"All I see is you."
Do I still love him?
Those thoughts lingered in my mind for a few days, and I had problems breathing when I was in the same room as him
I'm very sure he hates me now, and I can't blame him, he's been through enough for me. When I opened my locker, a message fell over my shoes.
I grasped it and pursed my lips right away
I love you
"What ya reading?" I crumpled the paper and returned my gaze to Dahyun, who arched a brow at me "what was that?" I shook my head and moved away "nothing."
I was going to leave when I noticed Taehyung and Jimin approaching us. As he stared on the window outside, I found myself hard of breathe
When I turned to the opposite side and rushed away, Jimin saw me and opened his mouth. I curled my lips as I heard Dahyun yell at me.
Why am I trying to escape? I've never done anything like this before. But, for some reason, Taehyung scares me, and I can't be in the same room with him.
I kept running till I ran into someone, who instantly grabbed my wrists and laughed "why are you running? were you looking for me?" Jungkook grins.
His grip on my hand was not firm, but rather light and delicate "Morning darling, I was on my way to meet you anyway " he says as he presses his lips to my fingers and kisses my skin
My heart is racing, but it's not because of Jungkook, I'm sure. I was already having difficulty with one, and making it twice as difficult doesn't help.
"Jungkook"
"Hmm?" he lifted his brow, expecting a beautiful affectionate reaction from me, when he laughed over my shoulder "what the hell, why is everyone running around today?" I turned around.
Blue hair. That's the first thing I said to myself when Taehyung sprinted a little ahead of us and stopped when he heard Jungkook talk to him. Our eyes met and my heart stopped
"There you are" breathless, he said while looking at me
"Yeah, what's up?" Jungkook replied, assuming he was talking to him, but the reality is, I knew he was yearning for me deep down inside
"Nothing much" Taehyung smiled casually
"Party again, Jin's house?" he asked sounding hopeful enough to get my approval, I saw Jungkook scrunching his nose "I don't really like going there, what about you?" he asked me
Taehyung raised his brows and smiled, twisting left and right while patiently waiting for my answer "not in the mood"
"What?" he said, voice twirling with annoyance, knowing that I was given a chance to decide my answer didn't meet his satisfaction "what do you mean you're not in the mood?"
"Don't worry, you can go if you want to. I don't mind." Jungkook beamed to me just like an angel which wasn't casual to be seen. I sent him a pleading look to for once decide for me "it's alright baby, you can go"
"Yeah, you can go" Taehyung said
•••
The familiar colors of neon dancing against the darkness, and the loudness of the music all came back to me like a wave of memories from my recent eyes
I remember every single detail from my recent coming to such a quiet place that is now screaming with loudness. The people pushed past me and spilled some alcohol on my hands and shoes as they giggle their drunken words
I play with my hands as Dahyun and Jimin sling both their arms on either side of my shoulders, clueless to the reason why I'm here in the first place "what's with the ugly look, come on and drink"
He tried to shove some alcohol in my mouth when I gagged and moved away from him, when I said I wasn't in the mood I meant it "why the hell are you so grumpy? did Jungkook piss you off again?"
"No one did" I came to my own defense and tried to calm myself down when I felt the force from Jimin's arm to make me face a certain direction or should I say a certain someone
"Hi" Taehyung immediately came to us the moment our eyes found each other, Jimin and Dahyun's grip on me disappeared as we stood in front of each other "hello"
"Um" I looked away, a nervous laugh escaping from my lips as the crowd pushed themselves squeezing around is in an odd manner, the music was loud and upbeat but all I could feel and think about was him and how my heart is going crazy because of that
"I'm gonna get some-"
"I can't do this anymore, let's make up" he grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to him, our chesta bumped into each other and I worried if he could hear how fast it throbbed under my skin "this is too much for me"
"Okay" I said making his eyes pop up, his smile emerged after so long of hiding it for so long "okay? you're not mad"
"Huh? I thought you were mad"
"Oh, ahh" he chuckles nervously, going through the extents of scratching his neck in anxiety leaving a trail of red marks on his tanned skin "I was scared I got you mad when I asked you that"
"I'm not!" I exclaimed causing the both of us to burst out in laughter, as I observe the joyful twinkle in his eyes he pulled me to his arms, wrapping those delicate fingers around my body like he ached for it
He kissed the side of my hair and swayed me to the music "I missed you."
I hugged him back "I missed you too"
"Hyung! they made up!" I heard a squeaky voice proclaim from not so far away causing me to pull away from Taehyunh's arms, Jin noticed my glare and nudged Niki "shh, we saw nothing"
"you're such a drama queen. If you wanted a kiss you should have just said so" he saw my about face and decided to zip his mouth and laugh it away "oh, uh, bye see you later" he gave me a wink before dashing off
"I'm glad you're mine again" I think I heard Taehyung say as he snakes his arm around my waist pulling me closer to him "w-what did you say?"
"I'm glad you're talking to me again" he said, throwing down my delusions by the corner "wanna go to the gazebo?"
"Okay"
His hand was holding mine as he dragged me outside, past the noisy strangers enjoying the music and the booze. He stopped in the middle of our walk and grinned "take your shoes off, the grass feels nice"
I nod, ignoring the fact that Jin might have a dog and this place might be it's potty zone. the grass tickled my skin and I shivered and lean against his warmth
We continued on our walk with one of his arm around my shoulder pushing me closer to him as if this wasn't enough, I sat down on the Gazebo's trouble while swinging my bare feet to the cold
"I'm sorry for asking you that" he started as he hopped next to me, our shoulders and knees touching and I blushed "it's fine. I don't mind"
"Do you remember? when we first met?" he took my hand and fondled with my fingertips so lovingly. I lifted my gaze to find his brown orbs patiently waiting for me to answer "I was so in love with you the moment we met"
It took me back to a polaroid of our love. We met at a party, where Jungkook introduced me to his two friends named Jimin and Taehyung. We shaked hands and the next days and more I hang out with Taehyung a lot
And that was until "I told you I didn't want to be friends. I know Jungkook more than you did and his record with girls ended up with mascara all over their face, he wasn't healthy" I licked my lips and looked away
"You were mine, at some point you belonged to me" he said, voice hovering right on top of my lips as he leaned closer "I believed that you were born for me"
His hand slipped to my cheeks and his lips suddenly came closer as it lingered to touch me
he breathes out and bumps his forehead on mine, his eyes shut tightly as he confessed to me "I can't love someone else because every time I close my eyes all I can see is you"
"And it hurts so much to want something you can't have"