I was expecting a fancy dinner and conversation but he surprised me, i find myself in a go-kart place. This man brought me to go go-karting. I'm pleasantly surprised. We get our helmets and get into the karts, I pull up in front of the starting line, Ryder next to me in his kart. The horn goes off signalling to start. I step on the gas peddle and take the lead, Ryder hot on my back. I take the turns with ease but so does he, before I know it his right by my side with a wide grin on his face, i accelerate more and take the lead just as we get to the final lap, he accelerates and we battle for first position. We cross the finish line and turns out we tied.
"You are definitely something else Blue Eyes, but the night is still young." He says with a smirk
I look up into his eyes and they are shining with such happiness, it warms my heart, i feel my body warm up...almost like when Kodiak looked at me last night, what's going on.
"You're not to bad yourself Ryder. Where are you taking me now?" I ask
"A little secret location...the one i told you about. My secret place that no one else knows about." He says
We make our way out of the place and back into the car, the music is playing while we talk about random things ranging from the songs to why I am still single. We arrive at a forest...its late afternoon so the sky is a beautiful tone of pinks and oranges. I smile as we walk into the forest hand in hand, no one else is in sight so I guess he wasn't kidding when he said no one else knows about this place. We finally get to a open piece of land, trees surrounding us and I look up, there's a huge opening above us, a clear view of the sky, my breath is taken away. Its the most beautiful thing I've seen since my kids as babies.
I catch him looking at me from the corner of my eye, his looking at me with a longing look. Its different from the way he usually looks at me. I look at him and he holds my eye contact, never faltering.
"Welcome to my secret place. Ready for a picnic?" Asks Ryder as he lays down a blanket.
I didn't even notice he had that in his hand. We sit down on the blanket and he opens the basket he brought with, its filled with McDonalds, this man is doing everything perfectly...its kind of amazing how well he knows me in such a short period of time.
"This place is amazing. How did you find it?" I ask and his body tenses up a bit
"When i was in high school lets just say life was tough...so one night I went for a ride and ended up here, I honestly thought it was a cliff. I was going to jump, that was the plan but instead i took the wrong path and ended up here. I laid on the grass and looked at the stars all night...this place saved me from myself when no one else noticed the pain i was in." He says
My heart feels as if its calling out to his and is saying its okay, I reach out to him and take his hand in mine, he looks up at me and our eyes meet, their is such pain in his eyes and all of a sudden it makes sense, his masking it all with smiles...just like I do. So i open up and show him my pain.
"I tried to kill myself a few times." I say and I see his eyes express shock and sadness
"My first attempt was when I was just a kid, I was locked in the basement of my house and i found a piece of glass from the broken window. I slit my wrist but before i bled out my brother Nathan found me. The second time I was sold to some rich guy, he rapped me each night and I couldn't take it anymore so I tried to overdose but the maid found me and I was on life support for about 3 months. The most recent time was when I tried to jump off the balcony in my office. I was about to jump when Klaus pulled me back well actually the most recent one was when I overdosed in my office, Klaus found me on the floor and rushed me to hospital." I said
He pulls me into a hug and just holds me but his not pitting me his saying he understands and that's it's okay now. Him and I just hold onto each other and lay there in each others embrace. His arms feel so safe, so comforting.
"You were going to try that night weren't you?" Asks Ryder
"Yeah, I was going to drive off the mountain...make it look like a mistake, make it look like I didn't mean too." I say
"I'm glad you didn't because otherwise I wouldn't get to do this." He says as he pulls from the hug and locks eyes with me.
He kisses me with such passion it ignites my entire body, I kiss him back and he pulls me to hover over his lap, our lips never leaving each others. He moves to my ear and i feel his cool breathe on it.
"You are perfect, you deserve to love yourself the way you love everyone else." He whispers into my ear
We look at each other again, his eyes hold such emotion and I know mine do too. I can't help but smile at him.
"When i met you that night I had no idea that you would become so important to me, I need you. I need you in my life, you make each day a little easier to endure, you make me smile, you make me feel like I'm constantly on a peaceful cloud. When our eyes meet in the room it drives me crazy, when you smile at me or even smirk all I want to do it make you mine. I know you love him but can't you give me a chance to change your mind?" He says
"I do love him, but just because I love him doesn't mean that I want to be with him. If you prove to me that you're worth it then I'll be yours, only yours because you understand me on a level that non of the others can...but you have to promise me that if we don't work out you will still be my best friend." I say
"I promise. But you will be mine." He says with determination in his eyes just like Kodiak
We break apart and just lay looking up at the sky. The stars have come out now, the moonlight shines on his face and I smile at how he looks at the stars. His face is breath taking. I smile at the thought of being his forever, it would be so easy, so relaxed, so peaceful...I would never have to struggle and explain why I do what I do because he understands me. I feel him reach for my hand and he gives it a little squeeze. He moves his thumb in little circles on my hand and it causes me to feel my heart flutter, this man is starting to have a dangerous effect on me.
*ring*
*ring*
We are both brought out of our euphoria and into reality when we hear a phone ring. I open my bag and its Niko. I quickly answer the phone while Ryder packs up the picnic.
"Mama, papa is very angry. Ivy and Gina went out for ice cream and Cohen and Klaus are trying to stop him. Mama he wants to come get you because he says you can't be with Uncle Ryder. Mama please come home." I hear Niko say with a shaky voice. He sounds terrified
My whole body goes into a panic, I go full mommy mode and drag Ryder to the car with no words, I get into the drivers side and drive as fast as I can without getting into an accident while I race to the house. I get to the house and pull in front of the front door, i run into the house and look for Nikop, finally my eyes land on him, his in a corner behind the couch crying, I run over to him and pull him into a hug. His shaking body starts to relax and rub his back soothingly.
"Mama is here my baby. I will protect you, I will always protect you. You have nothing to worry about mi amour." I say
"Mama I was scared. Papa got angry and tried to go after you." Sid Niko in a shaky voice
"You didn't get hurt did you?" I ask
"No papa only got angry when I couldn'y see him. He was crying but why mama. I thought he was getting back together with mama." Says niko
"How about we go out for some ice cream, we can have a little talk." I say and he smiles
"Okay mama." He says
"Go get your shoes and a hoodie then meet me by the front door." I say and he nods then runs off.
Now to deal with that peiece of shut, making my child scared, who does he think he is. I am furious by the time i find him. He is in the gym, Klaus ans Cohen both holding him down and telling him how stupid he is. I swing the door open and their eyes meet mine. Klaus and Cohen nod then leave. Kodiak stands up and is about to say something but I won't permit an explanation.
I throw tree knives at him, pinning him againt the wall and i walk up to him. I start punching him as if hus a punching bag. All i see is red. He tries to block me but misses due to my speed. I need to stop or he might go uncnpcious.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" I shout
" Are you stupid! I get a phone call from my baby, his crying on the phone scared of his fucking father, I come to find him crying and shaking in a corner, what the fuck is wrong with you, are you that pathetic, I can't do this. You made my decision easy. I choose Ryder. I choose him beause unlike you he has never made my kids fear for their lives and I will never allow that, I will never allow my kids to endure that same fear that i endured. This relationzship is over. Kiara is safe now so our business is over. Fuck off and don't even try to communicate with the kids. Your family si gone. You have lost me and Ivy and Niko. You are nothing more than a stranger now. I don't even know who I'm looking at right now. You have never done this, you have never made me scared, I don't know what happened to you but you broke my heart Kodiak. So this is goodbye." I say
"Safire! Please don't leave me! Safire I need you! Please! Turn around please!" He shouts as i leave the room.
I never look back to see his face because I know that if I do I will give in.
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