THE FIRST THING AURORA HWANG COULD HEAR when the three students emerged was the screams coming out from her sister. They were loud, painful, laced with excruciating pain— nothing like he's ever heard before.
"Blaise.." Aurora mumbled to her friend, trying to peek through, but she was far too short to see anything happening. "Blaise, what's going on?"
Blaise, who was far more taller than her, watched the horrible sight infront of him. There was so much blood, all of it coming from her sister, and he couldn't tell her just now; Aurora needed to see it for herself.
"We need to go down." Blaise whispered, grabbing her arm as they trudged down the stairs. "Now."
Nicole felt herself slam flat into the ground; her face was pressed into grass; the smell of it filled his nostrils. The girl immediately rolled over, letting out an anguished cry as she held her hands over her face.. her head hurt too much. Her body hurt too much. It seemed that everything hurt too much. Slowly, her senses started to send reports back to her brain. There were tears and rips, the writhing pain, combined with all the breaks. She kept her eyes closed, not because she didn't want to see where she was, but she thought it would hurt too much to open them.
She was sobbing, hands grasping onto her bleeding body as shock and exhaustion kept her on the ground, breathing in the smell of the grass, waiting... waiting for someone to do something... something to happen.
They were still laughing... cheering.. none of them still had an idea on what was happening.
"Harry! Nicole!"
Nicole kept her eyes shut, yelling, groaning as a burning agony that tears through her whole physicality makes her think about nothing else other than the horrifying sensation of blood dripping down every corner of her body.
Fleur had come to a realization first, letting out a blood curling scream, alarming a few people around her.
Nicole, through blood and tears, could see her sister running up to the scene with Blaise beside her. Disbelief clouded her vision as she realized what was going on, eyes first trailing on her... then onto Cedric.
"Aurora..."
Aurora, who had leaned down, held a hand against his pulse. She couldn't feel him.
"He doesn't have a pulse, Blaise..." she whispered her friend, eyes widening as she grasped onto his hand. "W-why isn't he breathing?"
Nicole continued to sob, feeling two pairs of arms grab onto her, but she kept lying on the ground, not wanting to stand up. Wake up. Wake up... please.
Everything happening around her was nothing at this point; she didn't care at all. Girls were screaming, sobbing hysterically....The scene flickered oddly before Nicole's ears, eyes wired shut.
"Nicole..." she heard Dumbledore's voice. As if time had passed by so fast, Harry wasn't beside her anymore, and all what was left was Cedric's dead body. "Follow me, Nicole. We'll go get Harry."
"My daughter is bleeding, Albus! She needs to go to the hospital wing!" she could hear her mother's loud voice. An arm grasped her, a much more familiar arm, which she recognized as her father's.
But then he let go, calling over the name of his other daughter.
Noelle let out a curse at the state her daughter was in, she knelt over Nicole, drew her wand and traced it over the deep wounds the deatheater's curse had made, muttering an incantation that sounded almost like song over the screaming mess. The flow of blood seemed to ease; Noelle wiped the residue from her daughter's face and repeated his spell. Now the wounds seemed to be knitting.
When she had performed the counter curse for the third time, she lifted her daughter into a standing position. There was still a lot of damage in her body— burns, scrapes, and blood; but the the spell full of dark magic that she hasn't heard of in so much years was gone.
"I'll take you to the hospital wing—" she tired grabbing Nicole, but the girl couldn't stop crying; the shock still clouding her. It made Noelle wonder what she could've seen or felt back in the maze, because Nicole would rather jump off a cliff than let anyone see her cry.
Nicole tried to talk, but the fear of seeing Cedric's cold, dead body caught up to her and her words broke up and all she could say were stuttering sounds. Hot tears streamed down her face, and she squeezed her eyelids shut in the hope her tears would stop.
"Nicole, come on—"
"I don't—" she hiccuped, trying to regain her words. "Dad."
Suddenly, a pair of strong arms had engulfed her into a hug, her mother's footsteps leading the other way, probably with Aurora.
It was like Nicole was seven once again. But this time, instead of crying over losing a Quidditch game to a bunch of their neighbors, she was crying about the withering pain, being tortured, betrayed, a bunch of more events that would scar her for the rest of her life.
—
"Dad?"
"Hm?"
Nicole slightly winces at the pain in her burnt arm, but it didn't set her back from sitting down upright in the hospital bed. The question had been bugging her all night ever since her body had stopped shaking from the pain and when she could finally blink without seeing Ellis, back in the graveyard, torturing her to insanity. "Where's Aurora? Is she okay?"
Her father takes in a deep breath, hands covering his face in frustration. "Your mom took her home a few minutes ago. Noelle and I haven't talked yet, so I'm not entirely sure."
Nicole sighed, looking out the window. She could only imagine what Aurora had felt... seeing Cedric's dead body in the field. Cedric, who was the only person she's seen soften up to.
The thoughts of Cedric somehow eventually led her back to Ellis— and all of a sudden, she wanted to burst into tears once more. In those months, she'd never noticed it, but it all made sense now, especially after her father told her about the deal with Moody and the Polyjuice Potion. Ellis talking to Moody despite knowing nothing in common. Ellis never wearing anything other than long-sleeves. Ellis helping her with the spells.
She hasn't told her father yet.
However, just as she was about to say something, the door slammed open, with Mrs. Weasley, Bill, Ron, and Hermoine entering with frantic looks. By the tone of their bodies, Nicole knew that they were all about to come towards her and bombard her with a bunch of questions, but luckily, Atlas reacted quickly.
"Molly. Listen, Nic has been through a lot of shock tonight. I think what she needs is a bit of peace and quiet for the moment. If she would like you all to stay with her," he looked around at Hermoine, Ron, and Bill, "You can. But I think she needs to sleep for a bit before the questions start."
The door had suddenly opened once again. A black dog (a dog that Atlas knew by heart) was walking down towards the bed beside Nicole's.
Thankfully, the rest of their company grew quiet.
"Headmaster," said Madam Pomfrey, staring at the great black dog that was Sirius, "may I ask what - ?"
"This dog will be remaining with Harry for a while," said Dumbledore simply. "I assure you, he is extremely well trained. Harry, I will wait while you get into bed."
As Harry sat down on the bed beside Nicole's, he caught sight of the real Moody lying motionless in a bed at the far end of the room. His wooden leg and magical eye were lying on the bedside table.
"Is he okay?" Harry asked.
"I think he'll be fine," Nicole replied quietly, glancing at the burns in her arms.
Ron, Hermione, Bill, Mrs. Weasley, and the black dog came around the screen and settled themselves in chairs on either side of them. Ron and Hermione were looking at them almost cautiously, as though scared of him.
"Can you guys please stop staring at me like that?" Nicole questioned, but at the height of her sentence, her voice broke out into a crack.
Mrs. Weasley's eyes filled with tears as she smoothed their bed-covers unnecessarily. Atlas was biting his lip in anger, but his eyes that reflected under the moonlight were slightly glossy.
Madam Pomfrey, who had bustled off to her office, returned holding two small bottles of some purple potion and two goblets
"You two would need to need to drink all of this." she said. "It's a potion for dreamless sleep."
For one last time, Nicole glanced at Harry, took the goblet and drank a few mouthfuls. She felt herself becoming drowsy at once. Everything around her became hazy; the lamps around the hospital wing seemed to be winking at her in a friendly way through the screen around her bed; her body felt as though it was sinking deeper into the warmth of the feather matress. Before she could finish the potion, before she could say another word, her exhaustion had carried her off to sleep.
——
Nicole woke up to a commotion.
It mustn't have been too long since she fell asleep, since the sky was still dim and she wanted to go back to slumber once again. However, there were too much voices talking all at once, and Nicole was forced to get up with a thud.
Once she opened her eyes, she squinted to make sure what she was seeing was real and not just a bunch of shadows. There were so much people. So much.
"I told you it would wake her up," she hears the angry voice of her father, a bunch of shuffling, then a sigh.
Nicole looked to her side. It seemed like Harry was awake, too.
"None of you managed to finish the potion. You two got to take the rest of it," Mrs. Weasley said at last. Her hand nudged the sack of gold on her bedside cabinet as she reached for the bottle and the goblet. "Fudge just came over to hand you your winnings. Here's yours, Nic."
Nicole glanced at the sack. One thousand galleons. Honestly, she had no idea what she was supposed to do with it. She didn't even need it. Hell, she didn't even deserve it.
"Cedric should've won it..." she mumbled once again, tears threatening to fall out from her eyes. Stop it. she reminded herself. You've cried so much already and made a fool out of yourself. Stop it.
"He should've... I told him to..."
"It wasn't your fault. Harry," Mrs. Weasley whispered.
"I told him to take the cup with me," said Harry.
The thing against which she had been fighting on and off ever since she had come out of the maze was threatening to overpower her. She could feel a burning, prickling feeling in the inner corners of her eyes. She blinked and stared up at the ceiling. "Dad? Can we talk? Outside?"
"Of course," Atlas' voice was sweet, sympathetic, unlike the anger that clouded it a few minutes ago. "Come on. Let's go to the balcony."
Once Nicole mustered up the strength to walk past her friends and a very teary eyed Molly, the two of them sat on the balcony, none of them speaking about what had just happened in the few hours that passed by.
Eventually, it was her voice that broke the silence. "Did Harry tell you?"
Atlas looks at his daughter with confusion, "tell me what?"
"Ellis was a deatheater," she mumbled, suddenly feeling the shame wash over her once more. Every time she thought of it, she would feel really stupid. "The reason he got... close to me was because of Voldemort. He put my name in the cup." Pausing for a moment, she regains her thoughts as she rapidly blinks her eyes, voice coming out as a broken whisper. "I shouldn't have... I'm so stupid. I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry."
"Hush, my baby." she bows her head as Atlas kneels over her. He kisses her forehead, and Nicole is a child again, helpless and hopeful, bursting with love.
—
When she looked back, even a month later, Nicole found she had only scattered memories of the next few days. It was as though she had been through too much to take in any more. The recollections she did have were very painful.
She only came back to Hogwarts at the end of the year feast. She didn't even know why she had to be there— but for some reason, she just had to.
"The end," said Dumbledore, looking around at them all, "of another year."
He paused, and his eyes fell upon the Hufflepuff table. Theirs had been the most subdued table before he had gotten to his feet, and theirs were still the saddest and palest faces in the Hall.
"There is much that I would like to say to you all tonight," said Dumbledore, "but I must first acknowledge the loss of a very fine person, who should be sitting here," he gestured toward the Hufflepuffs, "enjoying our feast with us. I would like you all, please, to stand, and raise your glasses, to Cedric Diggory."
They did it, all of them; the benches scraped as everyone in the Hall stood, and raised their goblets, and echoed, in one loud, low, rumbling voice, "Cedric Diggory."
For a moment, Nicole looked at the Slytherin table, expecting for Aurora to be there, grieving. However, the girl was staring at her hands blankly, fumbling with some sort of necklace.
She knew what kind of bond she had with him.
"Cedric was a person who exemplified many of the qualities that distinguish Hufflepuff house," Dumbledore continued. "He was a good and loyal friend, a hard worker, he valued fair play. His death has affected you all, whether you knew him well or not. I think that you have the right, therefore, to know exactly how it came about."
Taking in a deep breath, memories flashed by Nicole. It was true: everything Dumbledore had said. He was a good friend. A hard worker, and it wasn't fair that he didn't get to live out the rest of his life.
"Cedric Diggory was murdered by Lord Voldemort."
"Cedric!" she yelled, trying to pull him over. "We need to go! We need to leave! Come o—"
"Kill the spare."
A swishing noise and a second voice, which screeched the words to the night: "Avada Kedavra!"
A blast of green light blazed through Nicole's eyelids, barely missing her, and she watched as Cedric's body fell onto the ground in front of her, her grasped arm pulling her down as well.
The girl fell down with a thud beside him, and her eyes wire wired shut, terrified of what she was about to see, he opened his stinging eyes.
Cedric was lying spread-eagled on the ground beside her. He was dead.
She sighed, attempting to take in a deep breath. It felt like she was back at the graveyard. The burns on her arms were back, the deep cut in her leg was burning— and once again, she couldn't breathe.
A panicked whisper swept the Great Hall. People were staring at Dumbledore in disbelief, in horror. He looked perfectly calm as he watched them mutter themselves into silence.
"The Ministry of Magic," Dumbledore continued, "does not wish me to tell you this. It is possible that some of your parents will be horrified that I have done so - either because they will not believe that Lord Voldemort has returned, or because they think I should not tell you so, young as you are. It is my belief, however, that the truth is generally preferable to lies, and that any attempt to pretend that Cedric died as the result of an accident, or some sort of blunder of his own, is an insult to his memory."
Stunned and frightened, every face in the Hall was turned toward Dumbledore now...or almost every face. Over at the Slytherin table. Aurora's eyes were glossy, and with every fibre of her body, she tried to not close her eyes.
"There is somebody else who must be mentioned in connection with Cedric's death," Dumbledore went on. "I am talking, of course, about Harry Potter and Nicole Hwang."
No, no. No. No. Nicole took in a deep breath. Stop it. Stop it.
A kind of ripple crossed the Great Hall as a few heads turned in their direction before flicking back to face Dumbledore.
"Harry Potter and Nicole Hwang managed to escape Lord Voldemort," said Dumbledore. "They risked theur own life to return Cedric's body to Hogwarts. They showed, in every respect, the sort of bravery that few wizards have ever shown in facing Lord Voldemort, and for this, I honor them."
Her heartbeat in her throat. She couldn't breathe. The room swayed. Nicole resisted the urge to put her head between her arms. Just breathe.
Dumbledore turned gravely to the two and raised his goblet once more. Nearly everyone in the Great Hall followed suit. They murmured their names, as they had murmured Cedric's, and drank to them.
Just breathe. The walls were closing in. Nicole was suffocating. She felt sick and her body was weirdly tingling. Her vision tunneled. How am I supposed to breathe?
When everyone had once again resumed their seats, Dumbledore continued, "The Triwizard Tournament's aim was to further and promote magical understanding. In the light of what has happened - of Lord Voldemort's return - such ties are more important than ever before."
Dumbledore looked from Madame Maxime and Hagrid, to Fleur Delacour and her fellow Beauxbatons students, to Viktor Krum and the Durmstrangs at the Slytherin table. Krum, Harry saw, looked wary, almost frightened, as though he expected Dumbledore to say something harsh.
"Every guest in this Hall," said Dumbledore, and his eyes lingered upon the Durmstrang students, "will be welcomed back here at any time, should they wish to come. I say to you all, once again - in the light of Lord Voldemort's return, we are only as strong as we are united, as weak as we are divided. Lord Voldemort's gift for spreading discord and enmity is very great. We can fight it only by showing an equally strong bond of friendship and trust. Differences of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open.
"It is my belief- and never have I so hoped that I am mistaken - that we are all facing dark and difficult times. Some of you in this Hall have already suffered directly at the hands of Lord Voldemort. Many of your families have been torn asunder. A week ago, a student was taken from our midst.
"Remember Cedric. Remember, if the time should come when you have to make a choice between what is right and what is easy, remember what happened to a boy who was good, and kind, and brave, because he strayed across the path of Lord Voldemort. Remember Cedric Diggory."
Nicole looked at the goblet in her hand, still struggling to breathe.
Remember Cedric Diggory.
—-
—
The weather could not have been more different on the journey back to King's Cross than it had been on their way to Hogwarts the previous September. There wasn't a single cloud in the sky. Nicole, Harry, Ron, and Hermione had managed to get a compartment to themselves. Pigwidgeon was once again hidden under Ron's dress robes to stop him from hooting continually; Hedwig was dozing , her head under her wing, and Crookshanks was curled up in a spare seat like a large, furry ginger cushion. Mcgonagowl, was once again, hooting loudly.
The four of them talked more fully and freely than they had all week as the train sped them southward. Nicole felt as though Dumbledore's speech at the Leaving Feast had unblocked him, somehow. It was less painful to discuss what had happened now. They broke off their conversation about what action Dumbledore might be taking, even now, to stop Voldemort only when the lunch trolley arrived.
When Hermione returned from the trolley and put her money back into her schoolbag, she dislodged a copy of the Daily Prophet that she had been carrying in there. Harry looked at it, unsure whether he really wanted to know what it might say, but Hermione, seeing him looking at it, said calmly, "There's nothing in there. You can look for yourself, but there's nothing at all. I've been checking every day. Just a small piece the day after the third task saying you two won the tournament. They didn't even mention Cedric. Nothing about any of it. If you ask me. Fudge is forcing them to keep quiet."
"He'll never keep Rita quiet," said Harry. "Not on a story like this."
Nicole sighed, leaning on her chair. "Sometimes, I just want to push her off the astronomy tower."
"Oh, Rita hasn't written anything at all since the third task," said Hermione in an oddly constrained voice. "As a matter of fact," she added, her voice now trembling slightly, "Rita Skeeter isn't going to be writing anything at all for a while. Not unless she wants me to spill the beans on her."
"What are you talking about?" said Ron.
"I found out how she was listening in on private conversations when she wasn't supposed to be coming onto the grounds," said Hermione in a rush.
Nicole suddenly had a lightbulb in her head. "You were about to tell me when—"
"Yup." Hermoine grinned, "you see...Rita Skeeter" - Hermione's voice trembled with quiet triumph - "is an unregistered Animagus. She can turn -"
Hermione pulled a small sealed glass jar out other bag.
"- into a beetle."
"You're kidding," said Ron. "You haven't...she's not..."
"Oh yes she is," said Hermione happily, brandishing the jar at them.
Inside were a few twigs and leaves and one large, fat beetle.
"I caught her on the windowsill in the hospital wing. Look very closely, and you'll notice the markings around her antennae are exactly like those foul glasses she wears."
Nicole looked at it, noting that she was right.
"I've told her I'll let her out when we get back to London," said Hermione. "I've put an Unbreak
able Charm on the jar, you see, so she can't transform. And I've told her she's to keep her quill to herself for a whole year. See if she can't break the habit of writing horrible lies about people."
Smiling serenely, Hermione placed the beetle back inside her schoolbag.
The rest of the journey passed pleasantly enough; Nicole wished it could have gone on all summer, in fact, and that she would never arrive at King's Cross...but as she had learned the hard way that year, time will not slow down when something unpleasant lies ahead, and all too soon, the Hogwarts Express was pulling in at platform nine and three-quarters.
Suddenly, Nicole had suddenly remembered the sack of money she had from winning the tournament, then it was flooded with confusion. What was she supposed to do with the winnings?
From the corer of her eye, she could see Harry thrusting a sack to Fred and George.
Nicole broke out into a smile. It was the perfect idea.
Running, she landed beside her friend, "Take it," she said, and he thrust the sack into Fred's empty hands.
"What?" said Fred, looking flabbergasted.
"Take it," Harry repeated firmly. "I don't want it."
Nicole nodded. "I don't want mine, too."
"You two are mental," said George, trying to push it back at Harry. Fred did the same thing, but Nicole glared at him and pushed the sack back with so much force.
"We arent," said Harry.
"You take it, and get inventing." Nicole added. "It's for the joke shop."
"They are mental," Fred said in an almost awed voice.
"Listen," said Harry firmly. "If you don't take it, I'm throwing it down the drain. I don't want it and I don't need it. But I could do with a few laughs. We could all do with a few laughs. I've got a feelming we're going to need them more than usual before long."
"You two," said George weakly, weighing the money bag in his hands, "there's got to be a thousand Galleons in here. Each."
"Yeah," said Nicole, grinning. "Think how many Canary Creams that is."
The twins stared at them.
"Just don't tell your mum where you got it...although she might not be so keen for you to join the Ministry anymore, come to think of it...."
"Harry. Nic...." Fred began, but Harry pulled out his wand.
"Look," he said flatly, "take it, or I'll hex you. I know some good ones now. Just do me one favor, okay? Buy Ron some different dress robes and say they're from you."
Nicole raised a brow. Harry threatening people? This was new.
When Harry went to leave the compartment, Nicole trudged after him, not saying a word. She could already spot her parents amidst the crowd of people, but she tapped Harry before she left.
"I'll owl you. Expect Mcgonagowl to visit frequently," Nicole smiled softly, a thing that was becoming hard for her to do lately. "Bye, Harry. I need to meet Aurora."
Harry smiles as she engulfs him in a hug, the slightest disappointment taking over him. He immediately slaps himself when she turns around.
Silently cursing, he looks at her tied up hair as she walks away from him. Were you expecting something else, you idiot?
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NOTES
teenage angst here we come