Friday- 10:36am- Ahmira
I dragged myself out of bed and made myself work out this morning since I didn't have my pills I kept getting mad and sad at the smallest things. I didn't want it to take over. I used the inside gym to blow steam. I was running on the treadmill for about 30 minutes. I slowed it down and grabbed my towel that was hanging on the side.
"Shit you scared me" I said holding my chest
"My fault. You wasn't in bed and I was looking for you" august said sitting down on the bench
"Yeah I had to come here to blow off steam" I said wiping my face and sitting down in front of him
"Blow off steam? You okay?" He said looking at me. I rubbed my palms together because I didn't want to tell him I was getting depressed for no reason
"I'm okay" I said looking at him. He tilted his head to the side
"I'm for real. Talk to me" he said looking up at me. I took a deep breathe and played with my fingers ugh I have to stop doing when my nerves get bad
"Um I haven't took my pills since you found that bottle and I've been feel a little sad and depressed " I said trying not to cry. I felt him standing me up and he lifted my chin
"All you have to do is tell me so I can help. Ma I'm here to help you, we in dis together. You're not alone" he said.
I nodded biting down on my lip trying not to cry. He wrapped his arms around me and I immediately broke down. I cried in his arms a bit before pulling away.
"I'm okay I promise" I said wiping my face and putting a smile on it. He looked at me confused
"I'm sorry it's the episodes. I can go from crying to smiling in less than 2 seconds" I said sniffling.
"Don't apologize. Listen tell me whenever you feel like you finna have an episode Ight" he said. I nodded and he kissed my forehead.
He wrapped his arm around me and we walked to the kitchen.
"You hungry" he asked going in the fridge. I sat down and that's when everyone started coming in the kitchen
"Not really but I know you're going to make me something anyway" I said looking at him
"I'm glad you know" he said taking some eggs out the fridge. I played on my phone until Kenzie sat next to me
"You okay?" She said looking at me. I nodded my head and she smacked her lips
"Come on I know you better than that" she said. I looked up and seen everyone talking and august cooking
"I had an episode" I said looking at her. Her eyes turned sad
"Ahmira where's your pills" she whispered in my ear.
"They're empty but I promise I'm going to get them after the trip" I said. She nodded and rubbed my back
"What's up today" Chris said drinking the orange juice from the carton
"We are going to the club six" Kenzie said. I sighed not really wanting to go anywhere. August set my plate in front of me. I smiled and thanked him
He sat next to me and I took a bite of the eggs and French toast. It was really good
"getcho nasty ass lips of the carton bruh" august told Chris. I laughed And Chris flicked august off
"I definitely wanna go to the club" tiara said sitting in Dave's lap.
"Yeah I'm down" Dave said. I just sat there eating my French toast. August leaned in my ear
"You wanna go" he asked and I shook my head No
"Me and Mira staying" august said. Kenzie shook her head
"Um nope nope y'all going" Kenzie said looking at me. I knew she was doing this so I wouldn't be sad anymore. I looked at her
"Okay fine" I said eating my eggs.
"We don't have to go if you don't want to ma" august said in my ear.
"It's fine she won't let up" I said. He nodded his head.
"Aye bruh what happened to you last night? We was waiting on yo ass" Dave asked august.
"I wasn't feelin it no moe" august said waving them off. I laughed a little
"Nah his ass was too busy in some pussy" Chris said. August mugged him. He put his hands up
We got up and went upstairs to start getting ready since it would take everyone a while. Me and august took a shower together to kill time. We got out and I did my makeup. I straighten my hair while august was in the bathroom brushing his teeth.
"August you have a text" I said to him as his phone start going off.
"Look at it for me ma" he shouted from the bathroom.
I took a deep breath and looked at it for a while. I didn't want to have to beat his ass before we go to the club. I picked it up and seen it was just tiara sending him stuff about his label.
"It's tiara sending stuff about the label" I shouted.
"Thanks ma" he shouted back. I swiped off the message and seen it was his search browser. I looked at it and it read:
"How to help someone with Bipolar Depression"
"Signs of Bipolar Depression episodes"
I smiled at the phone and held my heart. August was so sweet. It's just the little things like this that makes my heart flutter. I locked his phone and set it down. I tear tried to escape my eye but I fanned it away. I was not tryna ruin this makeup.
August came out and started getting dress. I looked through my suitcase and found this shear bodysuit that covered certain parts. I put that on and some black heels. I looked in the mirror and it was giving body.
"Damn ma you look good" he said kissing my neck. I smiled
"Thanks babe, you look fine as always" I said as he stepped back so I can admire his outfit
I grabbed my purse and made my way downstairs to see Chris and Kenzie. I looked at Kenzie and she looked hood as always.
"Hey girl you look good asf" Kenzie said as I twirled and sat down next to her
"You look good to" I said. I looked over at Chris and I can tell Kenzie picked out his outfit
We sat and talked. I laid my head on august shoulder as I engaged in the conversation here and there. I felt august hand sometimes rub my thigh. That was his way of comforting me. Just then Dave came down. His fit was fire, and I expect the timberland boots.
I looked over at Tiara and she was so adorable. I couldn't picture her doing anything we do. She looked so innocent
I looked over everyone and we all looked so good.
"Y'all bitches ready to shake that ass all mf night" Kenzie shouted getting up and twerk a little. I laughed
"Shakin dat ass on me all night" Chris said grabbing her waist.
We got yo and made our to the cab. The girls rode in one car and the guys rode in the other. august was skeptical because our driver was a male so he FaceTimed me all the way there.
We got out and made our way in the club. August called and said we were coming so got a private section bar dj booth. This club was interesting. The dj booth wasn't in the floor but looking over above the stage as the strippers stripped.
It brought back memories and I really wanted to see if I could still do a couple of trips. I think I'm going to do classes just because.
They started playing Chris, Dave , and August songs here and there. I seen Chris cutting up so Kenzie started taking pictures of him.
"You look good asf bae" she said licking her lips.
They stayed making out like always. They started playing me and Kenzie song
I had some problems back home (so I heated up)
I ain't with that bullshit at all (then I laid it down)
Maybe it's that Virginia in me (nigga say something)
Have a young nigga go so hard
August started singing in my ear as I whined my hips against him. He turned me around with a henny bottle in his hand and lifted it up to let me drive the boat. I tilted my head back as he lured the liquor in my mouth. It burned as first until august tongue kissed me
"You tryna get me drunk" I said. He smiled
"I want you to have a good time" he said. I smiled and kissed his lips
"And maybe drunk to. You get nasty when you drunk ma" he said in my ear. I playfully pushed him and started back dancing.
Live an expensive life and I'm just getting started
I get instant hype cause you forever my lady
Forever my baby (real life)
Hold you down, hold you down
I smiled as he continued to sing to me. I guess this was part of his love language because he loved doing it without me even asking. I bent over and august faked like he was humpin me. I laughed because he was so freaky it's ridiculous. I looked over at Kenzie and her and Chris was showing out. I'm glad I came out tonight instead of being in bed with august and crying all night.
We continued dancing as they kept playing every one music. They started playing another one of August and Chris songs
A nigga back with this motherfuckin' remix (remix)
And we about to kill this shit
See I went and got a little help
To get the whole club poppin' like Freaknik
'Cause we got Rozay, a little Bombay,
Chris and august went behind the dj booth and sung the song while me and Kenzie were singing in the background supporting our man's as we should.
I looked over and seen tiara giving Dave a lap dance. They were definitely going to have a kid tonight. I turned to see Trey came out of no where to sing his verse
She said she just got her some titties
(She said she just got her some titties)
Can't wait till' I come to her city
(Can't wait till' I come to her city)
I stopped dancing when I seen august clenching the mic in his hand. I walked up to him and seen him mugging trey.
"Babe you okay" I asked him. I seen Chris look between the two and set his mic down. Wtf was happening
All I seen was august punched trey in the middle of his verse. I stepped back caught off guard. Dave came out of no where and started to break it up. I seen some of trey people come out of no where and started helping fight august.
Chris started helping august. Dave gave up on breaking it up and started swinging too. It was so many, So I took off my heels and helped my man. I fought niggas all the time so this didn't faze me.
Out of no where I felt a huge dude picked me up off my feet and along with everyone else and put us out. He put me down and I was mad because I was helping my man. I swung at the bodyguard and connected to his jaw.
That's when I felt august arms around me and pulled me into the cab. Everyone piled into the cab sitting in there mates laps. The car ride was filled with heavy breathing and hissing. We got to the house and everyone got out
"You okay" I asked Kenzie. She nodded and headed in the kitchen to get frozen packs. Everyone was tended to their mates.
August sat down in kitchen as I got a hot towel and wiped the bruise under his eye, he hissed.
"Sorry" I said lightly wiping it and putting ice on it. August took my hand and looked at it
"Ma yo hand" he said. I looked down and it was swollen with a few cuts
"It's fine. I can't even feel it" I said taking my hand away
"My lil Soulja. Punching niggas and shit fa ma" he said laughing like the situation was funny
"Yeah Laila Ali" Chris said as Kenzie cleaned his face off.
"Where yo lil ass learn how to fight" Dave asked as Tiara put a ice pack on his lip. I shrugged
"I learned on my own. Especially since I had this bully in elementary" I said as I put a ice pack on my hand. I sat down next to august
"Why you hit him anyway" I asked august.
"That Nigga a bitch. He knew what he was doing comin behind that booth" august said
"Why dat Nigga hea out of all places anyway" Dave said. August shrugged
"It don't matta. Y'all gotta start gettin along anyways for yo tour coming up" Chris said. I looked at august and he was shaking his head
"What tour august" I said confused.
"Shit my bad I thought you told ha already" Chris said
"Hello?" I said looking at him
"I'm going on tour in a couple of weeks to promote my new label" he said. I looked at him
"And you didn't think to tell me this" I said looking at him.
"Wait does that mean you're going to" Kenzie said to Chris.
"Surprise" he said sarcastically.She rolled her eyes and went upstairs
"Babe" he shouted getting up and following her
"We just gonna...you know" Tiara said grabbing Dave's hand.
"How long did you know this august" I asked turning my attention back to him
"For about a month now" he said. I scoffed and got up
"Baby you can even get mad. We wasn't talking when I found out" he said.
"You're right but you could've told me that night we had sex or even the next day. I wouldn't even been that mad" I said. He nodded
"I know ma and I'm sorry. It just slipped my mind. I missed being around you and I wasn't thinkin bout that tour" he said grabbing my hands
"Okay I forgive you" I said as he kissed my lips and we made our way upstairs.
"So how long are you going to be gone? A month?" I said taking off my make up
"3 months" he said lowly. I turned around slowly
"Huh" I said trying to make sure I heard him right
"3 months" he said scratching the back of his neck.
"August" I whined. I did not want to be away from him that long. That month was enough for me
"I know mamas. But I promise to FaceTime you before I go to sleep and when I wake up. Plus send you text when I get the Chance" he said. I sighed
"But that's not the same as being under you" I said looking down at my feet.
"I know but it's going to feel like I'm there. I promise" he said lifting up my chin.
I wanted to cry at the thought of august not holding me every night. I felt safe and secure in his arms. What am I going to do for 4 months?
"Okay. Promise?" I said sticking out my pinky. He smiled and linked his pinky with mines. We kissed the end of our hands and kissed each other lips to seal the promise
"I promise" he said kissing my forehead
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the august pictures are you going to be a little old due to me changing his age a little and he doesn't really take full body pictures like that anymore so yeah bare with me when it comes to him
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