"What the fuck is that Amara!" Madeline screams. She points to a bug on her window.
"It's a bug," I tell her. She is backing up into me," I'm trying to drive."
She then takes off her heel and starts hitting the bug.
"Okay, it's dead." She said with relief.
"Yes, and you almost broke my fucking window."
She rolled her eyes. Then we both broke out laughing. We pulled up to the mall.
We both got out.
The mall was packed today. Many people were here. I didn't know why, it was literally a Monday at 12.
We entered the shop and started looking.
I wanted something fall colored. I don't wanna show up in some pink or teal shit.
We looked around for a while. Then I found something.
"Okay, so I have a few options but I don't know." Madeline comes up to me," I fucking hate all of these events. Waste of my time and money."
I started laughing. She flicks me off.
She walked into the changing room. She took a while, like what the hell was she putting on.
Then she came out.
She looked magical. It fit her body perfectly.
"So, what do you think," she asked.
"If you weren't with Carlo, I would so go for you," I said with a wink,"You look amazing Madeline."
She smiled so big.
"Okay, now yours." She jumped up a little. She was to excited for this.
I went into the changing room. I didn't know about the dress.
I kinda just stood there. Not really doing much. I looked at my choice in dress. It was gold.
I think it will look good on me, I hope. Every since the incident, I haven't really been feeling myself. I don't see myself in the same way.
I look in the mirror and I just don't see the same girl.
I put on the dress and zipped it up. I walked out, and Madeline gave me a big smile.
"Amara, you look beautiful."
I looked down at the floor and back up at her. The dress was very comfortable.
We decided on our dresses and bought them. We went back to the car.
She drove this time. We had no places to be. We drove around for a while.
Then Madeline said she was hungry, so she went to some drive thru. I got a chicken meal and she got a burger one.
We sat in the parking lot and ate in my car. We talked the whole time. Joking about the boys. She told me stories about them.
It was all great. I had some genuine funny. Madeline is actually a really good friend.
She was sweet but wasn't overly nice. She stood up for herself but didn't become overconfident. I liked that about her.
"So, how are you doing since everything?" She asked me but it wasn't out of curiosity, it was out of concern.
"As good as I can be, I guess." My voice softened.
"It's better than nothing," she said.
I kinda didn't know how I am. In all honesty, I think we have learned I don't know shit.
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Dinner was great. No sudden outbreaks or tears. I went straight to my room after.
Alejandro isn't here right now. He said he had some business tonight, I didn't ask any questions. Every since I told him I love him, he hasn't spoke much to me. I knew that I made a mistake.
I felt like what I was feeling was a mistake. I regret everything now. He didn't say it back.
I thought he loved me, I really did. I guess I was wrong. He didn't love me, but I do love him.
I suddenly took my bedside table lamp and threw it at the wall. I was fucking pissed at myself. I was stupid. I had fallen for a man who showed me a little attention.
Then my door flys open. Guns in the air.
"What the fuck Amara!" Carlo scream when he saw the lamp on the floor.
"What?!" I shouted back at him. He looked stunned.
"Why would you do that?" Mattia asked me.
"I was mad, like you all have not done worse." Some of them were mad, others had faces filled with pity, and then the ones who looked like they saw a ghost.
They didn't move. It was weird.
"Just get out, all of you just go away." I demanded of them.
"No," Emiliano spoke up," You are hurting and expect us to walk away. Dante died in your arms, that hurt you. Then you were fucking raped and that broke you. You don't want help, fine, we won't help. Don't ever expect us to just leave you be when you are obviously fucking dying on the inside. Family is more then the DNA we share. I expected more from you, I understand your hurting but what the fuck Amara."
Emiliano went off. I have never seen him so angry. I didn't appreciate he fucking attitude.
"Shut the fuck up, you asshole" I screamed and threw my remote at him.
It hit him in the face and he was livid. I was mad. I don't like that word, rape. It may be true but I still can't stand it. It brings chills to my spine.
"What the hell, you can't except the truth." He keeps shouting. I just wanted them to leave.
"You have no right using that word. You have no idea what happened, you can only assume. So, shut the fuck up and all of you get out of my damn room." Emiliano went from livid to concerned.
"We know what happened." He said in a sincere voice.
They knew, I already knew that. I just didn't want it to be reality.
"You really don't," I started crying. I couldn't help it. The memories came flooding back and I couldn't shut them out.
Emiliano ran to me. Holding me, my held naturally went into his chest.
I wished I couldn't remember anything. I prefer to be oblivious to it all. I wish those drugs were fucking stronger.
"It will be okay Amara." Emiliano told me.
It wasn't going to be okay untill he is dead. I won't be okay untill I kill him.
That is how my night ended. In his arms, with a teared stained face.
That is the end of Chapter 29 of Dépaysement. I hope you enjoyed. With love Alivia ❤️