A week and a few days later -Ahmira
After the trip everything been going amazing. August took me to refill my pills for a couple of months. He made me move in temporarily until my security system was updated. He even got me me own security guard for when he's gone. I couldn't argue with him on that because he is so stubborn sometimes.
Plus august have been bothering me about going on tour with him. I said no because I wanted to stay and start my career off seriously. I haven't really been taking it seriously, only when Chris want me to feature on a song with him or background vocals. Which was nice sometimes but I need my own path
I've been chatting with Chanel for a while. We became so close over time and I can really say she is one of my best friends. Alongside with Kenzie and Chris.
"Baybah" august said coming downstairs in nothing but his drawls. I was in the kitchen making hot wings because I haven't had them in a while
"Yess august" I said mixing my wings with sauce.He came behind me and held me rocking back and forth.
"I'm leaving tomorrow and you wanna cook and shit. I'm suppose to be gettin all yo attention" he said in my ear. I shook my head
"You had my attention this morning, last night and a day before that. I'm tired of giving you attention" I said putting air quotes around attention
August been in heat for the last couple of days. He wouldn't stop because he said 4 months is too long with being able to do nothing with me. So we've been getting in it for the last couple of days now and I can say I am exhausted
"Damn you tied of Big daddy aug" he said kissing on my neck. I bit my lip and pushed him back
"No august" I said making my plate. He sighed and sat at the counter.
"So what you gon here without me" he said looking at me. I sat at his island and shrugged
"I might go to the studio with Chris and just chill" I said eating my wings. He nodded his head
Chris decided not to go on tour anymore because he wanted to build his relationship with Kenzie more. That was sweet of him. I couldn't tell august to do the same because this is his Label promotion, that wouldn't be fair at all
"That's coo" he said looking at me. I looked up and he looked so sad
"Babe what's wrong" I said wiping my hands on a napkin
"I just don't want you hea without me. I can't protect you thousands of miles away" he said shaking his head. I got up and stood between his legs wrapping my arms around him
"I'll be fine i promise. I'll be here with your security guards and I'm sure Kenzie, Chris and Chanel will keep me company" I said looking up at him kissing his lips
"Chanel" he said scrunching his face. I tilt my head to side and stepped back
"Yeah Chanel, the girl I've been talking to for past couple of months. Going out to eat and shopping with" I said looking up at him. He sighed and ran his hands down his face
"I told you I don't like dat girl ma" he said hoppin off the counter and going in the fridge. I folded my arms
"And every time I ask you why you don't, you don't say anything" I said looking up at him
"I just don't trust her" he said opening a water bottle. I sighed not wanting to argue since this was his last day here
"Okay whatever" I said going upstairs. I laid across his bed. I turned on CSI Miami and watched it for a while. I love august but sometimes he gets on my damn nerves.
Moments later he got in the bed with me and pulled me closer to him. I couldn't lie and say I didn't want to be in his arms but not today. I turned over and put my back facing him. He sighed
"Come on baby don't be like dat" he said hovering over me.
"Good night august" I said closing my eyes. I couldn't help but to feel like he wasn't telling me the truth. August dumb ass always lying
Friday-12:34pm-Ahmira-
I was sitting on the bed watching august pack. I was sad and mad at the same time. Yes. Yes I took my pills. I was watching him pack his suitcases and get dressed.
"Can't you leave tomorrow " I said folding my arms. He sighed
"Unfortunately baybah I can't" he said zipping up his suitcase. I pouted. "Don't start, ion need you crying befo I leave ma" he said kissing my forehead.
I am a very emotional person. I couldn't help it.
"Come on" he said reaching out his hand. I took it and got up and followed him downstairs. We went outside and stood there hugging each other while Big T got his other bags in the house
"I'm going to miss you" I said looking up him.
"Stop cryin mamas" he said wiping my face. I didn't even realize I was crying
"I'm sorry" I said looking down at my feet. He lifted my head and kissed my lips.
I seen big T bring his bags out and put them in the car.
"We gotta go aug" big T said getting in the car. I sighed and more tears fell down
"Please don't cry baybah" he said while i had my arms wrapped his waist. He wiped my face as I took a deep breath
"Okay okay" I said sniffling
"Ima call you everyday and text to check on you" he said. I nodded while holding him
"Make sho you take yo medicine and Eat mamas" he said. I nodded
"Okay I will" I said. He kissed my lips and let go of me. "Uh mira you gotta let go" he said chucking.
I dropped my arms and he kissed my forehead before walking to the car
"Remember Ight?" he said pointing towards my ring. I looked at it and smiled
"Okay I love you" I said as he got in
"I luh you foreva" he said pulling off.
I watched him drive out the front and I went back in the house. What am I suppose to do without my little soldier. I went to my counselor session this week and went to visit my grandmother yesterday. I looked through my contacts and seen nothing but Chris, Kenzie, Auggie and Chanel.
I groaned and decided to go to the studio. August taught my how to use it a little since he wouldn't be here to help me .
"Okay what's this " I said pressing a button. It immediately blew my ear drums. I quickly pressed the button again and it stopped
"Umm maybe I should call Chris" I said texting him
Text messages
Me: um I need help in the studio🙂
I waited for a couple of minutes until he texted back
Christopher: 😂 I'm on the way
I smiled and say my phone down. I laid back in the chair and thought for a moment about everything. I've been through a lot and I think about it everyday.
Overthinking was a thing I had to stop doing but when I'm alone that's all I do
"Wassup" Chris said walking in and sitting down
"How'd you get in here" I asked sitting up
"The security guard let me in. August gave him face pictures who's allowed to come in" he said shrugging and pulling himself up to the soundboard
"Of course he did" I said shaking my head
"What you need help with" he asked looking at me. Scooted closer
"Just the beat. August tried to teach me before he left but it's too many buttons" I said shrugging. He chuckled
"I'll teach you one day. But what type of beat you need " he asked . I thought for a moment then started humming a melody.
He started nodding his head to it then put everything together. He sat back and played the beat back and it was so smooth. Just what I wanted
"This is nice thank you" I said clapping
"No problem. Let me hear sum" he said nodding towards the booth.
I got up and went in putting my headphones on and adjusting the mic. I gave him a thumbs up and he played the beat. I pressed the headphones closer to my ears and closed my eyes
Three deep breaths
Ten steps backwards
Going backwards
Now I'm switchin' lanes
Tire marks
On my heart
It don't beat the same, no
I opened my eyes and felt the lyrics even more. I wanted to cry
Rest your weary heart
Dry your teary eyes
I know you are scarred
And torn apart inside
Darlin', so am I (Okay)
I seem Chris smiling which made me smile and continued singing
'Cause, baby, I was born tired
Getting more tired
As time passes me by, yeah
I'ma need more fire
Way, way more fire
So pass that thing my way
La-da-da-ah
Ha-ha-ha
Ha-ha-ha, yeah
It's been a long night
Long life, long time fighting
Let out a long sigh
Alright, why am I trying?
'Cause look at how far you have come
And look at all that you have going
Look at who have become
Baby, you gotta keep going
Ooh-oh, rest your weary heart
Dry your teary eyes
I finished the sing and came out the booth. I sat next to Chris and he played the song back. It was definitely a vibe and I loved it
"What made you sing this particular song" Chris asked. I shrugged
"I guess I just wanted to leave a message for myself and other little girls that's going through something " I said . He smiled and nodded
"We gotta work more often Mymy" he said . I rolled my eyes at the nickname he gave me.
"Well let's get to work" I said taking out my own and pad
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