It was a common thing to see the saintess wondering around the Imperial palace rather than the temple, having her life raised inside the palace, it was a common thing to see you walking around the imperial garden, the bottom of your white dress meeting the ground as you walk barefoot on the garden.
"Saintess (First name) I don't think it's a good idea to walk barefoot inside the imperial palace, please wear your shoes"
"Is that so?"
You lit your head, wondering what's wrong walking barefoot when you like the feeling of the grass on your bare feet
It was something you have always done in the past, so it was a common thing for you to do so, but ever since you're officially declared as a saintess six years ago, having Claude crowned five years ago, the church and temple went a little, just a tittle strict than they were before.
"Yes Saintess-nim"
"If you say so"
You said with a small smile
He then end up handing you your shoes in which he was carrying not so long ago, wanting to out it on you but you refuse to, in the end he let you lean against him as you put on your shoes one by one.
"Oh! Saintess-nim!"
"How many times do I have to tell you to just call me (First name), Felix?"
You smile at the red hair as he greeted you, perhaps too making a stroll in the beautiful garden
"Oh, where is Your Highness?"
You asked, as the sun slowly went down, causing silhouettes to form as the darkness of the night started to emerge. It was quit late for a stroll in the garden, but this was your favorite hour, watching the sunset.
"About that.."
You watch him sweatdrop as he rub the back if his head
You watch him, blinking innocently as you wait for your reply.
It's been a few years ever since his coronation, you always stayed by his side ever since, providing his needs and order while making sure to do your job as a saintess properly. Watching him become a colder man as he is, watching him slowly grew in the dark.
You wonder what went wrong, perhaps it was his traumas , trauma that not even you can heal even after having to stay by his side for so long, making sure to check on him time by time. Even when you watch him get flocked by many pretty girl and having to wake him up the next day with those girls by his side.
Even though, you wonder if that was relief you're feeling whenever you him having no interest in those pretty girls.
"He's at the imperial banquet"
"No wonder it's quite noisy inside"
You said with a sigh
You tend to avoid noisy places, you don't really mind but when it gets too noisy and crowded your head would always start to pound like crazy as if removing you from your peaceful and relaxing thinking. With all sorts of voices suddenly filling inside your head when you do.
"Then what are doing here Sir Felix?"
You once again lit your head to the side, wondering why his aide was outside when he should be protecting his Emperor inside
"I was ordered to guide the Saintess inside by Your Highness"
"Oh"
Your eyes slightly widen
Looking at the bright palace of the imperial palace now that the sun has completely gone down, your head starts to ache just imagining every sort of people inside.
"Then let's make it quick shall we?"
You smile at him
"Will you be alright Saintess-nim?"
"Yes, I'll only be peaking inside, I plan to greet Your Highness tomorrow right after the banquet"
"Will that be alright?"
He asked as both of you followed the red hair knight, in return you just smile at him and clasp your hands together as you started to enter the hall
It was quiet, not totally quiet, only the sound of the music was playing. Looking around, everyone seems to be mesmerized by something that it was enough to shut them up.
Following their glaze, your eyes fell on the certain female dancer in the middle of the banquet. You don't seem to mind, having her back turned at you, you could not see het face, just her beautiful curly blonde hair that was covered in a pink vail.
But what you saw next made you feel sick to your stomach.
Looking at the man you always admire from the distant. The thought of you wondering if there was still a hope that he could recover from all those bad memories.
The way he looks at her. You already know you're not the one to fill that role, but having that slapped right into your face.
"Saintess-nim are you alright?"
It was Felix how hold you by your arm, worried by your suddenly pale face
You don't know how to reply, you felt like throwing up. In the midst of confusion, someone pull you towards him.
"I'm sorry Sir Felix, but could you greet the emperor on your behalf? It seems like Saintess-nim isn't feeling well. We'll also be going back into the temple"
Having your own magic knight right beside you, he quickly swept you off your feet
"Then I'll send you the--"
"No it's fine Sir. You should stay here, It's my duty as her knight to protect her.I'm pretty sure you know that too"
Just like that your knight took you away, your head leaning on his chest he took you somewhere else.
"Idiot"
You hear him mumble
With a heavy heart, all you could say while clinging on his neck trying your best to told back your tears was,
"Sorry"
This is your dress
While this is your knight