you still looking so broke now?" Hyungsik said looking frustrated to Taehyung
"the luckiest man on earth..." taehyung suddenly speak again "is the one... who will wear tuxedo while a woman named Chou Tzuyu, wearing a white gown, walks in an aisle towards him.. as his bride..." he further said
"And that is definitely not you. Cause you're an asshole" Seojoon bluntly said to him
The other guys can't help but to chuckle and smirked again
"well that's harsh..." peakboy mumbled
"I will be a better man for her... " Taehyung just said out of the blue
"then how could you prove yourself?" Seojoon challenged him
"I will wait for her.. and stay single... until she became mine again.. " he responded
His friends did a frustrated facial expressions again
"aish wait for what? Until she talked to you again? *sneered* Man, what if that's 10 years after? Or maybe even forever" Seo joon irritatedly said
"and its impossible too for you to remain single on the upcoming years. You'll gonna be thirsty for love for sure" Woo shik further said as he shake his head
"yeah. I will always be thirsty for her" Taehyung said
"Man, you're obsessed" Hyungsik said
"now that sounds like a lust now, not love" Woo shik said as he shook his head again
"damn dude, I can even hear your cock now beating stronger than your heart" peakboy said looking so disappointed to Taehyung
"ya, taehyung-ah, you're looking like a psycho now honestly. And the fact that you still keep on calling and texting her up until now. That's sick. That's terrorizing. That's not love anymore, that's a severe level of obsession" Seojoon said
"no matter what kind of feeling is this, either love, obsession, infatuation or lust, i just know that I have a strong feelings for her!" Taehyung suddenly bursted "Or even if you said it's not from my heart, and it's just from my---" he bit his lower lip "then yeah, every part of me wants her! my mind wants her, my eyes wants her, my lips wants her, my hearts wants her! No matter what kind of feeling is this, the point is, I'm having a strong kind of emotion for her! and I just can't keep this strong emotion within me forever! I will always fight for this! You may not consider this as love, and I may not even figure out on to myself what the fvck is this until now, one thing is for sure right now,one thing is I am SO SURE right now, I will never have the same feeling I felt with Tzuyu with another girl. I cannot be with another girl that is not Tzuyu. She is my superior, my maximum, my highest! Now tell me, should I give her up?! " Taehyung firmly said
" dude, the point is, what about her?! Her feelings? Are you even thinking about her? What if she doesn't want you anymore? What if she'll just feel miserable if she's with you? You are terrorising her! Think about her! Simple as that! It's not always about you! If you truly care for her, then atleast be concern about how she feels around you! " Seojoon irritatedly said. He even stood up and almost wanna walk out of their conversation
" aigoo, why is this getting serious now? " peakboy said
A tear just fell down on Taehyung's cheeks as he stared blankly to Seojoon's face
" hyung... She's still not blocking me on kakaotalk and in any of my phone numbers ... even if she kept on ignoring my calls and daily text messages...she's still not blocking me... Do you realized that? She's just ignoring me but she's never doing anything to make me stop. She can still read all my messages to her everyday. She have seen it, I can feel it, even if she's not replying... And that's a big point right? I'm holding on to that..." taehyung helplessly said as his tears continually fall
"but you still haven't get a response from her for a year now, FOR A YEAR! are you still holding on to that huh?!" Seojoon said looking so pissed now
"dude,this is the thing, she let you explain everything, she let you say everything that you want to say to her through texts, she gave you all the chance to explain and prove yourself by atleast not blocking your contact from her for a year, and you've already told her enough, but yet she still ignores you. That's a whole clearer sign man, she's not into you anymore. She's done with you. Do you get that? " Wooshik insisted
Taehyung just closed his eyes in pain" ani... (no..) " he mumbled
"Taehyung-ah....she will never forgive you anymore. Even if you wait forever, you already lost her trust! And that's the end of that" Seojoon emphasized "Once trust is broken, a relationship is really over. Let that sink in! "
"A relationship should just be over if love doesn't exist anymore....and trust is a whole different word from love...And I believe hyung, there's still love between us.., its just that... anger and doubts are dominantly covering it for now" Taehyung insisted as he look at him helplessly
" You really believe there's still love huh? That moment when you cheated on her, that's a confirmation that your relationship is lacking of love from the very beginning! " Seojoon insisted
"but that was just a kiss..." he regretfully said "it was just a kiss and I was drunk, shibal!" he bursted again "Why are we so ruined like this just because of that fvcking drunk kiss?!" Taehyung frustratedly said as he cried while holding his head stressfully
His friends almost don't wanna look at him as they witness him so frustrated and hurting
"aigoo, when could he ever let her go?" hyungsik mumbled
"tsk, tsk. Tzuyu was his longest relationship, the healing process would really be that long, that's even worse than a first love heartbreak" Peakboy said
"and he even consider her now as his first love too, aish" Wooshik further said as he shake his head
"Taehyung-ah, you need to accept that it's really over for you and Tzuyu. That was your end little guy. It's final. Could you please understand that? " Seo-joon emphasized again
Taehyung drank a shot
"I'm gonna stop messaging her now." he further said
His friends almost wanna scream "finally!"
But Taehyung spoke again
"I'm gonna stop for a while.. And let her miss me" he further said as he drink again a shot
His squad almost wanna do a facepalm
Seojoon sighed in his most pissed off state of being
Other guys can't help but to chuckle as they witness his reaction
"Tzuyu's not gonna miss you asshole! " Seojoon frankly said again
They almost wanna laugh
Well except for Taehyung
"if she's not gonna miss me... then its okay... I will still try to win her heart at some time..someday.. " Taehyung spoke looking so helpless but hopeful
"for now...alright.. Im gonna take a rest...if thats what she need right now... But I will never give up on her... I could never give up on her..." he cried
"I will always try again...even if she reject me 3000 times ...I will always try again... We watched the first snow together last year, hyung...we will end up together...we should end up together... " he further said eagerly
Other squad members are looking so tired for him right now
They just sighed and drink a shot
"aish tsk tsk tsk" Wooshik exclaimed as he shook his head
"I am with you, taetae..." Peakboy suddenly spoke
"what???" Seojoon and hyungsik furrowed their eyebrows
"Ive never seen a man.. looking so eagerly in love for a girl like that.." Peakboy said
"Man, he's obsessed, not inlove!" Seojoon said
"Dude, look at him, he's looking so--" Peakboy helplessly looked at Taehyung "i mean, that feelings of him for her, whatever that is.. cannot just be ignored.." he further said "its too strong to be wasted ... I mean, yes he cheated on her but its not like he had an affair with another girl for a long time... He was drunk, and was tempted to kiss a girl, who even looks like Tzuyu, for once only. I mean, you are all actors, dont you kiss another girls too while having a girlfriend? "
" Man, thats a different case. We did that for work, it has no malice" Hyungsik said
"he was thinking of Tzuyu that time" Peakboy defended
"yeah cause he misses her. Then what if she misses her again, and she's not beside him, will he kiss another girl again just to fulfill his needs?" Seojoon said
"I was wrong hyung..." Taehyung suddenly speak again "I was really wrong, I know that..." he closed his eyes regretfully
"but can't I have another chance?" taehyung further said helplessly to Seojoon's eyes
Seojoon breathe heavily
"everyone can have another chance.... but you've already lost Tzuyu's trust! Will that chance still gonna work out if she'll gonna think a lot of doubts while she's with you again huh?" Seojoon insisted "she'll just gonna live in fear with you forever, do you realized that? "
Taehyung sighed as he closed his eyes
"im just gonna hurt... all the next girls that will enter a relationship with me... cause I will keep on thinking about her, about Tzuyu. I would always compare them to her. I cannot really... love another girl the same way Ive loved Tzuyu... she's the only girl.. that I dreamt to be my wife.... How could I fvckin give her up now? How could I stop myself fighting for her? " Taehyung helplessly said
"how about her? Does she like to be your wife huh?" Seojoon challenged him again
"Im gonna prove myself hyung! Im gonna try again!" taehyung exclaimed looking straightly to Seojoon's eyes with his tearful eyes "Im just gonna try again.." he look down "I would always try again..." he further speak again helplessly in his tired voice
"i could wait for her forever..." he further cried again
"im just gonna rest for now.. but I would always comeback...."
His squad just took a deep breath and sighed
"i would always comeback to my heart's home..." he further said
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April 2022
"you're smiling, did you received again a text from him?" Jihyo asked Tzuyu
"who?" Tzuyu asked confusedly
"ya, youre not good at lying." Jihyo sit beside her "You know who Im talking about" she said as she looked deeply to Tzuyu's eyes
Tzuyu looked away from her
"he already stopped sending good morning, goodnight and apology messages for a month now... I guessed he got tired already." Tzuyu said
"Good for him though.. " she further said
"are you missing him?" Jihyo casually asked
Tzuyu looked straightly at her unnie's eyes
"you know im not good at lying unnie. .." tzuyu answered with her eyes beginning to get wet
Jihyo cant help but to feel melted upon looking at Tzuyu's watery eyes. She further put her arm around Tzuyu's shoulders then she rubbed her upper arm and let her head lean on her
" it will take a long time honey... But you'll gonna get over it someday...trust me" Jihyo
said as she still comfort her as she hug her head while she's leaning on her shoulder
"i should have block him from the very beginning... " Tzuyu regretfully said as her tears finally fall into her cheeks
"Blocking him will just make you look so bitter. Giving him the chance to contact you while you just continue to ignore him will hurt him more. And he deserved that. You just did the right thing, maknae. You're doing good... " jihyo said as she tap Tzuyu's shoulder
Tzuyu nodded slowly then she wiped her tears on her cheeks
She further sit properly on the sofa
" i wanna cut my hair again shorter unnie...its getting long again now.. " Tzuyu further said
Jihyo smiled
" Well lets go to the salon now.. Better have a new hair color too, gorgeous" Jihyo excitedly said as she get up and grab Tzuyu from the sofa
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January 1, 2023
4:32 am
Tzuyu woke up after hearing a notification sound on her phone
[1 new message]
From: 301295
새해 복 많이 받으세요, 쯔위야.
아직도 미안합니다.
올해는 저를 용서하시길 바랍니다.
(See more)
나는 아직도 당신을 사랑합니다.
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[translation]
Happy New Year, Tzuyu-ya.
I am still sorry.
I hope you forgive me this year.
(See more)
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I still love you.
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To be continued....
a/n: You'd be the judge. Do you think they deserve to be together again?