Alexsandras pov
I woke up feeling as if someone put some weights in my head.and now my head feel heavy.
,hmm..must be from all that crying last night.thinking about that make eyes weld up I my eyes.
No no you can't cry
You are stronger than this
Don't cry
After calmi g down I got up went for a shower and did my morning routine.
my phone buzzed notifying me that I received a message.i look at the ID the see demon's name.
D: hey I was wondering if we could hang out today.
Yes sure :A
D: my parents are not going g tolet me bring friends over.you know what happpend.maybe we could do it at your place.
D: or if you parents are still strict then maybe at the safe house.
D: or if you don't want to hang out with me that's fine ......or maybe its fine am sorry to bother you ....don't hate ..
Since my parents aren't home we:A
would and plus I don't hate you you my bestfrie d and stop it Co e over and we will talk
D: thx lessa see you at 1 ...bye
After talking to him I walked out of my room and made my way I to the kitchen.
They all stop talking when they saw me.i rolled my eyes and went to take a seet next to alexsandro.
" you can't sit here "I took in a deep breath as he was holding my arm pressing on my freshly made cuts.he looked at me in anger and tighten his grip.
" let go" I said and I turn my hand under him and pull my hand out.
This week was a free week for the maids.so we had to make out own food.
I took a whole lemon and squeeze it to make some juice ,don't mind me I love lemon.
No you like the fact that it will make you feel dizzy and / or tired or even pass out.
Shut up
I made some bacon and eggs and sat down athe end of the table since those motherfuckers won't let me sit next to them.
After that I made my way to my room ,I took my sewing kit and started designing my new dress.
I love fashion.
Maybe one day would open my own company. How amazing will that be.
I started feeling dizzy so I went and took a short nap.
I wome up to my phone ringing.i pick it up ready to kill the person who think he could distribute my sleep.
" what " I sneerd angrily
" I am almost there" Damons tired voice said
" heyysorry I was sleeping..you know how I get when some one woke me up"
" yeah it's all good "he said
I ended the call and got up and freshen up.i went downstairs see Lucien coming out of the office from downstairs.
He glared at me and I glared back returning the favour.
Our stare contest was cut off by the door bell. finally.
I went and opened the door ,before I could react I was engulf into a hug.
" good to see you too demon" my voice came out muffled.he laugh it off.
" who the fuck is that"i look behind d me to see all the cangas.
Seriously not the right time .
"I didn't know that you had company" Damon awkwardly said.
" demon meet my brothers "
" guys meet demon I mean damon"
All my brothers loo,Ed at me with disgust. Am confuse wh—
"Aren't you ashamed of yourself " alexsandro said
" your an attention seeking whore "
" those kind of stuf are no pt appropriate.....tell him to leave now " Lucien said no more like ordered.
I rolled my eyes " he's my friend and we just want to hang out "
" for God's sake you dont even care so why the fuck are you pretending to"with that I dragg him to my room.
"You have a lot of explaing to do" Damon said with a rised eye brow.
" OK...so I went to a dinner with my parents old friends I mean that's what they told me ,so when I went there I saw the Italian Mafia and was confuse since my parents never shown some sort of illegal stuff . When I return home the next day I heard them arguing and that's how I discover that they are my brothers" I finished off.
" and you didn't think of telling me " he said looking slightly hurt.
"you already had so much going g on I didn't want to burden you" I looked down
" next time tell me OK...am always here for you"i looked at him to see adoration in his eyes.
I noded" so what about that hang out" I said trying to cheer him up.
He smirked and went in my closet as if its own and come back with MY FOOD STACH.
" come you can always buy more ". I rolled my eyes at his childness.
We went on the bed and he layed on his stomach while sit like a normal person does.
I put on Netflix and put demon slayer since we both love it.
" so will you tell me what happened "I ask asked him.
He looked at me shock"i..ummm..parents "I neded in repond
" hey what came first the egg other chicken " he asked
"chicken?"I think
He shook his head telling me no.
"if the chickencame first then how did it come into the world"
I looked at him unamused. then he started laughing like an idiot he is.
The door burst open and most of the boys stood their.
I raised an eyebrow at them "what are you two doing" Antonio said.
Damon and I looked at each other in disgust, we both see each other as sibling well when he is not beening an idiot.
Then I glared at them" what the fuck makes you think that "I said angrily
"well he's a boy and ......." alexsandro started explaining
" So what if he's he's boy uh "I sneerd at them
They glared at me and then left. What's their problem,
The rest of the day Damon and I watch netflix and stop every few mins cause he always heve something to say.
Damon left a half an hour ago and now we are having dinner like normal people well as normal they can get with abusing no they don't they just hurt me ...yeah
Stop lying to yourself......
Well it's not that—
You don't want to belive that they actually hate you
Stop
Nobody will ever love you
Stop lying to yourself even your own brothers hate you
Worthless
Your a disappointment
You should kill yourself it will br easier for everyone
" our life should have been like this ........just our parents and us ......you shouldn't even been born"
Your a burden for everyone
Always troubling everyone with your problems
" ALEXSANDRA"
I look up at Lucien who look angrier than ever
See you even can't make your brothers happy.
"why is your hands shaking like crazy" alexsandro noticed I look up at all of the to see them staring at me.
It was starting to get hard to breath.
Your useless
Wortless
Nobody care
Go die
Why are you pretending to be broken or whatever....your no longer the girl I remember no longer my best friend dwhat I remember
You are worthless
I got up to go to my room but it was hard since my hand and feet were shaking.
Nobody love you
Your just a usage to everyone
Nobody cares
I look up at my brothers
"What's happening"
" the fuck"
" alexsandra what happening"
" attention seeker"
"Yeah"
My stomach clenched, my head starting to get heavy, and it was getting harder to breath
Nobody cares, your mother still hates you hate your father still hate and doesn't trust you , Your brothers you why would anyone love you
You are a mistake, why are you even alive
Black dots started to cloud my vision.and the last thing I remember is chairs falling.