Dream a little, Dream of me

By oakleaff

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Cutthroat? Yes Annoying? Yes Tempting? Yes And the list went on..... The above list was how Lilliana Mae pref... More

Life's a loosing game when you dont play, dont hold your cards too close
I'm not dying, you say that we'll just screw it up in these trying times
you can aim for my heart go for blood but you would still miss me in your bones
Lost in your current like a priceless wine The more that you say The less I know
Cause' when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave
Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me?
I heard him laughing, I saw the dimples first and then I heard the accent
And I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this
The wine is cold Like the shoulder that I gave you in the street
'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in,So shame on me now
I rubbed it in so deep, salt in the wound like you're laughing right at me
I can see us lost in the memory,August slipped away into a moment in time
Whisky on ice, Sunset and Vine You've ruined my life, by not being mine
Said I'm fine, but it wasn't true I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you
Cause it was never mine, And I can see us twisted in bedsheets
And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet
What if we rewrite the stars? Say you were made to be mine
Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love You had to fight to have the upper hand
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
A scar I can't reverse, the more it heals the worse it hurts.
Love is another leap of faith.
Give me peace, but then you steal it.
You had a speech, you're speechless, love slipped beyond of your reaches
We never got it right, playing and replaying old conversations.
They say home is where the heart is But that's not where mine lives
It's growing faster than you're grown Now you're stronger than yourself
And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain, crossing out the good years
Cause I honestly believed in you Holdin' on, the days drag on
You're not my homeland anymore So what am I defendin' now?
Now this is an open-shut case Guess I should've known from the look on your face
To let you know that what I feel is true And I'm only me when I'm with you
We were stupid to jump In the ocean separating us
I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it.
Running scared, I was there I remember it all too well
So dignified in your well-pressed suit So strategized, all the eyes on you
It's all me in my head, I'm the one who burned us down
I can dream about what happens when You see my face again
When I still see it all in my head In burning red
My best laid plan Your sleight of hand
Walls of insincerity Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
And I lived in your chess game, But you changed the rules every day
Lost again with no surprises Disappointments close your eyes
All your closets of backlogged dreams And how you left them all to me
Flashbacks waking me up I get drunk, but it's not enough
It was so nice being friends again There I was giving you a second chance
And you're thinking we'll be fine again But not this time around
You drew stars around my scars But now I'm bleedin'
I'd write this in the sky I miss you like it was the very first night
But we can patch it up good Make confessions and we're begging for forgiveness
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright
losing grip, on sinking ships You showed up just in time
All's well that ends well to end up with you
Why'd I have to break what I love so much?
I still remember the first fall of snow And how it glistened as it fell
He can't see the smile I'm faking And my heart's not breaking
They say, "She's gone too far this time"
I'd say I love you even at your darkest And please don't go
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
Do I really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?
I once believed love would be black and white. But it's golden

And maybe we got lost in translation Maybe I asked for too much

337 10 4
By oakleaff

Rhysand, High lord of the Night court,

I am very unhappy to say how much I need your help right now, well technically of my Brother, Lucien who is quite out of reach so do the honor of reading this.......................................................

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Lilliana sat on the grass, letting the rays of light shine on her, the warmth seeping in her bones making her feel less sick. The slight bump of her stomach only prominent when she felt it, and in the very loose clothes, she looked normal. 

Her hair in a loose ponytail. They had grown out. She looked unkept and that felt fine, she felt slightly free as the sunlight poured its warmth. The scene looked beautiful and peaceful, the sky blue with hues of yellow and darker blue scattered among the soft cotton of clouds. The sun a yellow spot in the sky shining on all of them, looking regal. The lake a few feet away from where she was sitting, a bunch of daffodils shining and looking golden. 

Everything of the view spoke a fairytale, but the only stupid fairytale there was, was that she was in love with one. She was in love with a fairytale, it may not be one, but it sure sounded like one. 

If only her miserable excuse of a life could be a fairytale. Nicholas was catching butterflies and made dreary attempts that thankfully weren't successful.

Poor butterflies.

Poor her.

Poor world.

Poor fairytales.

In this slightly miserable scorching weather, not exactly scorching but anyway, what she would have wanted was wine, but alas, the emerald eyed beast had objections since the wine was going to harm the child.

It was exhausting, she was famished and moreover missing a certain red head. But the red head was not to be discussed of, as she was still upset. 

And yet, her head could not take orders, and that statement was very true, as her head was filled with thoughts of we-all-know-who since morning. That was an understatement as the only thoughts she had were of the princeling. It seemed annoying. And slightly disgusting. Wasn't she supposed to hate him now? Question after question, followed her train of thought. 

Or she had all rights to hate herself because even after she had been betrayed in a way, she was still whipped. 

It was annoying, irritating on huge levels. 

"Lily." Nicholas' voice cut through her thoughts.

She turned her attention to the boy.

"Yes." She said with a slight smile

"Come look at this Lily." He said with a bright smile.

He looked adorable.

She got up, a smile blooming on her face naturally, and took his hand and let him take her.

"That's a cat?" She said 

"Yes." The boy said enthusiastically

The small furry cat lay under the tree, fast asleep. The cat looked starved.

"Well, what is it that you want me to do? She asked the boy who smiled shyly.

Then said.

"Can we take care of the cat?" He asked softly

She took it into consideration.

She looked back at Nicholas who now was pouting, an attempt at persuading her by looking adorable, it sadly worked.

She nodded towards the cat. Nicholas happily picked the cat up, the animal had woken up, purring against the small hand of the boy. She picked up Nicholas who was smiling at the cat.

And then she made her way to the estate again.

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"Lilliana's been unheard of ever since that bloody marriage ceremony took place." Viviane hissed at her mate.

"I know." Kallias said flatly.

"Come on, She's your sister, who never even wanted to marry that man." Viviane said

"Viviana, for a moment just shut up and realize that you're not the only one worrying." Kallias snapped

"So you're not a fool, and actually love your sister." Viviane said, some part of her eyes turning icy

"Of course I love my sister, I've always had." Kallias said

Viviane raised a pale eyebrow

"Yes, you really love her, If you did Kallias, then why did your sister grow up so cold, that she can't stomach the idea of love. Maybe if you ever cared to realize, you'd see she's very alone." Viviane yelled 

"What do you know about her childhood?" Kallias asked

"I don't need to be present in her childhood to know, that she's very upset and she grew up in an environment that never fit her, and I'm not blind, no one here is, we all see how broken she is, and you're the only blind person who can't see her misery. " Viviane said harshly

"What are you proposing? That I've never cared for her, Yes Viviane I know, I've made some fatal mistakes back then that have formed the crooked foundation for her to grow up on." Kallias said quietly

"Well that's that." Viviane said

Kallias sighed.

"Eris is off kilter." Viviane said

"Of course he is, having blood on your hands for centuries does that to you." Kallias said

"What a lovely match you made." Viviane said sighing

"What do you mean? Kallias said placing an arm around her waist. 

"Well, you put two of the world's most upset people together, its fair to say its a good match." Viviane said

"Its also fair to say, its hardly working out, They're unhappy." Kallias said 

"Not much to blame other than the fact that they both are too stubborn and firm alone, but when put together, really understand each other." Viviane said running a hand through Kallias' hair.

"She looked unhappy at her wedding." Kallias reasoned

"Oh she was, quite a heartbreak I hear, but its not what her eyes say, or his. Both of them were falling for each other at that point, and weren't realizing it, both of them have their own respective traumas that they need to embrace to be able to freely love. Not ignore the trauma but embrace it, accept it with open arms." Viviane said

"I don't quite understand you, love." Kallias said

"They're scared of love, it horrifies them, shakes their roots, but that doesn't stop them from falling in love, it just happens but without any realization. I'm more than frank to say open your eyes Kallias, they're in love, but scared of admitting it, lest its taken away from either of them." Viviane said and kissed Kallias' cheek. 

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Eris sighed, there was too much to do, 

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The man was on his knee, offering the woman in front of him a ring, offering a future. The woman was in tears, smiling, looking bright, looking vibrant, looking golden. The ocean blue eyes lined with silver. She nodded and slid the ring onto her finger. It was a promise, a vow. It was a future, it was a shot to have a family with hi . It made her feel joy that she thought was in books only. So she took the blue rose he extended to her and pulled him in for a kiss. 

The blue rose that was her favorite. 

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Sup people. I am done with exams, and will try to be punctual with updates.

Anyways enjoy this chapter. 

Love you all amazing readers who I owe everything. 

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