BRIAR'S POV
I wake up feeling my tears in my cheeks, Hindi ko namalayang nawalan ulit akong Malay after kong magising kanina, but this time I'm feeling a little better, Kumisap ako Ng ilang beses at medyo naging clear Ang paningin ko but Hindi iyun nakatulong para patigilin Ang mga pagtulo Ng luha ko
Paulit ulit parin kaseng nag re-replay sa utak ko Kung anong nangyari (even in my dreams) and it makes me jolted up again, nag sakitan Ang buong katawan ko dahil dun but Hindi ko Yun pinansin at agad na kinalas ang swero ko letting it to bleed, not caring anymore
Hindi ko rin napansin na may kasama pala akong Tao dto sa loob dahil mabilis akong tumakbo sa cr, locking myself in there habang nakakarinig ako ng pag kakagulo sa labas
I need to talk to her first no matter what... I need to talk with cloudine
Agad akong tumapat sa salamin at agad na bumungad sa akin Ang repleksyon ko, a very big mess...
"Cloudine where are you?" I called out still crying, but walang nangyari
"Cloudine please magpakita Naman oh! Asan ka?!" I called out again already touching the mirror but agad Rin akong napaurong Ng mag crack iyun and there I saw her... Nakatalikod sya sa akin, shoulder and heads down
"Cloudine..." I weakly whisper...
I'm seeing nothing but a broken girl, eated by the darkness it self... She's in pain and it's too obvious because it's radiating out from her...
"What do you want?" She coldly ask but I didn't miss to hear how her voice trembled and breaks with in it, mas nanghina Naman ako dun
She hate me now...
"I... I'm s-sorr--"
"Don't, I don't want to hear that. Stop pitying me." Agad na agap nito sa sasabihin ko, but still not looking at me
"Cloudine plea---"
"It's not your fault Briar. But yeah, your welcome, Brittany won't bother you anymore... And so I am" she said cutting my words again, but I just frown sa huling salita na sinabi nya
"What do you mean?" I confusingly ask, losing hope for her to stay...
Alam ko Ang Ibig nyang sabihin it's just that na I won't believe it unless she repeat it again... My brain can't process it in one go
" Don't be dumb briar, I'm leaving. I'll just find myself for a while, but don't worry I'll be back when you needed me again... For now I'll make Death as an excuse... I know he'll take good care of you" she explained, mas naiyak Lang Naman ako dun
"Cloudine wait!--" I called out pero agad iyung naputol ng may humawak sa mga braso ko, stoping me from getting near to mirror again, tuluyan na namang nabasag Yung salamin which make me startled, hindi ko Rin Alam Kong bakit nag crack at nabasag Yun at the first place, it just happened. but the person who's holding me made sure we aren't harmed, and as expected Wala na akong nakitang cloudine... She left already
"That's enough briar" the person said, agad Naman akong napatingala duon and I'm greeted by mathew who's looking so worried and a little bit confused
"Mathew..." Mahinang bulong ko, binigyan nya Lang Naman ako Ng maliit na ngiti, Hindi ko na Naman mapigilang maiyak lalo
She didn't say goodbye... It makes me feel more down, Parang nawalan ako Ng dalawang Tao na mahalaga sa buhay ko
I know cloudine is just part of my illness, but nasanay na akong anjan sya, I already accepted her to my life kahit Alam Kong pangsamantala Lang sya, pero Ang hirap pala talaga nyang I let go despite of everything
She cause me a lot of trouble but sya Ang kaiisa isang taong nalalapitan ko agad when I needed her, she already became my strength the day na naging magkaayos kami...
She help me a lot when I'm on my dark days and always to the rescue pag Alam nyang I'm in Danger...
she's a part of me already and losing her when we just starting to get used to each other is a different story...
Iba pa Yung dala nyang sakit kesa Kay lyde, but I know I can't blame her, the world can be cruel sometimes... Leaving us but helplessly in pain
"Shhh it's ok bri... Let's go" marahang Sabi nya, then inalalayan nya akong bumalik sa bed ko, ngayun ko Lang Naman napansin na andto sa loob sila zack, Ezra at claire...
Si Zack Ang unang lumapit sa akin, to assist me And Mathew Kaya maayos akong nakahiga ulit sa Kama ko, Ezra and claire came after but I just glance at them and say nothing
I don't want to talk about everything... I need a space...
"Ano na Ang lagay nya? Bakit sya tumakbo papunta sa cr kanina?" I heard them talking but Hindi ko sila nilingon dahil nakatulala Lang ako sa kawalan
"She's already fine, she's just shockingly stress because her emotions are taking over and need Ng maraming pahinga"
"Maybe it's better Kong iuwi na natin sya... Hindi sya ayos dto"
"Well that's fine... But I think it's not the right time for her to face Death... Death is a little mess..."
"That's ok, I'll keep an eye to the both of them"
Pag uusap pa nila not that much ay tumahimik na Ang paligid at Hindi ko na namalayang asa harap ko na si Ezra at tanging kaming dalawa nalang Ang naandito
"Briar..." Mahinang tawag nya sa pangalan ko I just Blink then I saw her crying already
"I miss you... We miss you. mag pagaling ka agad everyone is worried about you, and please do hold on and fight a little longer... Matatapos din to" she explained, marahan nyang hinawakan Ang mukha ko and feel my heat, nakatingin Lang Naman ako sa kanya
I don't know how to respond at all, I'm just spacing out in front of her, Hindi Rin kase gumagana Ng maayos Ang utak ko
I felt something is missing... But I can't say what... Or who it is... I just feel so incomplete, at Hindi ko talaga Alam kung gawa iyun Kay Cloudine dahil sa pag alis nya or because I lose lyde, or maybe there's something more behind it... And it's just making my situation worst
I'm feeling so emotionally empty and physical tired dahil sa mga nangyayari. Basta Hindi ko na maintindihan Ang sarili ko
"Are you hungry or anything? Gusto mo ba kumain?" Ezra ask, I can see that she's so worried but still giving some warm smiles, Wala narin Ang mga luha nya but I can still say na umiyak sya, and since I don't know what to say ay tumango nalang ako which make her smile again
"Ok, I'll get you a soup since Yun palang Ang pwede mong kainin for the mean time" she said then iniwan na ako, Hindi Naman nag tagal at bumalik din sya with my food, she help me eat so I just let her be, I don't really talk to say something, I'm just keeping my mouth shut
Besides from that Wala pa ako sa normal state ko, I'm still confused and very weary... I feel nothing but numbness and pure pain...
Nang matapos na akong kumain ay agad narin syang nag ligpit then pinainum ako Ng gamot which is agad ko ring ininum without any hesitations and questions
I'm secretly hoping kase na Sana after nun ay tuluyan na akong makatulog Ng matagal, yes... I just wanted to run from my mess
Ang duwag ko ba? Well I don't really care, after everything that happened to me ? Sa tingin nyo ba Wala akong karapatan na makaramdam Ng ganito? Sa tingin ko Naman I have the rights diba?
Tao Lang ako, napapagod din.... But then siguro karma ko to, I seek for revenge carelessly and now Ito Ang outcome which is I need to endure for a while...
It proves that I'm really weak, but that's how I view justice and I'm not ganna regret that part.
I sighed. Then marahang umiling at mariing ipinikit Ang mga Mata ko, meron na namang sumasakit sa lalamunan ko but I know I need to stop crying at ginagawa ko talaga Ang lahat para Lang wag umiyak ulit
I felt someone hold my hands Kaya agad akong napamulat at napatingin duon and it's just ezra, Hindi sya umalis...
"Gusto mo bang pag usapan? Hindi magandang kinikimkim mo Yan... We're always here for you briar and I hope that your pretty aware of that... Losing someone is tough to deal with but that doesn't mean it's Impossible, we lose someone cause they will be replaced by the new once as the time goes by. But of course Hindi sila totally talagang mare-replace dahil they will never be them, but at least there's a new start to begin with. Old memories is worth keeping but making new once will always be the best. What I'm saying Lang is marami pang umaasa sayo... Sabihin na nating may nawala but at least the bond grew stronger for the mistake stop from Happening again... We make mistakes to learn from them and not to be imprisoned within them..." She sincerely explained sharing her point of view
I just stared at her slightly. gusto kong intindihin Ang mga sinabi nya cause she's right, but the bitterness always clung in the way for me to not accept it...
I just can't for now... Sarado pa Ang isip ko but I do appreciate her...
"It's ok if your not ready yet, don't pressure yourself and take your time, marami pang taon for us to discuss it, just don't over think everything" she said after a moment Ng Wala akong naging respond, I just nod at her then pumikit na ulit
"Rest well briar...." I heard her whisper then i felt that she kisses me at my forehead and it calms me a bit before totally drifting off to sleep
But that time, i know that I need to fight a little longer...
I still can't give up that easily after all.
So me.
MATHEW'S POV
(AT THE MANSION)
"Where is he?" I ask the maid Ng Makarating kami sa mansion, after Na magising si briar kahapon only to find lyde ay agad din syang nawalan Ng Malay, And since then Death become uncontrollable dahil sa galit nito
And now Kagagaling Lang namin sa hospital and thankfully ay nagising na ulit si Briar, (nag karoon Lang Ng kaunting struggle's but she's already fine as Zack said) but Hindi pa kami nakakatagal sa hospital ng tawagan ako ni Jazlyn because nag wawala nanaman si daw si death
Zack wanted to come home with me but I said na it's better to distance himself from Death first because their still not in the good term at baka mas lalo Lang na magwala si death
he wanted to argue with me at first dahil sa sinabi ko na yun but Wala Rin syang nagawa dahil he has a work to deal with, naiwan Naman si Ezra sa hospital para bantayan si Briar
"Asa room nya po sir, pero sinisira nya po lahat Ng gamit na nakikita nya tulad Ng kahapon" sagot Ng katulong sa akin at bakas Ang takot sa Mata nya, agad ko namang inakyat ang room ni death at naabutan ko si Jazlyn sa harap Ng pinto nun at mukhang balisa din
"Jazlyn" tawag ko, to catch her attention, agad Naman itong napaharap sa akin and mukhang relief Ito Ng Makita ako
"Mathew, his becoming Worst, Wala syang kinikilalang tao, sira na Ang gamit sa loob at baka masaktan na nya ang sarili nya pag Hindi sya kumalma" she explained, rinig ko Naman Ang mga kalampog sa loob
"asan Ang mga Bata?" Tanong ko pabalik instead on answering, it's better na malayo Muna sila Kay death para Hindi sila matakot dto
"Parehas silang asa room ni Zefrianna kasama Ang mga maid, Zefrianna is crying dahil sinigawan Ito ni death kanina, Hindi ko din Alam Kong paano nakapunta dto si Zefrianna, but til now she's still crying" she informs me, Hindi ko Naman maiwasang makaramdam Ng awa Kay Zefrianna but feeling annoyed with death at the same time
His becoming a pain in the ass! pati Bata pinatulan! Tsk! tsk! He needed to talk to my fist para mahimasmasan sya
"I'll talk to him... Puntahan mo na muna Ang mga Bata Jazlyn" I seriously said
"Ok, mag ingat ka" she responded, marahan Lang Naman akong tumango duon then humugot nang malalim na hininga
Time to face Death...
I slowly open the door then walks in with the same pace, agad namang bumungad sa akin ang magulong silid, I don't even recognize it as a room
The bed is a mess, all the stuffs in here was lying in the floor piece by piece, totally broken to almost ash, all the cabinets and walk in closet are destroyed like it has been smashed by something really hard, and just looking at the door of the bathroom ay Alam ko nang ganun din Ang situation nuon sa loob, I won't be surprised kung pati Ang bathtub and sink are broken
Death is totally so unhuman, tingin mo palang sa room na to ay Parang Hindi Tao ang may gawa... And thinking na iisang Tao Lang Ang may gawa nito with the very bare hands make me shiver
I mean! What the fuck? The place was almost crashed na Parang dinaanan Ng bagyo, how can he even do that? Despite that he hasn't been eating for almost days! and yet he still have such a strength to tear the whole room down
Totally unhuman.
I'm just a little glad na he hasn't try going to the veranda and jump out to kill his-self tsk! Tsk! What a mess
Marahan akong pumasok Ng tuluyan sa loob And making some careful steps dahil nakakalat lahat ang mga basag na bubug
inilibot ko Ang paningin ko pero Hindi ko sya makita, the place is quite Hindi tulad kanina and I'm so aware na something is coming. I'm in the Lions den, and danger is pretty much I'm finding
Nag lakad lakad pa ako but I ended up flying in the nearest wall dahil may biglang tumama sa akin that makes me to do so
"Damn!" I groaned in plain, then sinamaan Ng tingin si death na may gawa nun na masama din Ang tingin sa akin
And let me tell you, if the room is a mess, then his messier, ngayun ko Lang Hindi na-approciate Ang itsura nya, I mean he grew older with in just days, having those eye bags and messy hair habang nakakunot pa Ang nuo na Parang permanent na
His totally not getting any girls from that appearance, what a pain...
"The fuck Death?" I hissed, he just growls back at me
"What are you doing here Calvente? You really wanted to die huh?" He threatened midstopping from his sentence while giving me some of his signature deathglares which can make you numb in instant
But I'm not buying that one today, it won't work for me and so for a while, especially now
" I'm warning you... Don't mess with me and mind your own business! Now leave! before I crashed you the way I did in everything that's on the floor" he continued and eyed me sharply, Hindi ko Naman sya Pinansin at mabilis syang kinuwelhuyan
"Your saying don't mess with you and yet here you are messing with everything? Ano sa tingin mo Ang mararamdaman ko? Of course I pretty feel obligated to stop you before you tear the whole place down and ended up hurting someone! Now tell me? Why I wouldn't I mess with you? When I really need too?!" Shouted to his face, and as expected agad na dumapo Ang kamao nya sa mukha ko, punching me really hard but I didn't back down at agad Rin akong gumanti
My punch make him stumbled a little but doesn't do much, mas naging galit Naman Ang aura nito, and in just a blink ay tumalsik nanaman ako sa pader na pinag bungguan ko kanina
Damn...
"Don't fucking try me Mathew! And no your fucking place!, I can make you bleed if I fucking lose my patience! and don't wait for it cause I'm telling you! You won't be getting better if I did!" he blankly responded while gritting his teeth, his knuckles are whiter than it's usual color too, sign that his really Angry
I just groaned as I touch my left shoulder that hits the wall two times already by now, totally ignoring his shits
Shit...! Something is definitely bleeding...
I think I just broke my shoulder, damn it!
"Are you really ganna kill me over that jealousy of yours death? What is wrong with you?" I said as a matter of fact but I did glared him back feeling little impatient dahil his already getting in my nerves because of his stupidity
He need to end this drama!. And so I did the only thing that came it to my mind that caught him unguard.
I kick him hard almost hitting his balls, but of course i did made sure he wouldn't be harmed more than falling in the floor that earned him a big tad and painful landing, his even lucky dahil Walang mga basag na bubug sa binagsakan nya.
Restraining him is the best way to tower him down without any further damage in my side as I already have.
"Fuck! Damn you Mathew!" He winches but more on scream already
"Huh! That is for shouting at Zefrianna! And for breaking my shoulder! You moron!" I mockingly growls back then punch him after
I'm quite not satisfied on just kicking him since his being more than just a jerk.
"And that is for being a jerk and stupidly jackass!" I continued as I give him another punch to his jaw. Making him near to his black out state but I won't let him black out that soon
"Common! Give me a little fun will you! Yan Lang ba Kaya mo? You aren't ISAAC DEATH XYONTENIER for nothing right? Tumayo ka Jan and fight me more! damn it!" Inis na sigaw ko pa sa kanya
His groaning in pain already but no! he needs some more para bumalik ang katinuan nya, and I'm pretty much thrilled to straighten him up
He can't stay like this forever, I mean i understand why his angry, sa dami dami pa kaseng tao na pwedeng hanapin ni briar Ng magising sya ay si Funel pa talaga!? That is so fucked up!
But then, death is already crossing his line! His way over reacting to it, his so jealous over a dead person who's probably burning in hell by now
I mean again what the heck is that? The guy is already dead for goodness sake! How can he be jealous that much? Knowing na Wala na Yung tao, wala nang chance na magkita pa ulit si briar at Funel for him to be that jealous
His letting his anger and jealousy to eat him again and Ang masama pa dun ay sinigawan pa nya si Zefrianna! The poor girl will totally be having nightmare because of that
"Stand up death! Stand up!" I said grabbing him to his collar bringing him to his fit
"Look at you, your a pretty big mess! You even dare shouted at Zefrianna! The poor girl will totally hate you! Do you know that!? What is happening with you death? Your driving people away just because of your jealousy thing over a dead person? Your insane!" I said gritting my teeth as I accuse him
"He is not just a fucking dead person! His the same person who tortured Vhrandish! And if I can just kill him again I'll make sure he'll suffer more than on what he deserve! That fucker!" He argued back, but didn't try to get off me
" So that's it? Where talking about Vhrandish again? I thought your fucking over her?" I Mockingly ask with the hint of annoyance glimmering in my sentence but confused at the same time
This guy is having a moving on issues.
"I am over her!" He hissed
"Oh don't just say it! Damn you! Act like one!" I hissed back then marahas syang tinulak Kaya napaupo nanaman Ito sa sahig, his fist balled out but I won't give a damn for a while
"Funel is dead so stop this nonsense of yours, all of us don't know why Briar called him, and what ever her reason is you must understand, you don't have the right to be angry at her, your the one who push her away in the very first place so you pretty much have nothing to do with it!. I am just reminding you that since you keep on forgetting it." I blankly explained but full of venom
"don't fool around death cause I'm telling you I can send you to your feet back In the very cruel way, you need to fix your moving on issues!, the dead once are out of it! and so do you! Don't involve them in every problem your facing because their already gone! And who knows if their already burning In hell!. Don't act like a hard headed child who needed to be scolded everyday and straightened up, You where born to be a leader so better keep being like one and not like this fucking mess, everyone is depending on you so you better move your ass off Kung ayaw mong sipain Kita palabas Ng veranda to make your senses back!" I continue Talking, scolding him hard with the reality, He didn't respond and I just sighed because of that, calming myself a bit since Parang nahi-high blood na ako sa kanya
This is so frustrating, my handsomeness is freaking out and my shoulder is definitely need a fixing dahil kanina pa sya sumasakit
"I wanted you to fix yourself until tomorrow because briar will be here by that time, and yes I am demanding you to do so, and I will keep demanding until you get yourself back, I'll be checking you later and I swear na kapag Hindi ka nag intindi Ng sarili mo pauuwiin Kita sa Chicago" I said, threatening him as much as I can master, then tumalikod na leaving him there behind groaning
That might do for a while, he need to realize his mistakes, but if he still try sticking on being stupid, I'll not stop myself from beating him up again.
After kong makalabas sa room nya ay agad Kong kinapa ang balikat ko at medyo inikot yuon
"Tsk! Definitely broken! Great" I sighed tiredly, then after a moment ay Agad na Rin akong nag punta sa room nila Zefrianna dahil Jazlyn said na andun Ang mga ito,
I knocked at the door 3 times, letting them know that I'm here before totally entering. agad namang lumapit sa akin si Jazlyn Ng Makita ako
She examinid me first for a sec then her expression turns into a worried look after, mukhang pumasa na Ang suntok ni Death Kaya ganun nalang Ang reaction nya
"Anong nangyari sayo? Ayos ka Lang ba? Do I need to call a doctor for you?" She ask as she guide me to sit in the near sofa, marahan lang Naman akong umiling telling her that I'm just fine
"Yes I'm fine, don't worry, mas marami Ang suntok ko sa kanya but only enough for him understand that his over reacting. He might be fine tommorow" I calmly explained, closing my eyes slightly
"Hindi ka Kaya nya patayin dahil sa ginawa mo pag naging ayos na sya??" I heard She ask
"No, at least not yet" nag kibit balikat na sagot ko, not caring at all
"How are the girls anyway??" I questioned then marahang nag mulat at sinulyapan Yung dalawang bata na ngayun ay nasa Kama
"Their already fine, tumigil din si Zefrianna kanina and they both fall a sleep not that much longer" she answered as she glance at them too
I just nod dahil nakaramdam narin ako Ng pagod, and I know I'll needing a lot of rest dahil mas gugulo bukas pag naandto na si briar
Wala nang katapusang problema! Mga choosey kase! Tsk! Immatures!
"Your tired, you need to rest already, let's go" puna ni Jazlyn Hindi na Naman ako umangal pa at tumayo na, nag pahigit nalang Naman ako palabas hanggang sa Makarating kami sa room na tinutuluyan namin
She fixes the bed before leading me to it, she takes my suit off leaving me Only with my polo, she always does that to me, but don't get me wrong, nakasanayan na nya Yun dahil Yun Ang trabaho nya dati, After kong mahiga sa Kama ay binaba nya Ang kurtina para Hindi mag see through and liwanag that can be really disturbing since Hindi pa Naman kase Gabi, it's just around afternoon
"I'll be leaving you now, just call me pag may Kailanga--"
"No, stay here with me" I tiredly Interrupts her, topping the space besides me, she flinch because of my sudden action but didn't Ask at sumunod na Lang, Agad ko Naman syang niyapos Ng makahiga na sya and she just flinch again that makes me chuckled slightly
"Stop flinching, I just need cuddles" I tiredly whisper while closing my eyes, readying it for tommorow cause I know tomorrow is going to be more tiring.
---NEXT DAY---
(AT THE HOSPITAL)
BRIAR'S POV
"Are you feeling fine? Wala bang masakit sayo? Just tell me if you feel something para bukas na Lang Kita umuwi Kung Hindi mo pa Kaya ngayun" marahang tanong sa akin ni Ezra
Yes, nakatulog akong anjan sya and I wake up na, anjan din sya. Sya lagi Ang bantay ko, madalang ding pumunta dito si Zack dahil Ibang doctor na Ang nag che-check sa akin
I have no problem on the set up but still, it confused me... There's something wrong with them at kahapon ko pa Yun nararamdaman Hindi ko Lang pinansin since I have my drama going first
I'm more on calm today but not totally na ayos, my head is still pawning... I feel exhausted and slightly weak at the same time, the soup I always eat doesn't give that much strength
But yes there's a problem going on them, their all tense at merong kakaibang aura Ang nanatili sa ere pag sama sama sila, it's like na I missed something very important that I shouldn't really have, and besides from that I have this another feeling na dahil Yun sa akin...
I don't know... I just view it that way...
And last, that confused me most is that claire being around and nice or let just say shyly around me... Don't get me wrong here, I'm happy and glad that she's already awake and being nice to me, it's just that na nakakapanibago...
May nangyari talaga... That's the fact. I know I shouldn't be worrying about it but in some reason I feel so obligated to worry
But on the other side I'm glad to meet Jazlyn again, and of course her daughter, Vivory, which use to be Mathew's daughter too, its so surprising, yes, and I'm really happy for them. I'll just ask mathew in some other time the whole story behind them, when everything is fix and calm. But now I have a lot of works to straighten up, and mess to clean with...
*Sighed...
"I'm good... Let's go home" I chirp at respond to Ezra, it just earned her a smile, I won't blame her though, ngayun Lang ako Ng respond sa kanya with words
I mean ngayun Lang ako Ng karoon Ng lakas Ng loob na sumagot, there's still some part of me na tumahimik nalang but I know to myself na Hindi pwedeng ganito nalang ako palagi
Ezra is right, I need to accept everything and move forward. Walang mangyayari sa akin Kung mag mumukmuk nalang ako lagi, blaming myself. And I'm really trying my best not to blame myself more as I'm over viewing everything that's happening so far...
"Hmmm... Let's go home... Their all waiting for you" Ezra said smiling at me warmly, binigyan ko Lang Naman sya Ng maliit na ngiti na nakaya Kong gawin
And so Tinulungan nya akong makasakay sa isang wheelchair kahit ayaw ko since I still can't walk that much, baka bumuka mga tahi ko, after that ay tuluyan na kaming lumabas but agad ring natigil ng bumungad sa amin si claire, gulat din Ito Ng Makita kami but smile awkwardly Ng makabawi
"Ahmm err... Paalis na Kayo?" Nahihiyang tanong nya, I just observe her, Hindi Rin sya makatingin sa akin Ng deretso Kaya pasulyap sulyap Lang sya sa akin
"Yes dear, perhaps you can walk us down Kung Wala kang gagawin, ayos ka na Rin ba? " Si Ezra Ang sumagot
"Oh it's ok, I'm already good and going to be discharged tommorow, and yes it's my pleasure to walk you two down" she answered, then sumulyap ulit sa akin, tinanguan ko Lang Naman sya telling na I appreciate it so she just gave me an awkward smile again, but it wasn't fake like she used to do Ng Hindi pa kami ayos
Well I just think...
We walked down in silent and sometimes Ezra and claire talks some random stuffs as we pass some room, nakikinig Lang Naman ako sa kanila, may mga nurses at doctors Naman Ang nakakilala sa akin and so they greeted me while others are just scheming something with their selves while looking at me.. well uhmm let's just say inappropriate, since me and claire are together
Hayss mga tao ngayun...
Nabalik ako sa reyalidad Ng maramdaman Kong tumigil kami, agad Naman akong napatingala since may Tao sa harap Naman which is Zack
He glanced at me giving me a small smile which is I gave back then his attention went on Ezra, not even looking at claire na ngayun ay nakatungo... Naningkit Lang ako dahil dun.
"Going home already. mag Ingat kayo sa byahe, the car is already outside" Zack inform us
"hmm will do, make sure to eat your lunch and dinner if your coming home late" Ezra responded then give him a peck kiss on his cheeks
I'm surprised, nakalimutan Kong mag asawa nga pala sila, I'm glad their already good...
With that thought ay agad na nabaling Ang tingin ko Kay claire na nakatungo parin but I can read through her... She's jealous... But she know she can do nothing about it... I feel sad for her but I do hope na makahanap na sya Ng iba para Hindi na sya masaktan, Zach is just not for her.
"Ok we'll get going" I heard Ezra said Kaya tuluyan nang nawala sa paningin namin si zack
D Naman nag tagal ay narating na namin Ang pinaka ground floor but may naalalala ako Kaya tumigil ulit kami
"May nalimutan ka ba? Bri? Or may masakit ba sayo?" Alalang tanong agad ni Ezra as expected pero marahan Lang akong umiling then nag buntong hininga
"I... Where's... L-lyde?" Tanong ko, it supposed to be 'I wanted to see Lyde' but I don't know Kung bakit Yun Ang lumalabas sa bibig ko
I just wanted to say good bye properly to him... Since I didn't have the chance to do so back then.
Natigilan Ang dalawa sa tanong ko nayun at nag katinginan pa not sure kung sasabihin ba sa akin or ano about lyde, Ang Alam nila ay Hindi ko pa Alam na Wala na sya Kaya ganun nalang Ang reaction nila
"Briar... His a-ahmm..."
"It's ok, I know his gone already... I just wanted to see his tomb or body at least, to say goodbye properly... " Mahinang Sabi ko informing them feeling a pain In my throat already, but I stop myself to go further and cry. mas na shock Naman sila sa sinabi ko nayun but Hindi na nag tanong pa
"O-ok... We'll be dropping off to the cemetery later... To visit him..." marahang Sabi ni Ezra still unsure while claire just nod
"Mag ingat Kayo" marahang Sabi ni claire Ng makasakay na kami sa car, waving her hands at us, sumulyap sya sakin and I gave her a smile which she's kinda surprised to see either, but ngumiti rin after, then we already went of
Parang nabawasan Yung bigat sa dibdib ko knowing na ok na kami, the last time na umalis ako ay galit sya and it makes me smile na Ngayung pag alis ko ay ayos na kami...
It's great to be glad after a lot of drama...
We ride on silent, and as Ezra said ay dumaan kami sa cemetery, and there, I feel like crying again just seeing this place...
"You'll be fine let's go" Ezra said encouraging me, then squeeze my hands, tuluyan na Naman kaming bumaba at pumunta sa lugar Kung asan Yung Kay lyde which is na nilakad namin Ng ilang minutes
Hindi Naman nag tagal at narating na namin Yun, I can't help but to cry silently again, inalalayan Naman ako ni Ezra na makaupo and she just stood up besides me
"Hey lyde...m-miss me?... I'm sorry ngayun Lang a-ako" I said, already stammering since nahihirapan na akong nagsalita dahil sa pag iyak ko
just reading his name breaks me again... Mas masakit Yung ganito na harap harapan na talagang Alam mong Wala na sya... I miss him being around and it makes me sad knowing na his already gone from this world...
"Ayos ka ba?... I won't r-really stay long and I'm sorry about that too... I still n-need to fix some stuff that's left and I w-wanted to thank you for e-everything that you made for me so f-far... I really do a-appreciate it... I hope na ayos ka Kung asan k-ka man, pero and d-daya mo iniwan mo agad kami n-ni cloudine!" I said, laughing a bit as I wipe my tears away
This is crazy I know, but this is the least thing I can do, and a first step To move on...
" Haha... Lagot ka Kay c-cloudine... Iniwan mo na sya agad, m-malamang she'll ganna hit you so hard pag nakita ka n-nya... but yeah I'm good as y-you can see..., y-you made sure of it anyway... B-before you totally left..." I continue, already crying with my heart out... silently...
"Hmmm... This is the part where I say goodbye, I'm sorry I couldn't say too much, nahihiya na kase ako sayo, but really thank you for everything... Thanks for loving cloudine and Making her happy, I just hope she's still coping up somewhere and Same to you... and I'm sorry for ruining you both but do know I always Care about you, your a good friend to have... I have nothing to be ashamed having you... Goodbye lyde..." I whisper still having a hard time to let go but I know I have to...
Marahan akong inalalayan ni Ezra na tumayo and I stand there for a moment... I close my eyes then enjoyed the peacefulness of the place as I smile with it...
It ends here...
"Let's go home for real Ezra...." Mahinang Sabi ko sa kanya, nginitian Naman ako nito
"I'm sure his happy, your a very brave girl" she said, caring my cheeks then wipe some dried tears there, tumango Naman ako dun and so we went off already
The ride went silent again but I can feel she's slightly kissing my hair like a big sister will do if ever her younger sister is having a bad day and I just let her be since it calms me and make me in peace...
Ezra is definitely a kind person...
After some half of an hour ay narating na namin Ang mansion so the car full over already, kalma na ulit ako and I start to feel nervous in some reason
"You ok?" Ezra ask then tinulungan akong makababa Marahan Naman akong tumango, she just smiled
"They will be happy to see you... Let's go" she said, giving me a very resurrance smile then already lead me to the main door
She knocks at the door 3 times then give a smile to me again, not that much long ay dahan dahang bumukas Yung pinto at medyo nagulat pa ako Ng Makita ko Ang lahat dun
"Welcome home!!" Sabay sabay na sigaw nila, mapamaid man o other stuffs kasama sila mathew, and of course Zefrianna who's smiling too, may comfeti pa nga
My heart leap at that moment at Parang gusto ko nanaman maiyak but this time ay dahil sa saya... I miss them all...
"Mommy bri!!" Sigaw agad ni zef then runs towards me Kaya bumababa ako to hug her back, lumapit Naman Ang iba after that at kinamusta ako and welcoming me back
"Thank you... Thank you this make me very happy, I'm glad na I'm home and back" I said at medyo naluha na...
" Then our gift will definitely make you happy more" mathew said smiling at me, marahan ko namang pinahid Ang mga luha ko
" May regalo pa Kayo sa akin?" I Ask feeling so very much Happy just hearing it
" Yes... And there he is... " Mathew smilingly said then Parang may tiningnan sa may likod ko
"He?" I confusingly ask, Kaya agad akong umikot para tingnan Ang tinitingnan nya, Dahan dahan namang bumuag Ang mga taong nakaharang sa daan at parang nag slow motion when I saw Death walking towards me, at may hawak itong bungkos Ng mga bulaklak
I felt my heart going wild and beating so fast just seeing him...
H-his awake!
Our gaze met and I was able to see his deep but beautiful green eyes shinning with in me...
"Death..." I breath out.
"Welcome home Briar"
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