W I N T E R
Those recurring dreams, I remember it well, but this time it wasn't a dream, It was reality. After that faithful encounter with the one and only Karina Yoo, I couldn't help but slap myself sometimes and ask if it was real. I struggled to fall asleep that night and ended up looking like a mess in front of Aeri. She was completely surprised that she teased me because only a certain raven can make me feel this way. I thought she would stop with the teasing when I told her what happened that day. But no, she wouldn't stop.
"Just when I was telling myself to get over you. You barged yourself in like what was the reason?" I whined at the sudden turn of events. What was the universe even thinking? Am I overthinking too much that I'm being delusional?
My friends would tease me, joke around, poke me. Begging me to tell them more but I tell them that was it. I know they know that my thoughts of Karina never leave. It feels like more than a dream when my eyes dance around hers and I feel like I could stare all day.
I'm now in the music room, hoping and praying Karina will not come inside because I don't think I'm ready to face her. I still find myself awestruck by her presence. Now that we're on our last year in uni, our schedules especially vacant time have led us to hang out more in the music room. Her sweet face, soft skin, her piercing eyes, and everything about her. I don't think I'd be able to handle it.
I open the piano's fallboard to uncover the keyboard. I slide my hands through the keys before placing them on the starting notes to the song I have written to the one and only Karina.
Title: Beautiful
Written by: KMJ
It's a beautiful life
I'll stay by your side
It's a beautiful life
I'll stand right behind you
beautiful love
If I am with you under this sky
I have to admit, I'm a hopeless romantic, I crave for love and affection. It may sound dramatic, but I want that strong connection. I want all the sweet and cheesy talks, the fun, and the attention. I want those long and peaceful walks. I want romance, that's for sure, to feel like home or in heaven.
Just breathing alone makes me happy
It's a beautiful life
beautiful day
I live in your memories
beautiful life
beautiful day
Stay by my side
I can't help but wonder if I'm going to have to live the rest of my life knowing every atom in my body longs for you.
beautiful my love
beautiful your heart
It's a beautiful life
It's a beautiful life
Just as I was about to sing the next verse to the song, a familiar scent alerts me making me flinch. I whipped my head up and see Karina smiling down at me with those apologizing looks for interrupting me.
"I'm sorry! I didn't want to bother you I swear!" She explains and I couldn't help but smile at her.
"It's fine," I blush, clearing my throat at the sudden silence in the room. She grabbed a chair and sat near me where she can see me playing the keys.
"Was that an original song?" She asks formally but I can see through her tone how she was excited. I feel my cheeks burning at the question. "It's a nice song, I won't bash you," She chuckles and I couldn't help but feel my heart flip at her honestly.
"D-Do you want me to continue?" I stuttered, my heart about to burst because she's going to listen to one of the songs I've written for her.
"If it's alright with you, please do," She smiles widely and I quickly avert my gaze back to the piano before I fall through her intimidating stare.
It's a beautiful life
I'll always protect you
It's a beautiful life
So lean on me
beautiful love
Your tears, your smile
So we can be together
It's a beautiful life
Look at me go on, I don't know what has gotten into me. If only love was a disease then I could give it to her and maybe she'd like me too. Why must it be so hard? I wish we could go far if we tried but I know she'll never see me that way.
beautiful day
I loved you like crazy
beautiful life beautiful day
I don't wanna lose you
beautiful my love
beautiful your heart
It's a beautiful life
I took a quick look at her and I see her smiling at me like she was enjoying the song. I unconsciously smiled as I continued to sing.
Memories that resemble you
Remain with me
Your memories, your recollections
It's a sorrowful life
sorrowful day
Please don't look at me, I'm melting. Because every time it happens, I feel my heart sinking deeper with my emotions.
I can't win over sadness
sorrowful life sorrowful day
So don't leave me
So I won't live just in your memories
It's a beautiful life
As I finish the song, I nervously turn to the side to see her. We stare at each other, just us two, all alone in the quiet room. Nervous and shy smiles turned into big smiles.
"Wow, that was amazing," She says, still unable to comprehend what she heard or to formulate her words.
"Was it?" I ask genuinely, rubbing a hand at the back of my neck to ease my nerves.
"Yes!" She agrees making me smile in adoration. "It was beautiful, the lyrics and everything!" She explains and I smile wider at the comment.
"If you don't mind me asking, what inspired you to write the song? Like what's the story behind the song?"
I feel my heart beating at the question. Was she seriously asking me this? Fuck. I nervously play with my fingers as I tried to explain it to her the easiest way possible.
"There's this girl I like actually," I say and she exclaims.
"Does she know?" I shake my head making her frown.
"Why? She's missing out on a talented person like you!" She groans, wanting to scold whoever the girl I liked was.
Silly, it's you.
"It's fine. I don't think she likes me back anyway," "I say in a calm voice but then she crossed her arms.
"She's dumb I tell you," She scoffs.
Not really. If anyone should be dumb, it's me.
"I don't think so,"
"Why are you defending her?"
"Trust me, you wouldn't want to do that," I smile as she tries to think of anyone in this big university who she wouldn't yell at. I chuckle at how cute she looks right now.
Do I have a chance with you, Karina? Because if I have then maybe I'll confess to you. But not now, I'm contented with what we have so far. I hope you don't disappear.
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I hope you realize that not only am I writing this story. I am also sharing songs. See you on the next chapter!
Btw, I don't think all chapters are filled with music. If you get what I mean.