How often would you dare to remind myself how much I miss you?
How often would you make me feel how I still care for you?
How often would you make me feel like a fool for dumping you?
How often would you visit me in my dreams saying 'I love you'?
How many times should I cuss myself for neglecting you?
How many times should I hold my tears to be forgiven by you?
How many times should I whip to get over you?
How many times should I pray to be happy even without you?
How can I let go of the memories we had, if you keep on entering my mind?
How can I give myself a peace of mind, if you keep hurting my heart?
How can I move on, if you keep holding me in my dreams?
How can I make myself proud if you keep reminding me that I can't breathe an air and can't live happily without your presence?
Until when would I feel ashame of saying those curse to you?
Until when would I sulk myself in the corner, regretting all the things I've done to you?
Until when would I crave the warm inside I always wanted to feel from you?
Until would I cry for loving you?
How I wish we can be together again not just in my sweetest dreams but also in real life as part of my wildest dream.
(Written : 23rd of July, 2021)