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"Moon!" Landon calls after me as I quickly walk out of class.
Ever since Draco and I have broken up, he's been more obnoxious and clingy. He did like me beforehand and I knew that but I was unsure of my feelings then.
I just shouldn't rush into a relationship when I just ended one.
It's not right.
I need to move on by my own terms and not by someone who's had feelings for me prior to my breakup.
"You are so needy, Draco" I hear Katherine say in a playful voice as I walk by them.
God, I hate her.
The way she innocently looks up at him.
The way his name rolls off her tongue so sweetly.
"I know you love it."
Fuck them.
I know they're just putting on a show.
Although I did hate him, I couldn't help but watch. For the past few weeks that's all I've been doing, secretly watching him from afar or when his back was turned.
It wasn't like he's the one that broke up with me. I broke up with him. I'm allowed to watch him even though I don't like him anymore.
Maybe I'm trying to convince myself that I don't but what's the matter? It's not like I'm acting on anything.
Still, I hate the both of them.
And you know what's the best way to make someone mad?
A little jealousy.
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"Are you almost done with all the snacks?" I asked Victoria who carried trays of food to a table.
The best way to make someone jealous was to either fuck their ex or throw a party and fuck with their minds. But since I already did the first option, I guess I'll go with the second one.
"This is the last of the food," she responds. "I'm all done and everyone should be arriving in a little bit."
This was perfect.
The decorations were perfect.
The music was perfect.
The food was perfect.
I just needed the people.
"The star of the party is here!" says Pansy who walked in and was already tipsy from a few drinks that I can only guess was from Pronia.
It wasn't great that she was already drinking, but at least she knew how to get the party started.
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"Can you believe we pulled this off with no planning?" I say to Victoria as we both dance together to the music. This night was going perfectly so far; there were no fights or Draco yet.
"Honestly I like this party better than our other ones." she admits, a small giggle escapes the crack of her lips as she smiles.
Victoria looked so beautiful especially in the purplish blue party lights. She was wearing a tight glittery blue dress that complimented her body well. I noticed some guys staring at her and one even asked her to dance but she refused, even after I tried to make her.
She is literally the love of my life, I don't know what I'd do without her.
"You're so perfect you know that, V?" I joke, tilting my head as my lips curve into a sweet smile.
"I know I am," she laughs.
I love Victoria, she always knows how to brighten up my day.
"I'm gonna go get a drink, you want anything?" I ask as I stop dancing. She shakes her head as she continues and I slowly walk away from her.
Everything was great in that moment, it was sort of peaceful and calm; other than the loud music. The lights moving and swaying with the beat we're like waves on a beach. Everyone was having their own moments together.
I checked all the bottles before finding the bottle of Pronia. My favorite.
I remember when I first had it, before I gained a tolerance for the beverage.
"Woah there, you might want to ease up on that, my love." A familiar sounding voice murmurs.
Landon.
"I think Imm fine, Landon. But thank you."
Hesitantly turning I look up to face those striking blue eyes. He was sweet and was surprisingly always there for me.
"You enjoying the party so far?" he asks, ignoring my response to what he had said previously. A cup raises up to the opening of his mouth as he takes a sip of a drink. "I may have had too many drinks, but this party is fun!"
Too many drinks? So that's why he was talking to me.
He was drunk.
"Actually I'm really proud of the turnout, especially last minute. Though, I wish some other people were here." I admit as I take a drink of the Pronia.
It tasted different this time.
"Who? Draco?" he scoffs.
That almost made me jump at his words which had formed a jealous tone. His eyes darkened with the mention of him as if he were a sensitive topic.
"You know," he starts, looking up at the DJ playing the music while he sips more of his drink that I can only guess was his tenth cup of alcohol. "I could distract you from him, take you away from here and all this madness. Just so you wouldn't have to worry about him."
He looks back at me with a comforting look and his lips curve into a tiny grin which I've only seen when his eyes meet mine.
"I trust you."
With that, we take a full bottle of Pronia and leave. A fourth year yells at us as we run out the door but it's not like it really matters.
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We continue walking until we meet up at the astronomy tower.
Mine and Draco's old place.
Old.
"Have you been up here much?" he asks, looking out at the view. He loves the stars almost as much as I do. The sincerity in his voice and the passionate look in his eyes as he looks out at the night sky is astonishing.
"All the time," I respond with a little hint of red forming on my cheeks.
I walk over to stand in front of him and the railing. I had a tiny anxious feeling in my stomach but it's not like we would fall down and die.
Right?
He looks down at me and snickers, closing his eyes in joy as he turns away. His teeth shine brightly with the smile he gives me.
"Let's play truth or dare, Moon." he suggests, "Just me and you."
He opens the bottle of Pronia and hands it to me.
"You go first, I'll ask." he states.
I grab the bottle in my hands and take a big gulp. The liquid burns down my throat asks he asks the question. I look up at him with a nervous glance.
I choose truth.
"Are you still in love with Draco?" he questions, staring deeply into my eyes as if they were begging me to answer the question.
"I choose dare." I quickly reply.
"Take your top off, but take another drink before you do." he demands with a sly smirk.
I reluctantly follow what he said and stay sitting down staring back into his eyes which have now lowered down to my breasts.
"Your turn, truth or dare?" I ask in which he doesn't respond. Landon just keeps staring down at my shirtless body.
"Truth."
"What's something you've been dying to tell me?" I ask as my eyes continue to gaze into his.
He stares at me blankly for a few seconds as if he's trying to think of something to say. Landon looks down at the floor before taking a large breath and looking back up at me again.
"Your boyfriend, or rather your ex boyfriend now; he isn't good enough for you. You deserve more than someone who's going to dump you for your enemy. Someone who will treat you right. A person like me who will give up anything just for you to look in my direction." he confesses, looking at me as if he needed me to answer before he continues again.
"He won't be that person. At the end of the day, I will always be there for you. I will always comfort you. I will always defend you. I would give up the world and more just to have the opportunity to kiss you, my love. Don't you see? I'm the one."
What. The. Fuck.
I knew he had feelings for me before but this was on another level. I never knew it was this much. Of course he meant it, he wouldn't be saying all this if he didn't.
I just didn't have any feelings for him right now. Well obviously he's sweet and he cares for me, but I'm not ready to get into a committed relationship at the moment.
Yes, it's been a few months and it's almost Christmas time again, but it really isn't the time for another relationship.
"Look Landon, I think you're really kind and I love how much you put an effort into talking to me, but I'm not ready for a relationship." I finally reply.
As soon as I said something, Landon looked at me as if I had just broken his heart. I might have, but I don't need to love him.
"I wasn't asking you out. I was just answering the question, Moon."
Now he switches up?
I grab the bottle of Pronia and down another few gulps before looking up at him, a little more intoxicated than before. He gives me a small smirk implying that it is my turn to go.
"Truth."
"What's the real reason you don't want to be with me?" he questions.
Why do all the questions have to be about him?
"I already told you before, Landon." I sigh, grabbing the bottle to take another sip. He was really starting to irritate me now.
He looks down at me as his head shakes back and forth in disappointment.
"You're still in love with Draco. You're so in love with him that you're afraid of getting in a commitment with anyone else." Landon states, he was completely correct.
I didn't know what to do or say, so I just close my mouth and look down at the bottle.
What is someone even supposed to say to that?
"You've been hurt so much by him in the past, that you won't let anyone get close to you like that again in fear of getting hurt again. Am I wrong?" he finished.
He wasn't completely wrong.
I look back up at him in shame before grabbing the bottle, my shirt, and standing up. He stands up in front of me, almost as if he's trying to shield me from leaving.
"I don't like that the questions are only about each other. That's not how truth or dare works." I say softly before putting my shirt back on.
He points at the bottle before taking it from my hands and taking a few big drinks.
"Let's play it your way then. I choose truth."
We both sat back down across from each other as the Pronia bottle stood in between us. I gave him a small smile before taking another drink and speaking again.
"What's your biggest regret?"
"When I was in fourth year, one of my best friend's was a muggleborn, there were these kids who harassed her so I waved my wand and said if they came near her again they'll be cursed. They stopped harassing her but we stopped being friends a few months later." he states as he looks out into the night sky.
Why was he looking out to the sky? There was no reason to unless she-
"Did she die?"
He slowly snaps his face towards mine before shaking his head, letting out an exasperated sigh as he looks down.
"She thought I was in love with her when she was a lesbian." he admits. "I told her I wasn't but she never believed me."
There wasn't much else to say to that. Besides, this was getting boring and I need some action.
"Let's go back to the party, I'm sure the people I'm expecting are already there." I exclaim as I snatch the bottle and start to make my way down the stairs.
"Wait for me!"