It was the next morning, and I looked a mess. Annalise for some reason decided to continually cry which then woke up the other two, I hadn’t slept a wink, and now, I looked like the walking dead,
To make it even harder, there was no one here with me. No Niall…No Harry… I didn’t really want his company, but I just wanted to talk to someone. For someone to know what it felt like to look after three crying babies, to know how it feels to give up your life, to change who you are…
I sat on the window seat staring at their cots with wide vacant eyes, I could vaguely see the sun starting to shine through the thin curtains, it was dawn,
Two hours later and I was sat like a zombie with Annalise cradled in my arms, she’d been crying again, I changed her, did everything I could do. But in all fairness, she was a baby, crying is what babies do,
Breathing in deeply, I waited as the house became alive, I heard the boys surface, they went downstairs, then I heard the bell ring downstairs and the girls’ high voices. From where I was I could hear their laughter, their happiness. It was safe to say that I was almost green with envy,
There was a light tap on the bedroom door, Danielle peeped inside. “Can I come in?” She asked with her warm smile,
“Sure,” I tried to return her smile, but my face was so worn and tired, it probably looked like I was possessed by some kind of devil,
“You look awful,” Danielle gasped, “I didn’t mean to sound rude,” She murmured, Danielle was so beautiful as the light hit her, her long hair was clean and curly. Her skinny blue jeans clung to her thin legs and her top showed off her tall figure. Even on a bad day, if there ever was one. She’s be flawless,
“Don’t worry about it,” I whispered finding the energy to talk harder than normal,
“Have you seen this?” Danielle showed me a magazine, shaking my head, I exchanged Annalise who started to cry for a magazine, “You’re on the cover,” She tapped it, I saw my face on the cover, I was with Ed, “And on the first page,”
Turning to the first page, it was me with Harry yesterday, “Well they picked this up quickly didn’t they,” I sighed,
“What happened?”
“We just had an argument, long story short, I went one way he went the other. He came back here, and I went out with Ed for a while…”
Annalise started to cry again, I looked at Danielle with wide eyes, she shook her head, “Go to bed, I can take care of this,”
I gulped and stood up, “I’ll take a shower and get dressed. I’ll be back ten minutes tops,” I told her, I could tell by the look on Danielle’s face that she didn’t think me not going to bed was a good idea, but I knew that by the look of me, she wasn’t going to start an argument that she would definitely lose,
Walking back to my room, my legs were stiff, I saw Louis emerge from his room with Eleanor, the two of them smiled, Louis waved. Not bothering to even try and smile back, I nodded my head miserably in their direction before leaving into my own room,
I took my clothes into the bathroom with me so that I could be quick. Within five minutes I was out of the shower and within two minutes I was dressed. I didn’t bother with makeup, I stared at the heavy black bags under my eyes and decided not to bother,
Walking back into the girls’ room, I only found Noelle, so I picked her up and took her downstairs, Danielle stood on the bottom step probably coming back up to get her, but I’d managed to beat her to it,
Following Danielle into the front room, I placed Noelle onto the mat with the other two, “Oh god,” Niall swore as he saw me, “Come sit down,” He shuffled over on the sofa allowing me to flop down next to him, I could already start to feel my eyelids starting to close, “Tired are we?” Niall asked,
I snapped up, “No!” Rubbing my eyes, Niall laughed as did Louis, he wrapped his arm around my shoulder so I could rest again, until Annalise burst back into uncontrollable sobs, “Oh god,” I groaned,
“I can get her,” Perrie volunteered,
Shaking my head I told her not to worry and picked her up, yawning, I placed her on my front as I sat on the floor, I bobbed her up and down in my arms, “Please stop crying,” I begged, “Please,” As I did that, my hands started shaking,
“Let me have a go,” Liam said calmly, outstretching his arms, I reluctantly passed Annalise over, once in Liam’s arms she stopped crying,
A tear escaped my right eye, I wiped it away with a shaky hand, “Are you alright?” Eleanor leaned forward to get a better look at me,
“Fine,” I reply with a small voice, “I’m going to go…” I pointed toward the kitchen, the others didn’t say a word but just stared as I walked with wobbly legs out of the front room and into the kitchen,
Unfortunately, Harry was sitting there. He looked at me darkly as I walked in but then looked back at his crossed hands which lay in front of him on the table,
“Morning,” He growled,
“Hmm…” I replied quietly, I wasn’t in the mood for talking, I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep,
Harry laughed sarcastically, “Really?” He smirked, “I would’ve thought that after yesterday you would be more…”
“Civil?” I suggested, “Harry,” I sighed, “You should really be able to form full sentences at nineteen,” I told him,
“Eighteen,” Harry corrected, “And I really don’t know why I ever thought anything would happen between us,” He muttered with a sigh that he knew was bound to get my attention,
My mood swung into pure frustration, “Oh you thought something between us could happen did you?” I growl, “Because you have a funny way of showing it…”
“For god’s sake Bobbie-!”
“No Harry!” I yelled, “After everything you and I…” I trained off before catching it again, “After everything, you still have no remorse for leading me on and then dumping me back on my butt on my own. Again!”
“I did not lead you on!” Harry argued,
“Oh really?” I snorted placing my hands on my hips, god I was tired, “Because that’s sure what it felt like,”
“Maybe to you,” Harry spat, “But not to me. You’re too young to understand,” He turned his back to mine,
I huffed, “Too young?” My voice was getting louder again and I felt like the rein on my frustration had been lifted, “Harry I am only one year younger than you! And I bet you any money you like that I am more mature than any other seventeen year old, I’m a mum!”
“So you keep saying…” Harry muttered,
“What’s that supposed to mean?” I breathed angrily,
Harry turned back to me, “Well…Are you really acting like one? I mean really? Most mothers spend time with their kids, they give them everything they can. They give them a family. But can you Bobbie?” Harry looked at me, a tear slipped down my cheek, I wiped it away quickly hoping that he didn’t see it, “I’ll answer that for you, no.”
“You-”
At that point, Liam, Niall and Zayn ran in as I screamed at him in a frantic rant. Actually, that’s not all I did, I threw a glass at him, Harry ducked as it flew into the air… Behind him, it smashed into pieces clattering to the floor,
“You’re crazy…” Harry murmured just staring at me in awe,
A wave of tiredness took over me and I slid down to the floor in wracking sobs just as Annalise did before but this time, I meant it, my fragile body shook as they took control of me,
Harry just stared at me, “Harry,” Zayn walked up to him, “I think you should go now,”
“No!” Harry yelled, “She tried to kill me! Actually she’s done more than that! She’s ruined my relationship with Aria! And then tried to kill me!”
“You make it sound like that’s a bad thing,” Perrie snorted from the doorway in between the kitchen and the front room, neither Eleanor, Danielle nor Louis had appeared, I didn’t blame them…
“What do you mean by that?” Harry growled, I saw a different side to him then, a protective side. Yes to the person I despised, but still…
“Come on Harry,” Perrie said, “Aria? Really?”
“There is nothing wrong with her,” Harry growled again and started to walk angrily toward Perrie, Zayn stepped in front him placing one hand on his chest,
“Harry, don’t talk to her like that, leave it,” He looked nervously back to Perrie who smiled reassuringly and thankfully back at him,
“So that’s it,” Harry back up throwing his arms in the air, “You’ve all had it in for her from the start?” He huffed, somehow, he reminded me of a raging bull ready to charge,
“No!” Niall exclaimed whilst moving closer to me, “But she has had it in for her,” He pointed toward me, “And all of us since the day she got here. Come on Harry, you know as well as we do that all she wanted from you was publicity-”
“Shut the hell up!” Harry yelled, “That’s not true…” The others looked guilty, “It’s not…Is it…?” He changed again, looking like an innocent wounded puppy, his green eyes widened and glittered with hurt, “And so you all knew, and none of you thought to tell me?”
“Well to be fair,” Liam spoke calmly, “It was very obvious, the way she was always with you when the cameras were there…The way she…” Liam choked, “Positioned herself on you…”
“But I didn’t know!” Harry yelled, “So why didn’t any of you tell me?”
“Because we care about you Harry,” Zayn said quietly, “We didn’t want you to get hurt,”
Harry snorted and looked down at me, “So what’s your excuse Bobbie? You obviously don’t care, so why didn’t you?” He looked down at me with accusing eyes,
“I didn’t care?” I spluttered through my tears, Niall rested a hand on my shoulder,
“Bobbie,” He whispered,
“No!” I shouted shaking him off, I took a step forward, “You think I didn’t care? Because I shouldn’t I shouldn’t care at all, but I can’t help it Harry, I care so much!”
“Then why-”
“Because I love you!” I cried, I saw Harry gulp, his green eyes didn’t leave mine. Instead, he shook his head, stormed through the hallway and left the house shaking in silence as he slammed the door behind him.
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Hey guys, just wanted to say sorry for the wishywashy chapter :/