Chapter Twelve
Heart Monitor
Ray’s POV
It’s twelve thirty in the morning; I sat in the waiting room of the hospital for Mikey as they gave him and examination. Mikey told the doctor that the panic attack happened randomly and that he wasn’t sure what or who caused it, which I know was a total lie because he looked at me and gave me a face as if I was guilty or something. I don’t care as long as Mikey was alive and breathing properly.
I was tired, on the verge of sleep; the doctor asked Mikey if he wanted me in there while he was getting check out. He said no, I guess just in case the found something bad in his lungs or heart and he didn’t want me to worry too much.
As soon as I was about to shut my eyes, the doctor came out, he had to be in his 40’s, he had on a white pharmacist coat with a name tag that reads “Dr. Rimaz “ and his black hair was smooth down. He looked utterly tired and very rude. He gave me looked at me with a stern face and said “Mr. Way is going to be fine, he just had a little scare that made his heart rate rise….”
I smiled to the good news and stood up “So he can go home now right?”
“Uh…yeah you can…I recommend that he stays overnight since this is a rather serious matter…but he can leav-“ I cut Dr. Rimaz off
“Whoa whoa whoa wait…very serious? How can a simple panic attack be serious?” I asked. Mikey gets panic attacks all the time, how is this one any different from the others he has.
“Well you see Mr. Toro sir, Mr. Way has a lot of stress that’s been on him lately which may be causing pressure on him. I’m afraid of what his little panic attacks will cause if this keeps going on. It could lead to a heart attack or a stroke…so if he is going home, he needs to wear a heart monitor bracelet around his left arm just to alert him that he is pushing it and needs to calm down. He has to come back to me in two days so I can review his monitor and remove it from him. The monitor will alert him if he gets to stressed, angry, or a little too excited. Is that okay Mr. Toro?”
I looked away, the words Heart attack, and stroke stuck out at me, I didn’t know Mikey was that seriously ill. If I knew that then damn…I don’t know what I would do. All I know is that if he dies I die with him.
“Mr. Toro…” Dr. Rimaz repeated, “Oh yeah Dr. Rimaz …that’s fine…I mean shouldn’t you be telling Mikey and not me?” I said, getting a little annoyed with him excluding Mikey from his own health problems.
“Ah yes well I wanted to assure it was okay with you since you brought Mr. Way in and I don’t have his medical record or anything so I just wanted to ask you first since you are his well one of his guardians.”
“One of his guardians…I’m sorry doctor but with all due respect Mikey is not a child and he doesn’t have Guardians…Treat him like he needs to be treated…like an adult…Don’t tell me what he needs, you tell him what he needs, he knows his body better than I could ever know. Now stop being so damn retarted and go fix my bo-my friend thank you!”
Dr. Rimaz looked at me with wide eyes. “I-I’m sorry I offended you sir, it was really plutonic…I will go fix your friend right away.” He said, looking at me kinda confused and walking back into the room.
I sat back down in the chair; I was so tired that I could feel I wasn’t in any mood to fuck around.
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The car ride back was at first generally quiet. It was just me and him; we had to drive about over 700 miles to get back to the hotel. The only hospital they had was down in the country side. Gerard, Frank, and Bob thought it would be better if I only went to get Mikey because they didn’t want him to be too stressed out. I turned to Mikey, he looked relevantly tired as fuck and a little aggravated.
“Are you okay Mikey?” I asked, hoping to make conversation.
He shook his head “yeah I’m just bummed that I have to wear this thing for 2 days, it’s kind of stupid if you ask me” he said, gesturing to the heart monitor.
I quickly glanced at the monitor and smiled “Mikey it’s not stupid, it’s keeping you alive and well okay. And it’s making sure you never ever leave me. I love you Mikey and I want you alive”
I turned to face him briefly; he was looking down, trying to hide the on growing smile that appeared on his face. “Really Ray you mean that?” He asked sincerely.
“Yes, ever since the day we met, you just sparked up emotions in me…emotions I never thought I could feel towards anyone again. Mikey, at first I’mma admit it, I was scared to like you I was scared to fall in love with you actually but I did and I honestly don’t regret it. I mean yeah you know I love Christa to but Mikey Way I can honestly say, you are the light that keeps me pushing on.” I replied, trying to focus on the road.
This time I could hear Mikey kind of giggle. I could tell he was blushing because the way he tried to look away.
“Ray, that’s all I ever wanted to hear you say” he said, kissing my check and sitting back down in the passenger seat. “Ray, why did you run off the stage?” he asked suddenly out of nowhere
I sighed, although I completely put it behind me, I really didn’t want to relive that night…the jealousy I felt.
“Honestly…I was jealous of yours and Frank’s chemistry together and then when he kissed you neck it just…I just losted it Mikey…and I know if I didn’t walk of you wouldn’t be here right now. I’m sorry Mikey...”
Mikey stared at me intensely, “Ray, Frankie and me…we were just stage gaying it up for the fans, it didn’t mean anything okay. I don’t love Frank I love you, and honestly, as much as I love Frankie…I wish it was you up there basically mutilating and taking over my body not him.”
I laughed, trying to hide the discomforting awkwardness when he said mutilating and taking over his body. Although I know he was kidding, I just wish we could. I mean I wish I could share that moment with him but…I don’t know…
“Mikey, I wish it were me too.” I said giving him a halve smile.
Mikey laughed and looked at me “Well…why wish…went we could actually…try”
My eyes wander to his, he wasn’t kidding he was serious. What about Christa, I couldn’t do that to her. “M-Mikey…” I said before he cut me off, pressing his lips hard against mine making me forget what I was about to say and what I was doing.
The car swerved a little, I pulled away and grabbed control of the wheel. “M-Mikey don’t do that, you could have caused me to c-crash” I stammered on.
Mikey smiled and looked out the window, “Ha Ha Come on Ray…we’re both tired and we need sleep, and we got 100’s of miles to go before we get to or original hotel. Let’s just get a hotel here for the night and crashed there okay?”
“I don’t know Mikey, your brothers going to be worried.” I looked down at my phone and noticed that I had 12 missed calls, all from Gerard, probably asking if Mikey was okay. I decide to text him back
“Yeah Gerard he’s fine, we’re heading back now.”
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I pressed Mikey hard against the king sized bed in the room, kissing him passionately and deep, sitting on top of him. Our shirts laid somewhere off on the distant floor .He ran his fingers up my hips and across my chest. I bit my lip, to stop the accruing moan from being too loud.
He brought my face back down to his and kissed me hard, pressing his tongue against my teeth and eventually down my throat. His eagerness and willingness was evident when he draped his arms around my neck and pulled me down on him fast. I started kissing and biting his neck, not getting any reactions until I moved down and bit the right side of his neck. He moaned loud, I gripped his sides tightly as I continued to hit his secret hotspot.
“Ray” He asked
“Hmm!”I sat up on him and looked down at him
“Do you actually think Gerard will get mad if we don’t get to the original hotel tonight?”
I laid back on top of him, my bare chest clashing with his making both of us moan in sync.
“I don’t know…we’ll tell him we were in traffic or something. Don’t worry about it okay, let’s just get away from all the band drama and focus on our drama.” I said with a smile, reaching my hand down and unbuttoning his pants, then reaching into his boxers and grabbing his ‘personal friend.’
Mikey blushed from insecurities and looked away. “Mikey Way you are absolutely beautiful” I said kissing his lips and smiling before taking my hand and stroking his boner. Listening to the powerful moans and groans he lets off.
We heard a beeping noise coming out of the heart monitor to signal to us that Mikey was getting overly excited, but we didn’t really care. We both knew and we didn’t stop, we wanted it t be the best night we would have regardless what the bastered of a doctor says.